His sweetheart ABO

Lin Yan didn't know why the young master wanted to learn this on a whim, so he half-perfunctorily put an apple in front of him and asked him to practice sketching.

Painting is not something that can be learned in a short period of time, it requires a lot of repeated practice and time, so it is impossible for him to teach much, at best it is just to pass the time.

Lin Xiyue was more serious than he imagined.

Due to the weakness of the right hand, after switching to the left hand for all daily activities, it is inevitable that there will be many awkward places, but Lin Xiyue was able to adapt to this in just over a month, and she does not know how long she has practiced quietly.Now Lin Yan sees that although his writing is jerky, his wrist is steady, as if he was born left-handed.

Thinking of this, the impatience seemed to subside a little. Lin Yan sat behind the other party with his legs crossed, took a sketchbook and started to practice by himself.

For a while, the only sound left in the room was the rustling of pencils brushing across the paper. Finally, Lin Xiyue spoke first and broke the silence: "Brother, do you like drawing?"

"I don't like it," Lin Yan casually outlined the draft on the paper, "but I don't hate it either."

"...You always seem to be like this." Lin Xiyue smiled helplessly, "Don't you have anything you want to do? A dream you want to accomplish, or a goal..."

Hearing this, Lin Yan stopped the pen in his hand for a moment, raised his head, and met Lin Xiyue's beautiful eyes.

"What about you?" Almost mean, he asked back: "Are you going to rely on acting like a baby and face, and rely on others for a lifetime?"

Lin Xiyue didn't expect him to say that, and was stunned for a moment.

And Lin Yan seemed to have finally found an opportunity, and poured out the words that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time, but were somewhat unbearable and kept him from speaking: "You have received the most elite education and lived the most glamorous life... Yes, It is very tragic to have a broken family, but in this world there are always people who have nothing since birth, you may be unlucky, but you are definitely not the unluckiest one.” At this point, he paused and started writing again.The rustling sound of the sketches mixed with Lin Yan's calm tone, but it was sharp and hurtful: "You didn't fall down—it's a good thing, it's commendable, I know you're secretly getting used to your left hand, and I know you're trying hard to get rid of it. The haze of the past... But, I'm afraid you don't have that much time."

"After the hand injury is healed, you will have no reason to stay in this mansion and live your celebrity life as a young master... Yes, I owe you a hand, and I won't leave you alone. Then what? The debt owed There will always be a day when the repayment is over, or one day I suddenly don't want you, so what should you do?"

"I..." Lin Xiyue's face was pale, and every word Lin Yan said stimulated the young master's fragile self-esteem... Yes, he admitted that the reason why he was so attached to Lin Yan during this period was not only liking, but also convenience It's the fear of being left behind.

In fact, he may not necessarily want to rely on Lin Yan forever... But, the matter of the inheritance has reached an impasse for the time being, and Lin Xiyue, who has no resources and contacts, is already struggling, unless Chi Zong is willing to take the lead in this matter again.

Thinking of this, he felt terribly uncomfortable—as an Alpha as well, it was not what he wanted once things hit a trough.It's just that the real storm is too violent, and the famous flower that has never been hit by the wind and rain can't stand the devastation, and it didn't take long before it hung its head listlessly...

"Compared to my future, think more about yourself." After a while, Lin Yan sighed and put down the sketchbook in his hand: "What do you want to do? Your future, your goals... and You have a long life to come." He patted the young man's stiff shoulders, looked at those eyes that lost their smile due to panic, and couldn't bear it: "I can't... and I won't make decisions for you, so there is always You have to walk those roads by yourself."

After saying this, he left the room lightly, leaving Lin Xiyue sitting on the chair alone. After a long silence, Alpha's straight back bent down, and he covered his hands with some lead-colored palms. He covered his face, his shoulders trembled slightly, but he didn't make a sound.

This is the first time he has burst into tears without willfulness... Brother is right, there is no reason for him to hide behind the other party and refuse to face the facts, even though he tried all methods to tie him up, but It's just a part of childish and extreme methods... He is immature, and when he tirelessly questioned that person's life in order to integrate himself into it, he forgot that even he himself was in a mess.

Such a self... Is there any reason to stand beside the other party and say: "I like you"?

He had taken enough from Lin Yan, but he never thought about what he could give.

It was the spoiled arrogance in his bones that made him avoid this question subconsciously, but now that Lin Yan ruthlessly exposed him, he felt ashamed and embarrassed, and even his throat was full of blood. Alpha's fangs bit the skin of his lips, Lin Xiyue swallowed his mouth full of blood and tears, raised his head, and took a deep breath.

Just when the young master finally adjusted his mentality and was about to leave with his slightly red eyes open, he inadvertently glanced at the sketchbook that Lin Yan put on the table.

On the side that was spread out was a somewhat scribbled sketch of a portrait...it was a portrait of Lin Xiyue.

But it's not the current Lin Xiyue, but the handsome and elegant young man at the birthday party a few years ago. At that time, he differentiated into Alpha beyond everyone's expectations. It can be said that he was not elated-that was the moment when he was the most energetic, because he defeated all injustices with his own will, he survived the extremely difficult period of differentiation, and he stood at the top of the "food chain".

For a moment, Lin Xiyue almost couldn't help "returning" the tears that had been suffocated before. He held the painting book as if he was holding the most priceless treasure in the world, his breathing changed from trembling to calm, and his mood changed from intense to Tranquility... In the end, everything turned into a love that is difficult to describe in words, sinking into the soul.

Taking a deep and slow breath, Lin Xiyue carefully tore off the portrait, and solemnly put it in her arms.

……

Chi Zong had a dream that reversed time.

In the dream, he traveled a long distance, and returned to the ward that smelled of cold disinfectant water a few years ago, and saw himself standing at the door, speaking without restraint.

He rushed up like crazy, trying to block "myself" - but was blocked by the cold door, leaving only a small window, from which the scene happening inside could be vaguely seen.

He saw Lin Yan sitting on the bed, with his always straight back bent down, his thin body wrapped in a hospital gown, as fragile as if it could be broken at the touch——

Chi Zong only felt that his heart was going to be broken, the roar that could not be uttered turned into blood foam and stuck in his throat, like a strong wine with a rusty taste, it fell into his stomach hotly, scalding his intestines.

But all he could do was to slam the iron door with all his strength until he finally knelt down on the ground with blood stains on his hands...

But nothing can be done.

"Master, master?"

A sudden voice shattered this irreversible nightmare. When Chi Zong woke up, his heart was still beating, and something seemed to jump out of his violently heaving chest. He had to shut his mouth tightly and swallowed a mouth full of bitterness.

"I..." There was a brief moment of trance, the man wiped the slightly wet corners of his eyes vigorously, he looked around and was sure that he was in a private jet: "This is..."

"Master... You suddenly said that you were going back to Academy Island, and you were firm." The subordinate at the side explained cautiously, for fear of offending the tiger who had just woken up with inappropriate words: "For this reason, the board of directors specially called The inquiries...were all hung up because of your refusal."

Chi Zong rubbed his sore temples, coughed a few times, took a sip of the water handed by the other party: "Leave him alone, if you ask again, I will definitely go back before the meeting tomorrow night..." While talking, he will With some numb legs on the ground, he stood up unsteadily.

"Help me find a car, I'm going...to the hospital on the island."

"As ordered."

When I walked out of the cabin, it was already dark outside. At a glance, only the lights were shining, and the cold sea breeze was blowing on my cheeks, bringing a little familiar salty smell, which was so nostalgic.

But for Chi Zong at this time, the night sky full of sea and sky is like a bloody mouth, and the lights are like white fangs, which may pounce on him at any time and tear him into pieces-this is what he has committed before. Sin, once escaped and finally raised a ferocious beast, and was bitten by it, it deserves it.

A few years have passed, and the people who worked in those years have changed batch after batch, and even the former attending doctor has retired to take care of himself.In the end, Chi Zong stood in front of the former ward. The empty room was dark, only the cold equipment was shrouded in moonlight, reflecting a little inorganic luster... Those loves and hates that have passed for too long have been forgotten. Time has washed away without leaving a trace.

But he still stubbornly ran all the way here just to catch a glimpse.

Taking a deep breath, Chi Zong walked into the room... Years passed, the bedding was as white as ever, and even the furnishings in the room had changed, but he still seemed to see the woman sitting on the hospital bed through the thin moonlight. A young man with his head down.

He is so thin...and so pale, like glass that is shattered at the touch of a touch, and unbelievably sharp... Chi Zong knelt down by the bed, buried his face in the cold and unfamiliar quilts, he couldn't even breathe. It hurts.

Academy Island has all their good memories, every inch of land they walked, every appointment, every conversation... Memories flooded in like a flood, mixed with sand, gravel, broken branches and trees , pour it from the head until it is submerged.

He remembered the sexy profile of the man illuminated by the fire when he was smoking.

He remembered the way that person smiled helplessly at himself through the pile of documents in the brightly lit student union office.

He remembered the first time that person was dragged to the roadside stall by him, showing a surprised but somewhat happy expression.

He remembered that when he was picking out presents in Tilin Xiyue, he had casually grabbed that man's finger and put a ring on him...

One by one, one by one, all the good things were smashed into pieces in this cold ward, and the remaining fragments were scattered all over the floor, with a thick layer of ash. When I revisited, I was caught off guard and was bloody and heartbroken.

At that time, Lin Yan liked him, and his love was as forbearing and low-key as his people, and he never said it out loud, but with a little attention, he could feel it.

Now that I think about it, every evasive look, every unfinished word, every pampering and indulgence of the other party is always showing his heart. Under the cold shell made of steel, there is a little bit of softness carefully dug out. In the flesh and blood, the self of the year is completely in full bloom.

And did he really feel nothing?not necessarily.

He was just too dull and ignorant, and he deceived himself and planned it into the category of "friendship" in order to escape this heavy love. He stubbornly looked at the "perfect" Lin Xiyue, but let his prejudice make him Lin Yan put it to the back of his mind, now that youthful feelings like flowers in a mirror and moon in water have been wiped away, and he looked back in panic, only to find that there was no one behind him.

Lin Yan left, but unknowingly took his heart away, but the dull boy didn't react, he used alcohol and time to numb his empty chest repeatedly, until he met again many years later, he finally came to his senses .

It turns out that this is how the heartbeat feels.

There are not so many romantic scenes, and it is different from the hype described in the novel-just a chance encounter, a look, a contact, and a conversation can make people excited.So even if his self-esteem is damaged, even if he knows that the other party hates him...he is still willing to chase after him desperately, just to catch that person's hand—no matter how embarrassing it is.

It's like... now.

The young Alpha raised his head, the moonlight leaked in from the window, falling on his empty palm, it was icy cold.

He thought: So I like you too.

Not before, but always...

All the time, I like it very much.