Su Shen is immortal and swears not to become a Buddha!

When you wake up, the first thing you see is the blood-red moon.

The second thing I saw was Peixue's long and narrow face like a catalpa.

What he saw with his third eye was the chubby, white and tender hand that he held up to his eyes, which belonged to a child.

Betrayed.

You said dejectedly.

Although there is no loyalty between Pomian itself, each other's loyalty belongs to Aizen-sama, but the person who has been saved by you more than once has joined with your companions to plot against you, even if you know most of them in your heart. You don't even have any sense of shame, but this act of repaying kindness and revenge still makes you feel angry and helpless.

For the first time in your life, you feel the urge to kill.

Just because you don't like pointless fights doesn't mean you're weak enough to be leniently forgiving when treated this way.

However, now you can only think about it, but you can't do any actual revenge.

Because, you have become a child without any power.

In this cruel, jungle-like virtual circle, you must rely on your two subordinates to survive.Survival is so difficult, let alone enter the Xuye Palace and seek revenge on the 5th and 8th Tenth Blades.

You are outraged.

You want revenge so badly, so badly, so badly.

But for some reason, your body can't respond to your will and become an adult again.

Your real personality is even forced to hide behind that silly little kid personality who can't remember anything, silently watching everything, but unable to move.

You are imprisoned.

Imprisoned within oneself.

You try again and again to break out of your inner confinement.

But no matter how many times you try, you won't succeed.The barriers in front of you may seem thin, but they are as solid as gold, making it impossible for you to shake a bit.

You don't understand why this is happening.

This is your inner world, in this world, you should be the strongest, you should be the god who controls everything, but why can't you break even a single barrier! ?

You want an answer, but the answer never comes to you.

You hug your knees and curl yourself up.

You are the 3rd Tenth Blade, your strength is beyond doubt.

But why is it that you, who are so powerful, can't even get rid of a silly and soft personality like cotton, and you are even oppressed by this personality so that you can't breathe.

Maybe it's because you're missing something important, you're thinking.

Your strength may not be complete.

In your heart, a small but important piece of the puzzle is missing.

But you are confident that you will find that piece of the puzzle.

Because you are the powerful 3rd tenth blade, even though, you are just a child like an idiot now.

But you know you'll recover sooner or later.

Just a matter of time.

It's ok.

you can wait.

You fell into a long slumber.

This is also impossible.

The joint assassination of the 5th Tenth Blade and the 8th Tenth Blade almost killed you. It is normal for you to choose to sleep and heal yourself when you are seriously injured.

Besides, even if he is awake, he can only watch that limp child personality play hide-and-seek with his two subordinates, and he can't do anything, so it would be more helpful for him to sleep.

You find yourself sleeping longer and longer. Sometimes, you who have become the "inside personality" will split into a third personality in your heart, and the third personality will look at you as the "inside personality" Sleeping and not waking up, secretly worrying about you.

You also know that going on like this is not an option.

If she continued to sleep like this, sooner or later, she would be completely eroded by that silly personality.

But you can't help it.

This is beyond the will, you don't want to sleep, but you have to.

Because... there is nothing here that makes you nostalgic.

Yes, this is the piece of the puzzle you are missing.

You, from the day you became a broken face, you have never longed for anything.

Revenge doesn't motivate you enough to keep you going.

It's a small piece of the puzzle, but it's a matter of life and death.

You know you don't have much time left.

You must find that puzzle piece as fast as possible.

Finally on that day, a very ordinary day.

You saw the girl lying in a pool of blood waiting to die with a spear pierced through her chest and back.

She is human.

"Mom...save...me..."

She who was on the verge of death said so intermittently before she fell into a coma.

You are not moved.

Death is a very common thing in this virtual circle.

However, your representative personality, that silly and limp child, ran up to save the girl in a very good way.

You watched quietly, without any waves in your heart.

It just saved an irrelevant person, and it was still a human being.

Soon, this human being will die in the virtual circle without water and food.

If it were you, you wouldn't take the effort to save it.

It has nothing to do with being cold-blooded or not, it's just that human beings simply cannot survive in the virtual circle.

But your Biao personality doesn't know, she is just a child who doesn't understand anything, and is very enthusiastic.

So she saved the girl.

She stretched out her hand, tightly intertwining your fate with that girl.

And all of this, you didn't realize it clearly at the time.

You feel left out.

No one will ever remember your former glory.

Even those two subordinate officials who gave their lives to protect you chose to be your "brothers" instead of your "subordinates" because you became a child.

No one treats you like you used to be.

Yes, you are forgotten.

You deeply think so.

That being the case, then... just give up.

Let go completely.

There is nothing left to miss.

"That... because Lady Nilu is amazing, and Lady Nilu has been an idol in my heart for a long time..."

Huh?

"Miss Nilu possesses a chivalry spirit that has almost disappeared in this world. Mistress Nilu is my favorite person in this world."

Who, who is talking?

"Miss Nilu is a model of chivalry, and Nilu is a true knight. I never thought of following anyone, but if it is Nilu, I am willing to follow you—until the day when my life ends."

From the day the virtual circle was born, you don't know what it is to shed tears.

Even if you were betrayed and plotted against, you never thought of crying.

But at this moment, a human being casually said a few words, which made your eyes glisten uncontrollably.

She remembers.

She remembers you, remembers your past glory.

She honored you as "Lord Nilu", and she said that she would follow you until the end of her life.

You are not forgotten.

Even though most people in the world don't remember that you ever existed, there is always that one person who puts you in the most important position in their hearts no matter how the world changes.

For the first time, you had a strong impulse, and the impulse in your heart was directly reflected in the behavior of the personality. According to your instructions, the personality asked that very important question——

"What's your name?"

After a moment of silence, the girl said two words.

tassel.

you laughed.

You know, you won't forget the name.

From that day on, your life starts to shine again.

Although the girl is a human being, the strange thing is that she will not die if she does not drink or eat.You're surprised, but you accept the fact - because it keeps her with you longer.

The girl plays peek-a-boo with your cousin every day, but there is no trace of impatience on her face.You are stunned, because even you yourself are tired of the appearance of mental retardation, but that girl has never disliked you as a child. No matter how long you get along, she always calls you "Master Nilu", And from the beginning to the end, she didn't dare to cross the line and open her arms to hold you in her arms—even if you are a child now.

The most she dares to touch is your hair, she doesn't even dare to touch your face.

She is the only one who has been so respectful and humble to you since you were a child.

You feel great to be respected at first, but gradually, you feel dissatisfied.

Why doesn't she touch you?

Why doesn't she hug you?

Why does she always call "Lord Nilu" in her mouth, and then draw an insurmountable boundary between herself and you?

So you once again manipulated the actions of your personality and threw yourself into her arms.

Since getting to know her, your power has become stronger and stronger, and you can even frequently influence the behavior of the surface personality.

You don't know why, but you are happy with the outcome.

But she never hugged you.

Although you are already in her arms, with your mouth flattened, you look like you need someone to comfort you.

But she still dare not touch you.

You were a little annoyed, but in the next second, a sudden change occurred, and she was captured by the 8th blade. Before she was captured, she threw you on Peixue with all her strength.

You know that she is an ordinary human being, but when encountering a sudden crisis, her first reaction is not to protect herself, but to protect you.

You are almost going crazy.

The only person who loves you so piously was taken away like this, and his life and death are unknown.

You want to break through the barrier, seize physical control, and get her back.

However, that thin barrier is always in front of you, immovable like a mountain.

You have no choice but to follow to the 8th ten-blade site, hiding behind the sand dunes and waiting.

Only then did you deeply realize how incompetent and weak you are.

He can't even protect the only person who likes him.

Even if it was the 3th blade, even if you had such a glorious life, what's the point? !

Those past times are no longer important, now, you just want that person to be safe and happy.

After the girl was kidnapped by the 8th Ten Blades, she was soon brought into the Palace of Void Night by Ulquiorra.

You were worried, so you wandered around the Xuye Palace, waiting for the girl to come out.

You know very well that the girl might not be able to come out alive after entering the Void Night Palace.

But you pray, pray that the girl can come out alive, live, and meet you again.

Your heavy heart has affected your heartless personality, that silly child can no longer play anymore, she sleeps all day except nesting in the sand dunes outside the Xuye Palace, because you have to wait for the girl to come out, so She also persistently waits with you.

Your degree of fusion with the surface personality is getting higher and higher, and the surface personality can no longer get rid of you and have fun on its own.

You are surprised that the mood of praying for a person, the mood of hoping for a person's peace, is actually stronger and more powerful than your desire to break through obstacles, and can even influence and manipulate the behavior of your personality.

You didn't understand why at the time.

You just know, you want that girl alive.

The girl finally showed up.

You were still in a deep sleep at that time, but the warmth that penetrated the bottom of your heart made you wake up quickly.

As soon as you opened your eyes, you saw the familiar face of the girl.

At that moment, you actually want to thank God for allowing you to see her again.

And soon, you find that the girl is hugging you.

That was the first time she hugged you.

On the deserted street at night in this world, the girl stands under the street lamp, hugs you tenderly, tucks your clothes carefully, and prevents any cold wind from blowing you.

The girl has a light fragrance, sweet, making you feel soft and tender.

Such a good smell, you have lived in the virtual circle for so long, and you have never smelled it before.

And you don't know that a person's arms can be so warm and so attached.

You almost want to be intoxicated in this embrace and never wake up.

You know girls are really weak.

She couldn't even protect herself, and she was always trying to survive, struggling through one difficulty after another. She paid a high price and experienced pain that ordinary humans could not bear. Every time you thought she couldn't make it through , But in the end, she gritted her teeth and survived, and hugged you with a smile, watching the clouds in the sky with you.

You don't understand how she can still smile so warmly after going through so much.

She once hugged you, crying that she didn't want to die, but in the blink of an eye, before she was about to be forced into the unknown and dangerous world, she forgot what she had just shouted, and all she wanted was to let the god of death swear to protect you.

You simply don't understand why someone can love you so...deeply.

It was a kind of heartfelt, purest love.It is integrated into instinct, even in the face of death threats, there will be no wavering love.

You want to protect such a love.

You want to protect her.

but……

Looking at the motionless barrier in front of you, you showed despair for the first time in your life.

Why can't you break through this barrier.

What are you missing! ?

What is missing! ?

"Yaqianliu, take Nilu-sama out of here!"

The girl was lying on the hospital bed, her whole body was weak and weak, and she couldn't even move a finger.But she didn't know where she got so much strength, and she ordered the god of death to take her away from that dangerous place.

"Hurry up! You promised me that you would spare your life to protect Lady Nilu! You made an oath!"

The girl cried out eagerly.

She doesn't care whether Aizen's target is you or not, she doesn't think about her own safety, she just wants to keep you safe.

In the end, Yaqianliu complied with the girl's request and took you away.

Yaqianliu uses Shunpo to fly you away from the place where Aizen and the Ten Blades are, and there is also your favorite person in that place.

You lie on Yaqianliu's shoulders, looking behind Yaqianliu——

A huge beam of light shot up into the sky, and a slender figure rose slowly in the beam of light, and floated into the long-awaited black cavity.

You know, that's Aso.

You also know that Asu's body is already very weak.

She narrowly escaped death and destroyed the world of Uchiha Qing at the cost of tearing her soul apart, and she could no longer stand any torture.

But Aizen still wants to take her away.

In the face of all this, you can do nothing.

The girl is so weak, but she still tries her best to protect you.

For some reason, you suddenly had a premonition.

You will never see her again.

I will never see her smiling gently at you again, I will never be able to be hugged lovingly and lovingly by her, and I will never hear her call you "Lord Nilu"...

In your mind, pictures of you getting along can't be restrained, like a revolving lantern -

The afternoon sun was warm, she was lying in the courtyard corridor, sleeping soundly with you in her arms.

Holding the wagashi she brought back from the Women's Shinigami Association, she smiled and shared half with you.

Pointing to the clouds in the sky, she said: Look, that one looks like you, Mrs. Nilu~

She played peek-a-boo with you, but when you couldn't find her and you were about to cry, she hurried out from the hiding place to hug you, and said softly, "I'm here, Lady Nilu, don't cry!" It's..."

She can't see you showing a little bit of aggrieved look.

She gave her life to protect you.

She is clearly...a weak human being...

I don't want to leave her... I don't want to...

"Master Nilu, I will always be with you."

you cry.

Tears welled up in your eyes, down your cheeks, and onto your chest.

"I want to save her, I want to save her, I have to save her!!!"

You said it over and over again, tears kept gushing out, as if to drain all the water in your body.

Cracks began to appear in the barrier in front of him.

"I want to save Asu, let me save Asu, I want to protect her!"

"Enough is enough, I don't want to wait so feebly for her to come back!"

"I want power, I want the power to protect her!!!"

"Let me out!!!!"

Cracks spread like spider webs, and the barrier was in danger.

You bit your lower lip, with tears in your eyes, fighting spirit ignited in your eyes.

A light flashed in your hand, and the usual Zanpakuto finally returned to your side and was in your hands.

You swung your knife awe-inspiringly and hit the barrier in front of you——

clang! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

The barrier shattered.

You panted, closed your eyes, and felt your body expand rapidly.

When you open your eyes again, you have returned to your original appearance.

You know that you will never be a child again.

Because you've found the missing piece of the puzzle.

It turned out that the piece of the puzzle was so close to me.

And you are so stupid that you didn't see it until then.

fortunately.

It's not too late.

After you recovered, you ran back to the virtual circle non-stop, and finally grabbed the girl's hand before she entered that dangerous world.

You draw Zanpakutō and point it at Ulquiorra in front of you.

"...Nelliel, what do you mean by that?"

"I want to vent my anger on Asu." You said lightly, "You have caused her to suffer so much, but I can't settle the score with all of you for the time being. If this is the case, then I have to see one and settle the other."

"...Hmph. You are the former 3th Blade, do you think you can beat me now?"

"If you don't try, you won't know."

You don't even think about whether there will be a gap in strength.

You are just very simple, you want to vent your anger for the person you like the most.

She has suffered so much, and justice should be sought for her.

However, the girl hangs on your arm and stops you.

The girl cried and said—"Master Nilu...don't take risks for me...I'm not worth it...I just hope you can be safe and happy...everything I do...is just for this goal...so ……Please……"

You listened quietly, but your heart could not restrain your deep pity for her.

This silly child, she actually said that she was "not worth it".

She even said that everything she did was just to make you "safe and happy".

You want to tell her so much that you are the same.

You also hope that she will never be involved in the dangers of the world.

You also hope that she will no longer know the wickedness of others.

You also hope that she will be safe and happy for the rest of her life...

you too...

How much you want to tell her that from this moment on, you will only be her knight.

From this moment on, you will swear by the name of Nellielu du Odyshovank——

swore to love her,

respect her,

protect her

help her

whole-heartedly……

——until the end of my life.

-End-

I've always wanted to write a side story from Nilu's perspective, and I wanted to write it the day the main text was finished, but I didn't know why it was delayed until today.

After I finished writing, I felt as if somewhere in my heart was liberated.

I'm not trying to whore characters, but I don't think it's surprising that Nilu-sama falls in love with Tassel.

Lady Nilu's love for Liusu is the same as Liusu's love for Lady Nilu.It's a feeling beyond love, it's just "love".

Not "love", but "love".

I think everyone should be able to distinguish between these two feelings.

With love for someone, Lady Nilu's life is truly complete.

Although in the end, Lady Nilu still had to watch Liusu leave helplessly.

But at least, Lady Nilu still has Tassel's love for her.No matter how long it takes, it won't go away.

Lady Nilu will have a good life in the death world after Liusu left, because she knows how to love, and she will know how to be happy.

The happiness of Lady Nilu is my greatest concern.