When Two Alphas Meet, One's an Omega

clear.

I don't understand, I'm probably just an idiot.

"sorry."

His throat rolled, and the three words were whispered, as if choked up.

Jian Songyi didn't know what to say, he didn't know where to touch the bitterness piled up in his heart, so he could only say one sentence, I'm sorry.

I am sorry.

Is it a rejection?

Bai Huai wiped away the moisture from the end of his eyes for him, smiled, his voice was still gentle: "It's okay, let's go, go home."

If I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Anyway, I said it, and Jian Songyi didn't accept it, and he wasn't surprised.

He had imagined [-] ways to be rejected, each of which was heart-piercing, but now this slightly choked-up sorry is extraordinarily gentle.

He turned around and walked towards the lounge, packed Jane Songyi's bag, made the bed in the lounge, folded the quilt squarely, took out his mobile phone to call a taxi, and stood in front of Jane Songyi to block the wind for him while waiting for the taxi.

Meticulous and appropriate, as usual, it seems that neither the confession nor the apology aroused any emotion in his heart.

To cover up the truth, whitewash the peace.

On the other hand, Jian was relaxed and at a loss, holding the sketchbook, and followed Bai Huai blankly, until he was pushed into the back seat of the taxi by Bai Huai, still in a daze.

Bai Huai sometimes wondered if there were two Janes who were usually smart, stubborn and ruthless, but every time he came to him, he became a fool, and he couldn't bear to be angry with him.

Jian Songyi is right, what can he do with him, he can only make offerings, like an ancestor.

He glanced at the plastic bag in Jian Songyi's arms: "Just hold it like this, don't you plan to return it to me?"

At this time, Jian Songyi's unreasonable temper came up: "It was originally mine, why did I give it back to you?"

"You gave it to me."

"Can't you take it back after giving it away?"

"...Yes, you can do whatever you want."

Bai Huai lowered his head and smiled helplessly.

This sketchbook was bought by Jian Songyi when he was five or six years old. Later, Bai Huai accidentally flipped through it and was about to pass it. Jian Songyi thought it had his father's annotations on it, so he gave it to him without thinking too much.

Bai Huai has been carrying it since then, and it carries the memories of the two people he cares about most in his life, which is extremely precious, so when Wang Shan stole it, he lost his composure and lost his temper rarely.

What made him feel even more uneasy was his thoughts hidden inside.

He didn't know when it started, but he felt that his liking for Jian Songyi had changed, and it became the kind of liking that he wanted to guard him for the rest of his life.

At first, it was ignorant.

When he showed the characteristics of Alpha for the first time, that ignorance became uneasy.

Although he didn't regard himself as an Omega for more than ten years, he suddenly became an Alpha, which made him realize that there was an insurmountable iron wall between him and Jane Songyi.

Alpha and Alpha are together, whether it is moral public opinion or policy restrictions, they are all discriminated against.

The most important thing is that at the age of thirteen or fourteen, it is the age when the boy's love begins. Consciously or unconsciously, he will always hear others say, which good-looking Omega has confessed his love to Jian Songyi again, and it seems very Board right.

At that time, Jian Songyi was at the most peacock-like age, and she was very flamboyant, always saying that he wanted to be the most A and marry the sweetest O.

The speaker has no intention, the listener has the heart.

When Bai Huai smelled the pheromone belonging to Alpha in his body for the first time, the sweet and sour secret thoughts became extremely bitter.

He was afraid that his wishful liking would bring criticism and controversy to this boy, and he was also afraid that this liking that was prejudiced by the world would make this boy feel burdened and disgusted.

He felt that this was a secret that could be hidden for a lifetime, and he was really suffering, so he wrote that sentence in that notebook.

When I wrote it down, unfortunately, Wang Shan saw it.

That night, Wang Shan stole the book, saying that he wanted to make it public, and that he wanted to show Jian Songyi what kind of dirty thoughts the people he thought were brothers actually had.

During the dispute, he was thrown downstairs.

Downstairs was a patch of bushes and bushes. Bai Huai searched for it all night with a flashlight. His hands and ankles were scratched all over, but he still couldn't find it.

Before he could close his eyes, he heard that Jian Songyi had acute gastroenteritis, his parents were not at home, so he hurriedly asked for leave, rushed to the hospital, stayed there for a day, and just returned to school, Wang Shan jumped off the building.

And that night, he entered the formal division, because he was a top-level Alpha, the process of differentiation was extremely depressing and painful, and there was no father by his side to tell him how to be an Alpha.

He locked himself in the room alone, not daring to let anyone find out, let alone tell Jian Songyi.The walls of the bedroom, because of the pain of hammering the wall again and again to vent, the paint has peeled off and is stained with blood.

When he came out again, he was as indifferent as usual, hiding all the pheromones, as if nothing had happened.

Jian Songyi thought it was Wang Shan who jumped off the building to stimulate him.

He didn't deny it, and he felt that everything could be hidden until he went to see Wangshan.

Wang Shan smiled coldly and sadly at the time: "Bai Huai, do you think this kind of thing can be hidden? It can't be hidden. But don't worry, I won't say it, I just want to see with my own eyes how you can't hide it live, and then how does the good brother you care about the most think you are dirty and disgusting. God is still very fair, no one will let it go. "

When Bai Huai left the ward that day, the first thing he asked Jian Songyi was: "Jian Songyi, what am I to you?"

At that time, Jian Songyi did not hesitate: "Brother, a buddy for a lifetime, is closer than a real brother."

Bai Huai smiled at the time, as if he had got a satisfactory answer.

Then he left the next day, taking nothing but the pot of young cedar.

He promised his father that he would give up his medical career and study literature to pursue a political career. The condition was that he would transfer to Beicheng and transfer his household registration together. He had no plans to come back.

If that love can't be hidden, then let's go, it's better to become a beautiful regret in the memory, and one day, if I don't like you, I will come back again.

Later, he came back.

But it's not because I don't like it anymore, but because I like it too much. I like it until I separated for three years and cut off all ties but I still like it. I like it so much that I feel that everything else is no longer important. As long as I can see you and be with you, it's good.

I had prepared for the worst.

But now I can tell this long and lonely love, and I can sit quietly with you, watching the car lights cut through the night, and passing by this city where we have lived together since childhood, for me, there is nothing to be content with .

These are Bai Huai's thoughts.

He tilted his head to look out the window.

He suddenly smiled and said, "Jane Songyi, except this time, I don't seem to have lost before."

Seems to be.

Jian Song thought about it for a while, since childhood, Bai Huai has never lost except for this monthly exam.

He's the best at everything, and always has been, outrageously good.

And if it wasn't for him this time, he might not have lost either.

Jian Song tilted her head and looked out the window on the other side: "I'm sorry."

Bai Huai originally wanted to say, there's nothing I'm sorry for, I like you, if you lose, you lose, and you lose willingly.

But he never spoke.

Jian Songyi breathed out on the glass, the thick white mist blocked the reflection of his red eyes from the window.

What he didn't say was that the sentence "sorry" was because if he hadn't been so dull, reckless and self-righteous, would Bai Huai have suffered less for so many years.

In the late autumn night, the fog is thick, flowing mistyly in the city, passing the night, leaving only one blurred shadow after another.

On the window of the car, the person behind was faintly reflected, but unfortunately it was too blurry to understand the other person's mind.

There was only silence in the room.

Stop the car.

Get off, respectively.

Jian Songyi suddenly turned around and called to stop Bai Huai: "Don't you have anything else to say?"

Bai Huai paused, didn't turn around, but said lightly: "Yes, there are many, but I'm afraid you won't like to hear it."

"Bai Huai, why are you always like this? How can you hide things so well? I'm different from you. I can't hide things, so I don't know how to guess other people's thoughts. You are like this, I really annoy you to death gone."

Jian Songyi let out a deep breath, trying to clear the mist from the corners of her eyes.

"I also bother myself, like a fool, I didn't find anything for so many years, I still blame you, I blame you, I am angry at you, I think you like others, and I am a good brother every day, and I ask you if you have a crush on me, or ...I'm an idiot anyway."

Throat rolled: "So, today, can we speak clearly."

For a moment, Bai Huai didn't know what to say, the lines on his shoulders were stiff: "I thought, if you say sorry, we just made it clear."

"Understood ass." Jian Songyi was so angry that Bai Huai burst into foul language, "How did you explain it? What did you explain? Do you like me? When did you like me? Why did you like me? What do you like about me? Which one? Have you explained the problem clearly? How can you wrong yourself so much? Say those words, let me feel guilty, feel bad, wrong me, can't you? "

The corners of Jian Songyi's eyes turned even redder.

The temper is still so bad, impatient, love to blow hair, fierce, full of thorns.

He just didn't know how to hide his soft belly.

How can people not like it.

Bai Huai let out a breath slowly, turned around, took a step forward, stood a short distance in front of Jian Songyi, lowered his eyes, and met his eyes, his eyes were gentle, every word, slowly, but loudly, firmly and affectionately.

"Yes, I like you."

"When did I like it, I don't remember, maybe I liked it from the beginning."

"I like you because you are Jane Songyi."

"I like everything about you."

"The problem is clear."

"I can be wronged very much, so I can't wrong you even once."

"In this way, I should love you very much in the future, spoil you, and treat you very well, so I want you to be my boyfriend, do you think it's okay?"