married her first and then fell in love

Walk out of the hospital side by side.

It was cold and windy.

Xia An is more afraid of the cold than most people, and shivered when she went out. It is only six o'clock, and the night is getting dark, "Is grandma feeling better?"

It was freezing cold, and when he opened his mouth to speak, the hot and cold breath alternated, and a white mist was knocked out, which soon dissipated in the air and disappeared without a trace.

"It's recovering well, but it still needs to be hospitalized for a while." Ye Jin replied, after only a while, she saw that Xia An's nose was red from the cold, so some people are so afraid of the cold.In the past, when sleeping next to her at night, she would quietly hold Xia An's hand in her own to keep him warm, because Xia An's hand was always slightly cold.

"That's good." Hearing what Ye Jin said, Xia An breathed a sigh of relief, no matter what, she still blamed herself for this matter, thinking that they had lied to the old lady for so long, "Grandma must be angry .”

While saying these words, Xia An kept staring ahead, seemingly walking seriously, but actually absent-minded.She thought in her heart, after today, she will completely get rid of the ambiguity with Ye Jin.

Hearing Xia An's tone of self-reproach, Ye Jin turned to look at her again, "It's nothing, I will explain."

Xia An also just hummed softly "um", then kept silent, and walked forward in a muffled voice.

The two of them only chatted a few words along the way, which seemed dull.

A lot of things happened recently, Xia An and Ye Jin felt depressed and heavy. When they were together, they talked very little, but it was obvious that they both pretended to have something on their minds.

Ye Jin lingered on Xia An from the corner of her eye for a long time. She still remembered that when she first met Xia An, no matter in the night or in the hospital, she always loved to smile, as if facing any situation, she could smile freely and brightly.But Xia An has changed a little now, he doesn't always put a smile on his face, especially when in front of him, Ye Jin clearly knows that it has nothing to do with him.

"What do you want to eat?"

"Anything you want." Ye Jin didn't have any intention of eating, let alone she had already eaten some when she was in the ward.But just now when Xia An proposed to have dinner together, she agreed without thinking.

During these difficult ten days, Xia An was physically and mentally exhausted. It was Xia An who silently stayed by her side. Ye Jin felt that she longed for Xia An's company more and more in her heart, even if it was just for him to stand quietly by her side.

So, am I really willing to let go of Xia An and continue living alone?Ye Jin gradually realized that her answer seemed to be shifting towards "reluctant".

Xia An is very familiar with the area around the hospital, since Ye Jin said it's casual, so the two of them found a clean small restaurant near the hospital, and simply dismissed it.

"What do you order?" Xia An just sat down at the dining table, and was about to push the menu towards Ye Jin.

"I've eaten." Ye Jin said.

Xia An's hand holding the menu froze, remembering their previous conversation in the corridor, "Didn't you say you didn't eat?"

I have eaten, but I want to eat with you.

Ye Jin didn't say such intimate words to Xia An. In the final analysis, she still didn't let go of the burden in her heart, and loved someone without distraction.

Although Ye Jin didn't say it, Xia An could feel that she wanted to eat with him.

It really is Mr. Ye's characteristic to never speak his mind. Some things can be guessed by himself, but knowing a person can't just rely on guessing like this, right?

There has always been a distance between her and Ye Jin, maybe it's because their personalities don't match, or maybe it's because she is not Ye Jin's right person at all.Ye Jin didn't want to say more to her, and it was difficult for her to get close to Ye Jin's heart. They all said that the longer the time, the better they would understand a person, but for Ye Jin, Xia An felt that it was the opposite. The longer the time, the more she felt Ye Jin was unfamiliar.

Xia An tried hard not to think too much, no matter what, she thought about it, she and Ye Jin were not suitable, this was the answer.

On Valentine's Day, Xia An was determined to make it clear to Ye Jin, but the old lady's sudden situation completely messed up their position.

Xia An is persistent in dealing with things, but it doesn't mean that she will stick to the end in everything, just like she compromised with Ye Jin's fake marriage request back then, because she knew that it was her best choice at that time.

Probably when love comes, it is always inevitable that people will be impulsive and lose their minds, as if they can really give up the whole world for one person.

At the beginning, when Xia An felt that Ye Jin also had a good impression of her, it was just like this, an ambiguous look at each other, a simple word of concern, and a slightly intimate gesture could make her extremely happy, and she could not be calm for a long time.

It seems that whether the other party likes it or not can determine whether the world is bright or dark.

Facing all this now, Xia An has calmed down a lot, and she will no longer completely mess up her mind because of Ye Jin's approach and concern.

From childhood to adulthood, Xia An is destined to be more realistic than her peers. She is willing to love someone deeply, but at the same time, she will not fall to the point where the sky falls apart because of the loss of love.

Ye Jin doesn't know that Xia An is no less emotionally rational than her, and Xia An is even more free and decisive than her when making a good choice.

Xia An glanced briefly at the menu, and ordered a small portion of fresh meat wontons.

The restaurant is a bit noisy, but it doesn't affect the chat.

"Actually, I have something to tell you." After ordering the meal, Xia An told Ye Jin truthfully.

Perhaps it was because of the scandal with Yi Zhen that day, Ye Jin thought about how to explain it later so that Xia An could believe it.

However, what Xia An said next was definitely something that Ye Jin had never thought about.

"Since grandma already knows about us." Xia An paused for a moment, staring at Ye Jin's eyes, and then said, "... Let's get a divorce."

Hearing these two words, Ye Jin's expression froze. Even though they were married in a fake manner, when Xia An said these words, her heart seemed to be blocked by a rock, which was hard to accept.

"No." Ye Jin's first reaction was to refuse, as if the answer hadn't passed through his brain, and he didn't even think about the reason why he answered like this.

No matter whether he wants to face it positively or not, Ye Jin's feelings for Xia An are already above the paper contract, which cannot be denied.So when Xia An filed for divorce, how could she remain indifferent?

The subconscious response is precisely the truest presentation of the inner reaction.

"Why?" Xia An's mood is now calmer than Ye Jin's.

Xia An had been thinking about this matter for a long time, and made enough mental preparations before speaking.But this incident was too sudden for Ye Jin.

"The contract period hasn't come yet, the agreed upon is two years."

Xia An also considered this statement, "At the beginning we faked the marriage to make grandma happy. Now that grandma knows, it's unnecessary. Besides, grandma won't want to see me again."

Ye Jin was silent, and then whispered, "What about that night?"

Thinking of the little guy, Xia An couldn't feel better. She looked at Ye Jin and said, "We shouldn't have a fake marriage from the beginning. We can lie to her for a while, but we can't lie to her forever."

Ye Jin's mood became more and more heavy.

"I know the little guy may not be able to accept it, but she will know sooner or later, we can take our time." Xia An said, holding a spoon in her hand, but didn't take a bite, "Boss Ye..."

Every time Xia An calls her "Mr. Ye", Ye Jin feels piercing in her ears.

"If you're thinking about the little guy, you shouldn't lie to her. She needs a real and complete family, not what we have now." Xia An said, thinking of Ye Jin's notion of unmarriage, and the words from others. What I learned from Ye Jin and Yi was really entangled. After thinking for a while, Xia An took a breath and said, "I know I am an outsider, and I have no right to say something. If you still can't forget her, why don't you forget her?" Get back together? I think that as long as two people have each other in their hearts, everything else is not a big problem. I can tell that she still cares about you..."

Even though she was fully prepared, when Xia An spoke the second half of the sentence, she still felt pain in her heart and felt extremely uncomfortable. She admitted that the person she loved was in love with others, and she didn't know how she had the courage to say it .

It was about He Yizhen. Ye Jin heard Xia An talk more and more and went astray. She was still thinking wildly. She interrupted Xia An, "I have ended with her a long time ago, how can you believe it?"

Xia An remained silent, no matter whether Ye Jin let go of Yi Zhen or not, she didn't want to speculate too much anymore.She came to Ye Jin today, not because she kept cutting and straightening things out, but because she wanted to tell Ye Jin her answer.

Ye Jin looked at Xia An's face for a long time, and said, "You're angry with me."

At this moment, Ye Jin wanted to hear Xia An answer yes.She wanted to see Xia An lose her temper at herself, tell her dissatisfaction in her heart, and play with her temper unreasonably, she didn't care.

But Xia An didn't.

Xia An shook her head solemnly, if she said that in the study last time, there was a possibility of being angry, then now she is facing Ye Jin rationally and dealing with the relationship between them.

"During this period of time, I calmed down and thought about it for a long time. It's really not suitable between us. I was too impulsive before, and I didn't think about it, which troubled you." Xia An held the glass water glass in his hand, obviously The warm water in the cup was already completely cold, but she still held it uneasy in her hand, "Just pretend, just pretend nothing happened."

Xia An felt a little ridiculous, she and Ye Jin had never confirmed their relationship, they were officially together, but now they expressed their feeling of breaking up.

Too impulsive, didn't think about it, just pretend nothing happened...

Xia An's every word hit Ye Jin's heart, causing a dull pain, but Xia An's relieved expression made these words sharper.

Ye Jin stared straight at Xia An, feeling indescribable, she didn't believe it was Xia An's heart, or rather, she didn't want to believe that it was Xia An's heart.

Looking at each other, the two were calm and silent on the surface, but suffering in their hearts.

Pretending to hold on.

Ye Jin stared at Xia An, and said softly, "Don't be angry with me."

There is a feeling of humbleness, a kind of retention in disguise.

When faced with this moment, Ye Jin knew very clearly that she hated Xia An in her heart, maybe she knew it long ago, but she just never faced it directly.

Ye Jin just said such a short sentence, Xia An admitted that she was a little shaken in her heart, but she still became rational, she smiled and said softly, "Since we feel tired when we are together, why do we have to force ourselves?"

Xia An felt that it was not easy for Ye Jin to face her, she could feel it personally.

Ye Jin knew that Xia An's words were not angry words, and felt very tired being with herself, and it became a kind of torture as time went on, Yi Zhen also said the same back then.

Maybe, I am really more suitable for a person.

Ye Jin didn't speak any more, as if she had tacitly agreed.

There was another burst of oppressive silence.

"I will try to pay off the money I owe you as soon as possible." Xia An said.

Still a student, how do you think of a way?Do you want to go to the nightclub to accompany the wine again?Ye Jin recalled the first time she met Xia An, she thought for a moment, and said, "I don't agree to divorce."

The author has something to say: Lao Ye: I am too southern.