The accident in my life is only you

For a long time, the surroundings were silent, and there was no more sound, as if in a dream.

The sound in those clips became more and more obvious, and then froze in one of the frames.

I saw myself wearing a thick cotton padded jacket, standing on a crowded street, holding a mobile phone, a familiar call had just been dialed on the screen of the mobile phone, and the call seemed to have just been connected.

"Hey, Liu Shu, are you and Aning arriving at the bus station soon?" I leaned my phone against my ears, looked at the bus stop not far away, and waited for the bus that hadn't arrived yet.

The schools around are already on holiday. Today is the last batch of students returning home, and there are pedestrians with suitcases everywhere, so there is a lot of people around this stop sign, and I have been standing at this stop sign for nearly half an hour. , I have never seen the waiting bus.

At this time, Aning and Liu Shu had already boarded the bus to the long-distance station in advance, and only sent a message before departure.

I stood here alone waiting for the bus, and the departure time for the ticket I bought was very close, less than an hour.

Liu Shu over there was also a little anxious. After all, the departure time of the bus was getting closer and closer, "Yingying, where are you? Are you still waiting for the bus?"

Feeling helpless in my heart, I still looked at the direction of the bus, "Well, I've been waiting for a long time, but I just can't wait, I guess I won't be able to catch up."

"Then why don't you go one stop ahead, there are more buses there, so go ahead and have a look?" Liu Shu comforted.

I leaned half of my body out of the road and looked at the end of the road where there was no bus, "I thought so too, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to wait for the bus at the next stop, so why don't you guys go first? Wait for me."

In fact, at the end of the year when there is no hope of buying a ticket, I am very afraid that I will be left behind. If I miss this bus, maybe I can only stay in school for the New Year.

But fortunately, what Liu Shu said did not mean that she would leave first. Her attitude warmed up my gradually cooling heart.

"It's okay, don't worry, there is still time, you wait slowly, we are almost at the station, we will wait for you at the station later."

I let out a breath and replied softly: "Okay, then I will try my best to get there as soon as possible."

I waited at the station for a long time, but I still didn't see the bus I wanted to wait for. After thinking about it for a while, I had to pull my suitcase and walk to the next bus stop.

But things are always such a coincidence, just when I have walked halfway and will soon approach the next station, the bus I am waiting for whizzes past me and stops at the station 50 meters in front of me.

At this moment, I could only stand there in despair, watching the bus abandon me mercilessly.

I was dragging a suitcase, and at such a long distance, I couldn't catch up with that bus at all, even if I ran with all my strength, I couldn't catch up.

I walked to the new station decadently, and waited at the new station for about 10 minutes. Fortunately, soon after, another bus came. This time, I successfully climbed to catch this bus.

After getting on the bus, I happily sent a message to Liu Shu, informing me that I had boarded the bus, and happily waited for the bus to arrive at the long-distance station.

But soon, my joy was not kept in my heart for long before it was overwhelmed by anxiety.

Because it was already eleven o'clock in the morning, which was rush hour, and the bus was quickly blocked at the crowded intersection.

Time passed by every minute and every second, but the distance of the bus did not increase at all. The other passengers on the bus soon couldn't bear it and started to make noise.

Passerby A: "Why is this place so congested? It has been congested for 10 minutes. When will we be able to pass?"

Passerby B: "Yes, this place has been so congested all the time, no one can clear it."

Driver master: "Hurry up, hurry up, everyone, don't worry, the intersection ahead is blocked, and it's almost ready."

....

Along with the complaints from other passengers in the car, my cell phone rang again. It was Liu Shu's call.

Liu Shu rushed out of the phone with an anxious voice, "Yingying, are you almost there? The car is about to leave, and there is still half an hour left."

I let out a big breath, looked at the dense flow of people outside the car window, and said helplessly: "I haven't arrived yet, the traffic is stuck on the road, in front of the intersection."

Liu Shu's voice carried the surrounding noise, "Then you have to hurry up, if you are later, you may not be able to catch the car."

I responded and hung up the phone.

Finally, during the long wait, the bus moved forward a bit, and then was stuck in traffic for a few minutes, before finally driving forward smoothly.

When the bus was still two stops away from the station, Liu Shu called again, "Yingying, have you arrived yet, the ticket check is already in progress."

"Not yet, it's almost there, there are still two stops." I looked anxiously at the traffic lights outside the car window, wishing I could grow wings and fly out of the car window.

Liu Shu hesitated for a moment, and said, "Why don't we wait for you, hurry up."

I could hear the hesitation in her words, so I refused: "You don't have to wait for me, you go in first, if I'm late, you won't be able to go back."

Liu Shu paused, "Okay, I'll go with Aning first, hurry up."

"Hmm." I replied softly.

I never thought about asking them to wait for me, and I knew that I might not be able to catch up with this bus, but when I heard Liu Shu say that she went in first, and it was with Aning, my mood plummeted instantly and fell to the bottom.

I suddenly remembered the absurd dream I had when I fell asleep holding my phone in bed in April when we broke up.

In the dream, Liu Shu untied the rope on Aning's body, and led her into the darkness step by step under my hopeful and helpless eyes, without ever looking back at me.

In the end, I still didn't catch up with the ticket checking time. When I arrived at the gate of the station and hadn't entered the ticket checking hall, the ticket checking time just stopped.

The license plate number of the stop ticket inspection was played on the loudspeaker at the station, which was the license plate number of the ticket in my hand.

I stood in the ticket checking hall, looking at the waiting seats that were more than half empty, and felt a chill in my heart, as if I had lost something crucial.

But this time, Liu Shu might also be afraid of hearing my helpless voice, so she only sent a text message: Yingying, the train is about to leave, did you miss it, where are you now?

I sat slumped on the waiting seat and sent her a message of relief: I was already at the station, I missed it, I’m sorry, I’ll book another train and go back.

But at this moment, I am so helpless and desperate. In such a hopeless year-end Spring Festival travel season, I may not be able to buy the next train ticket at all.

That feeling of despair and coldness got into my collar and my heart along with the cold wind, grabbed my already cold heart and made it painful.

The surroundings are silent and no sound can be heard anymore, gradually becoming silent, those noisy voices are getting farther and farther away, until they can no longer be heard.

......

A moment passed, and a voice from far to near broke into my dream, breaking the final frame of the dream in the waiting hall of the station.

"Yingying, Yingying, get up, get up and eat before going to bed."

I finally heard clearly that it was Xiaoya's voice, so it is already summer now, yes, it is already summer now.

All the helplessness of that time has been diluted, and that too is in the past.

I opened my eyes and looked at the ceiling of the roof, and the sadness that I suppressed last night struck again.

I quietly waited for those sorrows to re-precipitate, stranded in the lowest part of my heart, and I thought, it would eventually dissipate.

But for a long time, those damned sorrows, lingering and refusing to leave, revived again.

I sat up quickly, crawled to the suitcase next to me, took out the ring, and put it on my ring finger neatly.

In the end, I leaned against the wall, closed my eyes, and felt the coldness on the ring slowly turn into the warmth in my heart.

I took it for lunch and fell asleep again. The dream was peaceful and quiet. I didn't dream of Liu Shu or Aning, as if they had never appeared in my dreams.

In the evening, Xiaoya and Xiaoqiu got off work early, we packed some supper and fruit wine bought in the supermarket, and returned to our residence.

After drinking and eating, Xiaoqiu looked at the ring on my hand that didn't fit me, struggled all night, and finally said, "Did you wake up at noon today and suddenly start looking through the suitcase just to find this ring?"

I know that, beginning with this question, something that I was hiding yesterday will soon be revealed.

Under the influence of alcohol, I still replied sincerely: "Yes, I put it in the suitcase a few days ago."

I know that what Xiaoqiu wants to know is not the answer, but since I have already answered, I don't plan to hide anything today, but I don't know where to start, so I have to wait for her next question, and help her one by one. answer.

"Then I saw you wearing this ring when you went out on the phone a few days ago, did he give it to you?" Xiao Qiu asked cautiously again.

I knew the question she wanted to ask, and I responded with a smile in response to her cautious question: "Well, this ring was indeed given to me by her."

"Then, why didn't you accept him at first? Don't you like him too?"

After Xiaoqiu finished asking without waiting for my answer, she paused and said, "Don't tell me, because you are afraid of being discovered by the school when you fall in love, so forget about high school, and college, you are already 19 years old, don't you You might also say that you are afraid that falling in love will affect your studies."

After Xiaoqiu finished speaking, her eyes brightened, expecting me to give some more tragic reason, but Xiaoya next to her didn't speak from the beginning to the end, she just chewed a squid tentacles in her mouth, and looked back at me from time to time .

When I heard the reason Xiao Qiu said, I suddenly laughed out loud, "Xiao Qiu, do you watch too many TV shows? What affects your studies? But, do you really want to know the reason?"

It’s not that I’m not without timidity in my heart. It takes a lot of courage to admit that I am a comrade and that I have liked a girl in front of my friends.

But at this time, because I drank alcohol, I didn't think it was such a horrible thing, and this thing has been pressed in my heart for many years, and there is no way to resolve it. Only Lin Chun knows the whole story.

I smiled wryly, leaning against the wall behind me, and said softly as if relieved: "Because, Liu Shu, she is a girl."

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching.

The case of Lin Ying and other buses is a real event in which Lin Ying dreamed that she went home from vacation years ago, not a fictional dream.