married her first and then fell in love

Xia An was absent-minded and didn't bother to answer.

With a tissue in her hand, Ye Jin continued to wipe the corners of Xia An's lips, and her eyes inevitably met. This seemingly simple action made both of them feel complicated.

The head trauma made Xia An dizzy and confused.

She frowned and squinted her eyes, and there were overlapping images in front of her eyes. When Ye Jin's fingers casually rubbed against her cheek, she was even more distracted, and she never evaded the other's eyes... I wish I could reach Ye Jin's heart, I wish Ye Jin really belonged to me.

Ye Jin also looked at Xia An, and for a moment, she wanted to hug the person in front of her into her arms.

"I'll do it myself." Xia An's movement of taking the tissue from Ye Jin was quite natural, but the corners of her mouth had already been wiped clean, so she wiped it again calmly, which seemed extremely redundant.

Ye Jin has all the details in his eyes.

Xia An bowed his head and drank the porridge in the bowl again.

Ye Jin was standing beside the bed, and the shadow happened to be reflected on her body. She glanced at the shadow on the back of her hand, and her mind was in a trance.I almost drank half of the porridge, but I still couldn't taste it.

Ye Jin stared at Xia An's profile for a long time, and asked, "Will you go home for the weekend?"

Xia An always heard that something was wrong with the word "go home", but she still raised her head towards Ye Jin, "Well, I promised to accompany the little guy this weekend."

"I'll come pick you up when the time comes." Ye Jin tried to say.

"No need..." Xia An shook his head, the words uttered between his two thin lips seemed pale and feeble, and he felt his head getting more dizzy and aching.

"What's wrong? Your head still hurts?"

Xia An was startled, because Ye Jin seemed a little nervous.

After talking about it that day, Xia An felt that the relationship between her and Ye Jin had come to an end, and Ye Jin thought so too.

Over the past month or so, they have all done well.

It should be said that it is more appropriate to pretend to be very good, so good that people think that the other party has let go of themselves, and that they are just dispensable in the other party's heart.

It wasn't until tonight that the two tore away a bit of the mask.Rather than letting go, it's more like torturing each other.

Xia An always felt that Ye Jin cared about her again, which was different from the last time when they were in the dark, when Ye Jin cared more like a friend, and kept a distance with airs.

But tonight, there was a little more ambiguous warmth.

Is it an illusion?Xia An laughed at herself in her heart, did she still have little illusions about Ye Jin?At the beginning, she still felt that Ye Jin liked herself as much as she liked her.

Xia An couldn't help thinking wildly, but she didn't dare to be passionate about Ye Jin anymore.

At this moment, Ye Jin's sudden care and concern made Xia An's mood even more chaotic. He didn't really feel like letting go, and he started to rampage in his heart again.

She rubbed her head, depressed and uncomfortable.

"Don't move around." Ye Jin took Xia An's hand and confessed softly, "If you feel uncomfortable, eat something and go to bed early."

Being held by Ye Jin, Xia An's heart suddenly felt sad.

She thought to herself, Ye Jin, what you do will only make me feel more uncomfortable.Obviously I still like it, but I can only accept your kindness to me like an ordinary friend, which will make people more uncomfortable.

Xia An was silent.

When you like someone, but you still can't feel your position in her heart, you will gradually find that being together is also a kind of suffering in disguise.

Xia An chose to give up just because he couldn't bear it.

Before meeting Ye Jin, Xia An never knew that she still had such an indecisive side, as if as long as Ye Jin treated her a little better, she would have the urge to surrender, no matter how rationally and seriously she made the decision before.

Just like now.

But Xia An is rational after all, she still wants to keep a little bit of her pride in front of Ye Jin.

"Do you want the doctor to come over?" Seeing Xia An's ugly and distracted look, Ye Jin felt worried.

Xia An withdrew her hand, not letting Ye Jin touch it.

Ye Jin grabbed the empty hand, obviously feeling Xia An's resistance to her.

"Can you go?" Xia An stared at the blank white wall, and gave Ye Jin the order to evict the guest without politeness.After a head injury, emotions are extremely easy to fluctuate. At this time, Xia An's mind is like a mess, not to mention facing Ye Jin.

"Can you go out?! I don't want to see you, I want to be alone!" The more Xia An said, the more unstable his mood became, as if he was venting.

She didn't want to see Ye Jin.

Because as soon as she sees Ye Jin, it will arouse her obsession, making it even more difficult to let go.

This is the first time Xia An loses his temper with Ye Jin, after all, she likes Ye Jin so much, how can she be willing.After finishing speaking, Xia An also realized that her tone was harsh, especially the sentence "I don't want to see you", the words were addressed to Ye Jin, but she also felt uncomfortable.

Facing Xia An's restlessness, Ye Jin remained silent for a moment, and then said softly, "I won't disturb you, you should rest well." He ever lowered his posture to care about a person, even if the other person still yelled at him with.

The doctor also said that Xia An's current situation needs peace of mind and rest in order to recover quickly.

Xia An turned her head around and didn't answer.

Ye Jin glanced at Xia An again, and when she turned around to leave the ward, she heard Xia An call out to herself from behind.

"Mr. Ye."

Ye Jin stopped in her tracks. They had been together for so long, and Xia An's address for her still remained on these two words.

"In the past two days, let's go through... the divorce procedures." Xia An said persistently with her eyes downcast.

It's divorce again.

Ye Jin directly refuted Xia An, "I'll talk about it later."

"after?"

"The doctor told you to calm down and recuperate now, don't think about anything."

With her own situation, Xia An was naturally sensible, and she didn't think the divorce between her and Ye Jin was such a complicated and frustrating matter. It was just a fake marriage at the beginning, "It's not just a matter of signing."

"I don't have time these days."

Only then did Xia An look up at Ye Jin, and asked, "Didn't you say you had time before?"

"I have something to do temporarily." Ye Jin answered vaguely but concisely. Xia An's current state is not calm enough, and it is not suitable for thinking too much. Ye Jin is afraid that being here will make Xia An unable to rest at ease and cause her mood swings, " You rest well, I'm going out first."

"Hey……"

The door was closed, and Ye Jin's figure disappeared before his eyes.

Xia An was lying on the hospital bed bored, looking at the incandescent lamp on the ceiling, the light and shadow flickering, his eyes were dizzy, disgusted and bored after watching for a long time, Xia An simply closed his eyes tightly to feel better.

Time passed little by little.

Ye Jin sat on the bench outside the ward and did not leave.Xia An finally lost her temper with her, but her mood was not as heavy as before.

Because I could feel it, Xia An still cared about her.

It was right for Xia An to lose his temper with her. Ye Jin thought about what happened tonight, and a rare smile floated on the corner of his mouth, just because he thought about Xia An's firm love.

Do people have to experience something to understand which one is more in line with their inner choice?

Just like Ye Jin now, after letting go of her self-deceiving thoughts, she realized so clearly that what she was pretending in her heart was actually Xia An.

Ye Jin's determination to be honest with Xia An also started from this night.

No matter what the result is, there are some things that she wants to make clear to Xia An, and she also wants to know what Xia An is thinking in her heart, instead of the two of them ending up unclear as they are now.

In the end, I still can't let go...

Ye Jin turned her head to look in the direction of the ward, and finally got the answer.

Xia An said that being with her was tiring, Ye Jin thought about it calmly, Xia An felt that it was right that she was tired, she really made the girl suffer too much, and owed too much initiative and response.

For love, Ye Jin never had much extravagant hopes, let alone actively pursue it.But this time, she wanted to try to fight for it without thinking about the result.

Whether it's a game or not, she wants to cherish the people she has met right now.

It rained in the evening, and it was crashing, occasionally mixed with a few thunderclaps.

Xia An closed her eyes to let herself into the darkness, her mood was still difficult to calm down.But due to the injury and the sleeping effect of painkillers, Xia An still fell into a deep sleep not long after hearing the sound of the pattering rain.

Xia An woke up once in the night.

She didn't know what time it was, she was blindingly white when she opened her eyes, and when she turned her head, she was still alone in the huge ward.

Feeling parched, Xia An struggled to get up, and dazedly reached for the water glass beside him, but he didn't grasp it firmly, but dropped the water glass, splashing the water all over the floor.

Staring at the wet ground, Xia An sighed slightly.

"Don't move, I'll pour it for you." Ye Jin heard the movement in the ward, opened the door and entered.

Seeing Ye Jin's figure again, Xia An thought she was dreaming, but after a second or two, she touched the phone and saw that it was already late at night.She stared at the back of Ye Jinzheng pouring water for herself again, with an indescribable feeling in her heart.

After adding some cold water to the hot water, Ye Jin handed the disposable water cup to Xia An.

"...You haven't left yet?" Xia An looked at Ye Jin in disbelief. She lost her temper and asked Ye Jin to leave, but Ye Jin just waited outside the ward instead of leaving?

Ye Jin looked into Xia An's eyes, and answered after a while, "I don't worry about you being here alone, you always need someone to accompany you."

The word "don't worry" disturbed Xia An's heart again.

Ye Jin, what on earth are you thinking?If this goes on like this, Xia An feels that he should be affectionate again.

"Go back. I'm fine by myself. I know all the nurses on duty here." Xia An's tone was much calmer than at the beginning. She was not spoiled. Ever since she was a child, has she dealt with few things alone?

Just at this moment, Aunt Zhou called.

It is said that Ye Wan woke up and didn't see his mother crying. Since Xia An seldom went back to Ye's house, the little guy became extremely sensitive.

"Be good late, don't cry..." Through the phone, Ye Jin was not very good at coaxing the child.

After listening to a few words, Xia An vaguely guessed the situation, she stretched out her hand to Ye Jin, and asked her for a cell phone with her eyes.

Ye Jin understood.

"Baby, why are you crying again?" Xia An cheered up, forced a smile and said to the other end of the phone.

As soon as she heard Xia An's voice, Ye Wan even called out aggrievedly, "Little Mommy—"

"Baby, don't cry," Xia An comforted Ye Wan, glanced at Ye Jin again, and said, "Mom will go home to accompany you soon..."

"Is the little mummy with mother?"

"Little Mummy is busy these days, so I'll go home to accompany the baby on weekends, okay?" For Ye Wan, Xia An really couldn't be cruel and just ignored her.

"Okay..." Ye Wan finally stopped crying.

"Go back quickly, the baby is still waiting for you." After hanging up the phone, Xia An handed the phone back to Ye Jin and said calmly.

"Call me if you need anything."

Xia An lowered his head, his heart was very confused, and it took a long time before he gave a soft "hmm".

"Go to bed early, I'll come back tomorrow."

"You have no responsibility to take care of me." Xia An said to Ye Jin out of his mind.

Ye Jin didn't argue with Xia An, but said, "Sleep well."

Xia An said nothing more.

After Ye Jin left, Xia An couldn't fall asleep, she stared in a daze at the dripping medicine, and then slowly trickled into her body along the tiny infusion tube.

She was injured, why is Ye Jin so concerned?Or say that like yourself, you can't let go at all.Xia An couldn't help thinking about it, but she didn't have much confidence in how important she could be in Ye Jin's heart. If Ye Jin really cared enough about her, their relationship would not be what it is now.

Xia An tried hard not to think about it.

This night, like Xia An, Ye Jin also suffered from insomnia.

After only resting for two days, Xia An returned to her post on Friday to continue her work. The colleagues in the department knew that she had just recovered from her injury and took good care of her.

It's just that she can't take care of the night side for the time being.

In this state, I really can't drink alcohol.

It's not that Xia An doesn't know how to take care of herself. Back then when she drank until she vomited at night, it was because of the pressure of reality. At that time, she really felt that she was about to be cornered.

Then I met Ye Jin.

Xia An is very grateful to Ye Jin, and she still is to this day.

At the end of get off work, I finished work with my colleagues. Xia An had just changed when he heard someone call his name, "Xia An, your friend is here."

Xia An saw Ye Jin from a distance.

She was wearing a dark coffee-colored long windbreaker. She was tall and slender. No matter where she was, she had a mature and capable temperament that stood out.Even though Ye Jin is always silent and serious, she still gives people a stunning and high-profile feeling.

Ye Jin walked towards Xia An first, "Why did you go to work today?"

"It's not a serious injury. Are you coming to see grandma?" Xia An, who was wearing flat shoes, lost a lot of her aura in front of Ye Jin. Even though she asked like this, Xia An didn't think it was a coincidence that she met Ye Jin.

In the past few days, Ye Jin has been visiting her.

"Well, together?"

Xia An thought about it and nodded. She also planned to see the old lady. Speaking of which, she hadn't been there for several days.

After staying in the hospital for more than a month, the old lady's mental state has improved a lot, but she would sigh a few times occasionally, especially when Ye Jin and Xia An appeared together.

When the situation is more stable, Ye Jin still plans to take the old lady home to recuperate.

After having dinner with the old lady, they chatted for a while before they left.

In the evening, the twilight is thick.

Ye Jin and Xia An walked side by side, talking very little.

Wasn't it the same before?Xia An thought, she had never seen someone like Ye Jin, who sounded aloof but actually bored.It's just that now, Xia An won't try every means to actively find someone to talk to.

The setting sun was reflected on Xia An's face. After Ye Jin glanced casually, she never left her eyes. She broke the silence, "Let's go home for dinner tonight, the baby is still waiting for us."

tonight?Xia An remembered that today was only Friday, "Didn't I say we would go on the weekend?"

"Tomorrow is the weekend, so it's just right to go home tonight." Ye Jin explained, she looked into the distance, and added, "The little guy came back from the kindergarten today and clamored to see you, saying that he missed you... "