[Noragami] I was not there

—— "..., we will always be together, right?"

……

It was a soft and sweet female voice, and she smiled and said something in his ear, accompanied by some grotesque fragments flashed before his eyes one by one, and then gradually became blurred.

He wanted to answer, but it was too late.

Immediately afterwards, he woke up, somewhere on a bustling street.

But no one can see him, and no one can hear his words.

What's more troublesome is that his eyes seem to be able to see some strange things, and those things seem to be planning to eat him.

If it wasn't for the fantasy of this world, then it must be because of what happened to him. From the above phenomena, it can be deduced that he should be dead.

But how did he die?

He couldn't remember at all, he didn't even remember who he was - no doubt he had amnesia.

With no place to go and the need to hide from the monsters that wanted to eat him every second, he simply found a place to sit on the side of the road, and from then on he watched the traffic and people coming and going all day and all night.

And he also gradually realized that the world he was familiar with has become farther and farther away from him, and the people who are close at hand are so out of place.

The dead have nowhere to go.

He may still have something he can't let go of, but he can't think of it, and even his heart becomes more and more empty along with the empty brain.

"What else can I do?"

It took him several days to think about such a problem, and the only thing that accompanied him was the street lamp and the 24-hour convenience store next to him.

For the same number of days, he looked at the men, women and children in and out of the convenience store, and suddenly realized that this location was not as good as he thought. He looked at the food in the store, and he probably couldn't feel it when he touched it. With a hungry stomach, he held his chin in depression——

"...I really want to drink a can of beer."

It was there that he met the person who changed his unchanging life after death... No, to be precise, it should be God.

The first time he saw Yato, he was arguing with a young woman. He thought they were a couple.镚.

It was from this point that the woman began to complain endlessly to the man, and finally cried and wanted to leave, but he cried even more sadly than her, saying that he would leave after only two weeks together, let her be good again consider.

But the ending is still so ruthless, the young woman left, and there was a completely incomprehensible breakup declaration before leaving... Are these things popular among young people recently?Has he been dead for a long time?

He fell into deep thought, and then looked at the small man lying on the ground trembling with infinite sympathy.If he was still alive, he might be able to comfort this poor man, but now no one can see him, so he can only silently encourage him with his eyes, and then say something with hatred——

"I don't even want to buy a steamed stuffed bun for my girlfriend these days. I really deserve to be dumped."

"What do you know?!"

"……Eh?"

Unexpectedly, the man wiped his tears and looked at him when he heard the sound—he was indeed talking to him.

"Do you know what Hengyin's appetite is?!... She's been eating me for three days!!!" The man rushed over while speaking, grabbed his neckline and shook it several times, even spitting Sprayed him all over the face.

"..."

This man... Can you see him?

Nothing pleased him more than this realization, but he would have been happier getting to know him if the other party hadn't been lying next to him and tearfully telling his bitter experience for a full two hours.

"Hengyin is a pretty good artifact. It would be great if her appetite could be smaller." The man named Yato, who calls himself a god——yes, it only took him 1 minute to digest what he said he was. I wiped away my last tears for God's matter, but the expression on my face was actually more like lamenting the food expenses I had lost in the past two weeks.

"Ah..." Yato sighed, scratching his hair helplessly, "If I don't have the artifact, it will be very difficult for me."

Then, as if he suddenly thought of something, he shifted his gaze to his face, and showed a malicious smile: "Are you also an undead? Are you interested in coming to work with me?"

He froze for a moment, and he probably understood what Yato meant from the conversation just now. After thinking about it for three seconds, he finally pointed at the rows of aluminum cans on the shelf through the glass window of the convenience store— —

"Yeah, if you buy me a can of beer."

……

In this way, he became the artifact of God Yetou, and he also had a new name - Hong Yin.

He always felt that Yato was good to him, at least at that time he took out the money he didn't want to buy buns and bought him a can of beer.

<<

His own god is actually far from the god he thought he was. He doesn't have his own shrine and not many believers worship him. He wears the same set of sportswear every day to do some part-time jobs and earn a pitiful five yuan.

He's actually an idiot, isn't that guy, he knew it in just a few days with him.

But he is grateful to Yato, having a new name is like gaining a new life, it is Yato who gave him the meaning of existence in this world after losing everything.

But other than that, he decided that he must not have much to do with Yato, especially when it comes to money.

In fact, he decided to do some odd jobs by himself after hanging out with Yato for several days, but he is an artifact after all, and many jobs are not suitable for him, and he chose to contribute during the period because he was free, but he succeeded unexpectedly .

I chose a pen name that was pleasing to the eye, and then began to officially contribute. Of course, I did it without telling Yato, because he has always had a selfish intention.

Many of the stories in his pen are fragments that flashed by chance. Although they are not clear, and most of them only have a vaguely visible outline of a woman, he knows that they must be related to his memories during his lifetime.

Maybe in this way, he can find her, the woman who occupies most of his memories - the dead man is actually not as handsome as he looks.

In this way, his life with Yato has gradually become stable, except for starvation and cold from time to time, or his inexplicable nostalgia for the present world is still the same.

But at the same time, he clearly understood that those things were already far away from him, and he could no longer reach them. All he had to do was to accept them.

So he told Xue the same.

Xue was still too young and had lost his memory just like him. He looked at him as if he was sitting in front of a convenience store. Temperament is very likely to cross that insurmountable boundary, but obviously, his words didn't have much effect on him, and in the end it was Kanaki who pulled Xue back who was about to fall into the devil's way.

Xue was luckier than him, there was someone who was willing to be by his side to encourage him all the time, who was like him, like someone who came to collect debts.

But obviously he was complaining, but he found that the corners of his mouth kept rising... Ah, if possible, it would be nice for the four of them to be together——he really thought so at that time.

It's a pity that the world is so unpredictable, what kind of monster is hidden in the hospital where Kanaki lives, and it was during the search that he met Itagaki Yuu.

The person he had been looking for for so long suddenly appeared in front of him. At that time, she hurried downstairs with her big belly, and he only saw her back. He didn't recognize him at first sight, but It looked familiar, and he even joked that it happened to be his favorite type.

If it hadn't happened to return the book for Kanaki, he might not have met her again so soon, and stopped her in the corridor, just a look back and "Is there something wrong?" was enough to make him stunned at the moment.

It's more than just familiarity.

Originally, he just wanted to return the book and left, but he was stumped by this familiarity, and took the initiative to chat with her, saying that he was the original author of her favorite novel.

Even he didn't know how much hope he brought with him when he said these words, and with the surprise and natural response of the other party, his emotions gradually returned to calm.

"Ah, it seems that Xiaoqianchun is also happy for her mother." Itagaki Yuyu suddenly smiled at her embarrassedly while holding his stomach, "Kicked me hard."

He was stunned for a moment, then smiled again: "Qianchun?...It's a nice name."

"Thank you, it was decided after a long discussion between Yousuke and me."

Chiharu... Yusuke...

He felt it in an instant, something in his heart was unlocked with a "click", and those fragments deep in his memory flashed before his eyes one by one again.

Qianchun... is actually the name he planned to give the children of the heroes and heroines in his novels.

He looked at the woman with the same smile in front of him, she was stroking his stomach, and she was still saying something to him kindly—but the facts in front of him told him that Miss Itagaki didn't know him.

Maybe it's just similar to the people in his memory.

Thinking of this, he smiled again, but it was unavoidable, his mood became depressed, and he didn't slow down until that night when he went to kill the black shadow monster with Yato.

The monster was a bit difficult to deal with, but it was not too difficult. Yato gave the monster a solid blow with him, and the entire skull was almost split, but at that moment, he heard what the monster opened his mouth——

"PA..."

What did he say?

He thought that he might never be able to find out, he only knew that the tears burst out of his eyes uncontrollably at that moment, but he didn't know what this heartfelt sadness was for.

But God was kind to him, because he soon knew what the black shadow monster said to him at that time——

"dad."

Yes, she was calling him... Dad.

That was the first and last time I heard such a sound, his Qianchun.

He thought he should take back the sentence that God is good, but in fact God has been playing bad jokes with him all the time.

Kawamura Yousuke's words reminded him of everything. The car accident that happened in the third month after his marriage to his childhood sweetheart Yuu Itagaki was the reason that took him away from this shore. Her artifact has been seized.

He hugged Itagaki Yuu, and his memory had all recovered, but facing everything in front of him, he didn't know how to choose, one was Yuyu, the other was Yato, love and righteousness were really things that couldn't be had at the same time sometimes.

This is wrong...but in the end he still said that to Yato, he really didn't want Itagaki Yuu to die, she had paid too much for herself.

But as an artifact, he failed.

In the end, Yato collected Yuki as an artifact and killed Kishimu's fallen artifact, and he also lost Itagaki Yuu forever. Until the last moment, she still didn't remember who she was.

In fact, even he himself was a little dizzy - who is he? ... Hongyin?Yusuke?Or Naoki?

But that doesn't matter anymore, because no matter who he is, he only loves one woman.

But whether it was directly or indirectly, he really failed to protect his wife and children, causing them to lose their lives in vain.

What is the meaning of existence like this?

After Yuu Itagaki's death, he almost left the hospital without saying goodbye, and walked alone on the street, looking at familiar or unfamiliar scenery, his footsteps became faster and faster unconsciously...

Maybe you can still find it... Youyu's soul must still be in this world...

"She's gone."

He didn't stop until he met that person. He looked at that person, but he didn't expect to appear here at all: "...it's you."

"Itagaki Yuu's undead does not exist, it has been fragmented from the moment she was possessed."

"..."

Originally, he would never believe it, but after knowing the other party's true identity, he had no choice but to believe her words. The reality was far more cruel than he thought.

But at this point, his brain has become extremely clear. He knows what he wants and what he wants to do now.

He wants revenge, even if he loses his own life, but the only hesitation is that he must not implicate Yato.

"...what should I do?"

"You know that, don't you? That's the only way."

"..."

Yes, that's really the only way to go.

……

He went to the entrance of the convenience store where he met Yato back then, at the same place, at that location, bought a can of beer and put it beside him, and just sat there silently.

He thought for a long time and thought a lot, and he didn't forget to complain to the non-existent people around him, but at the end he was silent again, and he still didn't say a word when he left——

Ah, he has one more place to go before going to Kishimojin Shrine.

<<

……

It seemed like a long time had passed, but fortunately, everything went as I thought—Gui Zimu died.

He knew that he couldn't fool Yato at all, but he was very happy that Yato respected his choice.

Since we met, he has protected not only Yuyu, but also the one who picked me up who had nowhere to return and gave him a name, his god.

Unfortunately, he has no chance.

But it doesn't matter now, some people will always remember his god, and some will replace him as a new artifact and a new beacon.

He looked at Yato, he wanted to say a lot, but it was too late, the only thing he could do in the end was to say sorry...

—Sorry for making you worry about me for so long.

——Sorry, I still acted so recklessly in the end.

——Sorry, I can no longer fight with you in the future.

——I'm sorry... I couldn't accompany you to the end.

Hongyin raised his head slightly, and slowly felt the passing of his soul with the wind from the broken part of his body, and his vision became blurred. Smile--

"Yusuke, will we always be together?"

He slowly closed his eyes and smiled knowingly: "Of course we will always be together."

Even in another world.