I debuted on a talent show with my ex-boyfriend

The dinner at Leshi's house is plain and simple, with four dishes and one soup. In order to take care of the staff, the portion is large.The staple food is dumplings, and several batches have to be cooked up and down, and there is always some special meaning and commemoration.

The shapes of the dumplings made by the three people are different. Yu Fei is in the shape of simple ingots. Leshi’s homemade dumplings have pleats, which look delicate and beautiful after being wrapped. Of course, Leshi’s own strange shapes are excluded. When he realized that his stuff was exposed, he filled a bowl of dumpling soup for his kitten dumbfounded.

Leshi's mother talked a little too much, half mocking and half jokingly said: "You should learn from Xiao Xue, his method is the easiest."

Le Shi nodded, watching Yu Fei scoop up dumplings in the pot, the white mist steamed on his face one by one, making his outline blurry.

"Mom." He said suddenly, the pitiful communication between mother and son started slowly in front of the steaming dinner table, the camera lazily fixed on their side, opened his mouth when he was happy, and wanted to say something suitable for the occasion, But he found that his throat was dry and he couldn't utter a word.

The mother smiled, beckoned Yu Fei to sit down with understanding, changed the subject, and asked him where he was from, when he started practicing, and how he met Leshi on the show.It was a simple and happy greeting. Yu Fei put the apron hanging on his body on the plastic sticky hook in the kitchen, and answered one by one: "My family is not in the local area. I have practiced for more than two years. I am outside alone."

Le Shi's mother asked again: "Then don't you often go home for dinner?"

Yu Fei was stunned for a moment, tilted his head and carefully counted the time, and said, "I haven't been home for a year. I'm quite happy to be able to come over for a meal this time. Thank you, auntie," he turned his gaze, Falling gently on Le Shi's body, "Thank you Lele too." The overly gentle tenderness was restrained by him quickly, and under the warm light, everything became warm and soft.

Leshi's mother shook her head, her smile was still faint, and she sat very upright: "I can come more in the future."

With.

Xi.

group.

Correct.

Compared with the desertedness when they first arrived, the aroma of the food, the sound of conversation, the TV was on, and the theme song of the news broadcast came, but there was no picture. They blindly listened to the news broadcast, like every ordinary family who had dinner, the beginning was simple but Three meals a day are required.

Surrounded by a layer of warm sunshine-like gold, the sound of chopsticks and cups and plates rang out softly and crisply.

In Leshi's bowl, two pieces of braised pork, reddish-brown and sugar-colored, were stewed until soft.

Leshi: "..."

Yu Fei and his mother looked at each other and smiled helplessly.

The woman did not comment on this, but also put vegetables in Yu Fei's bowl.Bian said: "I haven't made such a complicated dish for a long time. I don't know how the craftsmanship is. It may not be very delicious." She watched Leshi stubbornly pick up vegetables for her, and patiently picked the coriander from the beef with green onions. , and give it to Yu Fei.

"Oh, Xiaoyu doesn't eat coriander. Why didn't you say it earlier?"

——Because I eat when I am happy.

Yu Fei pursed his lips and said thank you.

But he teased secretly in his heart that Le Shi was obviously picky eaters like him, but now he was sitting upright, looking like a serious top student, but in fact he always had thoughts of escape.Unlike Yu Fei's own family, Leshi's tutoring is indeed a bit strict. Yu's family's dinner table culture has always been lively, with parents, brothers and sisters singing double reeds, chatting about everything from current affairs and politics to beauty and fashion.

Although this side is warm, the mother and son ate very quietly, chewing slowly and gracefully when they were having fun, so that he didn't dare to move loudly.

When Le, who was eating fried chicken and drinking beer with him at the South Gate, became very well-behaved at home, like a kitten with its paws in winter.

Leshi's mother asked the camera and the supervisor to come over to eat together. The two little girls thanked them, but the refusal was not worth the kindness, and they sat behind the machine with a big bowl and ate to their heart's content.

She smiled, looked at the empty bowl in front of Leshi, and the chopsticks lying on top of the bowl, knowing that he had finished eating, she asked, "Is there any meat and vegetables like this at the training school?"

Le Shi nodded: "Yes."

There was a bit of worry in the woman's satisfaction, but also a sense of distance that she didn't want to cross. She seemed to have a lot to say when she was happy. Yu Fei looked at it for a while, cleaned up the dishes, and said: " You guys chat. I'll go and wash the dishes." The words were natural and familiar, and seemed to have quickly integrated into such trivial daily life, without giving them a chance to refuse, Yu Fei added: "Lele hasn't returned for a long time , you guys just talk about it."

The two faced each other and sat in the living room for a long time. Leshi took the apple on the table and peeled it in the palm of his hand. There was a rustling sound of peeling.

He peeled off two-thirds of the fruit, made several vertical cuts on the flesh, and handed the fruit to his mother.The answer I got was: "You eat, I don't eat."

There is a group photo of a family of three on the tea table, Leshi is carrying a schoolbag, standing in the center with a calm and indifferent expression, his mother is hugging his shoulders, smiling kindly with narrow eyes, like a sika deer with narrowed eyes.His father stood by his side, smiling like a regular civil servant.

It was taken when he was just in high school. At that time, Leshi didn't communicate much with his parents. Even though life was going on step by step, his relatives gradually couldn't figure out what he was thinking.There is a diaphragm between them.

Leshi put the fruit back in the fruit bowl.

"Mom." Le Shi thought for a while, regardless of whether the camera was still watching him, he apologized in a low voice: "I'm sorry."

The mother's eyelashes moved slightly, she closed the somewhat disheveled ponytail, reached out to touch her forehead, and replied: "There is no need to say sorry to the family." She thought carefully for a while, then slowed down and said: "The last time The thing is that we are afraid of affecting your future. Your father is also, as soon as he saw those comments, he was so angry that he ran over there immediately, and he couldn’t persuade him. After returning home, I don’t think we can go on like this forever, just I went to see your show."

Le Shi raised his head uneasily, looking at his mother with some expectation and some worry.

The woman stroked her hair, and then said: "It may be difficult to accept everything for a while, but then I also saw some good and positive things, so I know that you are not doing something inexplicable, you still have something you want to do , the goal you want to achieve.”

The mother leaned forward, opened her arms slightly, her eyes were calm and soft, and her voice was soft: "Mom doesn't know whether what you have done is right or wrong, and you may not be able to understand it for a long time. But, you worked too hard It’s gone, isn’t it? It’s been hard since the day you quarreled with your family and went out by yourself, right? I saw you on the show, and you couldn’t sleep well every day, and you were also told by teachers and people on the Internet. When you come back, just You've lost so much weight, I can't say anything now if I want to say anything about you. If it were your father, I wouldn't want you to continue working hard."

Leshi's eyes and nose were hot and sour. He lowered his head, put the back of his hand against his nose, and took a short breath.

Finally, he raised his eyes, looked into his mother's eyes, and tried to answer her with a smile: "Mom, I'm really okay. I like to perform on stage. When I'm on stage, I smile the happiest and the happiest. .” He clenched his hands, but the circles of his eyes were reddened, “I really want to stay.”

His mother looked at him quietly, exhaled helplessly and exhaustedly, opened her arms, and said softly, "Let me hug you."

Leshi went to hug his mother, the smell of peace of mind, her palm gently patted his back, with coaxing comfort, this comfort brought a trembling of touch, Leshi's eyes were hot and his nose was sore, he just felt If you wait a moment longer, your own strength will collapse.

She whispered in his ear: "You have worked hard." The distressed emotion almost overflowed the words, "In the future, I will work hard, and you will work hard. I will work hard to understand what you did, and you will work hard to do your best." What to do." She looked into Leshi's eyes, smiled reproachfully, and touched the corners of Leshi's eyes with her fingers: "How old are you. We made an appointment, you do what you love, the happiest, Laugh the happiest, and I live my life too."

"Stop losing your temper, go home and have a look when you have time. Your dad misses you too."

Leshi hooked her mother's little finger, clenched her fists, and pressed her thumbs together to complete a promise.

He replied dully, "Okay."

Yu Fei came over at this time and asked them how to operate the dishwasher. When he was happy, he came back to his senses, smiled at his mother, and went to work.

When he was leaving, he saw his mother pick up the apples in the fruit plate and eat the sliced ​​apples bit by bit.

Yu Fei lowered his head and put the bowls and chopsticks into the machine, and said, "It would be great if this program could be broadcast."

The supervisor and the camera went to ask Leshi's mother questions, and prepared to record the last few interviews.

Leshi nodded.He also heard Yu Fei say, "You never told me about your own family situation before."

"En." Le Shi responded, but his hand was held at once. Yu Fei's hand was wet, and he stared into Le Shi's eyes. Although he felt distressed because of it, he couldn't say anything else at this time.

There was a sound of footsteps coming from the living room, and Le Shi's hand fled like a fish.The supervisor beckoned to them and said that he wanted to record a variety show experience.

After the recording was over, Leshi planned to stay at home for one night after obtaining the consent of the program group, and Yu Fei followed suit.

The guest room at home was not cleaned up, and the two simply slept on the same bed.

Before going to bed, Yu Fei chatted with Le Shi's mother and taught her to follow the news of the program on her mobile phone.And I suggested that my aunt should stop visiting Weibo, and she would be angry.

When Leshi came out of the shower and brushed his hair, he was listening to Yu Feizheng'er's Bajing as a science popularizer: "The voting channel is closed now. After a few days, it will be opened. You can vote twice a day on Weibo. , after another episode, you can only vote for one person. Look at the interface... Oh, auntie, you know it, and you are quite skilled."

"I used to watch it when I was in school, and I was also the host of Chaochao." Leshi's mother nodded from time to time, but her face was a little tired, obviously sleepy. When she saw Leshi come out, she said slowly: "You guys After tidying up, go to bed by yourself. Don’t chat too late at night, I have class tomorrow, so I’ll have a rest first.” She looked at Yu Fei and said, “Thank you, Xiao, for teaching me how to use this voting system. I’ll give Xiao to his father Send one too."

Le Shi gave Yu Fei a cool look, which made Yu Fei's hair stand on end.

The wind in late summer already has a hint of coolness. Even if the air conditioner is not turned on, the wind that enters the hall has a refreshing and moist breath, and it slides silky on the skin, which is very comfortable.

In the dark and quiet night, occasionally there were a few loud barks of dogs, and the whistling sound of cars, breaking the wind and speeding away.

The buildings in the distance are shining brightly, and the lanterns are lit all night long.The old-fashioned community, which was full of people during the day, has already fallen into a deep sleep in advance.

Leshi was still wearing the set of cat pajamas that fans supported, standing by the window, leaning out half of his body, hanging the bath towels and changed clothes on the drying rack outside the window, Yu Fei stood beside him, smelling faint The smell of fresh laundry detergent and the clean shower gel on Leshi's body. They used the same shampoo and body wash, and the smells were similar to each other.

In such a silent night, those disturbing and noisy things were suddenly far away, and Yu Fei suddenly felt like taking a break from his busy schedule. He fell into the dust net full of life, as if he had returned to the time when he and Le Shi lived together .

Familiar and trivial basic necessities of life, the comfort zone that makes people nostalgic and relaxing, his feelings for Leshi have not gradually faded because of life, but after the texture has become smooth and angular, it is still slowly expanding and rising, like a balloon filled his heart.

Yu Fei saw that earlier set of test papers that had been rolled up into a ball was crumpling pitifully on Leshi's desk.

He chuckled in a calm voice, and accurately repeated the two short lines written on the big blank question at the end of the paper: "'I want to see him today, I want to be with him today'. Lele, when you were in school Did I find out about dating?" It was a bit malicious asking knowingly.

Le Shi's hand shaking while hanging up the clothes, almost shook Yu Fei's underpants downstairs.

"No talk." Le Shi returned to him coldly, stuck the clothes drying pole by the window, turned around and saw Yu Fei close at hand, looked at him thoughtfully, Le Shi was a little impatient to see, and repeated: " I wasn't in a relationship back then."

"Who is 'he'?" Yu Fei raised his eyebrows, pushing him closer.Le Shi took a step back, knocked his back on the desk, and made a dull sound.

He put his hands on the table, and Yu Fei couldn't get closer to him, his eyes were drooping, his eyes were heavy, as if with an inseparable stickiness, like a flexible snake chasing after him.

Leshi kept silent, but Yu Fei bent down slightly, and his face was very close to him.

Those eyes with slightly drooping tails and light brown eyeballs stared at him momentarily, like a wolf staring intently at the prey in front of it.

Leshi felt uneasy and dangerous instinctively. He didn't answer this question, but responded with the same unyielding sharp eyes. He never gave in to Fei's aggressive aura.Le Shi replied lightly: "You know me clearly."

Yu Fei narrowed his eyes, stretched out his hand, and gently grasped the back of Le Shi's neck with his palm, rubbing it carefully.When dealing with felines, you should never avoid your eyes, let alone Leshi, whose eyes are vigilant, rests his fingers on the delicate skin of the nape of his neck, and gently retracts them.

Yu Fei chatted normally, but was very serious, and threw out a straightforward invitation to Le Shi:

"I want to kiss you."

Le Shi frowned, and reached out to press Yu Fei's chest. Yu Fei could feel the muscles of Le Shi's arm tightened, and the strong strength, like a solid lever, firmly pressed against him. Le Shi said: "This It's my home."

Yu Fei waited patiently for him to finish this sentence, but it was just adding a place for the next action.

He held Le Shi's wrist and clenched it with greater repulsion. Le Shi's arm trembled for a while, and finally let go of his strength. The hand holding the back of the neck immediately shortened the distance between the two of them, and a gust of wind flowed from Le Shi. His back was blown, causing a layer of sensitive millet to appear on his arms.

Yu Fei clasped the back of his neck and kissed him, first with a shallow and tender kiss, his canine teeth brushed against his soft lips, Leshi's eyelashes moved.

Like a beast that has tasted the blood, Yu Fei kissed again, fierce and irritable, Le Shi bit the tip of his tongue, but the strength was not strong, which meant a warning.

Yu Fei laughed in a deep voice, like an unruly and outlaw lunatic, ignoring the fangs of his lover's resistance, and deepened the plunder between his lips and teeth.

Roughly removed the city defenses of the teeth, the tongue tips pressed together, and immediately entangled endlessly.

Oxygen was ignited in an instant, and the flowing wind became the medium of ignition. In an instant, the night faded away and white flames burst out.

....................................

(you know)

Le Shi lowered his head to look under him, then raised his eyes to look at Yu Fei.Suddenly he frowned, blinked his eyes, and caught off guard, large, continuous tears fell from his eye sockets, like beads with a broken thread.

Yu Fei was stunned, and stretched out his hand to wipe it in panic.

Realizing that she was crying, Le Shi buried her face in Yu Fei's shoulder, and Yu Fei felt the other's eyelashes trembling constantly, sweeping moistly and heavily on his neck.The hot tears were soaked, and it seemed that he couldn't stop playing, his shoulders shrugged slightly, and he even let out a low sob.

Yu Fei was completely panicked, so he could only keep stroking Le Shi's back, and comforted him with instinctive language: "Don't cry...don't cry. Be good. How can I coax you when you're like this? Hey, Lele...no Crying, we don’t cry anymore, ah.”

He had never seen Le Shi cry like this, and Le Shi had never cried like this in front of him before.He put his arms around Yu Fei's neck, gritted his teeth, his back twitched slightly, and made a choking sound from time to time.Le Shi choked his voice and said: "...so bloated. Ah Fei, bloated."

Yu Fei patted his back with one hand, moved to his lower abdomen with the other hand, and rubbed it slowly. A small piece of his lower abdomen bulged out. Yu Fei was so distressed that he kissed his forehead and kept saying, "Yes." I'm wrong. I shouldn't be in it. Lele, don't cry... I don't know what to do. "

"You don't have to do anything." Le Shi said a short sentence, a hiccup hit his throat, and he squeezed himself into Yu Fei's arms with all his strength. It was hard to recover from the wave of emotions that surged into his heart after the affair, he understood I shouldn't blame Yu Fei, not only the soreness of his body, but also his heart is full of something - he doesn't know the reason for this crying, as if he wants to make him tired from practice, uneasy from bad reviews, The loss of being denied, the fear of seeing life and death, and the pessimism about the future all seemed to cry out together.

Yu Fei hugged him, coaxing him with soft words, clumsy and straightforward.

It's all him, it's all him - easily causing his own collapse, and easily appeasing his own collapse.Destroy his heart defense, and prop up his strong shield.

After a while, Le Shi bit his lip and gradually calmed down. His face was hot in the dark embrace, and he uttered a few words with a moist breath: "A Fei."

"Ok?"

"Just now...you didn't hear anything."

Yu Fei stroked his wet hair, and said following his words: "Well, I didn't hear it."

There is no silver in this place: "... I didn't cry."

"Good. You're not crying."

Yu Fei's heart was so soft that he had never seen his kitten speak so softly, covering up his weakness with a crying voice. He backed away a little and saw that Leshi's eyelids and lying silkworms were swollen, and the corners of his eyes were dripping with water. , His face was full of tears.

Yu Fei frowned, and wanted to kiss his eyes, but Le Shi turned his head away, and the kiss fell on Le Shi's cheek, salty and bitter.

The two hugged each other, and when they were happy, they were so sleepy that they were about to fall asleep. Suddenly, a gust of wind blew in, blowing away the faint smell that lingered in the air. He squinted his eyes bewilderedly, and sneezed.

Yu Fei also woke up in a daze, thought the sneeze was funny, and Leshi was so cute, so he couldn't help scratching the tip of his nose.

Yu Fei kissed Leshi on the cheek, and then he was worried that Leshi would catch a cold. He sat up and wanted to touch Leshi's lips, but his finger hurt immediately, and was bitten tightly by the other party.

Yu Fei laughed, and said flirting words shamelessly: "My kitten, haven't you bitten enough just now? Ah——" He quickly lowered his voice, grinning his teeth in pain.

Le Shi let go, jumped out of the bed, and went to pick up the clothes that fell on the ground. He was still top-heavy and confused, and he didn't know that Yu Fei was wearing the wrong pants. He just wanted to take a good shower quickly.

When I was happy, I was sleepy and tired, and my whole body was sore.Sneaking through the living room to the bathroom, I didn't dare to turn up the water too much for fear of waking my mother.

Yu Fei took a bath with him, knowing that he was tired, and didn't do anything else, let Le Shi grab his shoulders and grunt and pant, spread his legs and curse viciously, and exchange private love words in a low voice.

Their tastes fused together again, Yu Fei rubbed Leshi's hair, Leshi sat on a small plastic chair, lowered his head and dozed off, like a chicken pecking at rice, he was really caught Tired of tossing, the gentle carnival made them temporarily forget the worries and pains of reality, and gained a momentary, doomsday-like joy.

Yu Fei rinsed Le Shi's hair with the shower, and said softly, "Le Le, let's cancel the confrontation in front of the camera."

"Those childish rumors pointing at you will be self-defeating in the end. I don't want to fire CP with you, I just want to talk to you and stand side by side with you. There is no need for business between us—" Before the words finished, Joy Shi fell back, leaned on the back of the chair, looked up at Yu Fei, and calmly spit out a standard fan circle stick reading: "Dogs and cats are real. kswlkswl."

"Hey, how did you learn such nonsense?"

Yu Fei smiled so that his eyes narrowed into a slit, looking at Le Shi's wet eyelashes, with crystal clear drops of warm water on his face, continuously dripping from the eye sockets, the tip of his nose, and the corners of his lips. He blinked his eyes slowly, then closed them immediately.

Yu Fei was quiet for a while, closed his eyes slightly and lowered his head. The two exchanged a soft and satisfying kiss. Yu Fei stroked Le Shi's cheek and said softly, "What if we don't make it to the end?"

Le Shi was quiet for a while, closing his eyes and thinking:

"Then I will practice with you again and go to the road show together. Didn't you always want to form a band? That seems to be okay. It seems to be okay to sing in an unknown bar. It doesn't matter if no one is watching, and it doesn't matter if your family doesn't understand. Le Shi straightened up, turned his head, and looked into Yu Fei's eyes, "Let's start again, just like falling in love, start again."

"One day, someone will see us, know us, know our name, sing our song, one day, don't you think?"

Leshi's eyes are so bright, the light inside seems to be able to illuminate every shadow in the dark night.

Yu Fei's eyes were caught off guard, his eyebrows frowned, he turned his head away pretending not to care, his lips trembled, and he was about to shed tears.

The water in the shower was still dripping down, Le Shi suddenly stretched out his hand, pointed his left and right index fingers at the corners of Yu Fei's mouth, and squeezed out an unattractive smile.Le Shi smiled, his eyes swollen from crying narrowed into soft arcs of laughter, and he said softly, "A Fei, no matter what, you should smile."

"I like the way you smile the most."

The author says:

The title is the song of the same name in Mayday =3= Named Fei will give the title like this in the last time!