That nanny, rotten!

Syndrome, this rare organ-specific autoimmune disease, is a serious illness that can make people give up on themselves. If I hadn't pretended to be asleep and eavesdropped on the conversation between my brother and the attending physician, I would have been kept in the dark.

I didn’t expect confiscating my mobile phone was the biggest mistake of the curly-haired dumb. I only remembered to tell the gangsters in the tennis club and ignored my girlfriends. How can I hold my breath, 'Well~ I have to suspend my studies' I thought.

Not only that, this body is worse than I expected. Since I was admitted to the hospital, the [No Visitation] sign on the door has not been removed, so that Genichiro obviously came, but he can only make cakes for me He tied it to the handle and left sadly.

Human beings have always been greedy creatures. Since the first second they entered this world, they had made a plan to [pack up and leave at any time], then it should be more calm, but why is there such a thing in the chest? The hot and surging emotions, why tears mixed with the thoughts of breaking the embankment blurred the vision...

It's so sad, I can't swallow the pastry that Genichiro made for me specially for me.

Because she has been unable to eat since she was hospitalized, Kumiko's body can't bear it at all if she eats this all at once.

My brother looked at me sadly, and deliberately clamored to eat it for me, but I still wanted to taste it myself, even if it was just a bite... However, this is probably the limit...

"Shi-Sanada-senpai...thank you for the snacks, it's delicious..." Her breathing was disturbed, and she was struggling to even speak.

"Irie, you are so uncomfortable, don't force yourself, you should rest more."

"No! I want to hear the senior's voice..." I carefully adjusted my breathing, fearing that Genichiro would hear something, and after a moment of silence, I continued, "...I still want to go on a date with the senior."

"For that kind of thing, there will be more time in the future..."

"If I haven't even dated, I don't have the confidence to agree to the senior's marriage proposal... I will worry that it is because I am sick that the senior will talk to me and comfort me."

"How is this possible! The colors of love and sympathy may be similar, but pink and purple are always different... Don't you know this better than me, Irie?"

"It's fine on the roof of the hospital. I will sneak out at ten o'clock tonight. You can't miss the appointment~"

"It's very windy, why don't you go in?" Genichiro said as he took my hand and warmed me up with the hot air he exhaled.

"There is a senior here, so it doesn't matter." Today is the full moon again, which is great. I have always liked Genichiro under the moonlight the most.

"I said, body, is it really all right?"

"How many times has this been done? It's only been a few minutes... I told you it's okay?!" Pretending to be angry, he blocked Xianichiro's question, just because the more he cared about things, the more he hated being emphasized. Of course, I know my body better than anyone else, "Isn't it an agreement? I'll spend tonight here with my senior~"

"Well, I know, it's just..." I'm just really worried, right?Worrying that I, who is smiling at him like this now, will vomit blood like that day or even pass out at some point?

"Senior," I hugged him tightly from behind, "I really want to stay by your side forever..."

"...If you don't hug me like this, I won't leave either." Xianichiro was trembling, he lost a lot of weight, and it was all my fault.

"No. Before, you were always close at hand and far away in the sky... I tried my best to chase you, but you kept running away, and I finally caught you..." However, God—hold him tightly Gradually tightening his hand, the feeling that I have been wanting to see but not being able to see these days is terribly painful, "I don't want to leave Genichiro", this emotion can't be conveyed, I can only pray to the gods countless times in my heart, even though my body is like this , but I also thought that it would be nice if I could spend a little more time with him... But, it probably doesn't work anymore... After all, the signs have long been obvious.

I don't have time anymore, I... But I can't cry, absolutely can't cry... Because I know that the pain of losing a loved one is broken, broken, and I can't get rid of it by crying or shouting.The deeper the love, the deeper the wound when it is lost, so I used to be so afraid of falling in love, but now I have the feeling of wanting to believe in falling in love and the person I like—all because of Genichiro.

"Irie, look at this..." The black-faced god handed over a [Graduate Career Application Form], and the moment I saw the contents filled out on it, I almost stopped breathing.

"Dongdong University... Faculty of Medicine...?!" Wait, it's not [Faculty of Law] but [Faculty of Medicine]?How could this be, Genichiro told me that he wanted to become a better prosecutor than his father!Could it be... because of me...?

"This has already been decided, so don't try to persuade me when I enter the river. As a man, the woman I admire may die, so how can I keep silent?"

'It's useless...the doctor said that this disease may not be cured even if I undergo surgery...I'm going to die anyway, why bother to bring my senior's dream to be buried with me? ’ I slid down the roof net and sat down, hugging my knees, and wanted to cry and tell Genichiro the doctor’s cruel diagnosis, but even if I said it, he would probably say [those quack doctors can’t cure you] Well you are because they are so slack! 】Push back, hold back for a few times, finally endured it, and shouted loudly: "Sanada Genichiro is an idiot!!! The biggest idiot in the world is multiplied by N times!!!"

"Really?" The black-faced god leaning on the fence leaned over and nodded at me, "I think, Irie, you are so smart, you must not be happy to be carried back by a fool, then-- I am leaving?"

"Don't, don't..." I opened my arms obediently in a hurry, "Back me, back me!" Then I looked back at him, sighed helplessly, and squatted down.

Genichiro walked very slowly with my back on his back, although he was only going down the stairs of the hospital, but in my heart, every step seemed to be stepping on the tree-lined avenue in the campus of Lihai University Affiliated High School, falling [沙沙][沙沙] The sound is very pleasant, because it is the end of summer, so there must be flower petals swirling and falling beside us...

"Irie, do you trust me?"

"nonsense."

"I will definitely heal you."

"……Um."

"So, you absolutely have to stick to it until that day, as a promise, pull the hook!"

"...childish" said that, but I still pointed my little finger towards Genichiro.

I know very well that not every agreement can be kept, but even if there is a slight possibility of recovery, I want to take a gamble, even if it is for this person who carries me on his back like a treasure, to make him not alone, Want to try hard... Even if the result is a failure, this time, I, Mo Yu, can hold my head up and say: at the end of the second journey of life, happiness has come.

No longer dragged down by the dark fears of the past, healed by Genichiro who shines on me like the sun and gives me warmth... This kind of me, until the last second, will never give up hope!

twilight night

Trick or Treat!

When did the singing of the little ghosts become more pleasant.

"If we don't give candy, we will play a prank?!"

"Ya Die, please don't play tricks." While smiling, he distributed the candies in the basket in his hand to the children one by one, "Happy Halloween, let's eat candy together."

Since then, a year has passed, and my disease was further diagnosed as acute nephritis with left heart failure, rather than pulmonary hemorrhage-nephritis syndrome as originally thought. Although the symptoms of bloody sputum and dyspnea were similar, But it's not so hopelessly terminally ill. Of course, it's not a minor illness like a cold that can be cured after a good agreement.

I still can’t go to school, but it’s not a big loss for me. Anyway, I’ve already got my doctor’s degree, and it’s no different to pass the time in the hospital. Anyway, Yui Maki, Li Haibing All the boys from the Imperial Tennis Club often came to visit me, and under Yukimura's words and deeds, I learned how to get along with the children in the hospital.

As for my elder brother, after leading the information engineering team of Dongda University to win the first prize in the [Great Kanto Computer Contest], he passed all the way and represented Japan in the [Global College Student Computer Contest]. , was favored by the organizer Karlsruhe Institute of Technology in Germany, and included in the two-year elite group training program, but occasionally showed his face in the video call and still did not see signs of looking for a girlfriend. It made my parents and I a little bit worried: Could there really be something between him and Brother Zhongdao?

And after last summer's drama department's sympathy performance in the orphanage was a great success, Ms. Suzuki was full of confidence, so she took the initiative to invite Ying to come to my place - the Pediatrics Department of Dongda Affiliated Hospital for a second performance in time for Halloween. After the performance, Yui and Maki flashed faster than the Flash, leaving only me in makeup as a witch and a monster and Genichiro to distribute candy to the children.

In order to allow children who are hospitalized and have allergies to eat, these are all candies made by the Emperor himself under the guidance of the hospital staff, and the children are as excited as expected, but there is one question--

I turned to where the black-faced god was, worried