Madness of the Heart

32 years ago, Yu Caixin was born in an ordinary family in Yizi City. His parents taught in an elementary school and controlled Yu Caixin in a ridiculously strict way.

Before entering junior high school, Yu Caixin was excellent in character and learning, because she was considered pretty and cute among the girls in her class, and she had been a "class flower" for a long time.

But her traditional and rigid parents think that it is a matter of embarrassment for the family to pay too much attention to the girl's appearance.As long as Yu Caixin has good grades, it is enough, but being called a "class flower" makes them feel dissatisfied.

At that time, Yu's father happened to be the head teacher of Yu Caixin's class.During the class meeting, Yu's father criticized Yu Caixin in front of the whole class, belittling the term "banhua" as an obscenity, saying that Yu Caixin should be ashamed of being called a "banhua".

The strange thing is that from the beginning to the end, Yu's father only criticized his own daughter, and did not criticize the student who called Yu Caixin "the class flower".

Yu Caixin did not argue, and accepted the wrong control of her parents until she entered junior high school.

Junior high school is a critical stage for girls' bodies to change.Yu Caixin began to develop in the first day of junior high school. She grew taller, her chin became sharper, her breasts protruded, and she gradually developed a feminine silhouette.This made her the center of attention of the boys as soon as school started.

Gradually, people began to call her "Ban Hua" again, and there were even boys from senior grades waiting for her on the way home from school.

Yu's father and Yu's mother inquired about Yu Caixin's situation in junior high school through teachers and friends. They were deeply panicked and angry. They were afraid that their daughter would focus on her appearance and neglect her studies. " thing.

At that time, there was no regulation in Yizi City that primary and secondary school students had to wear school uniforms. Students only needed to wear school uniforms when the national flag was raised on Mondays. They usually wore clothes bought by their families.Together, Yu's mother and Yu's father locked up all of Yu Caixin's skirts and forced Yu Caixin to cut her thick long hair into the same size as a boy's. Yu Caixin was only allowed to wear a loose, bulky dark T-shirt and jeans to school.

This kind of dress is already considered a "freak" in the eyes of junior high school girls who start to love beauty.

To make matters worse, Yu Caixin's breasts were developing at that time, and Yu's mother turned pale when she talked about her breasts. She thought that wearing bras for teenage children was to encourage them to seduce the opposite sex, which was a sign of "uncleanness", so she only bought them for Yu Caixin. Vest.

The vest has a thin layer of fabric, it has no supporting function, and it can't cover the places that the girl doesn't want outsiders to see.

Yu Caixin without a bra became a joke at school.

Whenever she walks, her boobs sway.The most frightening thing was the physical education class. The boys with malicious intentions whistled arrogantly, and the kind girls whispered to her——Zai Xin, you showed your face.

A young girl with a face thinner than paper.Yu Caixin didn't dare to hold her head up anymore, and minimized her sense of presence on various occasions.

By the second day of junior high school, all the girls in the class began to develop, and all of them wore bras inside and beautiful skirts outside, showing off their beauty.Only Yu Caixin was still shaved, wearing glasses, and wearing a gray T-shirt and denim.

From "class flower", she became the most rustic student in the class.

She began to become obese, and pimples appeared on her originally delicate face, which made her look even more gray and unpopular.

Some boys have begun to describe her as "disgusting" and "a lump of oil".

Obviously less than a year ago, she was still the most watched girl in the class.

People laughed at her clothes, at her hairstyle, at her figure, at her breasts that swayed even more because of her fatness.

She lived frugally, bought a corset with the pocket money she saved, and wore it secretly.She didn't wear it for a long time, but she was called out from the class by Yu's mother. When she returned to the classroom, her face was full of tears, and the corset had been replaced with a vest.

Yizi City is just a small city, and rumors spread very quickly.

It didn't take long for this incident to spread various versions, and it became the talk of many families after dinner.

Yu Caixin transferred to the best middle school in Yizi——Yizi No. [-] Middle School in the third year of junior high school. The teacher in charge of students’ mental health told Yu’s father and Yu’s mother that Yu Caixin had been under long-term depression and had serious psychological problems. I suggest you go see it A psychiatrist, or come here to accept a period of psychological counseling.

In those days, "psychological problems" was a new word in big cities, not to mention small ones.

For many people, having a psychological problem is the same as having a mental illness.

In the third year of junior high school, his studies were heavy, but Yu's father immediately refused, thinking that accepting psychological counseling was a waste of time.

"What psychological problem? Why does my daughter have psychological problems! Learning is the first priority! We are all teaching and educating people, don't fool me!"

No. [-] Middle School has a high enrollment rate, and correspondingly, there is great competition among students.Under the multiple pressures of school work, appearance, and parents, Yu Caixin's mental state became worse and worse. She swallowed a large amount of sleeping pills in the second semester of the third year of junior high school.

Yu Caixin once again became the talking point of the small city.

After this incident, the relationship between Yu Caixin and her parents became more and more tense.

Entering the high school of No. [-] Middle School, Yu Caixin chose to live on campus and hardly ever went home.

After being freed from her parents' control, she saved food expenses and secretly bought cheap but beautiful clothes. Later, she lost weight and gradually returned to her pre-fat state.

In the first semester of high school, her grades fluctuated a little. Even the class teacher thought it was normal, so there was no need to worry, but Yu's father and Yu's mother rushed into her dormitory after the parent meeting, and found all the beautiful clothes in her closet. Watching her face tear apart.

"I knew it! Your grades dropped because of these clothes!" Yu's mother cried and condemned: "Your task now is to study, not to dress up! You are still a student, so what can you do if you dress well? Why don't you listen to Dad? Mom? We are all for your own good!"

The whole dormitory and the girls on the whole floor rushed to watch the fun. Yu Caixin was poked on the shoulder by Yu's mother, and stepped back to the wall step by step...

The farce in junior high made a comeback, Yu Caixin's hard work was smashed by her "for your own good" parents, and she finally became the laughing stock of being talked about by her classmates again.

For three years in high school, Yu Caixin was constantly pointed at because of her appearance. The story of her skirt being torn to pieces by her mother was circulating on campus. Even the junior high school students used her as a joke——

"Yu Caixin is so pitiful, her parents are too strange."

"What kind of clothes are Yu Caixin wearing? Why are they so dirty?"

"Yes, and her hairstyle. In fact, she's not bad looking. Doesn't she know how to take care of herself?"

"I heard from her junior high school classmates that she doesn't wear a bra."

"Really? How can there be girls without bras?"

"Why is she so fat? Isn't she so ugly?"

In the college entrance examination, Yu Caixin passed the exam in Yizi City, finally got rid of her parents, and made a boyfriend in the new campus.

Those were perhaps the most relaxing four years in Yu Caixin's life.

The boyfriend is from Yizi. After graduation, because the family helped arrange a job, he insisted on returning to Yizi City.

Yu Caixin had to go back to Yizi City together.

Soon, her boyfriend cheated on her, and the "little three" was a colleague in the work unit, a "returnee", very beautiful and good at dressing up.

In the small city of Yizi, Yu Caixin once again became the joke of the people.

At the age of 24, she left Yizi City and came to Dongye City to work hard, cutting off all contact with her relatives.

"Yu Caixin has always been troubled by her appearance." Xiao Yu'an said: "After she came to Dongye City, she seemed to be a different person. The success of her career made her more and more confident, but the shadow of the past-being oppressed by her parents and ridiculed by her classmates , Betrayed by her boyfriend, these things have formed a knot in her heart, and she has never untied it. She has not seen a psychiatrist these years, and let the knot get bigger and bigger."

"So she can't accept any negative comments on her appearance. Before plastic surgery, she often walked around the Huayun Center just to be affirmed by street photographers, but the only comment she got was 'she is not good-looking'." Mingshu said Tone, "Yu Caixin does not know how much hatred is suppressed in her heart. Back then, she was unable to take revenge on her parents, classmates, and boyfriends, but now she is finally able to take revenge on Chen Quanhan and Luo Xiangfu."

Xiao Yu'an shook his head, "Maybe it's not just a question of ability. Yu Caixin must not have been as distorted as she is now. At that time, she was just a student, she hadn't stepped into the society, and her hatred hadn't turned into murderous intent. She came to Dongye City for eight years. She has been living alone, never had a boyfriend, and has no relatives or friends around her. Yu Caixin seems to be a successful person, but only she knows what she has experienced in the past eight years and the burden on her shoulders. Her Mental problems have not been cured for a moment."

Mingshu thought of Cao Xiang, "Xinxiang headhunting company has a lot of problems. Yu Caixin and her partner Cao Xiang have been fighting for power."

Xiao Yu'an looked out of the window, "Maybe Yu Caixin was at her lowest point when she went to Huayun Center, the pressure almost made her collapse, she hoped to get compliments, even if there was only one sound. But all she heard that day was Chen Quanhan's 'She is not good-looking' .”

The conversation between Yu Caixin and Zhou Yuan came from the surveillance. Yu Caixin laughed frequently, but the laughter was quite weird.

Mingshu looked at Yu Caixin and felt that this woman was like a gorgeous sculpture, which was gradually collapsing from the inside.

"Yu Caixin has no one she trusts. This is the same as Hou Cheng. It is impossible for her to let her friends keep the photos for her, and there is a high probability that she will not let the photos be too far away from her." Xiao Yu'an said: "When she wants to find out and reminisce about Chen , Luo desperate struggle, can be easily seen."

"Her house has been searched." Ming Shu said, "How about I go there again?"

"Wait." Xiao Yu'an asked, "If it's not at her house, where is it most likely?"

"I..." Mingshu had thought about this question a long time ago, but he had no clue.

Yu Caixin can hide the photos anywhere, as close as under the soil of the flower beds in the community, as far as the police can't think of.

"It's close to her, and you can see it if you want to. At the same time, it's hard for the police to suspect." Xiao Yu'an almost said to himself, "Where could it be..."

Mingshu closed his eyes, messy clues collided in his mind.

He has already checked most of the monitoring screens of the love water bank community. Yu Caixin leaves and returns home very regularly. He does not have any weird behaviors in the community. He often goes to the convenience store to buy drinks and cigarettes, or to the fruit shop to buy a bag of fruit. , Sometimes take the courier home.

express delivery?

Mingshu opened his eyes wide.

An insignificant thing, like a piece of driftwood, floated up in his churning mind.

Before going to Los Angeles to search for clues to the tomb, he ordered a set of kitchen supplies online and sent them to Xiao Yu'an's residence.When the things were sent to Dongye City, both he and Xiao Yu'an were already in Luo City, and there was no one to pick them up for the time being.

It is the property office that collects the courier in the community. Call him and ask him to pick it up as soon as possible. The office only keeps it for a week.

This annoyed him a little.

He often shopped online, but almost all of them were sent to his own community, and he rarely sent them to Xiao Yuan's residence, and he never encountered the situation of "only keeping them for a week".

The neighborhood where he lives is a convenience store, not a property office, that collects the courier.He often travels on business and doesn't go home for ten and a half months. He has already agreed with the shopkeepers that he will leave the courier when it arrives. He will pay an extra storage fee and pick it up when he returns home.

When a person is regarded as a suspect, the police will search his home, his work unit, and even the residences of his relatives and friends, but they will never search the convenience store in his community.

"Brother!" Mingshu said, "I thought of a place."

There are four convenience stores in the Aiqin waterfront community, all of which provide courier collection and delivery services. Mingshu personally leads a team to inquire, but the bosses all say that there is no courier for Yu Caixin in their warehouse.

After a second round of search of Yu Caixin's home, nothing was found.

"Master." Fang Yuanhang bought a few bottles of water at a convenience store, and threw a bottle to Mingshu, "We can only let Yu Caixin confess, otherwise where can we find it?"

"How to get her to confess?" Mingshu said, "Torture to extract a confession?"

Fang Yuanhang rolled his eyes, "Master, what are you talking about?"

"I also want to ask you what you said." Mingshu downed half a bottle of water in one breath, and frowned under the scorching sun, "Do you know why Yu Caixin is so arrogant? It's because she predicted that we would not find evidence. As long as we can't , when the time limit is up, we can only let him go. In this case, do you think she will obediently plead guilty?"

Fang Yuanhang stuck the bottle to his face, not knowing whether he was cooling his face or his brain.

Mingshu returned to the police car, thinking about other possibilities, when he suddenly saw someone arguing outside the No. 2 gate of the community not far away.

A courier using a tricycle to deliver goods was stopped by the property management, and the courier yelled: "Why can they enter?"

"They" refers to the van passing on the motorway.

The property manager said, "Are you new here? Your courier company has no cooperative relationship with our convenience store, so you can't go in."

"Then what should I do with my truck?" The courier was covered in sweat, and his young face was full of anxiety.

"Put it there." The property management pointed to a row of small shops outside the community, "Your company's express delivery is put there, have you seen it?"

A flash in Mingshu's mind immediately said, "Let's go!"

When checking the courier collection points, he overlooked one thing, that is, not only the convenience stores in the community, but also the vegetable stores, dry cleaners, even stewed vegetable stores and pharmacies near the community.

For residents, there is only a wall between the collection points inside and outside the community, and it is the same wherever they take it, it is nothing more than walking a few steps.

After checking half a street, a fruit shop named "Tao Tao Le" admitted that Ms. Yu's courier was in the shop.

The owner searched for a long time, and found a tightly packed box from the corner of the narrow warehouse, "Here, this is it."

Mingshu took it immediately. Judging from the information on the list, the courier was sent from a courier point in Beicheng District, and the sender's contact number was familiar.

A few seconds later, Mingshu remembered that this number was Yu Caixin's mobile phone number, and the recipient's number was another Yu Caixin's mobile phone number.

"She gave me 100 yuan a month, saying that she was busy with work, and it was early in the morning when I came back every day. My store was closed. She couldn't get the express delivery, so she could only save it for a few more days." The owner said: "She gave me money. Yes, of course I put it away for her. She has picked up express delivery from me several times, and it’s always this box, and I don’t know what to buy. It’s been more than half a month, and she hasn’t come to pick it up.”

Mingshu handed the box to Fang Yuanhang, "Look at the weight, if it really contains what we are looking for, it should be a micro-slip."

Yu Caixin had already been transferred from the interrogation room to the interrogation room. Under the bright light, her eyes, which had been slightly adjusted, were opened in amazement, staring straight at the photo slip in the transparent evidence bag.

"I found the most critical evidence." Mingshu held a stack of photos with both hands, gently aligned them on the table, and then arranged them on the table one by one, "You can't quibble."

In the lower right corner of those photos, the specific time before Chen Quanhan and Luo Xiangfu were killed was printed, accurate to the minute and second.Their faces are initially covered by their own clothing, and what appears in the photographs are the naked, aging bodies of older men.

Even if they couldn't see their faces, their fear and despair seemed to pass through the frozen picture, through the passing time, and passed to the criminal police.

Time passed, the clothes were taken off, and the two faces with nothing in common had similar expressions.

They were crying, begging for mercy, tearing up and down, trying to escape, but they couldn't move their bodies at all.

"Only your fingerprint is on the camera, and there is Luo Xiangfu's blood on the camera strap—you probably didn't notice it when you cleaned it." Mingshu looked at Yu Caixin solemnly, "Do you have anything to say?"

The interrogation room fell into silence. After a long time, Yu Caixin let out a trembling laugh.

"Yes, I killed them." Her artificially sculpted face had become ferocious at some point, like a poor-quality painted skin of a beautiful woman, "I not only killed them, but also took pictures of them! They love to take pictures so much I will help them take pictures of their bodies! Take pictures of their own bodies and let them see how ugly they are! Why should they judge me when they are so ugly?"

Mingshu's eyes are dark, and there is no trace of kindness in Yu Caixin's face when he was protecting children.

The most elusive thing is people. She can kill someone because of a word from a stranger, and she can stand in front of the murderer when everyone retreats, and exchange herself for a child she has never met.

"Don't they deserve to die?" Yu Caixin laughed piercingly, "Some people deserve to die, I'm just doing harm for the people."

"You really know how to act." Ming Shu said, "Is it inspired by Lu Kun?"

Yu Caixin shook her head, "You don't understand anything."

"If I don't understand, how can I figure out your psychology? How can I find the camera you hid in the fruit shop?" Mingshu sneered, "You dare not keep the camera by your side, and you are not willing to delete the photos. Camera, you can appreciate the despair of Luo and Chen. You send the camera from various courier points near your company, and it is placed in the warehouse of the fruit shop owner like ordinary express. Because you paid the storage fee, the boss is very caring , it will never be lost. When you want to see a photo, you take it away like a courier. No one knows what you are taking, and no one even suspects it. It's normal. After you enjoy it, you pack and send the camera again the next day, and the cycle repeats. You won't lose your 'trophy', and you think the police will never find your 'trophy'."

Yu Caixin's smooth cheeks twitched.

"Lu Kun's behavior made you realize that you can put on the cloak of 'justice' for yourself." Mingshu continued: "So you deliberately bought his book before he went crazy. Let me guess what you want to say next It must be—the tomb heart bewitched me! I read his book before committing an impulsive crime! At the Shuhan Cafe that day, you not only saved people, but also broadened your thinking.”

Yu Caixin pressed her sweaty hands on the interrogation table, making unpleasant noises.

Mingshu added: "If you insist that the heart of the tomb deceived you, then at least you should be more sincere and read his book page by page instead of buying it and flipping through it a few times before putting it on the bookshelf. "

Yu Caixin didn't move her facial bones, but at this moment, her face seemed to be torn apart, and her beauty was gone.

"What I want to emphasize to you is that from the beginning to the end, you are the one who committed the crime." Mingshu said: "Whether you have been bewitched by the grave heart or not, you must be responsible for the crimes you committed!"

After a few breaths of silence, Yu Caixin seemed to be unable to support herself, and her back slammed into the back of the chair.

The muffled sound swayed, and the recorder was startled, and almost stood up to help Yu Caixin.

"Am I ugly?" Yu Caixin asked suddenly.

Outside the interrogation room, Fang Yuanhang said while watching the monitor: "I don't understand why she insists on obsessing about her appearance? Her face, whether it's before or after plastic surgery, has nothing to do with 'ugliness'. If she is considered ugly, then more ordinary girls will not live?"

"It's not her appearance, but the evaluation of the outside world." Zhou Yuan, who didn't talk too much, sighed, "Everyone has their own inner demons, and her inner demons are other people's evaluations of her appearance. If someone asked her Whether she is willing to take pictures, she will not become what she is now."

"That was the most difficult time for me. The team lost orders from several major customers, and Cao Xiang was against me in the company, trying to disintegrate the team I worked so hard to build. I heard someone say in private, Mr. Yu No, I’m an old woman, I can’t eat headhunting anymore.” Yu Caixin tilted her head, her eyes didn’t know where to look, and said slowly: “They say I’m old and rustic, and I rely on thick foundation to cover up the wrinkles on my face , relying on brand-name clothing to cover up her fat body. A young front desk girl came to the company, young and beautiful, and very foreign. I suddenly remembered what happened in my hometown many years ago, and I was always pointed at by others, so Years have passed, and I thought I had gotten rid of the evaluations of 'soil', 'ugly', and 'fat', but in the eyes of others, I was still soil, ugly, and fat, and even had a new evaluation—old. "

Yu Caixin smiled sullenly, "I'm an old woman. I went for a walk in the Huayun Center, and none of the cameras pointed at me. Even if I deliberately walked in front of those photographers, they just glanced at me, and then chased after the young and beautiful Little girl. Do you understand that feeling?"

Ming Shu frowned lightly.

"It's like I was abandoned by fate. They only see those glamorous and beautiful people. No matter how expensive clothes I wear or how exquisite makeup I put on, they can't see me." Yu Caixin's voice tightened, Excited, "They saw me occasionally, and told me with their eyes—you are so ugly, you are not qualified to be photographed by me. Chen Quanhan, he said I was ugly in front of my face. Luo Xiangfu, he would rather chase than be caught The woman he photographed didn't stop to photograph me. The woman he and I were chasing that day wore very similar clothes. He deliberately humiliated me!"

Fang Yuanhang shook his head, "Yu Caixin must be delusional, how could this be a deliberate humiliation? Luo Xiangfu may not have noticed her at all."

Zhou Yuan said: "Not being noticed, in her logic, is actually tantamount to humiliation."

"I don't want the people who humiliated me to continue to live, so they all have to die." Yu Caixin looked at Mingshu again and smiled, "I just went to the plastic surgery hospital to adjust the facial features a little, and they all went crazy. I took a picture, you said it was funny or not?"

Mingshu said: "You have been to the place where Chen Quanhan lives."

"Of course!" Yu Caixin's eyes suddenly brightened, "He has chased me in Huayun Center several times, and I have not agreed to let him take pictures. I pretended to 'pass by' Pu'ouxin Street, and gave him a bottle of refills If you want to take a picture of me, you can wait for me in the grove of the popular science playground at 11 o'clock in the evening. That old man really did what I said. He was drunk, and I covered it with drugs his nose, he is no longer my match."

Mingshu said: "On July 7, you killed Luo Xiangfu in the same way."

Yu Caixin pondered for a while, "Luo Xiangfu is very strange. He insisted on taking pictures of me in professional attire, and he also said that he could help those people in remote areas. He said that I have the aura of a real professional woman, and those who wear beautiful long Women in skirts are different. My photos are more likely to change someone’s mind. This is weird. I was a professional woman before doing micro-surgery, and I often wear business attire. Why didn’t he find my beauty? Said In the end, it’s just a dirty excuse.”

"You promised Luo Xiangfu to wear professional attire for him to take pictures, gave him spiked wine, and ordered him to wait for you at the playground late at night." Mingshu sighed, "When you killed them, didn't you feel fear?"

"Why should I be afraid?" Yu Caixin said, "I often feel that I am the one who was killed. When I was a young girl, I was killed by many people. Have you come to look for my body? You Have you ever been wronged for me? All of you just watched with a smile and used my pain as a talking point. No one ever cared about me—my parents, my classmates, my ex-boyfriend..."

A line of tears rolled down Yu Caixin's eyes.She lowered her head and raised her hand to wipe it away.

"Why don't you ask, were they terrified when they killed me?"

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