silent in the black lake

"My name is Noel!" I stared at him actively for the first time, emphasizing angrily

I was a little surprised by the unquestionable and angry tone in my own tone, which made me astonished by the surge of anger

He was also taken aback, the black eyes that stared at me suddenly gathered anger, the anger was palpable, he even grabbed my neck violently, and squeezed his five fingers together forcefully

I was suffocated immediately, but I still looked at him stubbornly.

"Do you really think I'm not willing to kill you?" He said angrily, "You're just a servant, just a toy. Find out who you are, and don't rely on my favor to challenge my patience over and over again."

His fingers were gathered without any hesitation, so strong that I could smell the smell of death, his delicate and resolute face looked a bit like a god of death from hell in his gloomy vision

"Whatever I call you, you obediently respond to me." He looked down at me condescendingly, and after a pause he added: "Do you understand?"

This is an order. Although I was still angry, I opened my mouth involuntarily and answered silently: "Understood."

My lips were still humming to answer, and he let go of his hand, the anger on his face subsided instantly, his black eyes suddenly lit up a little, and the usual ridicule appeared on his delicate and resolute face

I coughed violently, breathed heavily, and sucked in the air greedily. I must have been very embarrassed as I was desperately trying to survive, because I saw him raise his eyebrows and hook his mouth, admiring me with great interest, with a look of pride look like

"But yes, you are indeed Noel." He sneered and stretched out his hands to wipe the corners of my eyes, and said pitifully, "I'm crying again, it's so pitiful." At the same time, he squeezed my eye sockets vigorously, making me shed more tears

I have fully understood his paranoia in the past three years, and I don't want to waste energy to refute and defend. I immediately turned my face away, but he pinched my chin again and forced me to turn my face back.

I had no choice but to shift my gaze, but this time he didn't order me to look at him as usual. From the corner of my eye, I noticed that he seemed to be still staring at me. I felt a little abnormal, but he immediately moved closer to my neck lick up

It turned out that I was just observing the blood vessels in my neck. I realized it immediately, and laughed at myself for thinking too much, and even imagined his abnormality.

The squishy touch ended, and I took a deep breath subconsciously, because I knew that the cold and sharp fangs would soon pierce my neck

However, I exhaled deeply, and I didn't feel the penetration of his fangs.

He straightened up suddenly, I looked at him suspiciously, and he looked at me mockingly, and said playfully, "Today I caught someone I wanted to kill for a long time."

"No" he chuckled again, "it should be said to be a whimsical half-vampire", suddenly he stared at me angrily and said faintly: "He actually covets my belongings, tell me, is he damn"

Of course I will not answer him, such things as he captured and executed night clans or vampires or humans, he would sometimes reveal it to me in words, I don’t know if he wants to see my reaction or take the opportunity to show off his position to me High weight, or just looking for an excuse to mock me

In short, I will not respond, and he will never force me to answer him

However, at this moment, he suddenly grabbed my jaw, leaned closer to my face, stared at me fiercely, and asked repeatedly coldly: "Is he damned, you say?"

I have never looked at his black eyes so closely and carefully before, in the depths of the black lake in his eyes, I suddenly saw a mountain of thick silt that could never be melted away

I had an absurd idea for a moment. I couldn't help but wonder if the black lake in his eyes was once clear and transparent, but the silt accumulated continuously, which dyed the clear lake water black and made the clear water appear. The bottom of the lake turned into an endless darkness

"Answer" he ordered eagerly

"Yes" I opened my mouth and was forced to answer

He smiled with great satisfaction. It was the first time I saw such a joyful smile on his face. It was not childish and sarcasm-free. It was pure joy.

"I'm in a good mood today, so I don't want to eat your blood, which is getting worse and worse, to make myself unhappy." He straightened up and looked down at me, and after a long time he said: "Seeing how obedient you are today, I will show mercy. Grant a small wish of your servant."

"What do you want?" He pinched my chin and stared at me and asked, "I can give you anything"

"Is your life okay?" I replied without thinking

He seemed to have expected it a long time ago, with a look of understanding, he smiled mockingly, and said leisurely: "Of course not."

I sneered back: "Didn't you say anything?"

"My life does not belong to anything, and no one can take it away," he said, "I will kill whoever comes to take it away, no matter whether he is as powerful as a god or not, I will do everything possible to kill him." him"

When he said this, his expression was extremely proud. At that moment, I seemed to see a pair of bright red and bewitching eyes from his black eyes

But the red eyes disappeared as soon as I blinked. I guess the red eyes were probably just the flash of red in his eyes when he was bloodthirsty

But that unknown emotion flashed across his black eyes, "Even if I pay any price, I will kill him," he said, and then he stared at me again, and ordered, "So don't think about it." kill me, i'll kill you"

He laughed mockingly again, and joked, "I'm very reluctant to kill you."

His eyes are very serious, although his tone seems to be joking, but I have no doubt that he will do what he says

But I smiled in relief. For a person like me, imprisoned in a corner of a birdcage, unable to see the light of day, unable to recall any past, opening my eyes every day, I can only stare at the black eyes that control me. With pain, so what, death is just another relief

It's just that I can't do this kind of relief myself, and I don't have the courage to do it.

He didn't know if he had read my mind, looked at me eagerly, and said, "You can ask for another silver dagger."

"Cut my hair." I replied softly. Although my heart was very confused at this moment, I really only had one thought. My hair is already very long, and it reaches my waist. It has never been trimmed in the past three years. , although it's not messy, but whenever I look in the mirror, my mind is racing, and I subconsciously feel that the person in the mirror is like a sentimental woman

This request made him stunned. He picked up a lock of my long hair, fiddled with it for a while, and said with a sneer at the corner of his mouth: "Why, being treated like a woman makes you extremely ashamed, doesn't it?"

"Yes" I blurted out, I don't know why at this moment I was suddenly very tired, I didn't have the energy to deal with him, and I didn't want to ridicule each other with him

He seemed a little surprised by my bluntness at this moment, with a playful smile on his face, and mockingly said: "But when you yelled out loud, it didn't seem like shame, but like enjoyment."

"Cut or not?" I asked bluntly

He looked directly at me, restrained his smile, turned over from me for a long time and got off the bed, picked up a robe and put it on his body, and left a sentence telling me to take a shower and walked out of the gorgeous door

I rolled to the side of the bed little by little, and got out of bed gently. Although I was raped by him for three years, I still felt very painful. Looking at the messy bed sheets, I sighed helplessly

What is the meaning of my broken life, I can't help thinking

When I was done taking a shower, he came back with a delicate plate with a pair of scissors and a comb

The scissors were actually made of silver, I subconsciously took a second look

"Come and sit down," he ordered. In fact, I can no longer distinguish what he said in a commanding tone, which ones have the magic power of manipulating people's hearts, and which ones are just commands.

He brought two leather stools to the center of the room, put the plate on one of the leather stools, picked up the scissors from it, then turned to look at me, frowned and repeated: "Come and sit down."

He was going to cut my hair, I was a little surprised and surprised, "You want to cut my hair?" I asked in disbelief

There was gloom in his dark eyes, and he said coldly: "Didn't you ask me to cut your hair?"

I think of myself saying 'cut my hair', in fact, I just want to express that I want to cut my hair, but it seems that it is okay to ask him to cut my hair, after all, I said to him, although it is a misunderstanding , but I'm surprised he actually wanted to cut me

"Come here, hurry up" he urged impatiently

My feet suddenly took a step involuntarily, and I strode up to him to sit down. I knew it was an order, but when I sat down, the feeling of control disappeared.

He began to cut my hair, starting from the back and slowly shifting towards my front

He cut it very seriously. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him lift up my long hair, comb it to the end with a comb, and smooth it slowly. i can't believe it

"Have you ever cut someone else's hair before?" I subconsciously asked, this is one of the few times I asked him a question

"No" he blurted out

My heart trembled suddenly, this feeling touched me inexplicably as much as seeing the unknown emotion in his eyes

He suddenly stopped and said quietly: "Do I look like a night clan who is so bored to cut someone else's hair? Is there anyone in this world who is worthy?" He paused, then emphasized coldly: "You also Unworthy" said his movements no longer gently, and suddenly pulled up a lock of hair on my forehead, and roughly cut off most of it

That bundle of hair covered half of my face in a mess, and I pushed it aside casually. I didn't care whether it looked good or not, I just wanted to get back a little bit of dignity, even in terms of appearance.

He stood in front of me, suddenly pinched my chin, raised my face, his hands trembled a little, watching the unknown emotion well up in my black eyes, occupying his eyes for a long time never subsided

"Tell me, is there really reincarnation in the world?" He looked at my face with complicated eyes

I am a little funny, an immortal vampire is actually asking me about reincarnation, but I still honestly answer what I think in my heart: "Even if there is reincarnation, is the person who returns still the person in your heart? Will I treat you as before?"

He froze for a moment, and smiled mockingly for a long time, but his smile didn't seem to be mocking me, but rather mocking himself, "You should only be 20 years old this year." He continued to look at me and said

"It's better than your old man who has lived for hundreds of thousands of years." I sneered, and at the same time I quickly remembered my age. I didn't know how old I was before

But also through his words, I confirmed what I have always guessed

He knows my past, my lost memories

He seemed to turn a blind eye to my sarcasm, and he didn't taunt me back as usual, but replied with a chuckle: "You can see it." After he finished speaking, he suddenly raised my face, smoothed the messy forehead hair, and The comb combed carefully for a long time before picking up the scissors

But he suddenly stopped, and said calmly: "Actually, I am only about 20 years old. I was only 20 years old when I accepted the first embrace as a night clan, so my human age is only [-] years old, as old as you."

"A year full of helplessness" he continued to sigh quietly, and then trimmed my forehead hair bit by bit

He is very attentive in trimming, I have never seen him with such a serious expression, his movements are gentle and loving, as if my forehead hair is a rare treasure between his fingers

At this moment, I suddenly couldn’t remember what he did to me in the past three years, which was extremely paranoid and violent. It was also at this moment that I felt that his black eyes were deep but bright, as if the silt at the bottom of the dark lake was being purified, making the lake water the transparency revealed

I actively stared at him, but this time he was concentrating on my forehead hair. There were complex emotions in those black eyes, and in a trance, I felt that I saw a burning love

He loves my forehead hair, but I immediately realized that the forehead hair reflected in his dark eyes may not belong to me, just like the clear and peaceful purple eyes, it is not actually me

In fact, I have been deceiving myself, and all signs remind me that he has been treating me as another person, and his paranoia and temper are not for me, but for that person named Onor

In fact, for the past three years, I have always known that I am just a toy stand-in. I was just deceiving myself or comforting myself, so I pretended not to know, not to understand

I suddenly felt a little anxious, staring at his concentrated face, but looking at his focused eyes, I became angry again uncontrollably. I turned my head, and the forehead hair slipped from his fingers, and a strand of it was neatly cut by the scissors. cut diagonally

Out of the corner of my eye, I can see his gloomy face and darker eyes

"Open your eyes and look carefully, I'm Noel, not Onor" I said bluntly, "This is my hair, not his"

He grabbed my neck violently and said with a sneer: "Why, are you jealous? So you're playing petty to get my attention?"

"What am I jealous of?" I looked straight at him and said, "I hate it so much, I hate this feeling of being used as a substitute, understand, I am me, I am Noel"

"Hate it? I think you're enjoying it, don't you?" The sarcasm on his face deepened, "When I was so happy that I cried, I didn't see you telling me that I hate it very much, I hate it so much."

It was clear that he was controlling me and forcing me, but he always used this as an excuse to mock and show off. I immediately glared at him furiously and said, "If you have the ability, don't control me."

"Control you?" He scorned me: "You still need me to waste magic power to control you like that? I just said it casually, and you obediently obeyed. You are really a very qualified toy. Are you qualified to play innocent and forced with me?"

My heart trembled, I really couldn't distinguish between his commanding words and real manipulation, but I still glared at him and gritted my teeth and said, "Do you think I'm stupid, I can't control myself when I do those things"

His face turned cold, he grabbed my neck and lifted me up, and put me down until he reached the mirror, then pressed my face against the mirror without any explanation, "Look at yourself," he ordered

In the mirror, I saw him hugging me tightly behind me, resting his chin on my shoulder, his pale face was expressionless, and his dark eyes were examining me, but he was not so calm under the mirror

I stared at myself in the mirror, and I saw that I was trembling, frowning, biting my lips, and my face was full of pain. While I was feeling the intense pain and shame, I was glad that I was Forced

But soon I felt a little strange, the pain gradually subsided, and my expression became intoxicated, and my slightly closed purple eyes were a little hazy

He suddenly pinched my jaw, forced me to slightly open my lips, stared at me in the mirror and said, "I don't control you, don't bite your lips, if you can still keep silent, even if I force you, I will let you get out"

As soon as I finished speaking, I saw myself in the mirror, my eyes widened for a moment, my lips trembled, and my throat faintly wanted to make a sound, but when I remembered that he said he would let me out, I closed it tightly again with difficulty. lips

His face was still so pale and calm, but I saw me in the mirror suddenly opened my mouth, but I instantly suppressed the sound that almost burst through my throat, and then quickly closed my mouth, breathing quickly, I saw my own The body is becoming more and more wine red, and the purple eyes are blurred

This strange feeling was really going to break through the top of my head, I bit my lips tightly, and my consciousness began to be in a trance. In a trance, I saw my purple eyes in the mirror, and my face was fascinated

"Bite your lip, foul, you have to be punished" he suddenly said with a slight smile, and then thrust out his fangs and pierced my neck

"Ah—!" I screamed out, but I don't know whether the cry was because of the pain or because of the...

He smoked for a while, looked up at my eyes in the mirror, showed a proud smile, and solemnly announced: "You will never escape from my palm in your life."

"You..." I breathed heavily, and said intermittently: "You are playing with me...suddenly...biting me...what is it?"

He raised his eyebrows and said, "I didn't say I couldn't suck your blood, and you didn't tell me not to suck your blood. What we agreed on is that I won't control you, so don't bite your lip."

"And you bit your lip, you violated our agreement first," he said leisurely

"Despicable!" I yelled angrily at him.

"Despicable?" He rubbed my chin, "I'm just using the rules, I learned from you anthropologists, why, I'm despicable if I follow your way?"

I parted my chin and tried to break free from the embrace of his arms, but he suddenly hugged me with his arms, stared at my purple eyes in the mirror, and said with a wicked smile: "Admit it, you have fallen in love with me!" , fell in love with a vampire who shamed you"

like?I was stunned for a moment, looking at his proud face in the mirror, I suddenly felt a little funny

"What are you laughing at?" His face darkened, and gloom gathered in his black eyes.

I looked straight into his black eyes in the mirror and asked, "Do you know what love is?"

He squeezed my chin violently, turned my face sideways, stared at me closely, and after a long time he uttered a sentence: "Don't you understand?"

"I don't understand" I blurted out, I answered honestly, I really don't understand, "But..." I paused and didn't continue

"But what?" He was a little anxious

Looking at his rippling black eyes, I laughed out loud, "But I'm sure that lingering gaze is definitely not love, even if it's been done for three years."

The black lake in his eyes suddenly surged with overwhelming waves, instantly swallowing all the emotions in his eyes, leaving only an emotion called rage that wandered wantonly, and in the blink of an eye, this rage invaded his face

He kicked me violently, kicked me into the air, hit the wall, and fell to the ground. Immediately, I felt chest tightness and shortness of breath, and my whole body fell apart. There was a strong stabbing pain in my heart. This pain is real, I guess. I probably have a broken rib and a stab at the heart.

He walked quickly to my side, grabbed my neck and lifted me up against the wall. My back suddenly felt numb and lost consciousness as if it was broken. The sound of something heavy falling to the ground, I guess the wall behind me collapsed, and the stabbing pain in my heart also caused me to lose consciousness instantly, and I fell into darkness

I don't know how long it took, but the bone-eating cold suddenly invaded the darkness, forcibly pulling me back to my consciousness. I raised my eyelids subconsciously, but an extremely cold liquid flowed into my eyes, which stimulated my eyes to secrete hot water instantly. The tears, dense and cold liquid kept falling on my body, I shivered from the cold, and I couldn’t breathe from the weight

Suddenly a big cold and powerful hand grabbed my arm and dragged me out of this cold abyss. I subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, but before I could breathe out, this big hand held my arm and lifted me up. , then hit the ground hard

I heard the sound of bone cracks coming from many places in my body after this smash, and the stabbing pain in my heart also turned into a strong stabbing pain. I suddenly felt the blood flow backwards, my throat felt hot, and I spit out fresh blood, which made me feel sick. The nasal cavity is filled instantly, making me feel even more uncomfortable

Immediately afterwards, the big hand grabbed my neck again and lifted me up. He said coldly, "I'll give you one more chance. Talk about it, but what?"

I knew he must be staring at me closely, so I raised my eyelids with difficulty, and sure enough, my eyes were his dark eyes that could not be seen to the end. In addition to the violent and gloomy eyes, there was a trace of hope that I couldn't see clearly at this moment.

"But..." I spit out another mouthful of blood, my internal organs hurt so badly that I couldn't speak

In the blurred vision, his face suddenly approached me, and the unknown complex emotions flashed in his eyes again, and my heart was subconsciously touched again, but this time the touch was different from the past, and the pain made me feel overwhelmed. Eyelids also fall

The next moment I was slapped hard on the face, forcing me to cheer up, he gritted his teeth in my ear and uttered a sentence: "But what!"

"But..." I looked at his close but blurry face through the gaps in my eyes, "I won't... fall in love with... a vampire's ,unless......."

Unless I die, I want to say, but I'm in total darkness