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I always feel that part of my soul is drawn away all the time, and I am not interested in everything.It seems that something has been forgotten, thinking hard, but found that my mind is almost blank.what did i do todaySome impressions, but vague.

Walking around on the roof, there is a crack on the roof that is similar to the room, but more complicated and longer.The ground is uneven and uncomfortable to walk on, and there is a small, somewhat deep pool in the corner that looks like a drain, but is blocked.The pool is covered with dark green moss, the water inside is very dirty and dark green, there are red slender insects writhing in the shape of "8" in the water, some newborn mosquitoes are floating on the water surface, There was a stench.

Go away, go downstairs, go out, hang out in the street, through street after street.Looking at the dazzling array of products, I have no desire to buy.He only had a little change with him, and there was no room for squandering.There are a lot of people on the street, bustling, all kinds of hawking and bargaining complement each other.There was a traffic jam on the road, and there was a piercing honking.The trees on the street looked listless, and the bark on their bodies was mottled and withered.A stray dog ​​walked cautiously among the crowd, looking for food in the street, looking up from time to time, casting begging glances at people, but was never ignored.

Incidents of forced buying and selling are not uncommon. Buyers and sellers are arguing on the street, and swear words are poured out.Nobody cares about that, everyone is too busy doing their own thing and doesn't care about strangers.This world seems to be corrupted by darkness, becoming more and more false.There is insidiousness, cunning, brutality and violence everywhere.Real life is often more dramatic than TV dramas, and people in real life are more ruthless than in movies and TV shows.The story comes from life, this is really a "colorful and colorful" world!

Out of boredom, someone tapped me on the shoulder.

"What a coincidence," he said.

who is thisno impression.

"Yes." I said perfunctorily, he seemed to have something to say, I interrupted: "I have to leave first."

The man was taken aback for a moment, and his expression softened again: "Oh...okay."

It seems to see something from the expression on his face: Disappointed?lonely?Reluctant?Strange things, illusions, everything in this world is always so false.

Before I knew it, I was hungry.I went to a small noodle shop and ordered some noodles.It's hard to get rid of instant noodles, but I still eat noodles.I found that I was just living, not living, all the time.I actually thought I could eat dozens of flavors of instant noodles, but I thought it was troublesome, so I only bought the same kind of instant noodles.

I ate very slowly, almost one by one. The guests around me had changed several rounds, and I was still sitting there.The waiter stared at me for a long time before I hurriedly finished eating, paid and left.

Where to go now.Now... I have nowhere to go, let's go home, I looked around, suddenly I couldn't tell where it was, I walked in the direction I came and went, and I walked back home slowly, the clock has dutifully pointed to 06:30, the sky has already passed It's dark.Going to bed early, I suddenly remembered something I forgot today: Today, is it the head?I couldn't imagine it, so I quickly closed my eyes.In the middle of the night, I really woke up again, and this time I really didn't dare to open my eyes again.Afraid to see that frightening head.

Over the past few days, I found that the man was a man, about the age of a young man, and he was very strong.Much better than me, who looks sick and lacks exercise.The looks are just mediocre, and I don't expect much favor from me.Whether they can get married in the future is a big question.I know, I have some mental illness, what I know is face blindness.It means that I can't remember people's faces. I haven't remembered a few people until now. Even the faces of my parents are gradually blurred in my mind.I may be familiar with that man today, but I don't remember it at all.

Today is an exception, there is no noise from the alarm clock, but there is an impatience born from the heart.I don't know what's wrong, but I'm even more uncomfortable.I really want to open my eyes, but I dare not. Who knows what I will see?Later, he fell asleep unconsciously.It was the first time since this incident that I fell asleep, and when I opened my eyes, it was broad daylight.

Is the alarm clock still ringing?Then sleep a little longer.Later, I felt more and more wrong, and the sky was so bright.I took a look at the alarm clock, and I was shocked that it was past ten o'clock. Then I looked again and found that the alarm clock had stopped.No wonder I didn't hear the alarm clock last night.I got up and looked at the clock in the living room. It was actually not too far off, it was nine o'clock.Anyway, I'm late today, and my wages may be deducted.

I quickly packed up and ran to the company.Unexpectedly, the supervisor blocked me at the door and made me suffer a lot of scolding.Fortunately, no salary deduction was mentioned, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

As soon as I took my seat, a man hurried over: "What's wrong? Why are you late today?"

I didn't care much and said, "Oh, it's nothing."

Another colleague next to him shouted: "That's enough, ignore him, a weirdo."

Yeah, maybe I'm just a weirdo.The man should have left, but he still didn't leave, occupying half of my table, he even put his hand on my forehead and asked, "Is there anything wrong?"

This is a weirdo, inexplicable!It's fine if I'm a woman, but I'm a man, why are you so courteous?Also, I don't seem to know him very well.

"I saw you in a trance yesterday." He went on to say, it turned out that he was the person I met yesterday.

"Nothing." I frowned.

He seemed to sense my impatience, he stood up and said, "You have to take good care of yourself."

This person is really strange and inexplicable, leave him alone and continue my work.The office is very noisy, colleagues are talking and laughing.Sometimes the supervisor came in to inspect, and suddenly became silent and put on a show.People are fickle animals, sometimes this way, sometimes like that, don't know when it's true and when it's false.Some people look polite on the surface, but in fact they may bother you in their hearts.

There is always a feeling of sight, staring at me so uncomfortable.Follow the feeling to look there, it is him again, really annoying.ignore, ignore.

In fact, I shouldn't be like this. Finally, there is someone who can talk to me, but I don't know why, I hate him very much, and I don't know where this feeling comes from.

Continuing to work, time passes away in the combination and collision of words.As soon as working hours were over, people walked out in droves.At this time, you treat the other party as a friend, but because of a trivial matter, you may become a sworn enemy.Human feelings are the least worthy of scrutiny, because they will break at the first touch.

For this kind of temporary feelings, you must not go deep into it. If you take something that should not be taken seriously, you will suffer and hate forever.Among all the emotions, the most difficult to let go can only be regarded as family affection, because it is born with blood as a bond, and it is much stronger than other feelings that are made out of thin air.In the case of friendship, friends can become enemies; in the case of love, it is difficult to distinguish between true and false.There is only family affection, no matter what, it is always your relatives. This feeling that blood is thicker than water cannot be cut off no matter what.

In a blink of an eye, it was time to go home.

"Wait..." Someone called me from behind.

"That..." He paused: "Will you come for the anniversary next week?"

Anniversary?Looks like it's the company's anniversary celebration, right?I have been working here for more than two years, and I have never participated in it once. No one will talk to me, and no one will invite me. I only get a little lively atmosphere from the few words of others.

want to go?Looking at his earnest eyes, I don't want to go.

"Let's see when the time comes." He replied, turned his head and left.

"I'll wait for you." Came later.