The accident in my life is only you

So I closed my eyes slightly, lowered my head, and walked towards Liu Shu.

One step, two steps, three steps, I finally heard the voices of Liu Shu and Chen Jing crossing.

It was getting closer and closer, and there was an inexplicable expectation in my heart.

I chuckled, counted my steps, and walked towards Liu Shu with small steps, while carefully identifying the location of the voice, getting closer and closer.

In the end, she was so close, so close that she passed by, but she didn't stop.

The sound of talking and laughing became farther and farther away, my heart was instantly emptied, and a boundless sense of loss spread towards me.

I looked back at the back that was getting further and further away, and the loneliness in my heart was getting deeper and deeper.

I suddenly discovered that Liu Shu had unknowingly produced some heavy weight in my heart, otherwise I wouldn't have made such childish jokes, and when she found me, she would stop me and call my name.

But I, who was not discovered by her, felt so deeply disappointed in my heart.

I used to be indifferent and introverted, and rarely had high expectations for anyone.

Ever since I was separated from those people when I was young, I knew that these people in my life would leave sooner or later, and I would not be deeply emotionally involved.

But now I seem to have some different expectations for Liu Shu, otherwise I wouldn't have so much disappointment in my heart.

After I suddenly realized this matter in my heart, I began to annoy myself for no reason.

When facing Liu Shu, his mood began to become complicated, and he even avoided it. In the end, he gradually became a little nervous.

I don't know if I'm afraid of Liu Shu or if I'm annoyed by myself.

These changes are beyond my control, and I also try to calm down and face Liu Shu, but unfortunately, there is nothing I can do.

In the days that followed, whenever I saw her, I tried to smile at her with the corners of my mouth open, or waved awkwardly, and then I would see Liu Shu look at a kindergarten child.

I always do something to appease the helpless and irritable heart in my heart, so that I can look calm on the surface.

Liu Shu also mentioned many times in his reply, why when I meet others, I can talk and laugh happily, but when I meet her, I just wave my hands and smile silly, asking if I am annoying her too , I don't want to see her again, I explain and cover up weakly again and again.

What she doesn't know is that behind this simple smirk, in her eyes, how much effort and effort I have put together to piece together this simple expression.

The monthly exam is over, and everyone is doing the final review sprint, preparing for the final exam.

I was doing my homework in class, and Liu Shu suddenly called me from the corridor outside. I looked up and saw that it was her, and then looked around, only to find that no one was looking at me, so I slowly stood up and walked towards Liu Shu.

Liu Shu stood upright in the corridor, his eyes fixed on the direction of the big tree in the playground as I usually do, motionless.

I went to her side and tilted my head to look at her for a while, her eyes were still fixed on the big tree, as if to stare at it to death.

I joked: "Did the tree offend you? Keep staring at the tree, or did I offend you and ignore me?"

After a long time, Liu Shu sighed heavily, but still didn't look back, and said softly, "Yingying, we are best friends, right?"

I said blankly: "Yes, we are good friends. You ask every day, and I also say it every day. How many times do you want me to say it?"

"Are you sure you don't take me for someone?"

My heart tightened for a moment: Did she still know after all?

I quickly covered it up and said, "No, who do you think I take you for?"

Liu Shu turned her head and looked at me with a blank face and slightly cold eyes, "Do you know Lin Xining? Don't tell me you don't know her."

My heart trembled a little, and I replied with a guilty conscience: "I know."

"It shouldn't be as simple as just getting to know each other."

Seeing that I didn't speak, Liu Shu answered by himself, "I met a friend of Chen Jing's today. She said that I am very similar to a top student in her former class named Lin Xining, who is now studying in No. [-] Middle School. Then I I asked Lin Chun again, if she also knew Lin Xining, Lin Chun said yes, and said, you know each other too, and very well. And she also asked you before, do I look a bit like someone, do you Say you don’t know, you are in the same village, school, and dormitory as Lin Xining, tell her you don’t know?”

Liu Shu finally turned around and took a small step towards me, "Is it because I look like her that you are friends with me, and I am just her substitute, right?"

As Liu Shu said, he closed his eyes heavily, with a slight frown between his brows, and then slowly opened and looked at me with a trace of sadness in his eyes.

I took a small step back unconsciously and didn't speak.

It is undeniable that the first time I saw Liu Shu was because she looked like Lin Xining.

"Yingying, tell me, it's not like this. You know me not because I look like Lin Xining." Liu Shu's tone was imperceptibly pleading.

I calmed down and replied: "I am indeed familiar with Aning, I mean Lin Xining, and the first time I met you, it is true that you look like her. But you are you, she is her , you are not particularly alike, your profile looks a little like hers, but not much else."

After finishing speaking, I lowered my head, not daring to look at her.

There was a slight tremor in Liu Shu's words, as if he was angry with me, and his voice was weak, "A Ning, it turns out that you are familiar with her, so you can call A Ning casually."

There was a wry smile on the corner of Liu Shu's mouth, "It's a good name. You said, I don't look like her very much, but I was still suspected of being similar to someone by Lin Chun who I saw at first sight, and still by Chen Jing's. My friend glanced at it from a distance and thought of Lin Xining, probably there are many similarities, but you understate it, I don't believe it."

I replied sullenly: "I did feel a bit like it when I first saw it, but after looking at it for a long time, it really doesn't look like much. The most similar is the side face. It looks very similar when you look at it from a distance. If you look at it carefully, you don't feel that special. Like, really, I didn't lie to you."

I looked up at Liu Shu, who had a somewhat despairing expression, then lowered my head and continued, "Besides, I didn't deliberately approach you. We met because you were transferred to our class, because the teacher adjusted our seats together at that time." , and then we became tablemates, and then we got to know each other."

"So, you knew from the very beginning that I was like Lin Xining, but you didn't mention it to me, seeing that I regarded you as a good friend, but you regarded me as a substitute for your good friend, didn't you? I'm such a fool."

I concealed my veto, "It's not like this, I don't, I really regard you as a very good friend. Besides, as a friend, I don't need to choose one or the other. Why is Aning my friend? You Can't be my friend just because you guys look alike?"

Liu Shu hesitated to speak, and finally said nothing, closing his eyes heavily again, with a trace of pain between his brows, and his eyelashes trembling slightly.

After a long time, Liu Shu continued to say softly: "Yingying, I'm sad. Maybe it's what you said, but I'm still sad. Let me take it easy for today."

After speaking, she turned around and walked towards the corridor downstairs. The breeze gently blew the corners of her clothes. Liu Shu walked slowly, her back was a little lonely.

I stood on the edge of the corridor and watched her walk down the stairs step by step, until I couldn't see her back at all, and my heart was wet like it just rained.

These days, my heart feels like a stone is blocked.

In the deepest part of my heart, there was a slight dull pain, especially when I thought of Liu Shu and Lin Xining.

I didn't go to Liu Shu, and I didn't have the courage to go to Liu Shu. Although I unanimously denied it in front of Liu Shu, I thought she was Lin Xining, but at the beginning, I did because she looked like Ah Ning.

At that time, I looked at her in a daze between classes, and when I looked at her, I thought of my childhood and Ah Ning.

In my heart, I vaguely knew that Liu Shu and I became good friends naturally, maybe because I knew that I was not qualified to be a good friend of Aning, at most, I was just a familiar classmate, a fellow villager.

She is so good, her friends should all be good, with transcendent talents, even these textbooks that are difficult for us can be understood thoroughly in front of them without any effort.

Instead of someone like me who has to work hard to get close to her, she is someone I can't touch.

As for Liu Shu, she stood by my side, just like I used to look at Aning, she filled the vacancy in my heart, she has a similar face, someone I can really touch.

In the evening, Liu Shu finally appeared in the corridor of my class again, and we found a relatively remote place to stand.

I know what Liu Shu wants to say to me, maybe it's ridicule, abuse, or indifference, I can accept it, and it's better to let her vent freely than to be depressed all the time.

Liu Shu looked at me with my head bowed in front of me with a natural expression, and said in a relaxed tone: "What? Now you know you have no face to see me? You didn't tell me earlier."

"No way, who told me to have an advantage, who told me to look like her? If I didn't look like her, you wouldn't come to me. Don't bow your head, as if I owe you money, good boy , hold your head up."

I was a little surprised, and looked up at Liu Shu in a daze. Liu Shu looked at me in a daze, rubbed my hair a little funny, and flicked my bangs.

Continued: "I don't mind this matter anymore, it's like it, I can't change this, I'm just a little angry, you treat me as her. Don't mention your Aning in front of me in the future, otherwise I will really would be very angry."

I still nodded my head ignorantly, and Liu Shu moved closer to me, "Then tell me about your Aning today, and let me know who is next."

Liu Shu leaned on the corridor with one hand, looked at me, and motioned for me to speak.

I breathed a sigh of relief, turned around and leaned against the corridor, adjusted my comfortable position, organized my words and said, "A-Ning is the legendary academic master, you know, if you can enter No. [-] middle school, you must at least be a good student." Kind, good at studies, good at sports, and good tempered."

"You mean, she is good at everything, is she good-looking?"

I thought about it for a moment, then replied hesitantly, "I think it's pretty pretty."

"Then is there anything wrong with her, tell me to balance it out."

I chuckled lightly and said, "Yes, if she is good at everything, then she is a god, not a human being. Her handwriting is not beautiful, and it is as good as yours. Your two handwriting is also a little bit similar."

Liu Shu twitched the corners of her lips, and her tone was dissatisfied, "No way, this can also be like, is she taller than me?"

"Yes, she is taller than you, about one or two centimeters taller than me, which is about three or four centimeters behind you. She is also thinner than you."

Liu Shu pursed her lips and said in a disdainful tone, "Speaking of your Aning, my eyes are bright, hmph."

"We haven't seen each other for a long time, and we haven't written a letter. I don't know how she is now. I haven't seen her since she went to No. [-] Middle School."

I laughed at myself, "She is definitely better in No. [-] Middle School than I am here. She is so good, and she will definitely go to a very good university in the future, which is different from me."

Liu Shu comforted softly: "I am also different from you. Judging by your current grades, it is possible to enter the key class next semester, which is more than enough. Anyway, I am like that, and I will be good after finishing it."

I thought of the old days, and smiled sweetly, "Ah Ning, she seldom loses her temper, she is very kind to everyone, and she is also very kind to me. She helped me a lot during the senior high school entrance examination. I was very stupid at that time." , I couldn’t understand any questions, and I was very anxious. I chased after her every day and asked her questions, which annoyed her. She didn’t scold me. Instead, she finished explaining the questions to me seriously every time. I am very grateful she."

"I'm also very good to you. I didn't see how grateful you are to me. You see, how good-tempered I am to you. I'm not willing to scold or say anything."

I smiled and continued, "What else do you want to ask? That's about it. She's just a human being, not a god."

"Then do you have a picture of her? Show me how much I resemble her. "

"No." I replied somewhat disappointed.

"You are so close to her, why don't you have a picture of her?"

"Really do not have."

I smiled wryly, "Maybe, it's just that I think I'm better with her, but in her heart, I may just be a fellow villager, a better classmate."

Liu Shu turned around without saying a word, her eyes were still looking at the big tree on the playground as she was looking for me last time.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching.In the next section, Comrade Liu Shu's attempt to confess his confession was unsuccessful, and classmate Liu Shu's vest was about to fall off.