Every day in the Shura field, I'm doing fancy whitewashing

Before Zuo Shen died, Song Xiu had never experienced the feeling that life was worse than death. Now that Zuo Chen died, he felt that he was living on the tip of a knife every day, and when he lay down, he would be shot from behind by the knife. The back is pierced and protrudes from the chest.

He could almost imagine the feeling of blood flowing out.

He seemed to be crazy, wishing he could stay in front of Zuo Chen's tomb all the time, wishing he could be buried with him, with his appearance, it was useless no matter who tried to persuade him, he would not listen to anyone's words.

Zuo Yi couldn't help sighing, and said, "Brother Xiu, people have to look forward, you can't keep yourself trapped here, my brother feels so distressed when he sees you like this."

Song Xiu didn't say a word, he didn't cry, his eyes were indifferent, as if he was sitting here waiting for someone.

"Brother Xiu, forget it, the matter between you and my brother...Xu Ya told me, but..." Zuo Yi frowned, and he said, "It's useless for you to be sad, people can't be resurrected after death, he is I can't survive."

"I want to die." Song Xiu finally spoke. This was the first time he spoke after more than ten days. He said, "It's not because I'm sad, I want to be with him, do you understand? It's just... Life or death is not important, as long as I am with him, even death is just going to another place."

Zuo Yi's expression changed, he hurriedly said, "Brother Xiu, stop talking nonsense."

"I know it's selfish to think so, and it's hard for people to understand, but Zuo Yi... I'm in love with your brother." Song Xiu smiled slightly, and he even seemed a little happy, saying, "Is it ironic? Ridiculous? He When I was alive, I didn't think about the fact that I loved him, and I even felt... that we couldn't be together... But after he died, I suddenly felt that I love him more than anything else."

Without waiting for Zuo Yi to answer, Song Xiu raised his hand to block the sunlight, a little sunlight penetrated through his fingers and sprinkled on his pale face, he said, "Tomorrow and accident, I want to choose tomorrow, I will... I will promise him, I will be with him tomorrow Zuo Yi, I will be with your brother tomorrow."

Zuo Yi only felt a little creepy, he paused, and persuaded, "Brother Xiu, you... what's wrong with you? Don't scare me."

"I'm fine, I just figured out something." He raised his head slightly, then turned his eyes to Zuo Yi, and said, "If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't have died."

"..." Zuo Yi was so shocked that he didn't know what to say. After the two were silent for a long time, Zuo Yi asked tentatively, "Brother Xiu? Do you know what you're talking about?"

"What do you think?" Song Xiu glanced sideways at Zuo Yi.

Zuo Yi paused, thought for a while, and said, "I'd better ask the doctor, I think you need to be hospitalized, brother Xiu, don't follow my brother's path, he has already left us, parents are very sad , They are old and have lost their elder brother, and they can't lose you anymore."

Song Xiu smiled, and said, "They still have you, Zuo Chen only has me."

His appearance made Zuo Yi feel uneasy, so he guarded him every step of the way. Song Xiu thought it was a little funny, and said, "What are you doing? Keep an eye on me?"

"I'm afraid you did something stupid... the day my brother left, I was in the hospital... you know? My dad never cried, I never saw him cry, but he cried that day, just squatting in the hospital Crying on the ground, he doesn't look like a chairman at all, he doesn't look like him..." Zuo Yi's tone was slightly low, and he said, "My brother is his pride, always has been."

"You will also be my uncle's pride." Song Xiu leaned on the tombstone and asked, "On your birthday, you and your uncle and aunt went in first, and I waited for him outside, and then he came, he said, he To be with me, that was the first time he confessed to me...it should be considered a confession, right? But I think he was joking...Actually, I know his character well, he is not a person who likes to joke, so he can say that , must have been carefully considered, but I... refused."

"I'm afraid of a lot of problems, and I'm afraid of a lot of things. These various reasons make it impossible for me to agree to him." Song Xiu sighed and said, "Even if it wasn't for him, I still like men, although the world has begun to accept homosexuality. , but there are still more or less criticisms, I don't want him to experience such criticisms... Isn't it good for a person to live a more relaxed life? Why do I have to experience so many criticisms? I thought I was doing it for his own good... "

"Isn't it?" Zuo Yi asked puzzled.

"No... I still don't know him well enough. If I really know him, I should think of it. He can think of these things that I can think of, but he still does it. There are no more than two reasons. One is that he is fearless. , and has the ability to protect me and love me to the bottom of my heart. The second reason is...he doesn't want to hide his heart anymore, or he can't hide anymore. He is not only confessing, but also asking for help, but I don't understand him well enough. , so I don't know..."

When talking about this, Song Xiuming had already decided to leave with Zuo Chen, but he still felt so sad.

He felt sorry for the pain Zuo Chen had experienced.

"Brother Xiu, go see a doctor, I beg you, I only have your brother left, I can't live without a brother." Zuo Yi said stubbornly, "Really, Brother Xiu."

Before Song Xiu could speak, the sound of leather shoes stepping on the stone steps sounded. Both Song Xiu and Zuo Yi raised their heads subconsciously, and saw a person coming with a bouquet of flowers in his hand. He didn't seem to expect to meet Song here. Xiuhe Zuoyi couldn't help but pause, and then said, "Sorry, did I bother you two?"

"You are?" Song Xiu frowned subconsciously, in his impression, he really didn't know the person in front of him.

"This is a member of the He family. It's not the same as our family. I went to a party with my father a few days ago and met him at the party." Zuo Yi whispered, "My brother had something to do with him before he was alive."

"I've been away before, and I just found out about the departure of my old friend recently." The young man seemed not familiar with Song Xiu, and didn't pay much attention to Zuo Yi. He just said, "He gave me something before he was alive. I think... maybe It should be handed over to you."

Song Xiuben was not interested in him, so when he heard this, he immediately raised his eyes to look at him, and said, "Then thank you, Young Master He."

He Yang laughed, and said, "Zuo Chen mentioned you many times before, I'm not a stranger to you, but it's probably the first time you've seen me? This thing... If I'm not wrong, it should be a gift your."

He Yang handed the things to Song Xiu, only then did Song Xiu notice that He Yang's hands were wrapped with bandages, and the bandages continued into his clothes, maybe his forearms were also wrapped.

"Young Master He? Are you injured?" Zuo Yi asked.

"Something happened a while ago, and I accidentally made it." After finishing speaking, He Yang glanced at Zuo Yi, he sighed, and said, "The Zuo family will be handed over to you in the future, come and find me if you have anything to do." , I will help if I can, after all Zuo Chen and I have been brothers for many years."

He Yang left here after finishing the matter, but when he was leaving, he turned his head and looked at Zuo Yi, and just met Zuo Yi's eyes, He Yang paused, frowned slightly, then turned and left.

Song Xiu didn't expect that he could receive something at all. He was taken aback for a moment. After opening the thing, he found that it was two rings. They were not big names, nor were there any precious diamonds. They were just two ordinary rings, even The workmanship is a bit rough.

But when Song Xiu saw the words inside the ring, he froze in place.

A ring that says "SX"

A ring that says "ZC"

"Hey? It's this?" Zuo Yi was very surprised when he saw the ring, "Why is this thing in He Yang's hands?"

"What do you mean?" Song Xiu asked puzzled.

"I know this. That year my brother went to Hunan on a business trip. There was a shop over there that specialized in making this. My brother made it himself. He is a person with good handling skills, but his hands-on skills are not good. It takes a lot of effort to make a ring." Zuo Yi seemed to remember how he looked at that time, he shook his head, and said, "I don't know what he carved, nor who he was going to give it to. I didn't expect that it was for Brother Xiu."

This sounds very sweet.

It would be nice if the people lying down there could hear it.

Song Xiu put the ring on, he smiled and said, "I haven't decided what to give him yet."

"Let's talk about it in a hundred years. I'm serious, Brother Xiu, don't think about it. My parents have already experienced the matter of a white-haired person giving a black-haired person, and I can't experience it again. Besides, I This body... You also know that even if the heart is changed, it is only better than before, compared with ordinary people, it is always not good... If you leave, I will leave, what will parents do?" Zuo Yi Shaking his head, he said, "If my brother sees his beloved trapped in a cage, how sad he will be. He wants to protect you, not to hurt you."

Song Xiu didn't speak, he clenched his hands slightly, looked at the flowers in front of He Yang, and asked, "Is he and Zuo Chen on good terms? I haven't heard much about it before."

"Brother Xiu, you didn't have much contact with my brother's circle before, so naturally you don't know... He Yang's family is not the same as mine. Their family is complicated and the water is deep. Fortunately, my brother has been helping He, otherwise... would be swallowed up by the group of foxes, if there are too many foxes, there will be a nest of foxes." Zuo Yi laughed.

"Being able to give this thing to him, it seems that we have a good relationship with Zuo Chen..." Song Xiu smiled, and said, "I have known Zuo Chen for more than 20 years, but I still don't understand him."

"My brother has always been thoughtful, don't say you don't understand, even my parents don't understand him, he can carry too much, he can hold on too much, and he can even pretend, so...if this is the final ending, I'm afraid In this lifetime, no one will know that he is so seriously ill." Zuo Yi looked at the person on the tombstone and said, "But he has already left, Brother Xiu, you have to look forward."

作者有话要说：其实我已经透露了HE的苗头，小可爱们看出来了吗？感谢在2019-12-2722:40:16~2019-12-2723:57:56期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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