Zhijun Xiangu

Mother and child

Yun Qingyue actually doesn't like Chinese New Year very much. This is the most festive day of the year when the whole family is supposed to get together safely and reunite, but he doesn't have a good impression of it.

At the end of the tenth year, he was bedridden seven or eight times, and Empress Yun was beside his bed, silently praying to the Nine Heavens God and Buddha that her youngest son could get through this "death test".

Later, when he was 11 years old, he ate sand with Yunxuan in the Western Regions.

At the end of the 13th year, he prayed to the king of Hades to let his mother go before his bed.

At the end of the new year, he was running around outside Chang'an and couldn't even remember going back, looking for a little girl he couldn't protect.

At the age of 27, he was whipped by Yun Heng and lay on the bed.

At the age of 28, he finished the New Year's Eve and Spring Festival with anxiety, and he felt relieved that everything was going well. When he turned around and went to the Lantern Festival, he led people to search the whole of Chang'an and more than a dozen surrounding counties like crazy, and found it at the Lantern Festival. Ye Ya who suddenly disappeared.

Every time he always thinks that he is omnipotent and invulnerable to all poisons, God will slap him severely in time.

Every new year later, Yun Qingyue no longer had any expectations, and would either spend the holidays with her daughter in a calm mind, or go out to fight. The busy Jiang Lou asked him when he would light the safety lanterns, only to realize that the New Year was coming soon.

He couldn't help but think about how Yulin would celebrate the new year, but after thinking about it, he knew that Xianmen didn't have much feeling for these days, and he probably wouldn't do anything special, so he had to resist his desire to take advantage of The idea of ​​sneaking in when the number of people offering incense in the new year is full, silently at the border or in the palace, and put a lamp for peace on the stage.

But this year is finally different, he doesn't have to be like a fool, bring up the pen to write Deng's name, only to find that he doesn't even know Yu Lin's real name.

The person I'm thinking about is by my side, within reach, although... it's a small situation, but compared to what used to be, it can be completely ignored.

Xu Fei’s self-imagined meal chopped Yun Qingyue apart, but it didn’t affect his good mood. He bought a lot of New Year’s goods with Le Xuanying in his arms and sent them to the Yue Palace, and he couldn’t even bargain. forget.

It was Le Xuanying herself and the street vendor selling cuteness for a better price, which awakened the heart of Prince Yue to kill the Quartet.

Le Xuanying sighed maturely: "You adults are really troublesome, you have to trouble me for this kind of thing."

Sanlin silently and another follower, whispered: "Look at our lord smiling, the souls of the little girls are going to fly along the way, they look really happy."

Le Xuanying had had enough fun, the reaction of lack of sleep came last night, she lay lazily on Yun Qingyue's shoulder and began to feel sleepy, and the few of them went back to the palace.

It just so happened that the first delivery car arrived at the gate of the palace, Yun Qingyue looked at Tian Zhong who was welcoming him at the gate, and said, "Uncle Tian, ​​what's the matter?"

Tian Zhong was waiting for him on purpose: "Master, Mrs. Tingyin is here, she wants to see you."

Yun Qingyue was taken aback for a moment: "Aunt Yin?"

Tingyin is the personal maid brought by Yun Qingyue's mother, Yunru, from Zhenxi. For ten years, until Yunru passed away, she was never married.

Both Yun Qingyue and Ye Ling respect her very much, and they grew up called Aunt Yin since they were young. It doesn't matter if she wants to marry or not. The two nephews, one is the emperor and the other is the prince. It is impossible for her to be lonely and helpless for the rest of her life. Ye Ling bestowed the mansion with the title of first-rank madam. After Yun Qingyue established the mansion, Tingyin also left the palace. He wanted to take her over and treat her as an old lady, but Tingyin still refused.

What Yun Qingyue and Ye Ling didn't expect was that the girl from Zhenxi was so decisive, she found a marriage for herself in the second year after leaving the palace.The man had been widowed for a long time, he had an honest face and no flamboyance, and he could support her well without relying on Tingyin's monthly salary.

At that time, the naive Prince Yue thought and thought, but couldn't find fault with the man, so he had to "viciously" threaten the man not to treat Aunt Tingyin badly.

Then Tingyin grabbed his ears and scolded him, but the voice was clearly mixed with crying.

In recent years, my listening health has become worse and worse, and people hardly leave the house, after all, they are old.Every time Ye Ling wants to invite someone to a palace banquet, he has to think twice.

Every time it was Yun Qingyue who went to see her, but this time she came so suddenly without sending someone to inform her in advance, Yun Qingyue's heart sank for a moment.

Le Xuanying rubbed her eyes: "I'm going to sleep, don't hug me."

He knew that Yun Qingyue had important things to do, so he chose not to disturb him very sensiblely, Yun Qingyue nodded, handed him to Lvzhu, and walked to the guest room.

That person's health is already so bad that he can't even sit in the chairs in the hall, the ominous premonition is getting stronger and stronger, the wind is blowing under Yun Qingyue's feet, and no one can catch up except Tian Zhong.

Ye Ya came back from Wanyaozhai at some point, and was talking with the old lady leaning on the bed to check her pulse, amused her a lot.

Yun Qingyue watched for a while, the old man saw him in a blink of an eye, smiled and waved slowly: "Come in, what are you doing standing at the door?"

As time went by, the old Aunt Yin who could hug him and coax him to drink medicine was gone, but the facial expressions and words of the old friend were the same as before.

After years of precipitation, the old woman has accumulated a temperament that is difficult for ordinary people to reach. Even if she is sick, she is very close to her.

Yun Qingyue sat down by the bed, held the old woman's skinny hand, and said with a smile, "I stood by the door for a long time before Aunt Yin called me. I thought you just killed me because of Wang Shu."

Aunt Yin laughed again: "You child, is there anyone like you? Being jealous of your own daughter, you have never been like a father!"

How many people in this world can call His Highness King Yue "you child"?There seemed to be no one else.

Aunt Yin said to the maid she brought: "You all go down, I have something to talk to His Royal Highness the King of Yue."

Everyone in the room left, and so did Ye Ya. Before closing the door, she looked at Yun Qingyue's back with some worry, as if she wanted to say something.

But at a time like this, what's the use of saying anything...

There were only two people left in the room, Aunt Yin said: "I don't have much strength to speak, but there are some things that I have to let you know before I put them in the coffin."

Yun Qingyue shook her head: "What are you talking about, you are going to live a long life, and you still have a long time to live!"

It turns out that this kind of detested self-deception is really self-taught.

"Your Highness, I know my body. You don't have to coax me. At this age, there is nothing unacceptable." The old woman's brows and eyes suddenly became sharp, and she said without doubt, "There are some things in this world that I can tell you all about." I'm the only one who came out, although the lady told me so, but I really don't want to create a gap between you mother and child after the separation of yin and yang..."

She is still used to calling Empress Dowager Yun Miss, as if she called it that way, that girl who rode a horse and sang on the land in the west of the town back then, wearing a bright red dress and looking radiant can still come back.

Yun Qingyue's body suddenly stiffened: "My mother..."

"Your Majesty really told you," the old woman patted Yun Qingyue's hand and sighed, "Little Highness, do you hate... Your Majesty?"

Yun Qingyue smiled bitterly: "Why should I hate my mother?"

That person came to Chang'an at the price of losing her freedom and gave birth to three sons. Probably because of the guilt of losing her real second son, she was more kind to the younger son.

She had no intention of fighting in the harem, but the successive blows of one after another, still prematurely crushed this young woman who had never had a few colds in her youth, and finally died in the deep palace at the age of 43, and never returned to town in her life West.

"Mother gave me life and took care of me to grow up, but I didn't have time to repay her. She is the person I owe the most in this world." Yun Qingyue lowered her head and said, "What's more... I killed her ..."

The old woman said anxiously: "Your Highness, don't think so, if the empress finds out that you think so much about yourself, she will feel sorry for her."

"Ye Ling said that my mother always felt that she owed me. She gave birth to me, but she couldn't even give me a good body, and she couldn't protect me well. She was talking about this matter before she died, but she just refused. Let me know, for fear that I will be sad...and also that I will blame her." Yun Qingyue said softly, "But how could I, that is my mother, I really don't hate her, I just... don't know what to do face."

Ten years ago, Ye Ling told him everything and let him see the shadow's lair deep under the emperor's tomb.At that moment, he actually hoped for one thing so urgently——

It would be great if this person Ye Wei never appeared.

"When I was pregnant with you, my mother told me more than once that it would be great if the baby was a girl." The old woman raised her hand to comfort the "child", but she had no strength left. She is a girl, she was born into this world not for that 'position', so she can live a good life, but you are a boy..."

So from the moment of birth, the trajectory of fate is doomed.

Yun Qingyue listened to her quietly, and the old woman continued: "Actually, as soon as the bowl of abortion medicine was poured down, the empress immediately

Regretted, she desperately took out the medicine, and then cried and said to me, this is life, the closest life to her blood, if it is born, there may be hope, but if you take a look If you don't have time to see the world, then there is really nothing left. "

What could be more frightening than nothing at all?

But it was too late.

A bowl of abortion pills nearly cost two lives, but after being rescued, Yun Qingyue was born with congenital deficiencies, and Empress Yun was tortured to kill half of her life, becoming the victim of her untimely death.

But what was she thinking when she looked at the infant baby who almost killed her?

Back then, for that "position" and for people to continue to do things that should not appear in the light, she was forced to give birth to a third child by the emperor who had long hated her to the bone.

Ever since she found out about this, Yun Qingyue couldn't help but think, did his mother hate him all the time?Was everything done to him just out of guilt?

Ye Cen's thinking was wrong, it's not just him who can't face that mother's child in this world...

"Your Majesty doesn't know some things. Your Majesty thinks that I am no longer qualified to tell you these things, but I just feel that I have to tell you." The old woman's face was sick, but her eyes were still bright, " Your Highness, Your Majesty told me that she has never hated you, she loves you more than anyone else in the world, she hopes that you can live a life of peace and joy, and she doesn't care what the price is."

"She has already lost one child and will not allow anyone to touch the remaining two."

I don't know that sentence suddenly brought back Yun Qingyue's memory, and he remembered how his mother hesitated to speak to him before that year's death.

……Is that so?

So, is that so?

He often dreams back in the middle of the night, and he will wake up when he dreams of his mother. After he calms down, he wonders in horror what expression that person looked at him. The blood of the most hated person.

It also happens that he can't remember anything every time, leaving him with a thread of unrealistic fantasy.

But the moment the old woman spoke, something suddenly fell to the ground in Yun Qingyue's heart.

Really, one sentence is enough, don't hide it from him anymore, let him know that his mother didn't hate him, let him know... His mother was happy to watch him grow up since she was a child.

That's... his mother!

The thing that had been pressing heavily in my heart suddenly became empty. At some point, Yun Qingyue's eyes were red, and he took a deep breath: "Aunt Yin, I..."

"I" for a while, Yun Qingyue found that her throat was blocked and she couldn't speak.The old woman couldn't understand him better, she shook her head and said: "Your Highness, you are not allowed to say thank you to me. I shouldn't be the one who told you these words, I just conveyed them to you."

The person who should have said these words has long been separated from him.

If he had known everything early on, the things that Empress Yun had worked so hard for so many years and wanted him to stay away from would inevitably be exposed before his eyes, and by then all efforts would have been in vain, so he couldn't say anything.

Ten years ago, Ye Ling still couldn't win over Yun Qingyue, and let Yun Qingyue know almost everything without having time to settle the situation, it was a mistake.

"The first emperor was really absurd and detestable. If it wasn't for his relationship with that person, he wouldn't be on the throne." The old woman mentioned Xianzong with disdain on her face. The next moment, she said with emotion, "But you You and His Majesty are such good children, it's really great..."

She looked at Yun Qingyue's green eyes that were exactly the same as that person's, and her eyes were full of memories.

Yun Qingyue looked similar to his mother when she was young, but as she got older, the outline of a man was different from a woman's. They are not related by blood, but there is still a sense of resemblance in every move.

Empress Dowager Yun liked to ride horses in the land of West Shanxi back then. She liked to wear red clothes very much.

At that time, I don't know how many men lined up to marry the only jewel in the palm of King Zhenxi, but they were defeated by her long bow one after another. No one dared to mention the matter of competing with her to recruit a relative.

The old woman covered her mouth and coughed uncomfortably. Yun Qingyue patted her on the back.

At this time, Yun Qingyue suddenly remembered that this old man really didn't have much left in the world, so even if he was sick, he still had to come and tell him the things he couldn't say to him before.

"Aunt Yin, I've grown up, and the illnesses I had when I was young will hardly recur. I'm now a great general who leads troops and fights! Invincible!" Yun Qingyue panicked a little childishly, and listed his "achievements" , but always feel that what I want to say is not on the point.The blue figure appeared in his mind, and he immediately said, "I have someone I like, the kind of person I want to spend my whole life with!"

Tingyin was one of the few people who knew about Ye Ya's background, she smiled and said, "Really? Your Highness has really grown up..."

For the elders, you will probably be a child all your life before her, and only when you are about to start a family will you feel that you have suddenly grown up and become a person who can take on big things.

"He...he is a man, but he is really a very good person! He is the only person I really love in my life, and the person I want to protect..."

Yun Qingyue felt that she was so nervous that she was about to throw up, and her fingers curled up involuntarily.

He has a clear conscience about liking Yu Lin, and he doesn't feel anything in front of Ye Ling at all, how could he care what other people think of him, if he likes him, he likes it, there is nothing that can be changed because of other people's opinions.

However, Tingyin is the person who really took care of him since he was a child. He is a real elder relative, equivalent to his second mother.He really wants her to know what kind of person the person he likes is, what a good person he is, and he wants to hear words of confession from her, to hear...

"That's good."

Yun Qingyue, who was as anxious as a child, suddenly raised her head.

The old woman said softly: "You are so nervous to talk about him to me, doesn't it prove how caring you are? It's so hard to find someone you really like, so it doesn't matter if it's a man or a woman. Although... I was indeed a little surprised, after all, you have never shown it before, my little Highness, but I also know that it must be the person you have made a lifetime decision for."

Yun Qingyue said without hesitation: "Yes."

"That's great," the old woman patted his hand and said with a smile, "I can still tell my mother that I have an extra son when I go downstairs."

Yun Qingyue's complexion collapsed.

……son?

The old woman then inadvertently gave Yun Qingyue a knowing blow: "Can the old woman let me see that child? Is he handsome? When I see my mother in the future, I can learn from her."

... Auntie, I don't want to show it to you!Although "that child" is here now, if I dare to bring him over, you can jump out of bed and beat me up in the next moment!

In order to prevent being regarded as a "pervert", Yun Qingyue said with a stiff smile: "He is not here now, he is a cultivator, so he is busy... It is certain that he is good-looking, and there is no one who is more beautiful than him in the world. Aunt Yin, you should have heard of him, he is very famous, so it is unlikely that my mother would recognize her son, after all, he is five hundred years older..."

When Le Xuanying woke up and started playing with the things she bought, Yun Qingyue came back.

He looked at Yun Qingyue's red eyes, hesitated for a while, and gave him a candied haws, but said nothing.

"I don't eat candied haws, you can eat it." The comfort that the child can think of is very simple, but it is also very pure and sincere. Yun Qingyue knows that Le Xuanying is giving him what he thinks is the most inspiring thing, and she suddenly feels in her heart Involuntarily half sweet and half melancholy.

Xuanying took the candied haws back, and didn't know whether to eat it or not, but Yun Qingyue kept smiling at him. After thinking about it, he thought that the smiling person would always be in a good mood, so he went there with confidence. played.

He hasn't reached the age to know how happy to pretend.

Yun Qingyue sat silently watching, recalling what Tingyin said before leaving.

"This may be the last time I've talked to you like this, my lord, don't come to me, live your life well, don't come to the funeral, I have someone who will take care of me, my master is reliable, Don't worry, you and that person take care of each other, just be good..."

just fine...

He closed his eyes, and said in a barely audible voice, "Xuanying, if I don't have a mother..."

Closing his eyes so he didn't see, the small figure stopped suddenly.Le Xuanying turned around and looked at Yun Qingyue, a kind of sympathetic sadness appeared on her immature face.

Her body sank suddenly, Yun Qingyue opened her eyes in astonishment, and saw Le Xuanying stepped on his leg, reaching out to pull his face: "Stupid Qingyue, you said you wanted to play with me! You ended up sleeping here !"

Yun Qingyue pinched the little hedgehog in an instant, but she was afraid that he would fall in this position, so she didn't dare to make a real move: "It's not big or small, who is an idiot!"

Le Xuanying said: "Yes, yes, you!"