The accident in my life is only you

Xiaoya took a few steps closer to hold the doorknob, leaned forward, and pushed open the solid wooden door.

I was not ready yet, so I tensed up slightly, thinking that I would see a group of men singing with their arms around women, or those unsightly things in my imagination.

But in reality there was no singing at all, instead the lights were turned on, a group of girls in pink cheongsams were fighting the landlord, and the walkie-talkie on the sofa was chatting about what the number of boxes needed.

Looking at the scene in front of me, my jaw almost dropped.

Before I could react, Xiaoya grabbed my arm and said to the girls in Doudizhu: "This is my friend, Lin Ying, she is a college student."

I smiled at them cautiously and said hello.

One of the girls played a K, then looked up at me, and said boldly: "Ah, college students, come on, you're welcome, just sit down, sit down."

As he spoke, he played another card, and then asked, "What major does my sister study?"

Sitting on the sofa next to Xiaoya, I nervously replied: "I studied design."

Another girl continued: "Learn design, design well, and become a great designer in the future, haha."

I smiled slightly to ease my tension, and didn't answer.

Xiaoya swung the skirt in front of the cheongsam to the side, exposing two slender thighs, crossed her legs, picked up two slices of watermelon from the table, stuffed one in my hand, and ate one by herself, like A high-flyer who was about to walk around the world with his sword was gnawing on a big piece of meat.

She took a few bites of the watermelon, turned her head to look at me who was stunned, and said, "Why don't you eat it, eat it, you're welcome, there are more here."

I was suddenly amused by her appearance, but I didn't laugh out loud, I just pursed the corners of my mouth, and then took a bite of the watermelon in my hand.

It turned out that Xiaoya's unrestrained personality was due to the bold girls around her. I thought that Xiaoya's free and easy behavior was just an exception in this chaotic night scene.

This place will be like what is shown on TV, full of scheming and acrimony, as I am not a man, I don't have the ability to spend here, so I will definitely not get a smiling face other than Xiaoya.

But in fact, they are like old friends with me for many years, kind and enthusiastic, not blunt, and gradually digest and relieve my original nervous mood.

On Saturday of the second week, after I visited Yang Han, I went to Xiaoya's nightclub again.

It was still past ten o'clock, but this time Xiaoya didn't pick me up on the third floor.

The text message I sent, Xiaoya only replied a few words, she must be busy, she asked me to wait for her on the third floor, or go to the box before the fourth floor to wait for her.

I walked to the sofa where I was sitting last time, and a few unfamiliar waiters came up to me and asked, "Hi, how can I help you?"

I said perfunctorily, "It's okay, I'll wait for someone, and I'll leave soon."

The waiters seemed a little unwilling, but seeing that I was indifferent and didn't want to consume, they walked back to the bar and stood inside looking at my position from time to time, which made me feel a little cautious.

Ten minutes passed, Xiaoya still didn't come down, I felt a little uneasy, feeling like I was being watched.

I took out my mobile phone and quickly pressed the game on the mobile phone, trying to relieve my tension, pretending that I didn't see their asking eyes.

After playing the game once, my mood gradually calmed down, and I heard the songs played in the hall clearly.

Because I was nervous before, I didn't listen to it seriously. It should be the singing of the Xin Orchestra, and the lead singer's voice is easy to distinguish.

But it was the first time I heard the specific song. I listened to the first part, and the song gradually entered the climax, and a high-firing magnetic and slightly sad voice came.

---What can I do if the time comes, find what you didn't say but want.

---If I don't let you go after many years, you will blame me for hating me or being touched, thinking that if it is the most empty pain.

There seemed to be a flash of electricity in my mind, it hit my heart, and the past that had been gradually buried by me reappeared like this, it reminded me that I seemed to have forgotten something.

The dull pain in my heart became more and more obvious, and after singing a section of the song, another climax was ushered in:

---If you could really let time flow, what would you do, choose me or not hug me, if you let go gently, do you understand, if you make a mistake, you can turn back.

---If you think about it, it is powerless loneliness.

I used to think, if I don't let go, you will hate me after many years, but I try to let go, but you still hate me for not being able to give you everything you want.

Liu Shu, are you on the right path now?Then if you find that you have gone wrong, will you turn back?

I don't know why, this song just ended, and the opening composition sounded again, it should be that the system is randomly preparing to play it again.

I don't want to let this song roll over again in my heart, leaving pain.

So he stood up quickly, suppressing the pain in his heart, and prepared to leave the third floor to find Xiaoya on the fourth floor.

But after I stood up, maybe it was an abrupt movement that made several waiters at the bar look in my direction for an instant.

The atmosphere then tightened, and there was a vague embarrassment. I calmed down and pulled the corners of my mouth slightly at them, then walked out of the hall calmly, walked into the elevator, and pressed [-].

And those waiters kept watching me walk into the elevator, even before the elevator closed, they were still looking in my direction.

When I got to the fourth floor, I realized why Xiaoya didn't take me up this elevator, which was obviously closer to the sofa in the lobby.

As for the waiters watching off, I didn't even notice him.

The elevator door opened, and there was a large row of women wearing cheongsams standing at the door, but the color of the cheongsam was not the pink that Xiaoya wore, but rather reddish, showing her charm.

And the moment the elevator opened, a field of bright purples and reds came into view, the scene was so spectacular that it made people nervous in vain.

Originally, when they saw the elevator door open, they stood upright one by one, ready to bend down to say welcome words, but when they saw that it was a girl dressed plainly like me, they immediately sighed in disappointment.

And I was taken aback by the sight in front of me, and I almost didn't have the courage to step out of the elevator.

The elevator door trembled slightly, and then it was about to close. I hesitated for a moment, and walked out of the elevator.

Then he rubbed the corners of his mouth and smiled awkwardly at them, and took small steps to pass through the gap next to him. One of the kind women asked, "Sister, what are you doing here? The KTV is on the third floor downstairs, what are you doing?" Is it wrong?"

I was a little nervous, but I replied calmly: "I didn't go wrong, I just came to the fourth floor, but I came to find someone."

Just as I was talking, a group of pink cheongsam girls walked by, some of whom I saw in the box last time.

Before I could call them to stop, one of them had spotted me.

"Hey, aren't you that Xiaoya's friend? What are you doing here?"

Finally seeing a savior, I quickly responded: "Yes, yes, I am Xiaoya's friend. I didn't know the situation just now, so I went up to the fourth floor through this elevator."

She waved to me and said, "It's okay, it's okay, just walk in from the side."

I bowed slightly and squeezed in from the side gap, only to see that she was the girl who asked me what major I was studying last time.

I smiled, a little embarrassed, "Is Xiaoya very busy, I sent a message and she didn't reply to me."

"Well, she was quite busy in that box just now, and she ordered a lot of wine, and Xiaoya is preparing it, are you going to find her now?"

"No, no, I'll wait for her in the box we stayed in last time. She told me to wait for her there." I quickly waved my hand to explain.

She handed the fruit plate in her hand to the girl next to her, and led me through another corridor, turned a few more corners, and finally saw the solid wooden door that Xiaoya pushed open last time.

There was still a distance, and the girl in front stopped and said, "Go in by yourself. There should be no one inside. The light switch is next to the door. If you are bored sitting inside, you can turn on the TV stereo and sing."

I smiled at her, "Okay, thank you, you can be busy."

She smiled slightly, turned around and went back the way she came.

After she walked away, I walked slowly towards the solid wooden door about 20 meters away. The sound of the music became farther and farther away, as if a man-eating beast was left behind by me, hanging The heart just slowly fell.

I walked slowly with small steps and passed a box on the way. There was no sound coming from inside, but from the corner of my eye I saw two people standing at the door of the box.

I unconsciously turned my head to look, but my footsteps stopped slowly and disobediently.

In the picture in front of me stood two women, one with short hair and one with long hair, standing opposite each other.

The short-haired woman was taller than the girl opposite. She lowered her head slightly and held a lady's cigarette in her hand.

Wearing a black jacket on the upper body, with a little neutral handsomeness on the side, they didn't hug each other, but their lips were stuck together, tossing and turning.

I was stunned for a moment, looked through them, and saw the silhouette in my mind, she kissed my lips with reluctance.

Immediately after I came back to my senses, I realized how bad my peeking behavior was. I was about to speed up and pass by to avoid being discovered.

But it was too late, the short-haired girl had already found me, she pulled the girl opposite her into her arms, covered the girl's side face with her coat, took a sip of the cigarette in her hand and turned to look at me.

Eyes narrowed slightly, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, he slowly exhaled smoke rings, "Little sister, have you seen enough? You are so impolite."

My cheeks turned red instantly, and the smile on the corner of her mouth was so similar to when Liu Shu kissed me for the first time, I hurriedly lowered my head, "I'm sorry to bother you."

After speaking, he quickened his pace and ran in front, walked to the solid wood door with a few strides, pulled away and dodged in, as if there was a ferocious wolf behind him.

I leaned against the door decadently, turned on the light button next to it, and took a deep breath slowly.

Looking around, there is indeed no one else in the box, only warm yellow lights covering the entire space, but at this moment it can't warm my broken heart.

This time, when I saw the girl's contact, I didn't feel very disgusted, nor did I feel the repulsion when I saw it in the bar last time. Instead, it reminded me of the scene when Liu Shu kissed me.

She once kissed me and hugged me very tenderly, but those seem to be the past.

The tender girl I missed in my heart suddenly pierced through the soil, causing a trace of pain.

I panicked and took out the ring from the interlayer of the bag, and quickly put it on my ring finger. I felt the power on it slowly flow into my heart, stroked those scars, and gradually returned to calm, like a drug addict recovering from addiction, Finally, a taste of nostalgia.

For a long time, I squatted on the ground weakly, buried my face in my arms, and wanted to cry but had no tears.

Why the more you want to forget, the more you have to think, damn you, miss her so much, deep into the bone marrow.

You think you have forgotten it, you are just deceiving yourself and others, so please hide it well, the years to come will be so long, if the longer you miss it, the more pure it becomes, then what should you do.

I squatted on the ground for a long time, until my calves felt numb, then I stood up angrily and walked to the position where I sat last time.

Thoughts are still circling in the memories, and I can only sit slumped, like a child who lost his beloved toy.

After a long time, I finally pulled away from the memory and told myself not to allow myself to express my longing like this. Everything has its own destination, and I just need to wait for it to go away. One day, it will become the past.

Withdrawing my mind, I realized that there were a few magazines on the glass coffee table in front of me. I brought them up from the third floor last time. They were still in the place I put them down last time without moving.

I picked up the magazine on the coffee table and flipped through it page by page, but I couldn't see the content, as if I didn't know a word of those fonts.

But I want to turn over page by page like this, let the busyness attract my attention, listen to the sound of page turning, lock my thoughts, don't drift away, don't think about the things in memory easily.

After a long time, Xiaoya finally came back, but before Xiaoya came back, I had already packed up my mood, just like the mood when I just got on the bus this evening, cheerful and bright.

It is memory that is easy to hurt people. It always confuses people's hearts, making people mistakenly think that no matter how big the wound is torn, everything can go back to the past.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching.

Note: The song is: Xin Orchestra - If.

The kiss seen at the bar is the content of Chapter 46.