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"Onmyown

Alone

Pretending he's besides me

deceive yourself that he is by your side

Allalone

alone

I walk with him till morning

walk with it till dawn

Without Him

without him

Ifeelhisarmsaroundme

I can still feel the warmth of a hug

And when IlosemywayIclosemyeyes

When I'm lost, just close my eyes

Andhe has found me

He can find me

Intherain the pavement shines like silver

In the rain, the pavement shines like silver

All the lights are misty in other

On the surface of the water, the lanterns are both real and illusory

Inthedarkness, the trees safe full of starlight

At night, the fiery tree is covered with silver flowers

AndallIseeishimandmeforeverandforever

And I, my heart is with him forever

And I know it's only in my mind

I know it's just wishful thinking

That I'm talking to myself and not to him

Talk to yourself instead of talking to it

Andalthough I know that they are blind

Although I know it, I'm not in his eyes

Still I say, there's away forus

Still deluding ourselves, we're not done yet..."

The valley at night was quiet and beautiful. Legolas rested after coming to this beautiful residence. He put on the cloak brought by Lorien and walked around.

He went up the river, and heard a song slowly coming from the stream, so Legolas walked forward curiously, beside the stream in the forest, the moonlight fell quietly, and the long silver-white His hair shone like Lady Elberys, and Legolas stood quietly behind the trees, watching the beautiful mermaid sing.

"I love him

I love him

But when the night is over

But when the night creeps away

Heisgone

he also left

Theriver's just ariver

the river, the river

Without Him

without him

The world around mechanges

The world is beyond recognition

Three trees are bare and everywhere

withered green leaves

The streets are full of strangers

Strangers left on the street

I love him

I love him

But every day I'm learning

But every day, I realize more clearly

All my life

All his life

I've only been pretending

i've been kidding myself

Without me

without me

His world would go on turning

His world still works

Aworld that's full of happiness

The land of dreams full of happiness

That I haven't ever been known

i can never step in

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

But only on my own.

But it's just wishful thinking..."

The singing was mournful and sad, and the voice from the sea sang the thirst in Legolas' heart. He couldn't help but took a few steps forward, but he was afraid of offending this beautiful woman.

The voice finally calmed down, and Legolas stood quietly behind the tree, watching the beautiful mermaid lying by the stream, he walked up slowly.

Long silver hair spread over his face, covering his chest and neck. The wind blew his hair, occasionally revealing his peacefully sleeping side face, and Legolas was stunned.

How familiar this scene was, he remembered the heart-wrenching scene ten years ago.

The wind seemed to be still howling, the ice and snow were in front of him, and the black dress threw him to the ground.

She was covered in blood and had small wounds on her body. Watching a living life fall in front of him like this, Legolas remained silent.

The half-orcs were clamoring for Ning Ku's death, and Legolas was upset for a while. He rushed forward and cut the attacker's throat with a dagger. He thought angrily that he would never show mercy to any Orcs from now on.

But the dead were gone, and could never be brought back. Legolas glanced around and felt a tremor in his heart when he saw the red hair buried beside the dwarf's body.

Not only for his love that ended before it began, but also for that mysterious gift.

The boots stepped on the ice cliff without making a sound, and a powerful fear seized him, and he dared not look at her again.

Eya Anna Kai Mengting.

This name is now cutting his heart like a knife. He searched aimlessly on the ice cliff, feeling alone.

There were dead bodies and mourning people everywhere, and he was alone.

He saw the sword that had been pointed at him, and bent down to pick it up.

"What are you doing..." His father's voice sounded behind him, but he turned a deaf ear.

But he soon heard a shrill scream.

The blue eyes widened quickly, and Legolas looked at the mermaid in front of him with complicated emotions.

"Anna..." he shouted softly, feeling that there was nothing he could do about this person who broke into the underground palace, saved his life and left without telling others.But another kind of joy welled up in my heart.

she's not dead...

The deep pain and regret of not saying a word to her before she died disappeared, and he decided to cherish the present.

Let the past go, no matter what she did before, she saved him, she is still alive, so be it.

He took off his cloak, covered her body, then turned and left.

Legolas was in a state of chaos after the battle.Although he saw Anna being washed down the ice cliff, he was still not sure if she was still alive.

"She won't die like this, we will find her." Thranduy said so, but in the end, he still couldn't find Ning Ku, who came and went mysteriously.

After Kili's death, Taurier has been out of his mind, and Legolas is heartbroken watching it.

It turned out that he loved her, that's why he was in such pain.

Thranduil advised him to take some rest, and Legolas got up and left the forest.

Along the way, looking at the beautiful scenery of the Anduin River, he thought of the woman who saved his life.

Many years ago, they came to that forest talking and laughing together, and now, only he is left.

He heard Gandalf's explanation, and also knew the role Anna played in the war. Thinking of his bad words to her that day, he regretted very much.

She died to save him.He stubbornly thinks so, and if he can't get out of this vicious circle, a feeling of guilt arises.

He was relaxing in the wilderness, and with her sword, he learned about Nai Kuo's deeds and Ning Ku's origin from human mouths, and his heart was very complicated.On the one hand, he lost his love, on the other hand, a woman he had hurt died because of saving him.

But when he arrived in Lorien, he learned that Anna was not dead, and he knew the cause and effect of the whole thing.That sense of guilt was finally let go, but he didn't know how to face Anna.

Walking in the poetic courtyard of Rivendell, he ran into Anna who was only wrapped in a cloak.Looking at the familiar cloak, Legolas felt that the tips of his ears were slightly red.

"That's Legolas, son of Thranduil." Arwen Udomir introduced, and Legolas suddenly felt that this name was so light compared to her title.

"Long time no see." Anna's blue eyes looked at Legolas, and Legolas suddenly felt that although these eyes were not as beautiful as her original black eyes, they were still extremely beautiful.

What's wrong with me, am I under the spell of the mermaid?

Legolas thought, and nodded.

He watched her walk into the room, Arwen pushed his arm, "You have been distracted, have you fallen in love with Eya Anna?" He looked at Udomir in a panic, "No." He quickly denied So, what he loves is Taurier.

Arwen left, he walked around the door again and again, and finally made up his mind to knock on the door.

There was a sound, and when he saw Anna in the elf dress, he felt that she was extremely beautiful again.

"Your Fieriel," he said, handing over the sword, seeing Anna's surprised expression, and thanking him.

Legolas secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and thanked him in return.

It seemed that this thank you could overshadow everything that happened before. For the next two years, both he and she tacitly did not mention the past, and even Elrond and Arwen vaguely brought up the topic when they asked.

It's an unspoken pact not to unravel old scars while maintaining a polite distance.

Until the White Daoist Conference was held, Legolas watched Anna and Saruman confront each other.

It's really interesting, he thought, the mermaid queen and President Bai Dao's senior quarreled.

"...After all, when the wise hesitate, help often comes from the weak."

Legolas did not speak from the beginning to the end. He was quietly a bystander, but his heart trembled after hearing Anna's words.

So, is that why she decisively pushed him away?

Legolas suddenly realized when the thought occurred to him that he had always thought of her as the filthy little girl entangled in cobwebs.

In fact, she was no longer, and was strong enough to protect him.

He suddenly felt that his feelings for her were getting more and more inexplicable, so he decided to talk to Anna.After all, he loves Tauriel, doesn't he?

"I like you."

Legolas was taken aback, this was not the reply he wanted to hear.

He remembered the silhouette of Tariel holding Qili sadly on the edge of the ice cliff, and he subconsciously replied: "I like you very much too..."

"...It's like liking Arwen and Lady Galadriel." He immediately added.

"It's not like this kind of liking..." He saw her looking at him sadly, his heart twitched suddenly, the silver-haired and old face came to mind, and the black dress passed by.

"I love you as Lucien loves Beren."

A strange emotion surged in his chest, and he thought of the golden days of the Mellon trees, the frosty days, the cold windy days.

A tear slid down her face, and Legolas saw her look away.

"It's a pity... I did a lot of things for you..."

Is it a pity... Legolas remembered standing on the promenade watching Taurier and the dwarves laughing and watching Tauriel and the dwarves love each other in the long lake.

—— "Tariel, she was exiled..."

——"If there is no place for Taurier in the kingdom, and there is no place for me..."

——"You don't understand love..."

——"Then do you understand?"

pity?Yes, it is indeed a pity.After all, you still have Rivendell now, but I may not be able to go home.

Once ran counter to each other, passed by each other once, and left without saying goodbye.

"So, including breaking into the underground palace and trying to rescue the prisoners in the kingdom?"

Oh yes, and dwarves, they're really welcome, aren't they?

"And drawing your sword at me without any explanation, and then leaving without saying goodbye after I mistakenly thought you had gone to a world far away?"

He hurt her cruelly, but felt no joy.

"You are not worthy of the name of nature."

Looking at her pale face and trembling body, he suddenly began to feel sad again.Not to look at her anymore, he turned around resolutely, but he couldn't cut off the pain resolutely.

But she also did a lot of excessive things, didn't she?

Legolas thought, trying to ease his pain, but heard a trembling but firm voice behind him.

"I forgive you……"

He paused, and then fled away from there.

"What did you say to Kai Mengting?" The next day, in the corridor, the fair-haired Noldor stopped him.

"I didn't say anything." He forced a smile and let out a small panic.

Glorfindel looked at him, blue eyes staring into his, as if to pierce him.

"She left." Glorfindel said, letting go of the grip on his eyes, and turned around. "This morning, I left a note and it disappeared."

Legolas calmed down, "Where did she go?"

Glorfindel looked into the distance, "Go where she should go, do what she should do."

Legolas opened his mouth slightly, the guilt haunting him again.He hurriedly responded, and then returned to the room.

Sure enough, she must be angry with him.Legolas thought regretfully, hating himself for being so uncontrollable and naive.

Yes, he soon regretted it.The joy of being liked quickly fades away, followed by endless annoyance and the pain of hurting loved ones.

It's like you know you should be nice to her, but you hurt her unknowingly when you talk to her, and this time, it's even more serious.

Those night-colored eyes blinked at him, and suddenly, they were already vast sea blue, the color of forgiveness, calmness, and grandeur.

"I forgive you……"

He didn't deserve to be forgiven by her, he reflected on himself and felt that he was really ugly.

No wonder Taurier didn't like him, he thought, but suddenly found that the fiery figure had faded a lot.

"Legolas..."

A voice sounded, and an unknown person called his name, and Legolas suddenly opened his eyes.

I'm leaving the valley to make up for my mistakes.

Legolas thought, and then began to pack his things to say goodbye to Elrond.