[Wen Ye] Dazai so you cry too

The process of flowers blooming and fading reminds us that we will leave like this sooner or later.

I'm used to seeing these things. I know too many things at an age when I shouldn't know about life and death.Even if you die in front of my eyes, I will still look at you with a smile.

When people leave, nothing remains.There are no gods in this world, even if gods do exist, they would not love such people.We should live happily every day and turn all the pain into the most useless smile.

My father died, dying like a withered flower to protect me.

If I could escape at that time, I should have planted Dendrobium orchids next to the piece of mint.

Is this our destiny?Nobody pays for what they already get.Only when death comes, will we know our true emotions and feelings.I always thought it was a useless flower language, but at that moment it became the only thing we can make up for.

The supernatural beings brought people into the newly built building for various reasons, and no one came back after entering.My father seemed to know something, and he locked me in the house.Except for delivering meals to me every day, he disappears.

There were loud noises outside the door that day, and no one dared to be so rude at the door of my house.

The door of my room was opened, and someone stepped on my father's body.

My father lay on the ground, staring straight at me, like the last gasp of a dying fish.The blood on his body flowed slowly, and soon soaked the ground at the door.If the mother still existed, she would squat on the ground in the most submissive posture, patiently wiping the waste.

The man rubbed the soles of his shoes on my father before stepping into my room.

I saw the word out of my father's mouth, "escape".

I'm sorry, father.This is the first time I have disobeyed your word.Where can I escape to?No matter how vast the outside world is, there is no room for me.

Besides, how unseemly it is to escape, it should be said to run, run.

I turned the window and ran on the sunny street. This was my freest run.Now I am only myself, I have no one to tie me down.Then I was pinned to the ground and taken back to the building.

I was there again and saw Aji again.

"You are too unlucky to meet me again." Among the group of children, he was the only one smiling.

look!His smile is so pretty, just like the white camellia I gave him.

By the way, the white camellia I gave him should also be thrown away, right?After all, flowers that leave the soil are fleeting.

"Did you find that thing?"

"I found it." After he finished speaking, he still stared at me.I didn't know how to respond, so I just smiled at him.

"If you don't escape this time, break up!"

I said this sentence, my father died, I have nothing to rely on.Can I still protect him like this?impossible.Can he protect me?impossible.

So whether we escaped or not, we are going to break up.It's the best thing for each other, and that's the end of our fledgling friendship.

We are running again now, and the gate is ahead.Just go out and see the sun!

At this moment, a group of fully armed people who looked like the villains in the storybook came here.

We spread out and took cover where we could.It's like hide and seek, you have to be smart and cooperative. .

A child stood in the middle of the corridor, his eyes were full of helplessness and loss.He began to cry regardless of everything, and the group of people heard the news and rushed to surround him.

He looked at the group and yelled, "There are others, there are others."

fool!Do you think this will make them let you go?Or do you think this will ease the pain of being caught?

One by one the children were found, all identified by each other's companions.

It's so sad that there are no heroes at this time?Man is a selfish animal.If you fall into the abyss, you must hold someone's hand.

The man in the white coat who looked like a doctor came to me and asked in a gentle voice.

"Are there any children playing hide-and-seek here? It would be too lonely for you to stay here."

For a split second, I could almost feel my life expanding, like a river swelling.Because I have never taken such extreme measures to change the trajectory of other people's lives.

"No." I raised my head to look at the man's eyes hidden behind the lens, the hypocrisy made me sick.

He went to ask the other children, and I made a lip-synch to the little deer hiding in the shadows.

"run"

After I was taken away, he should be running in the sun.

Run, run out of this sky.I don't want your back, and I don't want your back.Everyone is their own, just be yourself.

There I saw many treasures soaked in jars, and I also saw a man who looked like a god.

He closed his eyes silently, his blond hair spread out to cover his fair skin.

This must be the most beautiful jewel of the building, why put it here so ostentatiously.If it were me, I would hide somewhere no one would know but me.

I saw it opened its eyes, which were a pair of red eyes no less than Azhi's eyes.At that moment, it became him.When I look back, it becomes it again,

My whole body was imprisoned on the table, and I felt the electric current from the patch on my body.The lights were too strong, I felt the scorching heat, and my eyes were irritated to tears involuntarily.

Do I look like one of those piggies who offended our house, offended my mother, and got slaughtered by my father?

"you……"

what?

"you……"

A faint voice has been calling me, he seems to be calling my name.

"Yui Kurosawa..."

"Yui Kurosawa, what is your wish?"

My wish is... world peace.Sorry for the joke.

I remember saying at that time, "Let Aji know the meaning of life".

I know that the only kid who can escape is Aji.He will definitely escape from my world, this scorched land where countless weak people gather.

I know very well that common birds seldom give birth to swans.And being a swan is like a piece of white cloth, which is constantly rendered and colored.So those who are gifted and intelligent must carve a way for themselves in this dark world.

Aji is smarter than any of us, so run fast.

From then on, I put my faith in you. I am a weak person, and I must grasp that ethereal thing.

Every life has meaning, just like every flower is endowed with flower language.Only by living can we know why people live.If you don't understand this truth, don't try to return to darkness.

Aji, this is my wish, and it has also become my curse.I still violated my beliefs and became the person I hated the most.

There is nothing in this sad world that I should stop and look back at.What's even more sad is that I still don't know why I live, but I resolutely go to the darkness.

That person asked me if I wanted to live, and I said, "My heart stops, living is not living."