rain over the past year

"Sun Bofu personally took people to see the excitement?" Although he had been resting at home in a daze these days, Zhou Xuan still knew something.

"Yeah." The freshly poured water and the medicine were stuffed into Zhou Xuan's hand.Since returning from the interrogation room that day, Zhou Xuan hadn't closed his eyes. Later, Zhou Yu couldn't stand it anymore, so he asked Ning Yuan for some sleeping pills.Fortunately, Zhou Xuan did not refuse, if you give it to him, he will obediently take the medicine.

"Sun Quan is smart." Presumably only Second Young Master Sun dared to directly refute First Young Master Sun's malicious intentions.

"There is one more thing," Zhou Xuan hesitated to say, and he stopped and looked at him, "I think, you need to know."

"Speak." He put the medicine into his mouth, took a sip of water, and swallowed it.In fact, more or less can guess the point.

"Zijing and Bo Yan still can't get any more information," suddenly feeling a bit impatient, maybe, they shouldn't have told him, "Finally, Bo Fu and the others decided to execute them according to the law."

Unsurprisingly, "When? Who?"

"Three days later, Sun Zhongmou." Don't turn your head away, don't look at Zhou Xuan's current appearance.

"I'm sleepy, you should go to bed earlier." Without a trace of waves, she covered the quilt, closed her eyes, and waited for the medicine to take effect.

three days later.

"Squeak..." The door was pushed open, Si Luo, no, it should be Sima Shao'an, squinting his eyes to adapt to the light for a while, and then saw that the person standing in front of her was the person she was least willing to see at this moment .

Looking at the person in front of him, he felt as if he hadn't seen Zhou Xuan for a few days.But what he didn't expect was that Sun Quan was so forthright this time. When he went to see him yesterday, before he said anything, the man waved his hand and said "Thank you for your help." Then, there was nothing else.

Taking a deep breath, Sima Shaoan heard him say, "You, do you have anything else to say?"

"No," she looked at him calmly, "I've said everything that needs to be said."

"Really?" She laughed at herself, then squatted down, "But, I have a lot to say."

"We have nothing to say." I don't want to say anything more to him.

"Really?" Seeing Sima Shao'an's face turning away, Zhou Xuan felt very bitter, he never understood her, "I just want to ask you, are you sincere or false to me?"

"Use it sincerely, and like it pretendingly." Turning his head, he looked into his eyes and said.Zhou Xuan likes to look people in the eyes when talking to them. At first he was puzzled, but later he said that because that is the best way to judge whether a person is lying or not.

"Hehe, as expected," sighed, and without warning, reached out and clasped Sima Shaoan's chin, forcing her to look at him, "The old man in the family once told me that if you want to know if a person has To lie to you, just look into his eyes. Because the eyes are the most real windows to reflect a person's heart. What is thinking in the heart can be seen through the eyes. But, here with you, I find that they are wrong Do you know why? Because no matter how I look into your eyes, I can’t see your heart. You just have this ability, even if you look into my eyes, you can speak deceitful words without panic. Like now. Of course, maybe I guessed wrong. After all, I have never understood you. From the time we met to now, I have never really understood you. Tell me, how did you do it, huh? You How do you do it, even looking into my eyes and speaking deceitful words, huh?"

Frowning, Zhou Xuan held himself in pain.

"Will it hurt?" Because she was looking directly at her, it was easy to see the expression on her face, "My heart hurts too. But, the person who hurt it, I can't do anything about her. As I said, I can't bear to embarrass her. So, Ajiu, answer me, is it true or false?"

"Using it sincerely, liking it pretendingly." It's still the same answer, although the fact is not the case.However, she didn't want to tell the truth.To her, Zhou Xuan is like the light shining into the depths of the ocean, rare, warm, and also far away.It is what she wants to have, who has been living in the dark.She has been trying to get closer to him, but she has no choice but to have the kind of physique that dies when she sees light. Every inch she gets closer, there will be more wounds. The price of hugging is to turn herself into a bubble.But now, she only knows that she can't embrace this wipe, because even if she exhausts all her strength, she can't get close to him.

"That's it." Let go of his hand, he really failed, the person he likes wholeheartedly, is unwilling to tell the truth to himself when he is dying.

"Let's do it." Slowly closed his eyes, it would be good if he could die by his hands, Sima Shao'an thought, it would not be in vain for him to really like him all the time.

"Okay." Concentrate into a knife, and then, swipe across.

Not feeling any pain at all, Sima Shao'an, who was slowly falling down, seemed to hear him say, "Ajiu, wait for me." Then, she saw Black and White Wuchang coming to pick her up.

Headache, very headache, looking at Zhou Xuan who has been in a daze since he came back, Zhou Yu felt a headache for the first time.

"Gong Jin, come here." Just when Zhou Yu really didn't know what to do, Zhou Xuan opened his mouth and patted the empty seat beside him, "I'm so tired, let me lean in for a while."

"Oh." He sat down very obediently.Even if he didn't want to sit there, but Zhou Xuan was like this, as a younger brother, Zhou Yu could still say no, no.

Maybe it was because he was really tired. As soon as Zhou Yu sat down, Zhou Xuan leaned his head on his lap. Zhou Yu was a little speechless. If he knew it was like this, he would not sit down no matter what, it was too much.

"One sentence, three words. I only want so much, but she said she couldn't afford it. She said, if I want, she is willing to spend the rest of her life to tell me. But, Gongjin, why is her rest of life so short." The bits and pieces of the past kept popping up in my mind, and when I closed my eyes, all the words she had said echoed in my mind.

When we first met, she was playing freely in the fountain:

"Why did you come out? It's fun! Haha!"

"I only know 'Life is short, enjoy yourself while you have time'!"

"Call me Ajiu. I don't feel comfortable hearing the old girl's name."

When confessing, she hesitated but still agreed:

"Okay, Zhou Zizhen, I promise to associate with you. Because I don't want to go against my own heart."

When goodbye, she pretended to be a stranger:

"I'm sorry, you misidentified the person. My name is Si Luo, not some Ajiu. Please let go, you hurt me."

When she was alone, she was determined to cut off from the past:

"Okay. Zhou Xuan, if possible, I hope that I have never met you. The time with you is the last thing I want to think about in my life."

During the chat, the long-lost her:

"He is a very good person. He is very careful. He will notice all my unhappiness, even if it is not obvious, and then try to make me happy; he is afraid that I will be too lonely alone, so He will quickly finish the tasks at hand and spend more time with me; he will cook a lot of delicious food, saying that if I get fat, no one will like me, so I can only be with him Together; the time with him is the warmest day in my memory. Although it is too early to say the future, I know that such a time will never happen again. "

"Why? Since you like him so much, why did you leave him?"

"Yeah, why? He is so good, and I like him so much. But, sometimes it is like this, no matter how much you like someone, in the end, the person who is by your side is not him. At the beginning The reason why I left him was because I knew that during the time I was with him, I became not like me, maybe that was the magic of love. But such a strange me made me feel scared. The education I received since childhood Tell me that it is difficult for me to survive in this world like that. It is more because he has no reservations about me, but I have too many things that I cannot tell him. So, I chose to leave. Although I still saw him afterwards, and I knew very well that I still loved him all the time, but I still didn’t dare to go back to him.”

When reuniting, she confessed for the first time that she met:

"There are some things you don't understand. Yes, I still like you, and this kind of love has grown stronger during the time I have been away from you. But the more I like you, the more afraid I am. I am afraid that when you know On the day of the truth, I will never talk to me again; I am afraid that I am too happy now, and when the truth comes, I will not be used to being alone; I am afraid..."

When she was injured, she was weak but also stubborn:

"Is there anything you want to eat? I'll go buy it."

"Bring me some tiramisu, others are optional."

During the test, the helpless she:

"I know, one sentence, three words, that's all you want. But, I'm sorry, I can't give it. But, as long as you are willing, I am willing to spend the rest of my life telling you."

And, at the last farewell, she still refused to tell the truth:

"Using it sincerely, liking it pretendingly."

Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face. "I don't believe it, Gongjin." He didn't wipe it off, just let the tears spread on his face, "Use it sincerely, like it pretending. I don't believe this sentence no matter what."

"Oh," sighed helplessly, "why bother. She just said that in the hope that you would let yourself go, so why bother if you are like this now?"

"I can't do it," a little choked up, "People often say that death is worse than life, and death is the possibility of losing everything. However, sometimes life is better than death. She is really cruel, leaving so many memories to me , but left by herself. Gongjin, my heart hurts so much."

"Then don't forget," think about it carefully, if it's you and Xiao Qiao, I'm afraid it won't be much better than the current Zhou Xuan, "Keep her in your heart, always remember, and then live a good life . She is looking at you."

"Anyone can tell the truth, and I know it too, but it's really difficult to do that."

No longer talking, the needle is not pricking himself, even if he imagined himself and Xiao Qiao going through such a thing, Zhou Yu knew that he would not be able to understand how uncomfortable Zhou Xuan is now.It is said that there is nothing greater than death in the heart, so does it mean that you have to die once to get out of the pain completely?

"Give me some time," Hulu wiped the back of his hand, sat up, looked at Zhou Yu, "sort out your mood, and bid farewell to the past."

"Okay." Nodding his head, it would be cruel to say something wrong, "I'll wait here until my brother comes back."

Twitching the corners of his mouth, he gave Zhou Yu a smile, then got up and went upstairs.

Watching Zhou Xuan disappear around the corner, Zhou Yu felt a little emotional, the word love really hurts.He seemed to think of something, and then dialed a person's siman number.When you have it, cherish it, he doesn't want to waste every minute and every second now.I also believe that his brother will come back soon.