The accident in my life is only you

Sleepless all night, in a daze, the sky is dimly bright.

I opened my eyes and looked at the ceiling of Liu Shu's dormitory. For a long time, I didn't sit up until someone in the dormitory got up first, pretending that I had just woken up.

I packed it up, picked up my bag, and got out of bed.

At this time, Liu Shu had already woken up, and was sitting on the edge of the roommate's bed stretching. When he saw me getting out of bed, he was a little surprised and said, "Did you wake up so soon? Did you sleep well last night?"

She didn't seem to understand the meaning of my stay last night, or did she understand in her heart that this was just a way for her to reject me?

And when I put all my courage and humble self in these years, when I tried to get closer to her regardless of everything, I never thought that I still failed.

I smiled with difficulty, pretending that nothing happened, "It's okay, but I remember something happened at school today, so I want to go back earlier."

In order not to let Liu Shu see the clues, I didn't leave alone, but sat on the stool obediently and waited for her to finish packing, and walked out of the dormitory side by side with her.

We had breakfast together on the side of the road again, and Liu Shucai sent me to the bus stop, and after saying a few farewell words, Liu Shucai turned and returned to her dormitory.

I stood by the bus stop and turned to look at Liu Shu who was getting farther and farther away.

Feeling reluctance and sadness in my heart, I covered my mouth and almost cried.

Liu Shu, do you know that this may be the last time I will try my best to be with you regardless of everything.But I have tried my best, maybe in the future, Lin Ying will never be like this again, even though she still loves you, but Lin Ying will never be so humble and desperate to get close to you again.

We, after all, are still here.

Since then, I never took the initiative to contact Liu Shu again, and I never visited her in Liu Shu's dormitory, and I never even went near the Normal University to settle everything.

And Liu Shu would occasionally say a few words of greeting to me on the button, but seeing that I was always lacking in interest and perfunctory, as time passed, Liu Shu's contact became less and less, and finally gradually became silent.

Time flew by day by day, and finally ushered in the winter vacation.

And a few days before the holiday, Liu Shu suddenly contacted me by text message, asking me when I would be on holiday, and said that he would meet me when I returned home and return my things to me.

It turned out that on the second morning when I went to stay with her, because I was in a gloomy mood and left in a hurry, I left my silk scarf on Liu Shu's bed, and she seemed to mention this matter afterwards, but because I faced her My mind was confused at the time, so I didn't take this matter to heart.

And with my indifferent attitude when I faced her recently, I thought she had thrown away that silk scarf a long time ago, but I didn't expect to keep it until now, and it became the introduction for us to meet again.

I had no choice but to smile, so I had to tell her the time of the holiday, and made an appointment with her to meet.

On the second day of the holiday, I arrived at my hometown at four or five o'clock in the afternoon. I went to a relative's house to spend the night again, and planned to return to my hometown the next day.

In the evening, I received a text message from Liu Shu as scheduled, and the meeting place was scheduled to be in the gazebo beside the small square where I worked part-time. This pavilion is not the one covered by trees, but the one that overlooks the distance.

It was the gazebo where Aning and Liu Shu waited for me to get off work countless times in the past.

After dinner, I came to the edge of the small square as promised, and before I approached, I saw Liu Shu sitting in the pavilion with a bag in his hand.

We haven't seen each other for more than three months, and when I saw Liu Shu at this time, I didn't feel any strange changes in her, as if we had never been apart in the past few months.

Thinking about it, those fragments of the past gushed out like a spring.

I shook my head with a wry smile, expressing helplessness to the turbulent thoughts in my mind, paused, took a deep breath, and walked towards the pavilion in the distance.

The sound of my footsteps quickly attracted Liu Shu's attention. She raised her head and saw that it was me, so she stood up and walked in my direction.

She walked up to me, smiled, and was a little reserved, even a little at a loss.

Then he handed me the bag in his hand and said softly, "This is your scarf, here it is."

I smiled lightly, as if facing a classmate I hadn't seen for a long time, with a sense of alienation in my kindness and politeness.

Then I took the bag from her hand and smiled again, "Okay, thank you for bringing it back to me."

Liu Shu smiled slightly, still standing where she was, but she didn't intend to turn around and leave, her eyes locked on me, as if she wanted to say something.

I suppressed the thoughts in my heart that I wanted to look at her more, pinched my palm, and said softly: "Then do you have anything else to do? If not, then I'll go first."

Liu Shu was slightly stunned, but she quickly understood what I meant, and she replied softly: "There is nothing else, then, goodbye."

I still smiled slightly, "Okay, goodbye."

Like two strangers who have just met, we lightly put an end to our farewell.

I turned around quickly, pinched my palm tightly, and walked towards the way I came, regardless of the crazy thoughts in my heart that wanted to get close to her and stare at her.

It wasn't until I left the scope of the small square that I let go of my hanging heart, slowed down, and walked back.

About 10 minutes or so, I finally walked near my relative's house, walked to the side of a road, and was about to wait for the green light.

The mobile phone suddenly rang a text message, and I took out the beeping mobile phone in my pocket, and Liu Shu's number was impressively displayed on it.

I stood on the side of the road, looking at the zebra crossing with the green light, took a deep breath, unlocked the screen lock of the phone, and clicked on the text message.

The content of the text message quickly jumped into my eyes: Just now, when you turned and left, I suddenly wanted to hug you, and I remembered that I haven't hugged you for a long, long time.

The longings and suppressed emotions that I just suppressed in my heart swarmed in an instant, biting the tip of my heart so that I couldn't breathe.

Regardless of the fact that the green light in front of me was flashing countdown and was about to switch to red, I still stood where I was, biting my lip, and closed my eyes to prevent tears from flowing out of my eyes.

Those distant pains came through time, and instantly turned into a fine net, tightly strangling the tip of my heart, throbbing with pain.

I didn't reply to her, just turned off the phone, stood on the side of the road, blowing the cold wind, for a long, long time, until the pain in my heart slowly dissipated, I stepped on the traffic lights that had been switched countless times, and crossed the road .

The entire winter vacation has passed by in a flash, and the start of school will soon be approaching.

But this year it is inevitable that I still have to attend the party of Faxiao. On the night when Lin He called, I was at the door of my house, wrapped in my father's thick coat, and looking at the stars in the sky.

I picked up the phone and heard Lin He's voice on the other end of the phone, sweet and joyful, "Yingying, what are you doing at home?"

I smiled and joked: "I said, I'm watching the stars at the door of my house now, do you believe it or not?"

"Looking at the stars in cold weather? Isn't it? Wait, I'll go out and see if there are any stars you mentioned."

After a while, Lin He's voice came in again, "So there are really stars. No wonder you said to look at the stars. With the number of stars, it seems that tomorrow will be a good weather. How about it? Are you free to get together? ?”

When I heard that Lin He wanted to ask me out, but made such a big detour in front of me, I burst out laughing instantly.

And I should have said yes, but this year, I wanted to say no.

Because in previous years, I never missed an appointment, but this year, I suddenly don't want to see anything about Liu Shu, even Aning.Yes, that's what you're thinking, I'm avoiding everything about her.

"Xiaohe, I have a class reunion tomorrow, so I probably won't be able to go."

I didn't want to expose the matter so much, so I politely found an excuse that I thought was invulnerable.

In fact, I didn't lie to Lin He, I do have a class reunion tomorrow, but in fact, I have already rejected that class reunion, I will not weigh the pros and cons of not attending like last year, but this year I just want to be alone spend the entire winter vacation.

Lin He over there really raised his voice, "What class reunion? Student Yingying, you are like this, which makes us very sad. After more than ten years of childhood, you can't compare with your classmates. You would rather go to the class reunion than to attend We have a small party."

I thought Lin He would understand the deep meaning of my words, but I didn't want to, Lin He only saw the reason for my superficial refusal.

So I exhaled and poured out the truth, "Xiaohe, I thought you knew what I meant. I don't want to see Ah Ning this year."

Lin He on the other end was silent for a few seconds, then suppressed all the joy in his voice, and asked cautiously: "Did you really break up with Ah Ning? I heard that she broke up with Liu Shu, you Could it be that you are with Liu Shu now?"

"I didn't, it's just that I'm tired." I denied the matter instantly, and didn't want to have anything to do with Liu Shu and Aning.

"In the future, don't mention Aning in front of me, and please don't mention me in front of Aning, please, Xiaohe."

Lin He was shocked by the decisive attitude in my words, "Yingying, you don't need to do this, right? We have been friends for more than ten years."

After a short pause, Lin He went on to say: "Besides, tomorrow is the first meeting of the big beauty after her marriage. Last time, Aning didn't come. This time, everyone will gather together. Don't miss it."

"I'm sorry Xiaohe, I'm sorry to trouble you, I won't go tomorrow." I still cruelly rejected Lin He's request.

"Yingying, don't be like this, okay?" Lin He begged.

"No Xiaohe, the weather is too cold, and I don't want to go out. Next time, I will definitely go to the next party." I softened my tone. After all, our affairs have nothing to do with Lin He, and the relationship between me and Aning No one expected that things would turn out like this, and the last three people were all bruised and bruised.

Finally, Lin He finally acquiesced in the fact that I would not go, said nothing more, sighed, and hung up the phone.

The next day's class reunion, as I had refused before, I did not attend.

Instead, he slept at home until noon and didn't get up until noon. After lunch, he was still wrapped in his father's thick coat and sat at the door basking in the sun.

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