[Comprehensive] Retirement of the brave

The past is the proof of one's existence, something you can't erase under any circumstances.Even if you in the future have achieved success and lived a life where you can swim in the sea of ​​banknotes, there may still be some shadows from the past haunting you.It may have come from a poor family, bad family relationships, a bullying in your teenage years, or someone who came to you in the name of a friend, etc.

Some people can get rid of them, but some people may be dragged back into the shadow that they finally climbed out of.At least, Cheng Sisi is the latter.Like relatives that tarsus maggots can't get rid of, friends who remember but don't remember, each of them wants to get more money and more benefits from her.

When she stood on the top floor and looked at the dim moon covered by the clouds, she just thought what is the purpose of being alive?She tried her best to escape from that patriarchal family, and tried her best to escape the shadow of their arrival.

She was admitted to a university far away, and went to a city where no one knew her.She changed her hairstyle and clothes in a completely different style, and she looked forward to seeing this as the beginning of her new life.She studied hard and worked hard after graduation. Her life was tiring but fulfilling, so fulfilling that she almost forgot everything before.

Until she actually made it.Those who heard the news came over like flies that smelled blood, playing tricks, or using various rogue methods.The paparazzi of the media also came to hear the news. They regarded themselves as messengers of justice, and condemned her for refusing to recognize her parents after she became famous.

Every day, almost every day, Cheng Sisi could see overwhelming tweets condemning her, and many of the comments below were people asking: Why doesn't a person like her die?

That's right, Cheng Sisi thought blankly, why didn't he die, why did he spend the rest of his life entangled with those people?Is there anything else to miss in this world?

As he thought about it, tears fell from his eyes uncontrollably.Tired, really tired of living.So when she finally chose to jump down from the top floor, she still felt a little relieved, it was over, it was finally over.That was her last thought.

As soon as he fell into this world from the previous world, he was forced to watch the scene of jumping off the building. "How is it? What do you think?" Bai and Hei sat side by side on the roof of the tall building opposite, and there were two bottles of wine in the middle, and they didn't know where they came from.Several empty bottles have been thrown behind Hei, his face was flushed, and he was slightly drunk, "Why don't you talk," he smiled foolishly at Bai, "Could it be that you are frightened by the ugliness of people's hearts?"

He held the wine bottle and waved his hands, "The living are troubles, no, the living are all troubles. You see, I don't have such troubles. Death will remove those thorns that are clinging to obsessions, which one else? Don’t you wait obediently and wait for reincarnation? Brain, heart, etc., the soul doesn’t have this part.”

Bai held the wine bottle in both hands and drank in small sips, gentle and restrained. "You drank too much." Bai said; "I honestly don't understand why that girl chose to die. But the reason is that living has become a burden to her." His eyelashes trembled slightly, and he paused Ask: "Do you like freshmen?"

"Like it?" Hei glanced at him, and laughed out loud, "Like it? Hahahaha, did I say you were joking?" Hei wiped away the tears from his laughter with one hand, his eyes were full of confusion, as if he didn't understand him Why you laugh, of course, may also be because you don't understand how your words become a joke.

"I don't like unpredictable things, and I will never like the race of the culprit who will bind you and me for thousands of years for personal gain." He only lasted for a moment, then turned his head and said in a joking tone: "Do you want to consider handing over your work to me? Screening, expulsion, obliteration, oh yes, and silence, I think I am good at this Perhaps more talented than you."

"At least, I won't be soft-hearted casually, and I won't be caught up in the task by any messy thoughts, right?" Hei licked the canine teeth on the upper jaw, with a fierce look.However, he didn't consciously move towards Bai, put his face close to him, and said in a low voice, "Think about it, brother—my lord?"

The gradual sound of an ambulance downstairs and the siren of a police car interrupted Bai's answer.The crowd of onlookers downstairs blocked the road, and the police pulled up the cordon while driving away the crowd, while the doctors had to yell to please make way, while struggling to push the crowd away.

Relying on the ear power that is still excellent even if it is weakened, even sitting on the top of the building, Hei and Bai can easily hear what everyone in the crowd below is saying.

Just now I was talking to someone, "She is just pretending. If she really wants to commit suicide, she will jump straight away with her eyes closed and her legs will jump. Do you still need to wait for someone to find her? Don't worry, she must be just pretending to blog." Pay attention, I can’t jump.” The person is now talking to the people next to him in a nonchalant and somewhat surprised tone, “Did he really jump? Hey, I haven’t seen anyone jump off a building yet.”

Some people put on an educational tone, "Young people, because their psychological endurance is too poor, they jump off buildings all day long when they have little trouble. Can everything be solved by death? It's just escaping. It will only make those who love you sad."

"Really, I'm scared to death. Did you just choose to jump off a building in the downtown area? What if it hits someone else? You'll pay for her life in vain. Hey, I didn't get blood splashed on me, please help me Take a look." The stylishly dressed woman greeted her companions with difficulty hiding her disgust.

Nie Yun changed his clothes and looked like a plain college student, wearing a plaid shirt and wide-leg pants.Standing in the crowd at this time, his eyes were red, as if he was about to cry in the next second.

He turned around abruptly and pushed away the people around him fiercely. The man who told people that he had never seen anyone jump off the building before was unprepared, and was pushed back a few steps and fell to the ground.He was startled at first, but when he saw clearly that the person who pushed him was a skinny young man, his face immediately changed into a vicious expression.

He cursed, "There is something wrong with you!" Then he rolled up his sleeves and raised his fist to greet Nie Yun, but was stopped by his companion, "Okay, okay, the police are still here. I want to get him There are plenty of opportunities, so there is no need to grab these two or three minutes."

"You, you!" Nie Yun's red eyes looked at every face around him that was either indifferent or full of fun. With his face flushed, he managed to say, "You bastards, you're really inhumane for doing all your dirty work!"

"What are you talking about! Are you in a hurry to get a beating!" The man raised his fist angrily again, this time he was not the only one who thought of Nie Yun.Several men were gearing up there, waiting for the police to leave and rushing up.

"That's a human life, a living human life!" Nie Yun became impatient, "Is a life so worthless in your eyes? Does it really feel nothing at all? Or is the death of others just a matter of death in your eyes?" Something new, just a joke, a joke?"

Hei leaned drunkenly on Bai's shoulder, grinned and said with a smirk: "This kid is quite funny, a bit like the one back then, the guy who rushed to the battlefield to look for you recklessly. Hey, what's his name? Come on?" He tapped his head and muttered: "I don't remember, it's been too long. Maybe I can forget about the original things in the future, um, wait for me to find, find something..." His voice It got smaller and smaller, and there was no movement behind it.

In order to make his pillow more comfortable, Bai tried his best to relax his shoulders, and put one hand on his head to block the sunlight.Looking at Nie Yun below, Bai said softly: "Actually, I can't remember clearly. The only thing I remember is that he stood in front of me, arguing with tens of thousands of dark troops, and desperately telling them that I was wronged." is innocent.

Said to me until the time of death, said 'I believe in you, I know the truth, even if I die, but the truth will never disappear, one day it will let everyone know. 'Probably, that's all I remember. "

"What, didn't you forget it at all?" Hei said, rubbed on the white shoulders to find a comfortable position, and soon fell asleep again.

The dispute downstairs continued.The man spat unceremoniously, "It's not that I killed the person, and it's not that I pushed her down when she jumped off the building herself. It's up to me whether she dies or not."

Nie Yun was so shocked by his argument that he couldn't speak. He looked at the people around the man. Although no one said a word, but judging from their expressions, everyone seemed to disagree with his statement.People's hearts are often indifferent to the point of being unbelievable, and the most frightening thing is that the parties often think that they are just out of human nature.

"I heard what you said," Nie Yun was about to cry out of anger, he pointed at the man, this was the first time he did such an impolite move. "You shouted downstairs just now, 'Why don't you jump, jump quickly, just say you don't dare to dance!'"

"And you," the person he pointed at shrank his head guiltily, "you shouted that too downstairs." Nie Yun's tears rolled in his eyes, "She will die, you are all murderers, Every word you say is the hand that pushed her down the stairs!" With veins bulging on his forehead, he slammed the words in front of everyone with great force.

Bai sighed, and a voice that only he could hear rang in Nie Yun's ear, "Come on, there's no need to argue with these people, it's useless."

"But……"

"It's useless." Bai said: "This is just the last dream left by that woman. She has already died in reality, and she has been dead for many years. Before she died, she wanted to start all over again." She came here, but she didn’t think she could really escape her sad fate, so the story of her life was repeated over and over again in this world.”

So the onlookers will be more indifferent and more terrifying than in reality, because the owner of the dream has died full of despair, and the world is such a bad look for her.No one cares whether she is alive or not, and no one cares why she died.

"How could this be..." Maybe reality is scarier than this dream.

The passage of time in the small world is always fast and slow, and the world where the protagonist has died will soon start to restart before Nie Yun's eyes.High-rise buildings have become one-story houses, and the wide road has narrowed a lot. The time has been set forward by decades, back to the beginning of everything.

Nie Yun saw a thin little girl in ragged clothes. She followed behind her parents who were better dressed. She lowered her head and looked enviously at the items visited in the shop windows on both sides from time to time.The parents were holding a boy in their arms. The boy was biting a piece of candy, his face was dirty and he kept shouting for this and that.The parents coaxed nicely.It seems that there is no place for girls in this family.

"Is that her?" Nie Yun stared blankly, the girl's face could vaguely see what she would look like in the future.He touched his pocket, looked around again, and ran into a nearby shop.After coming here for a while, I walked out of the store with a small box in my arms.The girl was standing alone on the curb by the side of the road, and the parents probably carried the boy to go shopping.She was afraid of being scolded, and also afraid of being beaten.So if they are not allowed to run around, they really dare not even move.

At this time, the weather is not yet warm, with some spring chills.The girl's clothes were very thin, and even though she tried her best to curl up, she was still shivering from the cold.

"That, that," Nie Yun ran over panting, and stuffed the box in his arms into the girl's arms.He lifted the lid of the box, and inside the box was a pile of miscellaneous things: snacks, notebooks, pens, erasers, and some simple books. "All of these are for you."

He stuffed the thing into the girl's arms again under the surprised eyes of the girl. What was the word that the person mentioned that day? By the way, "I want to invest in you. These are all my sponsorships for you. You will have more money in the future." Return them all to me in order to make a profit. I believe that you will become a very outstanding person in the future and let me earn ten times and a hundred times."

The author has something to say: I know many friends who suffer from depression.We are so far apart, there is no way I can help them better.

Therefore, I can only hope that the world can be gentle with them, at least so that they will not fall too painfully when they fall.