His sweetheart ABO

Lin Yan was tossed hard last night, and now his whole body feels as if it has been dismantled and put back together again, sore and painful... He was sleeping soundly, but he vaguely heard someone Crying, barely opening his eyelids, he caught a glimpse of the furry head on the side of the bed.

Lin Yan pushed it angrily: "...Why are you crying?"

His body was weak, and even his fingertips were soft, so that rather than driving him away, it was more like... a gentle touch.Chi Zong's entire back was stiff, this illusion-like comfort relieved his twitching heart a little, his shoulders heaved heavily a few times, and he lay down silently for a while, when the tears finally stopped At that moment, he finally plucked up the courage and slowly raised his head...

Lin Yan was sitting up with difficulty propping up the soft mattress. He had slept for so long that his body was a little stiff. When he got up, his joints creaked, as if rusted; the thick The quilt slid down with the movement, revealing a messy body underneath, with bruises and purple marks all over the pale skin, and there were a few serious spots that seemed to have been medicated.Lin Xiyue took care of the aftermath very considerately. Apart from the soreness, Lin Yan didn't feel any other discomfort. He slowly leaned against the head of the bed, reached out and touched the cabinet next to him, and found the lighter and cigarettes.

So Chi Zong looked up and saw this man with his upper body shirtless and his head bowed smoking, the flickering sparks were caught between his trembling fingers, Lin Yan took a sip, his throat felt dry and uncomfortable .He coughed a few times as if masochistic, and inadvertently met the dull eyes of the young master, and frowned slightly: "...you..."

He wanted to say what are you looking at, but at last he caught a glimpse of the man's bruised cheek and the bandage-wrapped eye.

The young master was restless when he was in school, and Lin Yan wiped his ass frequently, but no matter what kind of fight he had, he had never been so miserable... The level of embarrassment had already broken through the threshold, to the point that Lin Yan couldn't help it. The degree of shock - so much so that he even forgot what he was going to say, and blurted out: "You were approached by the enemy?"

Just woke up and smoked again, Lin Yan's voice was so hoarse that he couldn't make a sound, and he coughed again as soon as he finished speaking. Chi Zong wanted to pat the other party's back to help him feel better, but he looked at the man Messy marks on the skin, and I don't know where to start...

After secretly cursing Lin Xiyue for being a beast, the young master got up with red eyes and poured him a glass of warm water.

"Cough...thank you." Lin Yan did not refuse. In fact, he is still a little confused at the moment... Everything last night was too exciting for him, and he still has palpitations until now, so that when he opened his eyes He couldn't help but look for cigarettes... that was the only thing that could calm him down.

The warm water flowed through the dry and astringent throat, and when I licked my lips, I realized that the corner of my mouth was bitten open, and the freshly healed wound was pulled apart with a slight movement, oozing a little sweet smell...

Lin Yan moistened his throat, took another puff of his cigarette, and when he raised his hand, he caught a glimpse of the bite mark on his wrist...it was bitten by himself.

"Cough cough... cough cough..."

"Are you... are you okay..." Chi Zong's anxious and distressed voice sounded above his head, he rarely tilted his head, not daring to look at the ambiguous marks on Lin Yan's body, as if every look was torture... But even so, he Can't help but care.

...It's actually pretty cheap, the young master thought sadly, turned around humbly, took out a set of clean nightgowns from the cabinet, and handed them with his face turned away.

His body was shaking, so obvious that Lin Yan could detect it through the smoke he exhaled, and there was an indescribable awkwardness for a moment.

As if a little irritable, he took a deep breath: "...I will move out as soon as possible."

Lin Yan thought that at this point, this proud Alpha would no longer stalk him, but he didn't expect that the moment the words fell, the other party trembled even more... The suppressed cry mixed with panting, echoed in the room inside.

Lin Yan was a little dumbfounded by his crying, and didn't know how to comfort him for a while...Speaking of it, why did he comfort him?

Because the other party likes yourself?And he had sex with someone else?

...what kind of shit is this...

Although his heart was full of helplessness, but adhering to the basic principles, Lin Yan still planned to explain: "...I owe him a hand."

After I finished speaking, I felt that this reason was quite nonsense, and it also had a bit of a strange meaning, but I couldn't continue talking...so I fell silent again.

When the cigarette butt was about to burn out, Chi Zong finally remembered what the other party said, and slowly turned around.

He staggered to the side of the bed, his eyes fell on the fresh bite mark on the back of Lin Yan's neck, and he took a trembling breath...

"...You, it's not because you like him," Chi Zong asked awkwardly, "Isn't it?"

Lin Yan trembled with his fingers holding the cigarette, and a piece of ashes fell on the clean quilt—he stared at the dirty place, feeling a little irritable for no reason.

"Do you know why I...cough cough, I haven't found anyone for so many years?" Lin Yan said calmly, his eyes were hidden behind the gray-white smoke, and he couldn't see clearly: "Because in my life, Probably won't fall in love with anyone."

As for the reason, it is self-evident.

Chi Zong's expression was blank, he wanted to cry instinctively but he was jealous that the other party hated tears the most, in the end he just sniffed hard.

"...Isn't it..."

"No need to apologize." Lin Yan sighed, a little helpless and bitter.He brushed the messy broken hair in front of his forehead, revealing his pale forehead: "It doesn't matter if it's you... or him, why bother with me... let's stop the loss."

At the end of the sentence, Lin Yan snuffed out the remaining sparks, and slowly got up while leaning on the bed... Chi Zong looked at the body full of other people's traces without blinking, and felt a wave of The chill climbed up his heels, freezing his limbs, his blood.

Maybe it was to tell him to give up on purpose, Lin Yan never made any move to cover up, he didn't even take the bathrobe that the young master left beside the bed, he just stood up and staggered towards the bathroom.

Although it has been cleaned, he still wants to take a shower.

Chi Zong stared blankly at Lin Yan's frivolous steps, and wanted to reach out countless times to help him... But in the end, the man didn't fall down as expected, but staggered into the bathroom.

It wasn't until the door was closed, the sound of water was heard, and the dense mist climbed up the glass of the window... that he buried his face in his cold hands as if he had just woken up from a dream.

……

As soon as Lin Yan entered the door, his legs went limp, and his knees trembled uncontrollably. He sat on the toilet while supporting himself, and reached out to boil the water.

While the tub was filled with water, he just sat there, taking a deep breath until the steam blurred his eyes.

He never thought that he would have such an outrageous day, especially now after it happened, he didn't feel much regret... Instead, he felt lingering fear.

It was indeed something he had never tasted in his life... It felt like he was stepping on a cloud, as if his soul was about to fly out of the sky.

But this more or less offset the shadow in his heart on this matter, and re-established a brand new cognition...

Warm water splashed from the edge of the overflowing bathtub and slapped Lin Yan's instep, pulling him back from his drifting thoughts... Holding onto the slippery edge, he submerged himself into the water with some difficulty.

When the water splashed over the ears, the world became quiet.

Outside the door, Chi Zong heard the sound of rushing water, and suddenly understood what Lin Xiyue said before leaving in the morning.

He said that neither of them could win... There was no other meaning of irony or declaration of war, just the most crude description, a cruel but realistic truth.

Lin Yan's heart has been cold for a long time. In the first 20 years of his long winter-like life, under the harm they brought, he was like a stone frozen to death, no matter how hot the fire was, it couldn't melt—— All they can do is wait patiently, waiting for the permafrost to unseal, the hard shell to fall off, and the man to grow a heart again.

But before that, they had to not be afraid of the severe cold, risking frostbite, using their hands and body temperature... to heat up the hard-to-fade frost and bear the mistakes they made.

It would be fine to let go, but Chi Zong asked himself, willing to see Lin Yan, who had finally untied the knot in his heart after their reunion, and was with a stranger he didn't know.That may be a very warm person, and it may move Lin Yan's heart. There will be no haze between them, and they will live happily ever after... It's just that there will be no shadow of themselves in that happiness.

Are you willing?

Willing to give up the little tenderness that was finally saved, the sincerity that was finally seen clearly, and the one who flinched and missed it again?

... He is not reconciled.

So he can only compromise with reality... Just like what Lin Xiyue said, he wants... he has to take good care of that person and never leave him.

Only in this way can Lin Yan not meet other people, only in this way...he can catch the other person, even if this thought is selfish, even a bit vicious, but Chi Zong...has no choice.

He likes Lin Yan...he loves Lin Yan, even though this love is hard for him to find from the messy past, it is clean from beginning to end.

Except for the self-conceited heartbeat in his confused adolescence, he has never loved anyone except Lin Yan.

Just like Lin Xiyue put all her eggs in one basket to leave an indelible memory for that person, even in the face of the possibility of being disgusted and disgusted, Chi Zong wanted to gamble, gamble with all his dignity—gamble with his love that heart.

On this point, he and Lin Xiyue reached a tacit agreement in a certain sense...

But Chi Zong didn't want to admit it.

So he skipped this link, tidied up his messy thoughts, stood in the room for a while, then turned around slowly, and went to tidy up Lin Yan's bed awkwardly.

He remembered that ash fell on it just now.