Every day in the Shura field, I'm doing fancy whitewashing

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He's really sick, and he's not kidding.

You pay attention to him, you pay attention to him...you believe him, he is really suffering.

This kind of voice inexplicably appeared in Song Xiu's mind, giving him the urge to break the picture in front of him.

He saw Zuo Chen leaning against the car and smiled, and after he got in, Zuo Chen took out a cigarette, leaned against the car and smoked several in a row, then turned and left.

He didn't go to this birthday party.

After the Zuo couple just asked in doubt, they put all their attention on Zuo Yi.

Song Xiu was even more so.

When he met Zuo Chen again, he seemed to have forgotten what happened that night, as usual, he handled affairs with ease, as if no matter how difficult things would be solved by him.

Song Xiu thought that the matter was over and over, but he never expected that Zuo Chen did not give up.

The second time they met in the tea room, Song Xiu smiled and said, "I'm here to deliver something, I'll leave later."

"That's not what I meant." Zuo Chen blocked his way, his hand was wrapped in a bandage, and he didn't know when he hurt it. Song Xiu subconsciously wanted to ask, but he was afraid that Zuo Chen would think too much, so he didn't Open your mouth.

"I just want to ask you, do you like men or women?" Zuo Chen asked.

Song Xiu paused for a moment, he was silent for a while, and then said, "Although I haven't talked about it, but... I should like men."

"Okay, then why can't it be me? Can't you try it? Can you give me a reason?" Zuo Chen asked.

Song Xiu raised his eyes and looked at the man in front of him. In terms of appearance, strength, and background, he is well-deserved first-class. However, this man is not only the heir of Zuo's group, but also Song Xiu's younger brother, even if they are not related by blood. relation.

"Because you are my younger brother." Song Xiu smiled, and he said, "Even though we are not related by blood, I have always treated you as my younger brother, understand?"

"Is it just a younger brother? You said... You treat Zuo Yi as your own younger brother, so you love him, protect him and care about him, but you have never protected me. Why are you telling me now that you just treat me as a younger brother? " Zuo Chen laughed as if laughing at himself, and said, "What am I?"

Song Xiu was silent for a while, and said, "I'm sorry, Zuo Chen...but you are different from Xiaoyi, do you understand? He is sick, can you care about this with a patient...you are different, and my energy Limited, I can't care about everything, cover everything..."

"I understand." Zuo Chen looked at Song Xiu, and after a while, he smiled and said, "I understand, I deserve it."

After that day, Song Xiu hadn't heard from Zuo Chen for a while, but what Zuo Chen said that day was still lingering in his mind, making him unable to calm down for a long time.

In his impression, Zuo Chen is not a person who can say such things, he is decent, he handles things with superb skills, he knows exactly what should be said and what should not be said, such a low-level mistake should not have been made by him have to.

But...he just said it.

Song Xiu wanted to find out about this matter, but before he found Zuo Chen, he heard the news that Zuo Chen was hospitalized. The secretary said that he passed out in the hotel. If the waiter didn't find out, he didn't know what happened.

When Song Xiu rushed to the hospital, Zuo Chen had already woken up, and told his secretary some things. When he saw Song Xiu coming in, he waved his hand to signal the secretary to go out.

"I heard that you fainted, how are you doing now?" Song Xiu asked.

"It's all right now. It's probably because there are too many things going on recently, so I can't hold on." Zuo Chen's face was still a little pale, his brows were handsome, and it made people unable to move their eyes away when he looked closely. After Song Xiu paused, Looking around the ward, he asked, "Have all uncles and aunts been here?"

"Well, the person didn't come, so he said there was still something to do... I don't have any serious issues, it doesn't matter if I come or not." Zuo Chen said.

"Xiaoyi had a fever again last night. The doctor said...it's dangerous, and..." Song Xiu didn't continue, but Zuo Chen already understood what he meant. He lowered his eyes and said, "Really? Sometimes, I still envy him."

"Huh?" Song Xiu frowned, "What?"

"If one day I become like him, will you feel sorry for me?" These words were a bit hypocritical, after Zuo Chen finished speaking, he turned his head and said, "Forget it, this is meaningless."

"I don't really want to answer this topic." Song Xiu sighed and said, "You are in good health, don't think about these things, live your life well."

Zuo Chen raised his hand and said, "I want to give you something."

Song Xiu took a step forward, and when he was about to pick it up, he seemed to think of something, and withdrew his hand again, and said with a smile, "Forget it, just tell me what it is."

"Nothing, I was just joking with you..." Song Xiu's evasive movement fell into Zuo Chen's eyes, but he didn't say anything, but his eyes dimmed slightly, he said, "Am I a scourge?"

"I think, is it because what I said last time was not clear enough?" Song Xiu thought a lot these days. He didn't deny that he would be anxious when he couldn't find Zuo Chen, and he didn't deny that he was thinking about it these days Zuo Chen, maybe it wasn't these few days, maybe it's been a long time, but no one told him, until Zuo Chen clarified this matter, he didn't know to reflect on himself.

But so what?Even if he likes men, even if he is interested in Zuo Chen.

so what?He can't be with Zuo Shen.

"I've always treated you like a younger brother, maybe I didn't pay enough attention to you, but... I can't be with you, understand? We can only be brothers and friends forever... If you continue..." Song Xiushen Taking a breath, he said, "I am not the only friend of yours, and you are not the only friend of mine... From now on, let's meet less often to save embarrassment."

He can no longer let Zuo Chen have such an unrealistic dream, he must let Zuo Chen wake up from the dream, because he is Zuo Chen, the heir of Zuo's group, and the entire Zuo family needs him.

Until the end, Song Xiu never shook Zuo Chen's hand. When he was leaving, Zuo Chen suddenly called him. Before Song Xiu had time to turn around, he was hugged in his arms. The needle was pulled out from the blood vessel, and blood Following Zuo Chen's fingertips down, he almost tremblingly said, "Brother Xiu, is it because I'm dying that you will take a look at me?"

Maybe it was Song Xiu's illusion, he seemed to hear pain, struggle, anger, and... the fear hidden in the depths from this voice.

However, he still left.

When he came out of the hospital gate, the ambulance pulled a man in. The man was covered in blood, and the other man was crying and calling his name. After the doctor diagnosed the man lying on the bed, he shook his head and said , "Condolences."

Afterwards, Song Xiu saw that the standing man seemed to have collapsed and knelt on the ground, as if all his strength had been sucked away in an instant.

The little nurse on the side shook her head and said, "Poor, this man is still a star. I heard that the one who died was his lover. When the two were alive, he never acknowledged each other's identity. Now that the man is gone, there is no need to cry again." What's the use? No matter how sad you are, it's useless."

For some reason, he remembered Zuo Chen's trembling voice again, and remembered him saying... Is it because I'm dying too that you will take a look at me?

Song Xiu sighed. After he got in the car, he was going to go home to rest, but he turned the steering wheel and went in the opposite direction.

He needs to find a place to stay quietly and think about this matter clearly.

Maybe tomorrow he will understand, maybe the day after tomorrow... maybe ten days and eight months?One month and two months?But one day, he will be able to figure it out.

He admitted that when he heard Zuo Chen say that, he felt a pain in his heart, but reason told him that he and Zuo Chen were two different kinds of people. Shen is different, he has too many things to bear, even for the sake of the Zuo family and Zuo Yi, he can't agree to Zuo Chen's request.

People live in this world, not everything can be obtained.

The car finally stopped at the entrance of the orphanage. The orphanage was a bit desolate, and there was an express hotel next to it. Song Xiu opened a room with his ID card and lived in it.

His room was facing the orphanage, and he could see a few thin children inside, as well as a teacher who looked numb but moved very gently.

He was not given a happy childhood here, but these people, this orphanage, protected his life and allowed him to survive after being abandoned and look for a new life. That's why he met the Zuo family.

He knew that after many people adopted children from the orphanage, they would continue to have children. Some families had their own children, so they returned the children from the orphanage.

That feeling is uncomfortable, like a discarded item.

But the Zuo couple didn't treat him like this, instead they continued to treat him like their own son, and it was precisely because of this that he couldn't agree to Zuo Chen.

Zuo Chen is the hope of the Zuo family, and he bears the future of the Zuo family on his shoulders.

Song Xiu sat on the bed, thought for a while, and sent a message to the Zuo family, saying that he had something to do recently and needed to go out, so he would shut down the phone for a few days.

After the message was sent, he turned off his phone.

His mind is too confused now, whether it's Zuo Chen's words, the Zuo's couple's concern, what happened in the orphanage, or Zuo Yi's dying appearance... He rubbed his eyebrows, feeling very tired.

If Zuo Chen wasn't the son of the Zuo family, if he wasn't the adopted son of the Zuo family, maybe he would really agree...Who doesn't like Zuo Chen, a proud son of heaven?

But unfortunately, this is only if.

But Song Xiu didn't know that when he left the hospital and closed the door of the ward, he completely closed Zuo Chen's hope. Song Xiu knew it, why didn't he know it?But...he has reached the limit, he can't hold it anymore, he is too uncomfortable, even if Song Xiu gives a little response, he can continue to deceive himself and continue walking...

Song Xiu didn't know that the side of the hospital was the last time he saw Zuo Chen.

作者有话要说：感谢在2019-12-2523:50:11~2019-12-2619:20:35期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Tachibana Tachibana, THeo1;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: half a taro ball. 10 bottles; 5 bottles of warm wine at dusk; 1 bottle of Daphne and SYH;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!