Every day in the Shura field, I'm doing fancy whitewashing

"When I was young, I had a dream. My father took me to the amusement park. He bought a clown mask to put on. Then he let go of my hand and walked into the crowd. He said he was going to buy me a cotton candy. ,I have been waiting for a long time, and a clown came with the same mask, but I know he is not my father..." Song Xiu looked at the psychologist in front of him, and said, "Now I look at everyone, they all seem to be wearing A clown mask, this mask is familiar to me, but the person wearing the mask... I don't know at all."

"Then why do you think they wear masks? Or, why do they pretend to be the people around you?" the doctor asked softly.

"I don't know, am I living in the wrong place? There should be these people around me, but these people shouldn't be them. Maybe they look the same, but I know...not the same person." Song Xiu wrinkled Frowning, he smiled and said, "Am I hopeless?"

The doctor poured him a glass of warm water and said, "You are just too tired, you are afraid, but you want to face it; , saying, 'Who can help me? I feel like I'm going to break down, I'm in so much pain'...but they don't understand, they don't get your distress call."

"En." Song Xiu responded.

"Then the last clown you saw, was he your father, or someone else?" asked the doctor.

"He finally took off his mask," Song Xiu said with a slight smile, "He is a stranger who looks exactly like my father."

The doctor's hand trembled slightly, and the coffee in his hand got on the table. He immediately wiped it with a paper towel, and heard Song Xiu ask, "Did I have this disease when I was a child? Actually, he is my father, it's just my father." Ill, let me think he is fake...is it?"

"You are so exhausted. I don't know how many things are stressing your mind, but I can feel your fear." The doctor said, "Your fear is almost overwhelming you, Song Xiu, you are already on the edge of the cliff, as long as you A little bit, and it will fall in."

"Thank you." Song Xiu got up and didn't continue the chat. When he turned to leave, he suddenly said, "Last time you said you made purple rice cakes for me to take back, but I forgot to bring them back."

"Really?" The doctor smiled and said, "Last time it seemed to be mung bean cake."

Song Xiu suddenly realized, he smiled and said, "Really? I probably remembered it wrong."

After Song Xiu went out, the doctor's original smiling face sank. He frowned, thinking that Song Xiu's problem was really difficult. It seemed that the setback in family relationship might have caused this problem, and then love again. Frustrated, thus aggravating the condition...

The doctor set his eyes on the porch, and he knew that with Song Xiu's level of caution, it was impossible for him not to remember that it was mung bean cake. His question just now was to test the doctor on purpose to see if the doctor was real.

Or... He has started to fear the doctor now, and wonders if the doctor has also been replaced.

After returning to the car, Song Xiu immediately swallowed two pills. His hands were still trembling unconsciously. Just now, he had exhausted all his strength to maintain the surface calm. His whole body seemed to be fished out of the water. generally.

After the car accident last time, Xiao Qi came forward to hold a press conference, clarified the like incident, and said that he and Song Xiu have always been good friends, there is no gap, and Song Xiu and Su Yu were just playing around that day, He was also there and can testify that the two are by no means a couple.

What Xiao Qi said was categorical. Although the media had doubts, when they thought of Xiao Qi's terrifying fan group, they said, "Okay, okay, I understand."

After finishing these matters, he started to get busy with the film festival. He asked someone to send some nutritious food to Song Xiu, but he didn't go to watch it himself.

As for the illegitimate fan chasing the car incident, it was suppressed by Song Xiu's use of the relationship in his hands, so that no one would mention it.

In the blink of an eye, it was already the film festival. Song Xiu had been in the hospital for a period of time. Fortunately, the car accident did not hurt the bones, but the wound on the leg also required more than ten stitches. A long scar is shocking to look at. .

Although he can walk now, it still hurts a little, and he is limping when he walks. In order to prevent problems at the film festival, he specially visited a psychiatrist today... But it seems that it is not of much use anymore. .

He knew very well that he was terminally ill.

Seeing Song Xiu's pale face, the driver was a little worried, but he didn't dare to ask more questions.

After Song Xiu took the medicine, he felt much better. He leaned his head on the back seat and said, "Pick up Su Yu. Don't be late for today's film festival."

His leg was injured, and he was temporarily unable to drive, so he had to let the driver instead.

After receiving Su Yu, Su Yu wanted to ask him many questions along the way, but due to the presence of other people, she had no choice but to refrain from asking. When she arrived at the film festival, she quickly walked through the red carpet and followed Song Xiu to the backstage Then he asked, "Brother, did you go to the doctor? What did the doctor say?"

"He said that I... have a lot of psychological pressure, so I just need to open it up." Song Xiu said with a smile.

Su Yu nodded, and said, "Yes, it's best to forget about Xiao Qi, then you will be much better off."

"He's not the cause of my illness," Song Xiu said with a smile, "Don't attribute the mistake to him, you still have cooperation, look down and see each other, don't make the relationship too embarrassing."

When Xiao Qi arrived at the scene, he immediately attracted the attention of all the media. Song Xiu didn't need to look up to know that it was Xiao Qi. As far as the current entertainment industry is concerned, no one except Xiao Qi can cause such a big shock.

Everyone knows that Xiao Qi is a candidate for the Best Actor Award this time, and according to the movies he has shot in the past two years, the box office is better than the last one, and he can basically be the best actor.

Apparently Jiang Xin and the others thought so too.

The group didn't meet each other, but after hastily finished the opening ceremony, they went to the venue, preparing to participate in the awards ceremony of the film festival.

I don't know who arranged the seats. Song Xiu and Xiao Qi are very close to each other. One is in the upper row and the other is in the lower row. Take a close-up.

The candidates for Best Actress Award were reported on the stage, and Su Yu happened to be shortlisted. Su Yu approached Song Xiu and asked in a low voice, "Do you think I will win the Best Actress Award this year?"

"No." Song Xiu saw the problem very thoroughly, and he said, "Your qualifications are still young, and there are not many works that you can really get your hands on. You are lucky to be included in the scope of candidates."

Su Yu curled his lips, and said in a low voice, "I thought I could get back a Best Actress Award for you."

Song Xiu laughed and said, "Are you still afraid that there will be no future?" Song Xiu was still sure about Su Yu's acting skills.

"Next, let's announce who the winner of the Best Actor Award is..." The host put a hiccup on her. She paused, smiled, and suddenly raised her hand to Xiao Qi, saying, "Our most popular Xiao Qi Strange! Congratulations to the new actor!"

All the media couldn't help clapping their hands to show their congratulations. Song Xiu also nodded and clapped his hands in congratulations.

Xiao Qi came onto the stage without looking back, holding the trophy, and said, "Hi everyone, I'm Xiao Qi... To be able to win this award today, I have to thank everyone for your support, as well as the support of fans..."

After finishing speaking, he looked at the audience, raised the trophy, and said, "Today, I want to give this trophy to a very, very important person."

The host took advantage of the situation and said, "The new actor, who do you want to give it to?"

Xiao Qi's eyes fell on the audience, Song Xiu raised his eyes and met his eyes, the media seemed to have captured something, and instantly took a close-up of Song Xiu, his appearance was enlarged on the big screen, and Xiao Qi Qi laughed and said loudly, "Thank you to my manager, Jiang Xin!"

Sitting under the stage, Jiang Xin was stunned for a moment, she turned her head to look at Song Xiu reflexively, but saw Song Xiu smiled, it didn't look sad, but more like a sigh of relief.

Jiang Xin didn't have time to watch it more carefully, so she was about to go on stage to take down the trophy. Xiao Qi, as a top streamer, is also a new actor. The whole film festival seemed to revolve around him and was tailor-made for him.

While Xiao Qi was still talking on stage, Jiang Xin sneaked up to Song Xiu's side and asked, "Brother Song, can we have a chat alone?"

Song Xiu was stunned for a moment, then immediately said, "Okay."

So Xiao Qi watched his two managers leave the venue together. His expression darkened slightly, which startled the host, but he calmed down quickly. The speed was so fast that the host was still talking about himself. Doubtful, I think I must have misread it.

Jiang Xin and Song Xiu walked to a quiet place, Song Xiu said, "What's wrong? Is it Xiao Qi's business?"

"It's not his business, it's just... Brother Song, are you okay?" Jiang Xin said, "When you went to the company to meet the boss two years ago, I happened to be there too, so the boss called Xiao Qi It was assigned to me... I know you must have a reason."

Song Xiu laughed and said, "The most embarrassing appearance... I let you see it."

"Actually, I've always wanted to ask you, why did you give up on Xiao Qi? You have always had a good eye, and it's impossible not to see Xiao Qi's potential, let alone..." Jiang Xin hesitated, and said, "Because the artist There is a gap between you and Dongqing, but you also know that Dongqing is the most suitable company for Xiao Qi. I remember that in the office, in addition to signing a contract of 3000 million, you also asked for a movie Role……"

Song Xiu knew what Jiang Xin was going to say later, he said hoarsely, "Don't bring up the past."

"But... you have to let Xiao Qi know how much you have done for him! The boss of Dongqing said, 'If I want to accept him and sign the contract you proposed, there is only one condition, you have to kneel down to me Apology, Song Xiu, Feng Shui turns around, your methods were not bright back then, so you can’t blame me for being cruel'... I heard this sentence clearly, and I also know that you have already..." Jiang She couldn't continue, she was silent for a long time, and said, "If he knew that you knelt down for him, he would definitely not treat you like this. That contract, how many big-budget movies are signed in a year, How much is the signing fee...Everything, big or small, is all your painstaking efforts, all of which are paving the way for him...Why don't you say anything?"

Seeing that Song Xiu stopped talking, Jiang Xin whispered, "You don't know how Xiao Qi survived these two years. He hates you to the bone."

"Little girl", Song Xiu Mingming is about the same age as Jiang Xin, but he smiled and said softly, "Not everything has to be investigated to the bottom, no matter what, at least Xiao Qi's future is stable...Since you found I, then I have to ask you a favor."

Jiang Xin thought for a while and asked, "What's the matter?"

"There is a villa on the other side of Beijing Bieyuan No. 3000. It was bought with the [-] million yuan plus all my personal property. The account name is Xiao Qi. I hope you will tell him when you have time. As for when to tell him... Wait until I leave." Song Xiu said with a smile.

"Are you leaving?" Jiang Xin was startled.

Song Xiu nodded, and he said, "I want to go to rest. I've been tired all these years. Thank you for your hard work. The real estate certificate is stored in the bank safe. Tell him, it's the bank where we used to deposit things."

Jiang Xin hesitated for a moment, then nodded, and when Song Xiu was about to return to his seat, Jiang Xin suddenly said, "Then I also want to ask you to do something for me, can you?"

Song Xiu turned his head, looked at her, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Answer me a question truthfully." Jiang Xin said, "Did something happen to you, whether it was two years ago or now...is it the same thing?"

Song Xiu had already put one hand on the doorknob, he paused for a long time, and then replied, "Yes."

"How serious is it? Your feelings for Xiao Qi are so deep that you can give him up. This matter... is definitely not small. I just want to know, will you die?" Jiang Xin asked.

"You have more than one question. We agreed to only ask one." Song Xiu smiled, opened the door, and left.

Jiang Xin's heart sank suddenly.

Song Xiu did not deny it.

Basically... is the default.

That's right, for a proud person like Song Xiu, he had devoted all his energy to Xiao Qi, and even knelt down to beg for him, but he had given up on Xiao Qi. Unless it was a matter of life and death, how could he be willing?

Jiang Xin gradually felt a little cold in her heart, she couldn't imagine, if something happened to Song Xiu...if Xiao Qi finally found out the truth...what would happen.

When Song Xiu returned to the venue, the awards ceremony of the film festival had just ended. Xiao Qi came down from the stage. When he passed by Song Xiu, he said softly on purpose, "Are you happy? After leaving you, I will Having won the best actor, your reputation in the industry has already been ruined, and without your burden, I feel extremely happy."

Song Xiu didn't speak, he forced a smile at Gong, and Gong taunted, "Seeing your smile that's uglier than crying, I'm relieved."

After this film festival, Song Xiu completely disappeared from the entertainment industry. His withdrawal was so sudden that everyone, including Xiao Qi, was caught off guard.

"Replay the old trick? Didn't he quit once two years ago, and then came back?" Xiao Qi asked.

He frowned tightly, swiping Weibo, and saw someone saying, "I don't know why, I always feel that Song Xiu and Xiao Qi were CPs who fell in love and killed each other. This CP feeling is too strong."

Xiao Qi thought about it, switched his account, and liked it when he went online.

Until the play between Su Yu and Xiao Qi was finished, Xiao Qi never saw Song Xiu again. Sometimes he couldn't help but look into Su Yu's car, but he never saw Song Xiu.

In his impression, that person seemed to be wearing a white sweater, sitting in the driver's seat, with the window opened, and a cigarette dangling from his mouth. When he saw him, he might laugh or just ignore him.

Su Yu has never been used to Xiao Qi, so after finishing filming, he drove straight to Song Xiu's house.

Song Xiu moved to another place, and only Su Yu knew about it. As soon as she entered the door, she saw Song Xiu sleeping on the sofa. He was extremely emaciated. Only on the sofa could he sleep peacefully for a while.

Maybe it was the sound of Su Yu's footsteps that woke Song Xiu up. He opened his eyes, glanced at Su Yu, moved closer to the sofa, and said, "What's the matter?"

"Brother, the doctor called me just now and said that when he came today, you didn't open the door for him and gave up the treatment, didn't you?" Su Yu paused and said, "I know you've been suffering recently, but you still Need to see a doctor."

Song Xiu got up and walked to the room, and locked the door. He could no longer control himself. The moment Su Yu came in, when he looked at Su Yu, he felt as if his whole spirit was about to be torn apart. up.

While telling him that this person is a fake, he is deceiving you by staring at Su Yu, pretending to be Su Yu, while another voice tells him...that is the real Su Yu.

He clearly believes in the first option in his heart, but he firmly restrains himself, desperately hooking himself on the second option.

Everything he touches with fear, including the ringtone of the mobile phone, reminds him that the world is fake. He almost collapses, his arms are covered with bloodstains, and he continues to prove the reality of the world through pain.

Song Xiu can feel that his symptoms are getting worse, and he is even self-harming. Every time he looks at himself in the mirror, he will have strong doubts.

Su Yu really had no choice but to go to the door and said, "Brother, I'm leaving." When she was about to leave, she heard the sound of the door. Song Xiu was wearing that white sweater, and he was terribly thin. Weary, he walked to the cell phone, his hands trembling slightly, and dialed a number he remembered.

Over there Xiao Qi had just finished filming when he heard the ringing of his cell phone. He went to check and found that it was Song Xiu's cell phone number. After thinking for a long time, Xiao Qi was ready to connect, but at that moment, Song Xiu had already chosen give up.

Su Yu saw Song Xiu sitting on the ground with blood on his hands, Su Yu was terrified, she wanted to go forward, but Song Xiu looked at her strangely, which scared her.

Su Yu finally called the psychiatrist, and the psychiatrist said, "Who does he most want to see? Call the person he most wants to see..."

Su Yu immediately thought of Xiao Qi.

As soon as the call was connected, without waiting for Xiao Qi to speak, Su Yu immediately said, "Xiao Qi, don't worry about other things, come quickly...my brother, something happened to my brother."

Xiao Qi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly realized that Su Yu was referring to Song Xiu.

He was silent for a long time, then suddenly let out a low laugh, and said, "Changed tactics? Sorry, I don't have time to play with you."

The author has something to say: sleep!What's the matter with writing more and more!

There is still one chapter left, at most two chapters will be finished, and the Seventh World will be opened today!Plus a surprise update, as compensation for the two-day delay!

It was a bit cool after writing it!

说起来，其实真正渣的是受啊！！！感谢在2019-11-2323:00:12~2019-11-2403:44:50期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: lying at the bottom of the pit and waiting for the update of 10 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!