Every day in the Shura field, I'm doing fancy whitewashing

2021. 12, 21

I just had my birthday and came out of the party. I'm a little tired. I can't explain why I'm tired. Maybe it's because I have to balance my career and studies, so I'm tired?

I don't think it seems that although I don't know myself well enough, I should also know that I am not such a person.

Brother Xiu said "Happy Birthday" to me today, and he was a little happy.

2021. 12, 31

It's New Year's Eve, and it's not the time for the holiday. It's cold outside. I just drove by on the road, and it started to snow. I guess the road will be icy tomorrow, right?Did brother Xiu drive to work, or did he fall on the ground?

I haven't seen Brother Xiu for a few days?ten days.

2021. 12, 1

Xiaoyi went to the hospital last night with a high fever. I got the news in the morning. I didn't sleep all night. I'm very sleepy now, but I have to find out about the situation.

The car on the opposite side of the road skidded and hit my car. It hurt a little, but it didn't matter.

Do you want to call Brother Xiu?never mind.

2021. 3, 2

Brother Xiu drank too much last night and was sent to the hotel. Fortunately, I went there too, otherwise he would have slept on the ground all night.

He is a little comfortable to hold, and it feels different from when I was a child. I talked to him, but he didn't answer me. That's fine, I only dare to talk to him who is asleep.

2021. 6, 21

There are always some people looking for things in the board of directors, and it will be impossible not to teach them a lesson. It is really troublesome. If these people are not useful, I really want to get rid of them.

The doctor said there was something wrong with my mental state, right?

Probably something has happened recently.

……

Song Xiu looked at the next page, until a certain page, he suddenly stopped.

2023. 4, 6

No, I feel like I'm seeing them with a third vision, it's not right, I'm a living person, it doesn't feel right.

I think standing in a void, watching them act, watching myself act, am I alive?

I feel like I exist in a false world.

2023. 5, 31

comfortable.

I have pain, I can feel pain.

I am the real me and I can feel the pain.

……

Song Xiu's fingertips trembled a little. His pale face due to blood loss became even more ugly at this moment. He felt that his heart was tightly grasped by an invisible big hand, and it was about to be crushed.

"Zuo Chen..." These two words popped out of his throat.

The diary continues to scroll down.

2024. 3, 2

Brother Xiu is not very happy recently. I probably know some reasons. If I help him solve it publicly, he will definitely not be happy.

It's really... well, then I'll settle it privately.

2024. 7, 11

Xiaoyi was hospitalized again, and issued a critical illness notice.

In my impression, I don't know how many times this is, from heartache to numbness.

He is my brother, but I can't help him, I'm not a competent brother.

2024. 9, 31

I was too busy last night, I forgot to take my medicine, and I almost killed myself just now...too dangerous.

I think next time I can't let go of Kaifeng's knife at home. If this goes on, sooner or later I will stab myself.

But I can't die, Zuo's group's troubles have not been resolved, Xiaoyi's illness is still not cured, Brother Xiu... Brother Xiu...

I miss Brother Xiu.

2025. 8, 2

I saw Brother Xiu with a woman today. I don't know that woman, but it doesn't prevent me from separating them.

Although the two of them had nothing to do with each other before, as long as there is such a sign, I think it is necessary for me to stop it... But it is wrong to do so, will Brother Xiu be angry if I do this?If he gets angry, will he ignore me?

2025. 10, 6

It's uncomfortable, it's too uncomfortable, I feel like I'm suffocating.

What kind of disease is this, what is it?Why are you so sad?

Nothing works, the respirator doesn't work, nothing works, nothing will save me, I'm dying of pain.

I know it's wrong to self-harm, but I can't help it, I don't know what to do, I'm so sad...

The meeting at three o'clock in the afternoon will be held as usual. I am Zuo Shen and I cannot lose.

2025. 12, 31

It was my birthday again and I did one wrong thing.

I told Brother Xiu that I love him.

The diary came to an abrupt end here.

Song Xiu's hands were already trembling unbearably, and there was a low weeping sound from his throat, and that painful roar was unbearably hoarse.

He Yang stood outside, he wanted to leave, but he couldn't help but walked to the ward, the bodyguard who was at the door had already been withdrawn by Zuo Yi, He Yang heard Song Xiu's forbearing voice.

He was distressed and sad.

【666: Do you know what is the most troublesome thing in this world? 】

Seeing that his host didn't pay attention to him, 666 endured it for a while, and couldn't hold back anymore.

【666: Two people who don't know how to fall in love love each other. The way of expression is completely wrong, but the relationship is right. There are many things. 】

Regarding the current situation, 666 just wants to sigh. If he wants to understand, it is probably impossible. After all, he is just a system. It is a bit difficult for him to use a system to understand love and love. Search the resource library for things about love and try to understand it.

Suddenly, the sound in the room disappeared, and He Yang stood for a while, faintly aware that something was wrong, he immediately raised his hand and knocked on the door, but he didn't hear any sound from inside, so he opened the door and went in, only to find Song Xiu standing barefoot by the balcony .

This is the 32nd floor.

He Yang's expression changed.

After hearing the voice, Song Xiu turned his head to look at He Yang blankly, then smiled and said, "You haven't left yet?"

"Come here." He Yang stepped forward and said, "Do you know what you are doing?"

[666: Bystanders are clear, authorities are obsessed, let me tell you... you both are sick, have you been with you for several worlds in a row?What about me making fun of it?Every time I lied to him that the main system crashed, and now the main system really crashed. 】

666 has been rambling on, He Yang has no time to pay attention to him.

Song Xiu didn't answer He Yang's words, he frowned, and suddenly stretched out his hand to touch his stomach, as if the pain was a little uncomfortable, bent over and started to retch, but couldn't vomit anything.

He Yang was very distressed, he knew that this was Song Xiu's stress reaction, he stepped forward almost immediately, taking advantage of Song Xiu's inattention, and pulled him into his arms.

Before he could hold Song Xiu firmly, he was pushed away by the person in his arms. Song Xiu took a few steps back. He was leaning against the wall, his face pale. The wound on his wrist was torn due to the violent movement, and the blood completely wiped him The gauze was soaked and fell down along the fingertips.

"Get lost." Song Xiu said hoarsely.

His body shook, and he almost fell to the ground. He Yang looked at him almost in fear, not daring to mention the previous remarks, for fear of irritating the person in front of him again.

"If I said... If I said that Zuo Chen didn't die, would you believe it?" He Yang said this sentence tentatively, carefully watching the change of Song Xiu's expression, and saw the corner of Song Xiu's lips tugging slightly There was an arc, as if he was sneering or mocking himself, he shook his head and said, "I won't jump off the building, don't worry."

How dare I rest assured?

He Yang thought to himself.

"How busy is Young Master He that you've been waiting here?" Song Xiu was obviously in a bad mood. He was panting against the wall, and wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, he looked even thinner.

"Let me leave you here alone? Do you think it's possible? What if you commit suicide as soon as I turn around? What do you want me to do?" He Yang could hardly hold back his heart, he tried his best to calm down, "Your wrist injury is not fake, is it?"

Song Xiu's eyes were a little erratic, as if he was thinking about something, after a pause, he said, "But it has nothing to do with you, right?"

"You haven't answered me yet, if Zuo Chen didn't die." Before He Yang finished speaking, Song Xiu interrupted him, saying, "What exactly are you going to say, can you just say it? Don't make fuss about him anymore." , he is my bottom line."

After He Yang was silent for a long time, he sighed and said, "What if I say that I am Zuo Chen? Do you believe it?"

【666: What about your IQ?What about your emotional intelligence?Why does your IQ suddenly drop to negative every time you meet Song Xiu?Even God cannot save you. 】

Not surprisingly, he saw a slight smile on Song Xiu's lips, and he shook his head and said, "Do you think I'm blind?"

For the first time, He Yang regretted the deal he made with the system.

He shouldn't delete all of Song Xiu's memories, at least let him recall the previous mission, maybe the current situation will be easier to explain.

He Yang was directly ignored by Song Xiu. He Yang had no choice but to explain when he received a call from the He family. He looked down and found that it was Mr. He's call, so he answered it. After the other party finished speaking, He said, "Okay, I'll go right away."

He Yang is his good buddy, the original He Yang is indeed dead, so since he entered this body, he should get what he should get for He Yang and help the He family.

As for the Zuo family, before his death, the Zuo family had been brought to the top. Next, Zuo Yi just needs to be stable. The Zuo family can still be in the position for decades, and it will be enough for Zuo Yi to figure it out. One of the twists and turns.

If it really doesn't work, sometimes it is reasonable for He Yang to help from the middle.

He Yang stood up, looked at Song Xiu in front of him, and said, "Brother Xiu, you are the person who knows me best, even if you don't believe what I said, then come out with me and see how I handle things Yes, you should always recognize my way of life, right? You should always recognize my wrist, right?"

Zuo Chen has his own way of doing things, otherwise he wouldn't have stood in the business world at a young age.

Song Xiu looked at him suspiciously, but he didn't directly refuse. He Yang saw a little bit of hope from his eyes, and couldn't help but said, "Brother Xiu, I'll take you out, but if you feel uncomfortable, feel uncomfortable , you must tell me, understand?"

Song Xiu didn't say anything, and He Yang waited patiently for him. After a long silence, he said hoarsely, "Okay."

After Song Xiu put on his coat, He Yang squatted down and buttoned the clothes for him. Song Xiu was slightly dazed by his concentration, as if he saw the person with memory squatting in front of him, his voice was hoarse Said, "Zuo Shen."

He Yang's hand paused slightly, and then he raised his eyes, looked at Song Xiu seriously, and said after a while, "Brother Xiu."

Song Xiu's eyes lighted up slightly, but quickly went out again, he shook his head lightly and said, "You are not him, you are not Zuo Chen, Zuo Chen is not like this."

He Yang felt uncomfortable watching it.

He gently kneaded Song Xiu's palm, just like before.

Holding Song Xiu's hand, after the two got off, he went directly to the co-pilot and opened the door, and helped Song Xiu to sit in. Song Xiu's face was still ugly, but his eyes were very bright, staring at He Yang body.

"Let me take you somewhere." He Yang smiled, and said, "It's a bit far away, you can sleep for a while."

Song Xiu shook his head slowly, he kept looking at He Yang, and seemed to be looking for similarities with Zuo Chen in this person, but unfortunately, except for his aura, he couldn't see that the person in front of him had any connection with Zuo Chen. what a resemblance.

The car was driving on the road, and the scenery outside the window quickly passed by. After Song Xiu stared at He Yang for a while, he also felt sleepy, and fell asleep unknowingly. After He Yang turned his head and glanced at him, he couldn't help but Laughed.

"Brother Xiu."

He once thought about living as He Yang for the rest of his life, thinking that he would never dream of getting Song Xiu again, but... the moment he saw Song Xiu was injured, all his persistence burst like a bubble.

He saw the wound on Song Xiu's wrist, the blood flowing from his wound, and the pale color of his lips... He Yang felt that his heart was captured instantly.

Perhaps, his heart never left Song Xiu.

What guilt?What regrets?What concerns?He didn't want to think about it any more.

"Even if you say you love me because of guilt, I will admit it. If one day you recognize your heart and want to leave, I will follow you...Brother Xiu, I can't refuse you." He Yang said deeply Sighed.

The car finally stopped in a fishing village. This is a small village. If you don’t search carefully, you won’t find it at all. After arriving at the place, He Yang woke up Song Xiu. Why would I be in the same car with He Yang.

"Are you awake?" He Yang asked.

"Yeah." Song Xiu hurt his wrist when he raised his hand, couldn't help but groaned, but he woke up instantly, all the memories flooded into his mind, he seemed to be stunned, staring at He Yang After looking at it for a while, he whispered, "Sorry, I'm sleepy."

"It's okay." He Yang smiled slightly, he got out of the car first, Song Xiu got out of the car next, and the two walked towards the small fishing village one after the other. Song Xiu didn't recognize the small fishing village at first, but after walking in, Immediately froze, he stood stiffly on the spot, staring at He Yang blankly, he heard his hoarse voice say, "How do you know this place?"

"I said before, I am Zuo Chen, of course I know this place." He Yang sighed, walked to Song Xiu's side, and said word by word, "Brother Xiu, I will prove to you... It's Zuo Shen."

Song Xiu didn't say a word. The villagers nearby noticed the two of them and said with a smile, "It's getting dark and the fishing boats won't open."

He Yang smiled and said, "It's okay, I came early today, and I'm just waiting to see the sunrise tomorrow."

After Song Xiu finished for a while, he said, "Did he tell you this?"

He Yang was very helpless, he shook his head and said, "He didn't tell me, I am him, you know? Brother Xiu, I am Zuo Chen... I don't know why I was in this body when I woke up. Yang is dead, so I live in his body, using his name."

"A joke? Is it a fairy tale?" Song Xiu smiled stiffly, looking a little absurd.

"Brother Xiu, do you still remember why we came here?" He Yang paused, and he whispered, "That time I... Let me tell you, I was very uncomfortable. In fact, I was sick, I was afraid, I I feel that everyone around me is fake, my father, my mother, including Xiaoyi... are all fake, I am afraid... I drove all the way, walking aimlessly, and I came here...I couldn't control myself at the time , I don't know what the hell I'm doing, I just want to escape, I feel like if I just jump... just jump... I'll run away."

Song Xiu's face changed slightly, he fixed his eyes on the person in front of him, and heard He Yang take a deep breath, and said, "I miss you so much, I don't know why I called you, I seem to be called Divided into two people, one standing by the sea, one standing on a high place, one wanting to die, one watching himself die..."

"Do you still remember what you said at that time?" Song Xiu's voice was hoarse and trembling a little.

"I remember, I said at the time..." He Yang looked into Song Xiu's eyes and said word by word, "Brother Xiu, guess where I am now? I am at the seaside now, no one is around, finally no one I want to see you, and I will be able to find you soon, I will jump down, and then I will be able to find you."

Song Xiu's eyes suddenly turned red.

Only he and Zuo Chen knew about this passage, it was impossible for Zuo Chen to tell He Yang about this kind of thing... Unless, the person in front of him was Zuo Chen himself.

"Brother Xiu?" Seeing that Song Xiu's eyes were red, He Yang looked at him with distress, and said, "Don't cry, I'm here. I'm sorry...I'm sorry, Brother Xiu."

"Why didn't you say it at the beginning? Why didn't you say it at the beginning?" Song Xiu's voice seemed to come out of his throat, and every word was full of pain, "Why didn't you say it when I first met you? What are you afraid of? Do you not trust me, or someone else!"

"Brother Xiu, don't be angry, don't be angry." He Yang was not afraid that Song Xiu would attack in anger, but he was afraid that he would hurt himself, so he quickly comforted him, "I know I was wrong, Brother Xiu."

"What do you mean by those words you said before? What do you mean by having nothing to do with me? What do you mean by my guilt? Do you think I am a person who can't even distinguish between guilt and love?" Song Xiu snapped road.

He Yang paused, then cursed: "It's true."

But he didn't dare to say these words, after all, what if his brother Xiu refused to forgive him if he said these words?

"I didn't, I was afraid that you would regret it in the future." He Yang muffled, "You...if..."

"What if? For an assumption, you deny it, you lie to me, you belittle Zuo Shen like this! Belittle yourself?! What are you doing? You are stabbing my heart with a knife! Why don't you kill me with a knife? What about me?!" Such a long time of pressure and pain suddenly overwhelmed him, Song Xiu swayed slightly, He Yang quickly supported him, Song Xiu shook his head, he pulled the corners of his lips, and said with a smile , "Zuo Chen, you don't believe me at all, do you?"

"No." He Yang... No, it should be Zuo Chen, he immediately denied, "Brother Xiu, listen to my explanation."

Song Xiu patted Zuo Chen's hand away, and for a moment he couldn't tell what he was doing. He was happy and angry at the same time, happy that Zuo Chen was still alive, but also angry at what he had concealed before.

He turned around and walked up the mountain. He Yang didn't dare to say anything and could only follow behind him. He still remembered that after he finished calling Song Xiu, Song Xiu rushed over here in a hurry. He waited for Song Xiu Coming over, seeing Song Xiu's hurried appearance, he smiled, stood on it, raised his head and fell into the sea, and from the corner of his eye, he could see Song Xiu's surprised look.

He thought he was going to be free this time, but he didn't expect Song Xiu to jump down too.

In the end, he wasn't hurt very much, it was just typhoid fever, but Song Xiu's calf was scratched with a not deep and not shallow cut, and the blood instantly stained the sea around him red, and then he vaguely remembered that he was dragged ashore by Song Xiu of.

Afterwards, both he and Song Xiu tacitly pressed the matter down without telling anyone, and when Song Xiu asked him why, his answer was "too much to drink."

Song Xiu never doubted his words, and he only gave him a verbal lesson afterwards, but Zuo Chen couldn't help but feel distressed when he saw Song Xiu's injured calf and blood-stained clothes.

This season, the sea breeze is a bit strong, Song Xiu stood at the place where Zuo Shen jumped into the sea, this is really a good place, wherever you look, it is a beautiful scenery.

"Zuo Shen." Song Xiu suddenly spoke, his voice was slightly cold.

At this moment Zuo Chen dared not answer, he immediately said, "Brother Xiu, come here, it's dangerous there."

"I'll ask a question, you answer a question, and I'll leave it here. I, Song Xiu, really like Zuo Chen, and it's definitely not because of the so-called guilt. Believe it or not, I always say the same thing." Song Xiu said After finishing, he looked at Zuo Shen calmly.

Zuo Chen's body froze slightly, he paused, and said, "Brother Xiu, you come down first."

"When did you suffer from Capgras syndrome?" Song Xiu asked.

Zuo Shen paused, he pursed his lips slightly, and said immediately, "Before, I don't remember the exact time, it was probably around the sophomore year of high school."

"Why didn't you tell me, didn't you tell your parents, didn't you tell anyone?" When Song Xiu said this, he paused... No, Zuo Chen told him, but he thought it was a joke...

Song Xiu's face turned pale instantly.

Obviously, Zuo Chen also thought about this matter. He knew Song Xiu's character very well. Song Xiu was very smart, so it was easier for him to trap himself in a circle. Zuo Chen immediately said, "Brother Xiu, don't think too much. I I don’t want to say it because I can’t get sick, there’s already a sick one in my family, I can’t…”

Song Xiu looked at Zuo Chen, he sighed, and softly asked the last question, he said, "Tell me the truth, until now, do you still feel that I am guilty of you, not love?"

Zuo Chen could deceive Song Xiu, but he opened his mouth but didn't speak.

This silence has proved everything.

Song Xiu smiled, he shook his head, turned his head to look at the sea below, the turbulent waves, he said, "Zuo Chen, they... they are telling me to go down, Zuo Chen... I feel bad."

Almost as soon as he finished speaking, Song Xiu's figure shook slightly, Zuo Chen's pupils constricted suddenly, he wanted to step forward and grab Song Xiu, but he was only a little bit, just a little bit, he watched Song Xiu fall into the In the sea, disappeared in the waves.

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"The Enemy's Pheromone is Super Sweet" by Crispy Pigeon

Arrogant coquettish school bully with broken legs x Black-bellied fake high-cold school bully Shou

Summary:

As the most A Alpha in the fourth middle school, the school bully is the most A-level Alpha, and no one dares to provoke him every day. As soon as he transferred to class seven, he humiliated the class leader in every possible way, and even fought violently.

As a result, within a few days, the situation changed.

The squad leader bought water for the school bully, helped the school bully ask for leave, helped the school bully do homework, was pushed against the wall by the school bully, kissed and touched, and was hugged by the school bully under the tree.

There was humiliation and unwillingness in his eyes.

Class [-] students cried collectively: The school bully is not human! !

Xiao Yi has been outstanding since he was a child, a standard child of other people's family.

However, as soon as I saw that idiot Jiang Yang, I wanted to beat him up.

When you hit it, you will be in heat.

When it was haired, it was bitten.

Jiang Yang fought with his deadly enemy for more than ten years before he knew that the other party was an Omega.

Lime Mint.

It's okay if you don't smell it, but once you smell it, you'll be addicted.

感谢在2019-12-2822:51:58~2019-12-2900:31:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mines: 1 Orange Benju;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 30 bottles of your father;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!