married her first and then fell in love

Before walking far, the two were sitting on the beach in front of the tent. There were no people on the beach. Some of the more than ten tents were still brightly lit, while others had been turned off.

Xia An is comfortable with the wind blowing, she has never slowed down to relax like this, she is always busy and tired of reality.Ye Jin would give herself a few days off to relax a year, but it couldn't dispel loneliness.

Sitting on the beach and looking into the distance, the sea level stretches as far as the eye can see, and the sparkling light extends all the way to the sky.

"It's so beautiful..." When Xia An smiled and turned to look at Ye Jin, she also became silent. President Ye seems to have something on his mind tonight, so don't make it too obvious.

"Yeah." After several seconds, Ye Jin remembered to answer, which seemed a bit abrupt.

Xia An wrapped her arms around her knees, then tilted her head, leaning lazily on Ye Jin's shoulders, she half-cast her eyes to watch the waves hit the beach again and again, the tide rose and ebbed.

The two snuggled together and watched the sea quietly for a while.

Ye Jin turned her head slightly, Xia An's hair rubbed against her side face, after staring at Xia An for a long time, she calmly said, "An An."

Xia An raised her head, she could barely see Ye Jin's face clearly in the dim light, she asked softly, "Do you have something to tell me?"

Look at Ye Jin's reaction...

Sure enough, in recent days, Ye Jin has been giving her such a feeling, as if he hesitated to speak.

Ye Jin was finally willing to tell her what was on her mind, Xia An was both happy and anxious, she didn't know what Ye Jin would say to her, even though they were getting closer and closer during this time, Ye Jin still hadn't established a relationship with her.

Xia An felt that even if the two of them knew that they liked each other, they still needed to clearly say "Let's be together".Perhaps, she felt that there was still a gap between her and Ye Jin, and that was why.

For a while, Xia An also thought a lot, until he heard Ye Jin say in a suppressed and inferior tone: "I have been receiving psychological treatment..."

It takes courage to reveal one's weaknesses and scars. When Ye Jin said everything, her eyes were always fixed on the vast and empty sea.Apart from telling her psychiatrist about these things, she never told anyone else, not even the old lady.

The promiscuous Shenyin, the chaotic breath, and the unsightly intertwined scenes...from about five years old, they frequently appeared in Ye Jin's dreams. When she saw her father and his lover in bed for the first time, Not yet five years old.

Slowly, she understood what those pictures that often flashed through her mind meant.

The more mature I feel, the more disgusting I feel.

Her mother was only 32 when she committed suicide by cutting her wrists.Later, Ye Jin saw a severe depression report and some antidepressant drugs in her mother's belongings. The man's long-term betrayal was the last straw that crushed her mother...

The unknowing seeds planted when I was young, with time and maturity, take root and sprout in the bottom of my heart, and slowly cling to them like vines with claws and claws, unable to get rid of, lingering.

"...So, I said that I am a non-marriageist, I have never thought about getting married."

Xia An lowered her head, listening to Ye Jin's words, her heart was equally heavy and uncomfortable, no wonder she never mentioned anything to her parents.Xia An never asked, because she understood that everyone has a reason for being silent.

Several times, Xia An listened to Ye Jin talking, and then stopped, just breathing gently, she really wanted Ye Jin to stop talking, she knew that every sentence Ye Jin said was full of thorns, piercing Own.

Ye Jin finished speaking persistently, and after she said it, she found that it was not that difficult, and on the contrary she felt a little more relieved.

The sea breeze messed up her long hair. Ye Jin looked at Xia An and asked, "I may not be able to give you a normal life now. Are you still willing to give me time?"

Xia An finally understood the meaning of time in Ye Jin's mouth, and also understood Ye Jin's hot and cold seasons.

It's not that I don't like it, but I care too much.

Xia An looked at Ye Jin, at this moment, she had no words of comfort, let alone complaining about her, why didn't she confess to herself earlier?Xia An held Ye Jin's hand tightly, all she felt was understanding and heartache, she could understand how difficult it was for Ye Jin to take this step.

Ye Jin looked down at Xia An holding her hand tightly, is the answer yes?

The sea breeze makes people feel peaceful, and it seems to be especially suitable for talking.

"When I was very young, my dad found slow granules. People around me said that if this thing deteriorates, it won't be curable in the future." Xia An lowered her eyes, and said something about herself with a smile, "It didn't take long. , my mother divorced and ran away with others. From then on, I especially wanted to be a doctor, and others said that my father was hopeless, so I wanted to prove it to them more."

"Later, my dad was injured on the construction site and lost a leg, so he couldn't do heavy work anymore. If I wanted to continue my studies, I had to rely on myself. So I worked hard to study and get a scholarship. Whenever I had time, I looked for a part-time job. Make money." Xia An said it easily, as if completely forgetting how he got through it.

"Later, I got a full scholarship and was admitted to the university I missed. When I thought everything was going well, my dad was hospitalized and needed chemotherapy and hematopoietic stem cell transplantation. I had to work part-time at night."

Ye Jin listened carefully, only to see that the smile on Xia An's face finally faded slowly.

"I feel like I can get through so many bad things by myself. There should be nothing I can't handle." Xia An turned to look at Ye Jin's face, "But when you are with others, I'm very scared, I'm afraid that you have other people hidden in your heart, I'm afraid that you like others like I like you."

When talking about the latter, Xia An's voice trembled a little.

"Fool." Ye Jin couldn't help saying, she always felt that she was not good enough for Xia An, "What's so good about me..."

Xia An said stubbornly, "I just like you."

It's hard to describe liking someone with concrete reasons. You only like her when you say she treats you well. Then there are so many people in the world who can treat you well. Why do you only like her?

"Will you still be with me?"

Xia An had never seen Ye Jin cry, but this time, she vaguely saw Ye Jin's eyes moisten.At this time, she still said, "Whether you are happy or unhappy, I will be with you."

Ye Jin took Xia An's hand, clasped her fingers tightly, and pressed their palms tightly together, "I'll be with you too."

Xia An smiled and nodded, then leaned her head on Ye Jin's shoulder, thinking about what Ye Jin said to her tonight, she took the initiative to hold Ye Jin's hand a little tighter.

The moment of promise is eternity. At this moment, Ye Jin doesn't think about the future, but only feels that Xia An is very happy when she rests her head on her body.

It was late at night and the sea breeze was a bit cool.

Seeing Xia An resting on her shoulder, Ye Jin narrowed her eyes. She stretched out her hand to gently stroke Xia An's hair, and stroked the other's cheek with her fingertips.

Xia An opened his eyes.

"Sleepy?"

Xia An was blown by the wind and sneezed, "A little bit."

"Go back to the tent and sleep."

Sleeping in the tent is naturally not as spacious as the bed, but a family of three squeezed together is also warm, and as soon as Xia An lay down, Ye Jin hugged her body before Xia An could react.

Ye Jin rubbed Xia An's hair and whispered in her ear, "Let me hold you."

Xia An was stunned for a moment, then smiled.Since tonight, she has only begun to understand the real Ye Jin. Many times, Ye Jin hugs her and needs warmth like a child.

Xia An is naturally happy to be warm enough to Ye Jin.

"Don't hug me to sleep every night." Xia An looked at Ye Jin with a smile, and whispered ambiguously.

Instead, Ye Jin hugged Xia An even tighter, and said childishly, "Then you hug me to sleep."

Xia An turned off the light, and hugged Ye Jin silently.

"An An..."

"Ok?"

"Won't keep you waiting too long."

"Let's take it slowly." Xia An said, but she could see that Ye Jin wanted to change in a hurry, but how could she break through the obstacles in her heart all at once, and she didn't want to put pressure on Ye Jin, "Actually, it's good now."

Xia An said "we", which made Ye Jin feel more at ease, "Tomorrow I will accompany you to school to pack your things, and you will stay at home obediently from now on."

She is still thinking about this matter. The last time Xia An went back with her directly, she didn't move many things, "Okay~"

Ye Jin smiled satisfied.

It was the end of March when Xia An moved away, and it was June when he moved back. In fact, it was only more than two months, but a long, long time passed, probably too many things happened around.

Back to the place where he lived for more than half a year, Xia An subconsciously walked to the familiar room.

Ye Jin stopped Xia An, "Come with me."

Xia An followed Ye Jin all the way to the master bedroom on the second floor, Ye Jin said, "I will live in this room from now on."

"Live here?"

"Shouldn't we live in the same room?" Ye Jin asked Xia An instead.

Xia An smiled before realizing that it was unreasonable for her to sleep in separate rooms with Ye Jin, but she was still not used to it from the contractual relationship to the real relationship.

Unlike ordinary lovers, who gradually met and fell in love, and then got married, she and Ye Jin entered the final stage directly, and got the certificate in a daze.

Xia An just moved back home, and Ye Wan pestered her to sleep with the little mummy at night.

"I'm five years old every night, I can't sleep with my mother anymore, you know?" Ye Jin educated the little guy.

Upon hearing this, Ye Wan pursed her lips in displeasure, "Mom, you are not cute at all. When little mommy was angry with you and wouldn't sleep with you, you asked Wanwan to coax little mommy to sleep with you. Now that little mommy is not angry with you, don't be too late. I also want to sleep with little mommy. "

Xia An on the side couldn't stop laughing when he heard this. This villain really knows everything in his heart because he looks young, and his heart is like a mirror.

Ye Jin: "..."

"Little Mommy, I want to sleep with you tonight, okay~" Ye Wan acted coquettishly towards Xia An, she knew that saying ten words to Ye Jin was not worth being coquettish to Xia An.

"Okay, sleep with little mummy." Xia An really couldn't resist the little brat's soft-heartedness.

"Just get used to her, she won't sleep alone anymore." Ye Jin said.

"Can you stop being so strict with the baby?" Xia An complained, she looked at Ye Wan again, and said with a smile, "Wanwan, just tonight, if you keep sleeping with your mother, the kindergarten children will laugh at you if they find out. They all sleep in their own little room."

"Yeah." Ye Wan nodded, then quickly climbed onto the bed, lay down obediently under the quilt in her pajamas, "Little Mommy, tell me a story today."

Ye Jin looked helpless, she turned to Xia An and said, "Go take a bath first."

Xia An bent down and coaxed Ye Wan who was on the bed, "Little Mommy will tell the baby a story after taking a bath."

Speaking of which, it was the first time for Xia An to take a bath in the bathroom in Ye Jin's bedroom, it was very spacious, and the bathtub was also oversized, more than enough to accommodate two people.

Toothbrush, towels, bath towels, Ye Jin all prepared for her in advance, full of traces of the lives of the two of them.

Turn on the shower head, warm water flows over the body, when Xia An wipes the shower gel on the body, it is a familiar and favorite fragrance, before sleeping next to Ye Jin at night, this is what the tip of his nose smelled.

After Xia An took a shower, she walked out of the bathroom wiping her wet hair. She saw Ye Jin sitting on the sofa reading a book, but Ye Wan was nowhere to be seen on the bed, "Where's the baby?"

Ye Jin raised her head, "Fell asleep, just carried her back."

The author has something to say: Cough, the next step is the treatment process without shame, starting with kissing