Dressed as a male protagonist

"But at the same time it makes you miserable! Humiliation! Even despair and heartbreak! Haven't you hated it, hated it?"

"No, never! Never..." As if Wei Ling's words hurt him deeply, Lu Wuchen's eyes shone with a deep light, and the smile on his face was sad and fragile, "Because it was given by the master... ...As long as it is given by the master, I will be happy. Even if there is nothing but pain? It's better than... nothing..."

Wei Ling closed his eyes in pain.

All he gave was harm, but the other party was willing to accept even the harm.

"Master...don't leave me...don't want me..." The hoarse murmur escaped from Lu Wuchen's throat, every syllable was connected with blood and flesh, as if blending with his blood and tears, between the lines Thousands of times, heart-piercing.

Wei Ling raised his face, not daring to open his eyes.Fly ash seemed to fall from the sky, with a bitter smell covering his face and shoulders.

When Wei Ling realized it, he realized that it was Lu Wuchen's hair.

The lips and petals of the two touched each other gently, unlike any other kiss, they were so careful, so cautious, with indescribable cherishment and tenderness.

"The love for you has been engraved into my bones and blood, and into my soul. It is so strong that it cannot be bitten or erased." Leaving Wei Ling's lips and petals slightly, Lu Wuchen wrapped his arms around his waist. He murmured on his lips, "If I'm really heinous, if I really can't get your forgiveness, then I beg you, kill me now, I'd rather die at your hands immediately than suffer endless torture Die and disappear in the midst of it."

Wei Ling opened his eyes, but couldn't see the face in front of him clearly.The tears in his eyes blurred his world, but this did not affect his judgment of Lu Wuchen's sincerity.

The moment the two touch each other, all the emotions are passed from the skin to each other. No one is closer than them, no one loves each other more than them.No amount of rationality can deceive the fiery heart. It is so tenacious and does not obey the command of its master at all. It just exudes a sticky nostalgic atmosphere wantonly, attracting lovers to keep approaching, and then boldly ask for it.

"Why do you want to remember?..." He buried his face in Lu Wuchen's shoulder, his fingertips trembling, "Isn't it good to end like this? Why do you want to remember?"

When he had already given up, when he had completely given up, why did he remember it again?

This is simply the worst joke God has ever played on him!

"Because I love you... I love you... When I hurt you, it screamed desperately, clamoring that it hurts too much, it hurts so much that it wants to die, so I have to think of you, remember that you once belonged to Me, and I... I've done so many wrong things..."

Lu Wuchen pressed Wei Ling's hand on his chest, under which was his beating heart.

"Can you hear it? Its voice is expressing deep love every time. It is so hot that it almost burns my whole body. Master, can you help me? Let it stop, let it stop come down..."

His eye sockets were moist, his whole body was hot as if on fire, and there were even layers of hot sweat on his forehead.His hands trembled, and gradually he could no longer hold Wei Ling's hand, and slowly lowered it.

"Wuchen...?" Wei Ling stroked Lu Wuchen's cheek, his heart was overwhelmed by a wave of shock and panic, "What's wrong with you? Wuchen?"

The two knelt and sat on the ground together, Wei Ling tightly grasped Lu Wuchen's skirt, and supported his waist from behind with the other hand, preventing him from lying on his back.

"What's going on here?" Great fear pierced his heart, Wei Ling tightened his arms, bringing the two closer.His lips pressed against the other's cheek, tears finally couldn't hold back, "Wuchen...tell me what to do, what should I do to make you feel better?"

"Stop it...kill it!"

"Do not……"

"Only by killing it can everything be stopped..."

All the strength left him in an instant, Wei Ling couldn't support the weight of the two of them anymore, and fell down on the black and ash-stained ground together with Lu Wuchen.

"Can't you feel it?" He let go of Lu Wuchen's skirt, and then slowly grabbed the clothes on his left chest, "I can't let go at all. I also... love you."

Lu Wuchen opened his eyes wide, the pupils reflected the dark sky without stars, sun and moon, and his chest heaved violently.

"Even if I don't want to admit it anymore, the fact is like this. I love you, I love my apprentice, and I love a cruel and bloodthirsty obsessed person."

The violently heaving chest stopped for an instant, as if a heartbeat had stopped suddenly.But after a while, the ups and downs resumed again, but the intensity just now no longer existed.

It's like the calm after death.

"I have humiliated my master, and I am not worthy of my master, right?"

Wei Ling did not respond to this sentence for a long time.

And Lu Wuchen didn't continue to wait, he didn't even dare to look at the person he admired who was close at hand, he just stared blankly at the sky, gradually becoming silent.

"If I die right now, Master, please forget about me. I am extremely lucky to be loved by you. I don't want...to leave you with endless pain after I die. That's not what I want. "

The continuous black ash was carried by the wind from the ground, and then scattered back, and finally returned to the soil.

The ashes of death also appeared on the faces and bodies of the two of them.

"If..." Tears poured down one after another while no one was watching, "You are not even afraid of death, so can't you make some changes for me?"

"What?" Lu Wuchen opened his eyes wide again, slowly and laboriously moved his head, and looked at the person next to him.

"Since you regard me as everything, why can't you change for me? Since you love me deeply, why can't you get back to the right path for me? Since you can die for me, why can't you live for me?"

"Master!" Finally seeing the tears on that face clearly, Lu Wuchen's heart ached, he lifted up half of his body, and gently stroked the other's face, "You cried..." Crying so heartbreakingly, yes Because of me?I hurt you again...

"I don't need anyone to die for me, whether it's you or Shen Lingxue, you all think it's good for me, I don't need it at all!" She stretched out her hand to wrap around Lu Wuchen's neck, and pulled him down to the position where her nose almost touched her, "Why don't you understand... death is the easiest, but living is the most painful! You want me to bear pain, remorse, despair, loneliness, and walk alone in the world, how cruel it is ?So many people are willing to die for me, senior brothers and sisters, Zhaoyue, Shen Lingxue, you, but none of you are willing to live for me! It is good to protect me and love me, and you are too, you think it is good to choose death and leave me alone, but you never consider what I think, how painful I will be!"

The angry voice was accompanied by choked sobs, Wei Ling wept blood, and all the negative emotions finally broke out completely and completely at this moment.

From the moment he learned about Zhaoyue's devotion to him, to the moment when Shen Lingxue was seriously injured in an accident at the master's school, Wei Ling was almost driven crazy by all these things, but he persisted.Because he knows that all the people he cares about are suffering, and most of their suffering is because of himself, which is why he can't give up on himself.

But until this moment, he didn't know that he was so tired, so desperate, and he really wanted to die and put all of these aside completely.

He was originally just an ordinary person in the 21st century. Even if he had the memories of the past, he was not strong enough to withstand the hardships of a powerful cultivator who had lived for hundreds, thousands, or even tens of thousands of years.

He has no ambition, no aspirations, no things or people he can't get after, and his two lives plus the current life have been smooth and smooth, without ups and downs and difficulties.

But he has a heavy love.

Not just one person, but all the people he cares about, those who are kind and brave, who bear all the wind and rain for him and keep him going smoothly.

These heavy loves were finally truly unveiled at the moment when Shen Lingxue almost died under Lu Wuchen's sword.At that moment, Wei Ling even thought he was dead.

Such a heavy love made him breathless, suffocating and desperate.

He thought that Zhaoyue was already a big mistake, but it turned out that there were more than one mistakes.

It happened that it was the person I loved who uncovered all of this and caused all of this.

How can it not be painful?How can we not speak ill of each other?

But Lu Wuchen is really good, after such a provocation, he chose to give up his life in the same way—just like himself who wanted to give up his life at that time, he was so selfish that he wanted to escape everything.

"I won't let you die." Trying to open his eyes wide, exposing the anger and resentment in his heart, he gritted his teeth, "I want you to live in this world like me and bear all the pain caused by love and joy!"

Lu Wuchen was completely shocked.

It turned out that all the choices he made were a kind of harm?Because you love him, what you do is hurt?

"Then what should I do... Tell me, what should I do?" He murmured, his voice hoarse and deep, "As long as I can soothe your wounds, I will give everything, no matter my body or my soul..."

"I want you to get well." Putting his hand on Lu Wuchen's chest, Wei Ling's voice was light and weak, "Then come with me and go back to make amends."

"...Okay, I promise you." Slowly lowering his head, as if worshiping a god of faith, Lu Wuchen conveyed his endless love to each other through their light kiss, "I swear by my soul, I will no longer have Ego, I belong to you, completely, utterly, to you."

The author has something to say: Master will take this opportunity to slowly change the apprentice, reshape the apprentice's outlook on love and the world, and everything will be fine.

The small theater didn't have time to write, ah, it's too rushed, and it took only the last 3 minutes to code it!