[Comprehensive manga] Ruiguang

Time will not stop and the pain will not fade away.It's just that as time goes on, the pain will become deeper and deeper in the bottom of my heart without anyone knowing, and when I realize it, it is already unspeakably painful.

I walked briskly on the way to Haichang, the sky was like the most gloomy color in my heart, gray and depressing.

From a certain point of view, should I learn from Shibai, how to escape from the real everything in that way, and face the reality that I have imagined with confidence.It's just that the result of doing that will probably make me become like her... On the surface, there is a hypocritical beauty, but behind this seemingly beautiful, there is a hopelessly rotten sadness.

I was in no mood and had no time to sigh about it. Something happened on the way to deliver the morning paper early in the morning, so I was delayed for a while. When I got home, changed my uniform and put on my schoolbag, it was already late.Seeing that there were no students wearing the same uniform as me on the same road that was repeated every day, I quickened my pace until I started running.

The dull air was vaguely agitated, although there was a wind blowing past my body, the air around me still seemed to be frozen, which made people feel a little uncomfortable.I looked up at the sky, the clouds were already very low, probably it was going to rain.I'm not worried about this, I deliberately stuffed the folding umbrella into my schoolbag before leaving the house.And in view of the experience of the previous few times, it is best for me to carry an umbrella every day.

When I arrived at Haichang, it was already past the time for class.Looking at the door that Haichang had completely closed, I was a little helpless, and I crossed myself in my heart, and I was still late in the end.There is no way to enter the school, and I can't think of a place to spend time. There is nowhere to go outside the hospital, school and home.

"Lan Yuan-san?"

A young man's clear voice came from behind me, I turned my head, it was Ryota Kise.He didn't look like he was late at all, his schoolbag was casually carried on his shoulders, and his slender legs walked with a leisurely pace.

"Kise-kun." Standing in front of the closed door, I naturally had no way out, and nodded politely to him.

"Lanyuan-san, you're late too." He smiled at me, his tone relaxed and bright.

Even though he was only smiling casually, he was still undiminished in his handsomeness. I didn't feel fascinated by it, so I just responded softly, "Mmm..."

The relationship between me and Kise can be described with a few key words.

Encounters, umbrellas, lies and sunshine and concealment.

From the time we met, we met again and again, he lent me his umbrella in the rainy night, and then we met more, that is, in my mother's ward, and occasionally helped me complete a beautiful lie, he affected me like sunshine, but I just She can turn her back and hide her shadow from him.

I may not be qualified to join his world, at most I just think about it or look up.For Kise, I don't deny that I care about him. This kind of care, more importantly, he is the first person who is willing to help me and the first person who will pull me out when I escape. This kind of feeling probably belongs to Hina. The nostalgia of bird feelings.

"Alanhara-san, are you in a daze?"

Kise raised his hand and waved it in front of my eyes, and I raised my head, passing between his shaking fingers, it was his face that shone like his blond hair against the gray sunlight.

"Actually, don't worry too much about not being able to enter the school." Kise probably thought that I was locked out of the school in distress, he said, and waved to me again, "Aihara-san, come with me."

I froze for a moment, and followed Huang Lai's footsteps.

Walking along the outer wall of the school until it is close to the back door, you can clearly see the warning sign of "Beware of idiots" hanging on the barbed wire outside the back door.

The grass in the green belt along the edge has been repaired and leveled as a whole, which makes one of the sparser parts of the green grass more abrupt, like a path that has been stepped on countless times and gradually revealed.A few unused water pipes were piled up at the corner not far ahead, and the water pipes were stacked against the wall.

I probably guessed what Kise said, don't worry about not being able to enter the school, in short, over the wall.After settling on this concept, Kise walked to the water pipe quite familiarly.For him, who has developed motor nerves, climbing up a water pipe that is as high as my abdomen is also an easy and casual thing.

When Kise climbed to the highest point, he threw his schoolbag into the wall, then turned his head and looked down at me.

"Lanyuan-san." He called out to me, and then stretched out his hands to me, making a gesture of connecting.

My first reaction was to be very cooperative, throwing my schoolbag at him.After finishing the projectile schoolbag in the air, Kise caught it accurately, and then he made the same movement as before, throwing my schoolbag into the wall.

After the schoolbag was thrown out, I realized that the next thing was to climb the wall.I didn't say any words of rejection, and what's more, I can only climb up from here.

"This is really a little bit too much for a girl."

When the last water pipe was short, Kise's apologetic words came from his head.I looked up, probably from Kise's point of view, my expression looked a little innocent, which made him apologize again, and finally, he bent down and stretched out a hand towards me, as if to hold me.

For me who never expected anyone to greet me with a smile and offer to help, the hand that stretched out to me still seemed a little distant to me.He was so close, but he didn't dare to touch it, the smile on Kise's face was like a dream.

In the end, I didn't take Kise's hand, I just lowered my head in embarrassment, put my hands on the cold water pipe, then propped up my body, climbed up with a not-so-easy posture, and stood by Kise's side .

Kise seemed to be a little surprised by my behavior, after he withdrew his empty hand, he looked at my golden brown eyes with a bit of a daze.

I patted the ashes on my hands, "Go ahead, don't you want to climb over the wall?"

"Xiao Lanyuan is more... well, forget it..."

"what?"

I looked at Kise in doubt, his expression was softer than I had ever seen before, and there was a gentle but gentle smile on his lips, as if he had seen something that comforted him.

"It's nothing." Kise shook his head, his expression brightened again, covering up the gentleness of the previous second, "Then, the preparations are beginning, Xiao Lanyuan."

"Hmm... wait..." I just realized that Kise's address to me suddenly changed, from the honorific "さん" to the slightly playful "っち" at the end, "Well, something small ... what is small?"

"Xiao Lanyuan, can't you call me that?"

Kise blinked his eyes with beautiful corners, as if there was an invisible electric spark, I turned my gaze away and looked directly into his eyes with embarrassment.

"Well...it's not impossible..."

Is that an expression of intimacy?If yes, I'm happy.

"Then, let's go."

Just after Huang Lai finished speaking, he saw that he was quite relaxed, supporting the top of the wall with his hands, and his body was so light that he passed the top of the wall as if he had no weight.Then, there was the sound of a landing on the other side of the wall.

Naturally, I'm not as relaxed as Kise, and Kise's advantage in height accounts for a large part.Climbing up to the top of the wall is not impossible for me. When I straddled up reluctantly, I looked down at Kise who was under the wall, and he even made a V sign to me.

Without the stack of water pipes, I looked at the ground that was much deeper than the wall. I was a little scared. I held on to the top of the wall tightly with both hands, and I didn't take the next step.

"Xiao Lanyuan, come down."

Kise moved closer to the wall, even so, I didn't dare to let go.I swallowed, my chest was throbbing violently because of fear, my first reaction was to immediately smile to cover up all my emotions.

Bite the bullet, step the other leg in from the other side of the wall, and then lunge forward.Breaking away from the support of the wall, I felt a very short moment of weightlessness in mid-air, which prevented me from holding back my fake smile.

Kise just stepped forward to hold my arm, and let me stabilize my body so that I would not fall, "Xiao Lanyuan is indeed stronger than I imagined." His original intention should be to catch it. me.

I laughed dryly a few times: "I seem to have failed to land..."

When landing, the feet are not well cushioned, and the momentum other than gravity puts a greater burden on the feet.The pain of complete numbness prevented me from moving my feet for a while.

My legs couldn't support my body because of the pain, so I instinctively put part of my weight on Kise's hands.

Kise noticed the weight, but suddenly laughed.I suddenly looked up at him, but his smile was not the teasing I imagined because I didn't stand firm, but very serious, even with relief and relief.

"That's good, you have to learn to entrust others once in a while, don't you?"

Kise said so suddenly, his lower tone made his original clear tone more magnetic.I suddenly didn't know what answer to make, I just slightly opened my eyes wide and looked at his face that seemed to be stained with the color of sunlight.

"Don't forget Xiao Lanyuan, we are friends."

I always feel that Kise has seen through everything a long time ago.He can see my fear and know the reasons for my resistance and self-isolation. I don’t even believe that he knows me. The so-called rumor that I won an award was heard in Tokyo.In addition, he must know something more profound, including the gray in the deepest part of my heart, he knows it all.

"……thanks."

I thanked him softly, looking at Kise's still bright expression, I felt that these speculations about him were just my unilateral illusions.Those are just Kise's influence.

"Thank you, Kise-kun." I stabilized my body and took a step back politely.

"Xiao Lanyuan, you really like to say thank you. In fact, you don't need to be so polite..." Kise waved his hands, as if he felt a little embarrassed.

My heart is constantly thanking Kise. For me who is always restless and lonely, he will always let me see hope that is slim but does exist.