Every day in the Shura field, I'm doing fancy whitewashing

"You have a mental problem, do you know?" Lu Heng looked at the diagnosis certificate and said, "Does Jiang Fei know about this?"

"Don't tell him, it's unnecessary." Song Xiu's stomachache became more and more frequent, he leaned against the door, and said, "If you are his friend, please think more about him."

Lu Heng was very puzzled, "This is what I don't understand. If you really don't love him, why do you do these things for him? If you love him, you..."

Song Xiu laughed and said, "Is it important?"

Lu Heng shook his head and said, "I'm really not sure about your affairs... But I think you should tell him about it. I'm his friend, so I can't hide it from him."

"What can you do to stop talking?" Song Xiu raised his eyes and looked at Lu Heng seriously.

Luheng paused, thought for a while, and then said, "Tell me the reason, as long as you tell me, I won't say it, and... I think you have reached this point, it must be very painful, right? It's because Jiang Is it about the rain?"

[Song Xiu: I finally got to Lu Heng, and I just waited for him to ask this. 】

【666: Host, you're not being human again. 】

After Song Xiu was silent for a while, he said, "Come in with me." Then, he walked downstairs to the small garden behind. Lu Heng saw the cigarette butts in the trash can and looked at Song Xiu in surprise. Xiu said, "Are you desperate? Smoke so much?"

"Damn." Song Xiu's answer was concise and to the point. He subconsciously took out the cigarette, thought about it and put it aside, and said, "What do you want to ask? Ask."

"Is your illness related to Jiang Yu's matter? What happened to the car accident three years ago? I remember that Jiang Fei didn't come back until Jiang Yu's funeral was over, and he was still injured." Lu Heng couldn't understand Shaking his head, he said, "They say you are a person who hits the river and rain. To be honest, I don't like you because you look unrestrained and not a person who can live a life, but I don't think you can do this kind of thing."

Song Xiu laughed, and said, "Thank you for your kindness."

"So you didn't hit Jiang Yu, did you? Then why do you admit it?" Lu Heng looked at Song Xiu incomprehensibly, and Song Xiu smiled. He shook his head and said, "I'm an orphan, you How many people in this world can I willingly shoulder this responsibility?"

Lu Heng was stunned for a moment, his face went blank for a moment, and then he said with difficulty, "One, Jiang Fei. But... But how is this possible?!"

"That day, it was raining heavily, and there was a new road over there. There were no vehicles passing by, and no one was walking on that side, so we chose to take that road. On the road, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it was almost impossible to see the road. Yes, the speed limit over there is [-] yards, we have already slowed down the speed... and there is a fence over there, no one should go through it, but... I didn't expect that Jiang Yu would appear there. Don't understand why she was there, why she ran a red light, why..."

After Song Xiu took a deep breath, he said, "Forget it, it's useless to say more, we don't have time to brake."

"So... bumped into it?" Lu Heng asked.

"Well, it happened. Jiang Fei turned the steering wheel. The car broke through the fence and rushed to the hillside below. His head was injured...you know the rest of it." Song Xiu still smoked a cigarette, He had to light it with a lighter, and he had to smoke. If he didn't use this pain to relieve his inner fear, he seemed to be unable to control himself again. Now he was getting more and more uncomfortable, as if he would drown anytime, anywhere.

It's like someone drowned in a lake and finally pulled a straw, but the straw was broken.

"Why didn't you say it? Why did you carry it alone?" Lu Heng gritted his teeth and said, "Do you know how much he hates you?"

"What do you say? Tell him that he killed his sister? Tell him that he is the murderer? The perpetrator? I'd rather he hate me than despair." Song Xiu laughed, his face turned pale , Looking down at the back of his hand, he said, "Hate me, he won't blame himself or be sad if he hates me."

"Are you afraid that his body won't be able to carry it?" Lu Heng seemed to understand everything at this moment.

"Yes, there must be someone responsible for this matter." Song Xiu looked up at the sky, and immediately said, "I hope this person is me."

"If..." Before Lu Heng finished speaking, Song Xiu interrupted him and said, "You want to say that if I tell him the truth, he won't hate me so much, or you want to say... If If I die one day, and he knows the truth, will he really despair?"

Lu Heng thought for a while and said, "I want to ask."

Song Xiu exhaled smoke rings, he is a person who suffers from headaches from smoking, and he can play these things, he couldn't help laughing, and then said, "If I tell him, he will definitely die, with his current body, there is no I can't bear this blow. As for me... As long as you don't tell me, and I don't tell you, who will know? Bury this secret forever, even if one day I die, he will just eliminate the hatred in his heart ...I love him more than my life."

Until now, Lu Heng didn't realize how stubborn Song Xiu's character was.

"How sick are you? Even if I'm not a psychiatrist, I can feel that you're dying." Lu Heng looked at him worriedly, and said, "You...are you feeling particularly uncomfortable?"

"It should be impossible." Song Xiu raised his hand to cover his eyes, and he said, "I can see Jiang Yu all the time, she seems to be by my side all the time, she said, she is in my heart, as long as I still I can't get rid of her if I live for one day... I don't know how long I can last, maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe... there is still a long way to go."

"Is this the reason for vomiting blood?" Lu Heng asked.

"Well." Song Xiu smiled, and he said, "I'm so tired, so tired... I don't know why I'm so tired, but I'm tired, Lu Heng, I want to lie on the bed, close my eyes, Hear nothing, and then never wake up again."

"I'll ask someone to remove the things in your room." After speaking, Lu Heng was about to leave.

Song Xiu grabbed him tightly, smiled, and said, "You promised me not to say or do anything. All of this is voluntary by me and has nothing to do with anyone else... just treat it as if I asked for it Yes."

He sighed and said, "I don't want to part with Jiang Fei, but I have to be an escaper."

After Song Xiu smoked a whole cigarette, he turned around and left. His back fell into Lu Heng's eyes. For some reason, Lu Heng faintly felt that this person was about to disappear.

Song Xiu went directly to the hospital in the afternoon. He didn't tell anyone. He walked out of the villa, waited for the bus at the foot of the mountain, and took the bus to the hospital. It was the same doctor last time. The doctor was also very surprised when he saw him, and said, "I am Haven't seen you in a while, do you feel better now?"

"It's much better." Song Xiu smiled and said, "I haven't seen her for a while."

"Did you encounter something happy?" The psychiatrist asked with a smile.

"Yeah, I'm going back soon, I feel happy, I'll never see her again, I'm very happy when I think about it." Song Xiu smiled, he had a handsome face, and his smile was very pretty.

Seeing him like this, the doctor was also very happy. When Song Xiu left, he gave Song Xiu a lot of advice, saying, "Be happy in the future."

After Song Xiu left the hospital, he didn't go back. Instead, he searched for the buses in the whole city, and then started to take the bus all the way. He wanted to take the bus to go around the city.

He hasn't had a good look at the place where he grew up, and he is about to leave now, so let's take it as a last look and keep it as a souvenir.

By the way, he contacted the director of the orphanage when he was a child, gave him all his deposit bank cards, and said with a smile, "Last time... the children I met were pretty good, everyone... Not bad."

"Don't you keep some for yourself? There are so many." The dean said in surprise.

"No, I'm going to leave, I probably won't come back in the future, it's useless to keep this, I want to leave it to some people who need it." Song Xiu smiled, and he said, "It's not easy for everyone, I hope that in the future life would be easier."

"Are you leaving? Did you go to another city?" the dean asked.

"Yeah, I'm planning to go to another place. Take care of your health in the future and buy more clothes in winter. The orthopedic department at the Central Hospital is good. You have time to go and see your legs. The leg injuries in the early years are now cloudy and rainy. It shouldn't be uncomfortable...you remember to go and see it." When Song Xiu left, he gently hugged the man he once regarded as his father, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm leaving, goodbye."

Taking the bus around the city, from afternoon to late at night, until the bus returned to the bus terminal, he still couldn't finish the city, and finally returned to the villa slowly.

【666: Why hide it from the psychiatrist?Shouldn't the symptoms be more exaggerated? 】

【Song Xiu: I can't get better. Doctors are human too. They will be happy for curing patients and sad for not curing patients. If this is the case, why can't I make him happy? 】

666 didn't speak anymore.

When Song Xiu returned to the villa, he glanced at the time and found that it was past twelve o'clock in the middle of the night. He paused, and when he opened the door, he saw Jiang Fei sitting on the sofa. Song Xiu came in, turned to look at him, twitched the corners of his lips, and said with a smile, "I thought you wouldn't come back."

"I promised you, I will definitely come back." Song Xiu paused, and then said, "Trust me more, okay?"

Jiang Fei did not speak, and the two looked at each other. Finally, Jiang Fei shook his head and said with a sneer, "Do you think you are worth it?"

Song Xiu sighed, he leaned against the wall, spread his hands, looked helpless, and smiled, "Maybe I'm not worth it."

Lu Heng sat aside and hesitated to speak. He glanced at Jiang Fei, then at Song Xiu, and finally said nothing.

作者有话要说：感谢在2019-12-2323:11:16~2019-12-2323:59:06期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Bolognese sauce, tangerine tangerine, 1 cross tomb;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：顾林淼10瓶；茶茶的小宝贝6瓶；程程5瓶；十字墓2瓶；乔晏1瓶；

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