Abnormal Museum Pokédex

Xiao Su's memory was frozen in the moment before he fell into a coma.

His vision was blurry, his body was in pain, and his mouth was full of bloody taste. He touched a cold and sharp piece of metal on the ground, and he knew it was a scalpel.

He had never killed anyone before, but at that moment, he suddenly had the idea of ​​killing someone.

For 13 years, he lived in depression for 13 years.He will always remember his father's weakened appearance before he died. Sometimes, he can't even tell whether it is his father or himself.

He once promised his mother that he would live no matter what, medicine is flourishing, technology is advancing, ten years, 30 years, 50 years... maybe he will be saved by then.

Even if he is not saved, he is the spiritual support of his mother.She had lost her husband, and he couldn't let her lose her son in such a tragic way.

However, she fell asleep and would not wake up for the rest of her life.

Xiao Su pinched the thin blade, and a strange but familiar pleasure suddenly appeared in his chest.Since he was a child, he was a stubborn guy who was not afraid of anything. When he was six years old, he blew up his father's bed with a firecracker. At eight years old, he caught spiders and stuffed them into the teacher's briefcase. There was an endless stream of people who came to his house to complain. His father once worried that he was an antisocial madman, beat his ass, put him in confinement, and even took him to see a psychiatrist.

But when he was 14 years old, everything changed. He was told that his life would end before it even started, that he would not get what he wanted, and if he got it, he would lose it soon.

The only less painful option is to voluntarily give up and tell yourself "I don't want anything".

He locked himself in his room that summer and completed the psychological transformation from an antisocial child to a Buddhist teenager.From that day on, he never messed around again, never acted wildly again, he suppressed his fiery personality, and turned himself into a pool of quiet, stagnant water...

Because only in this way can he live numbly like he promised to his mother.

However, is there any point in keeping such an oath now?

Xiao Su held the blade tightly and ironed the thin metal.He suddenly felt that he was free, and he could deal with his worthless life at will and use it to do something enjoyable.

For example, kill this... scum who is showing off his power in front of him at this moment!

He closed his eyes, and with his precise intuition, sent the scalpel into Ding Tianyi's body.

Right upper quadrant, in front of the kidney, above the stomach...the liver...a bit deeper...type AB blood...the emergency bulletin board shows that it is in short supply today.

everything is over.

He let go of his hands, lay down on the ground without any resistance, and let Ding Tianyi's fists rain down on his face and body, his heart was calm and there was no disturbance.

Until, he saw Rong Rui.

There was a sharp pain in his heart - after all, he still failed the best person.

In a daze, he seemed to be carried to the emergency room, and then sent to the ward... His whole body was in severe pain, and his stomach felt like it was burning... But he was too tired, no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't stop falling, falling , until falling into an endless nightmare.

He dreamed of that pond again, he turned into a mermaid and was trapped in the middle of the water, the channel leading to the sea was blocked, and countless zombies surrounded him clamoring.

In desperation he saw a large bird flying across the sky, hovering in the middle of the black misty clouds.The Mongolian warrior in red and silver armor shoots a rain of silver-red arrows from his bow and arrows, nailing the dirty and ugly zombies to the cracked stone shore one by one.

He looked up at the warrior who came to redeem him, but there was a sharp stabbing pain in his body. He lowered his head, the long fish tail was festering rapidly, and the light blue scales were shrouded in black mist, slowly falling off, and the flesh and bones turned into Carrion, slowly dissolving in the dirty pond.

Help me... He looked up at the big bird.Mie Meng circled a few times in mid-air, and finally left, getting into the clouds without looking back.

He can't get it, he can only lose it... In the dark, he seemed to hear that lunatic motto, which determined his life's fate.

Waking up suddenly, Xiao Su took a deep breath, with severe pain in his chest, and a strong bloody smell in his mouth.

The eyes were sore, and half a drop of tears spilled out of the corners of the eyes and slid into the temples, changing from warm to cold.Xiao Su slowly opened his eyes, and saw the pure white ceiling and walls of the hospital, and the light blue shutters were tightly drawn, revealing faint morning light.

Someone was lying at the foot of his bed, sleeping soundly. It was Rong Rui, with the long down jacket sponsored by Sun Zhisheng on his back, and a pack of cigarettes in his hand.

As if sensing his sight, Rong Rui woke up, probably because his arms were numb from lying on the ground for too long, he gently turned his joints to activate blood circulation like a puppet, and asked with a yawn, "Are you awake?"

The scene in the dream and the reality seemed to overlap, Xiao Su stared at him blankly, shifted his eyes slightly, and saw the small medicine box that he often used was placed on his side.

Xiao Su remembered very clearly that he threw it back into the glove box. Why did it appear here?

Rong Rui rubbed his face sleepily, and yawned again: "How do you feel, is there any discomfort?"

Xiao Su remained silent, stretched his legs and said, "I'll call the doctor first..."

"Rong Rui." Xiao Su interrupted him, and when he opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was dry, and he couldn't help coughing a few times.Rong Rui quickly picked him up and gave him half a glass of water.

Xiao Su leaned on the pillow, closed his eyes, and grabbed his hand before he left: "Don't go, sit down, I have something to tell you."

Rong Rui obediently sat on the chair beside the bed, reached out and touched his forehead, and wiped off his fine sweat: "Let's talk about it later, take a rest first, I'll call the doctor."

"No, I'm not tired." Xiao Su tried to adjust his breathing, motioned him to pass the small medicine box to himself, and opened it, "Ibuprofen, Paxil... SOD, Diazepam."

Rong Rui hesitated for two seconds, then suddenly understood what he wanted to do, and stood up abruptly.

Xiao Su didn't look at him, his eyes stayed on those pills, and his tone was calm: "Sit down...listen to my explanation, SOD is a free radical scavenging enzyme, which can eliminate free radicals accumulated in neurons. Diazepam is a therapeutic For muscle spasms, it also has an anti-anxiety effect."

Rong Rui sat down slowly and looked at him without saying a word.Xiao Su paused for a moment, then hardened his heart and said: "I'm sorry, I have been hiding my... situation from you, Rong Rui, I suffer from a neuron disease, congenital inheritance, and abnormal DNA."

"What?" Rong Rui repeated, "Neuron? Abnormal?"

"A gene mutation, the cause is unknown. As I grow older, my neurons will gradually have functional defects until they stop working completely." Xiao Su explained to him as seriously as he was lecturing, "Neuron cells are highly differentiated , there is no way to regenerate, so when they are completely necrotic, my life will come to an end."

After saying these words, Xiao Su felt that the weight that had been on his heart for a long time disappeared miraculously, and his whole body became very calm, just like the summer when he was 14 years old.

"I don't want it", just like Lunyin's motto, if you repeat it a hundred times or a thousand times, you really don't want it anymore.

Even so greedy, so reluctant.

Rong Rui was suffocated in silence for a long time, and asked in a low voice, "How long will it be?"

"If you get sick, it's about two to five years."

"You...are you sick?" Rong Rui asked with difficulty, holding on to a glimmer of hope.

"More than a year ago." Xiao Su said in a low voice, "just a few months before I went to study in East Africa." He slowly raised his eyes and smiled at Rongrui, "You are very lucky. When I was me, I was still relatively healthy, and I could run you all over the mountains and plains, and ran out with a wrench to beat people."

Rong Rui took a deep breath, shook his head, without a trace of joking expression on his face: "I don't believe it!"

Xiao Su licked his dry lips, and his light smile slowly faded away: "Sometimes, I don't believe it... My father was already 32 years old when he got sick, and I was six years earlier than him."

"But fate is inherently unfair, isn't it?" He said, "Dr. Chen told me that this is inevitable. With iterations, this DNA defect will be amplified, and the onset time tends to be younger."

"Then, what about Xiao Ran?"

"She is healthy." Xiao Su said, "The genetic probability of this kind is very low, but I... was too unlucky to bump into it."

"When did you find out?"

"a decade ago."

After a long silence, Xiao Su broke the oppressive silence, and said as calmly as possible: "Rong Rui, I didn't hide it on purpose, I just want to live a normal life with dignity in my lifetime, so I asked Dr. Chen to seal up my medical records." .I know you investigated me, and I...I also thought about never telling you, but...but we...we..."

He asked himself that he was already very calm. After 13 years of calmness, he can definitely overcome the shameful greed in his heart, but when he said this, he was still so uncomfortable and so desperate: "You are like my own brother. Every time you call me brother, I feel guilty, I shouldn't lie to you...I'm sorry, Xiao Rui, I didn't mean it...Please forgive me, brother, you are as important to me as Xiao Ran. "

Rong Rui stood stiffly on the spot, staring straight at his side face, his eyes were so black that they turned blue: "I don't need it."

Xiao Su could barely breathe, opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.

"You know, I don't need it," he said stubbornly.

Xiao Su exhausted all his strength and said, "I only have this, Rong Rui, only this."

Rong Rui's eyes suddenly turned red, he turned around and strode away, and slammed the door of the room with a "bang".

Xiao Su trembled uncontrollably with the sound of the door slamming, and slowly closed his eyes. Under the quilt, his pale hands were tightly clenched, and his nails pinched his palms to blood.

he's gone.

He will never come back.

Just like that big bird, passing through the black and misty clouds, disappearing into the distant sky.

They are two straight lines, intersecting by accident, but they are destined to part ways. The point of intersection is the starting point and the end point.

Xiao Su slid down slowly, pulling up the quilt tremblingly, covering his face.

Since he was 14 years old, he has never played football, never ridden a horse, and never peeked at the girl he likes, because he knows he is not worthy.

He will always remember the pain in his mother's eyes when his father fell ill. It was not just sadness and despair, but a guilt that he couldn't share, and the fear of being alone.

Love turns man into a fragile symbiosis, and turns the demise of one into the demise of two.

Rong Rui is still so young and has a bright future, he can't drag him to hell.

After an unknown amount of time, the door rang softly, and familiar footsteps slowly came over, standing in front of the bed, motionless.

"Brother, do you want to eat?" Rong Rui asked, "The doctor said you can eat liquid food, do you want rice porridge or milk? Or soy milk?"

Xiao Su suddenly choked up and couldn't speak, clutching the quilt tightly.Rong Rui waited for a while and said, "Brother, I will listen to you, you can say whatever you want."

Xiao Su cried silently, tears overflowed from his eyes uncontrollably, but his heart was blank, he didn't know what kind of feeling it was.

Closing his eyes, he saw the dark sky, the big bird swooped down and hovered over the head of the fish that was about to suffocate. Although he knew it couldn't be saved or even reached, he was still so persistent and didn't want to leave.

"I will treat you as my own brother from now on." Rong Rui said seriously, "Brother, remember, you said it yourself, I am as important as Xiao Ran, don't forget."

Xiao Su's lips moved, unable to speak.He stood for a while, then turned and left: "I'll go buy porridge for you."

The door clicked lightly, but this time he didn't slam the door.

Xiao Su slowly pulled down the quilt, smelling the faint smell of tobacco in the air.Rong Rui spent half an hour forcing himself to compromise with tobacco and violence, and accepted his ruthless and unreasonable request.

How can a 19-year-old boy suppress himself so that after he slams the door and leaves, he walks back nonchalantly and calls him "Brother"?

For a moment, Xiao Su suddenly felt hesitant—is it really right for him to do this?

right...

if not?

The author has something to say: Rong Rui: In order to love me, I choose to endure humiliation and make a detour. (Take out a small notebook to write a strategy)

Explanation: This article is HE, the disease will be cured, and there is no blue love of life and death. Thank you!