I really want to be a good person!

Nian Zhifei went downstairs in a daze, hid in the car, shook for a while before struggling to step on the accelerator, and quickly fled Yun Xiangguang's house.

He gasped heavily, trembling uncontrollably as if suffering from a cold, but the accelerator under his feet was getting tighter and tighter.However, he couldn't tell the direction at all, he just numbly followed the guidance of the green light all the way forward.

"Why?...Why!" Nian Zhifei felt that he was going crazy, his brain seemed to explode, and countless "why" came out from the bottom of his heart, making him go from talking to himself cautiously to roaring uncontrollably .

"Why didn't you find me?...Why did you find someone to replace me?...He is fake! He is not Yun Xiangguang, I am...I am...Why? What's wrong with me? Why don't you want me? Why?!"

The red light turned green, but the vehicle in front started a little slower.

Nian Zhifei thumped the horn desperately, and roared loudly: "Drive! Drive with the green light!"

As soon as he crossed the intersection, he yanked the steering wheel and made a dangerous drift, passing in front of the vehicle in front.

"Squeak!" The sound of wheels rubbing against the ground came from behind, and a male voice yelled loudly: "Fuck your mother! Hurry up and reincarnate!"

"I don't have a mother!" Nian Zhifei roared without looking back, and stepped on the gas pedal to the end.He didn't know where he was going, he only knew that the farther away from Yun Xiangguang's house the better, as if this would make him farther away from pain.

"Why...why..." Nian Zhifei repeated over and over again, unable to cry or laugh even if he wanted to.There seemed to be a boulder choked in his chest, which made him unable to swallow or spit out, and he was almost suffocated.

Then, Nian Zhifei realized that maybe drinking some wine would be better.So he stopped at the door of a convenience store and wiped out the alcohol on the price.

Xu Shi noticed that his expression was wrong, and the cashier kindly reminded him when he checked out: "Sir, you can't drink while driving. This is to protect the safety of others, and it is also for your own good."

Nian Zhifei nodded numbly, and went out carrying a large amount of alcohol.

Haicheng is surrounded by the sea, and Nian Zhifei was very close to the beach on this fast drive, so he simply drove the car to the beach, and then he couldn't wait to open a can of beer and pour it down.

After drinking two cans of beer, he roared until his hoarse voice recovered slightly.Nian Zhifei thumped his forehead hard, trying to sort out his thoughts.

"Xiang Guang, Yun Xiangguang...so my surname is not Xiang, but Yun, which is a nickname... I have a sister, I have parents, and my family members are also suitable... Yanfeng Street, I live there too... ...More than 20 years ago, the time basically coincided...It can't be such a coincidence! There can't be such a coincidence in this world...How could the child who disappeared for half a year be found in the orphanage? How is it possible?!...Yun Xiangguang and They don't look alike at all!... He doesn't have a mango allergy, but I do..."

Nian Zhifei tugged at her hair vigorously, restraining the trembling of her whole body.All kinds of clues point to an answer, which is obvious, but Nian Zhifei can't accept it.

"...So I can't find their records in the missing persons archives, not because they are not registered, but they have... already found another Yun Xiangguang to replace me...Am I not good? I don't Am I obedient? Do I make you feel troublesome and annoying? Why? Why?! Why did you give up looking for me so easily? Why are you unwilling to even register? Why do you even have to give my name to someone else?... You know I don't know what happened to me..."

Nian Zhifei still couldn't cry, he could only roar meaninglessly at the sea like a madman.It wasn't until his throat was hoarse and exhausted that he staggered and sat on the beach, staring blankly at the sea.

After being marked by Qu Jiang, Long Xinghe was in a daze for a long time.I feel that my spirit is on the verge of falling, as if a wind bottle that has been placed on the edge by the wrong hand can fall into pieces on the ground at any time.The heat period after being marked is very difficult, twice as difficult as before, like being crushed back and forth by a giant truck.

He frantically searched the Internet for "how to get through estrus after being marked", "what to do when pheromone exhaustion is too painful during estrus", "what can be used instead of Alpha pheromone to soothe during estrus"...

Then, all the answers told him: You need the Alpha who marked you, you need the genuine Alpha pheromone to appease.

However, this is simply impossible.Qu Jiang likes women, and marking him is just to torture him.

When in heat, the Omega instinctively demands his Alpha, for pheromone reassurance, for physical comfort, and more.Even an Omega like Long Xinghe who failed to differentiate is no exception.However, even though he tried his best to cooperate with Qu Jiang's humiliation and teasing, he still got nothing in the end.This kind of frustration and shame made him feel ashamed to cry. Later, he learned not to beg for anything, but to use artificial pheromones and "mango ice" to survive the estrus period.

When he was awake briefly, he saw Qu Jiang appearing in front of him.Long Xinghe didn't dare to count on his pheromones to appease him, he was afraid that he would ridicule and humiliate him for showing his ugly face.He tried to hide, but couldn't move at all.So I can only beg, even if I know that begging is useless, there is no other way.

"No matter what you want to do, let me slow down first, please..."

Long Xinghe didn't know that he passed out while injecting the synthetic pheromone, and the needle was still in the blood vessel.If Qu Jiang hadn't discovered it in time, he might have died due to excessive blood loss.

The poor bird is in his arms, but the hunter does not kill it.

After that time, Qu Jiang consciously relaxed his control.

Those who are struggling in the dark will desperately search for a little light as long as they have a breath.Long Xinghe is no exception.He thought that maybe he could find his biological parents.He knew that it was impossible to recognize them, and Qu Jiang would never allow it.But, at least he can meet them through the Internet, see what they are doing, and will he occasionally mention the lost son...

His name is Xiang Guang, or Xiang Guang, or Xiang Guang, etc.; he lives in Yanfeng Street, Nan Province; both parents have an older sister; he was three to five years old when he got lost.These clues are the only ones that Long Xinghe still remembers, they are the ones that he dare not forget for more than ten years, and they are the only thoughts he has lived till now.

At that time, Long Xinghe was still too young, he still didn't understand that "Nianxiang" was just a mirror image, and he couldn't investigate whether it was true or not.

—— There is no similar record in the country C missing persons archives.

What does it feel like to be abandoned by your own biological parents?

— as if falling.

From the jungle of country T to the sea city of country C, Long Xinghe has been struggling in hell almost all the time. Finding his biological parents is the only rope that can save him.Now, the rope is broken.

Qu Jiang, who had been watching the whole incident from the sidelines, even came to comfort Long Xinghe himself when he learned that Long Xinghe's search failed.He embraced Long Xinghe's shoulders affectionately, like a real father and son.

"Xinghe, what's wrong with being my son of Qujiang? As long as you are obedient, we can be a good father and son. Money, power, fame, beauty... I can give you whatever you want. "

Long Xinghe turned a deaf ear to it, and it took a long time to reply wearily: "...I have no name, no identity, no parents, and no children. I don't even own my life, so what do you want?"

Nian Zhifei is still fresh in his memory. Countless nights, he opened his mouth and tried to call out a certain name to help him resist the pain, but he searched his guts and found that there was never such a person.

Sometimes, he was in so much pain that he went crazy, and he couldn't help but fantasize: Would it be better to have an Alpha by his side?If Qu Jiang can't do it, so can Qu Tianjiao, anyone can do it.

Then, he would wake up and slap himself, calling himself cowardly and shameless, it was disgusting.

The cold night was long, and he woke up from severe pain, his bedding and clothes were soaked in cold sweat.It was dark all around, quiet as if in a tomb.

It's not loneliness, it's despair.

"...I'm not good anywhere."

The past happened one after another, as if a heavy iron whip broke Nian Zhifei's spine, causing him to collapse instantly.

"I kill people, I do drugs, I fail to divide, I'm a monster...marked, controlled, turned into another person...and another person, I lost all identification, I'm stupid I'm useless...I have nowhere good……"

"Your Majesty asked me to patrol the mountains, the southern mountains and the northern mountains..."

In the dead of night and heavy rain, Chen Xudong and his colleague Xiao Huang came out to patrol in a police car singing songs.After graduation, Chen Xudong was transferred to the Wenhu Sub-bureau as a security policeman. Nightly car patrols were part of his job.The law and order of Wenhu Lake has always been good. Generally speaking, accidents rarely happen in this kind of patrol work.

But today, apparently, is an exception.

"Oh shit! Who the hell sits by the beach at night? It's raining so much..." The two patrolled the beach all the way according to the prescribed route, and Xiao Huang, who was in charge of driving, was startled by a figure on the beach and screamed repeatedly. "Is it a human or a ghost?"

"I'll go down and have a look." Chen Xudong, who was sitting in the passenger seat, quickly loosened his seat belt, "Don't try to commit suicide."

With that said, he put on his raincoat and took an umbrella, and got out of the car.

Just two steps away, Chen Xudong immediately noticed the off-road vehicle parked beside him.The car was not turned off, and even the door was open.He casually scanned the license plate number with the taillights, and he immediately frowned.

"Nianzai's car?" He hurriedly turned his head to look at the figure by the sea, and yelled loudly while speeding up his pace. "Nianzai? Is it you, Nianzai!"

Nian Zhifei, who had been in a daze at the beach for hours, turned around in a daze, and saw Chen Xudong running towards him with an anxious expression on his face.

Seeing that it was indeed Nian Zhifei sitting by the sea, Chen Xudong breathed a sigh of relief.Immediately afterwards, he yelled angrily and dragged the person up.

"What are you doing? It's raining here in the middle of the night?!"

Only then did Nian Zhifei look up at the pitch-black sky again, and said weakly, "It's raining?...Oh..."

Noticing that Nian Zhifei was not in the right state, Chen Xudong immediately raised his hand to press his forehead, and it was really hot to the touch. "You have a fever, come with me!"

Pushing Nian Zhifei into the back row of the police car, Chen Xudong also got in and hurriedly urged Xiao Huang: "Drive! Go back to the police station! Turn on the heater, the biggest! Hurry up!" He stretched out his hand to relieve Nian Zhifei Buttons on the body.

"Hey! Old Chen, isn't this good?" Xiao Huang glanced at the rearview mirror and reminded Chen Xudong in a low voice.

The rescued suicide man was stunned now, and when he realized it, he should sue Chen Xudong for molestation.

"That's bad!" Chen Xudong casually took off Nian Zhifei's drenched shirt and threw it aside, then grabbed the large towel blanket on the car and wiped his hair. "This is my youngest boy! Hurry up! He's running a fever!"

It wasn't until Chen Xudong wrapped Nian Zhifei with a towel blanket that Xiao Huang could see Nian Zhifei's appearance clearly, and then he yelled loudly again. "Fuck! What a year! Hey God, Nian God! What are you doing in the middle of the night? Cultivating immortals? Transcending tribulations?... Or are you broken in love?"

Chen Xudong's colleague is a new police officer who just joined the job this year, but he is familiar with the great achievements of his senior year, Nian Zhifei.The policemen who were in the same class as Nian Zhifei affectionately called him "Nian Zai", but of course juniors would not dare to call him that, so everyone unanimously agreed to call him "Nian God".

"Why are you talking so much nonsense? Drive! Watch the road!" But before Nian Zhifei could answer, Chen Xudong had already shouted loudly.

But when Xiao Huang resentfully turned his attention back to the road, Chen Xudong also asked in a low voice: "Nianzai, what's the matter?"

Nian Zhifei took a breath with his whole body trembling, and shook his head slowly.

"Still cold?" Seeing that even the blades of the air conditioner were aimed at Nian Zhifei, Chen Xudong had no choice but to reach out and hug Nian Zhifei tightly into his arms.

"Didn't you go to celebrate Yun Xiangguang's birthday today? What happened?" He whispered into Nian Zhifei's ear. "Did Yun Xiangguang bully you?...or Qi Yaohui?"

Nian Zhifei's eyelashes trembled twice. After a while, he closed his eyes and leaned into Chen Xudong's arms exhausted.

Chen Xudong had never seen Nian Zhifei so sluggish, and a burst of anger surged in his heart.He glanced at Xiao Huang with some scruples, gritted his teeth, suppressed his anger temporarily, and only touched Nian Zhifei's hot cheek in distress.

Three or ten minutes later, when the police car stopped at the gate of the Wenhu Sub-bureau, Nian Zhifei was already numb from alcohol and a high fever.Seeing that Nian Zhifei couldn't leave, Chen Xudong picked him up without thinking and rushed into the police station.

"Hot water! Pour me a cup of hot water! Does anyone have antipyretics?" Facing the surprised eyes of his colleagues, Chen Xudong put Nian Zhifei in his seat, and hurriedly raised his voice to seek foreign help.

"Feifei? Isn't this Feifei, Director Liu's nephew?" In Liu Mingwei's "nest", many old policemen who had discussed with Nian Zhifei soon recognized Nian Zhifei and quickly brought him Hot water and fever reducers.

"Feifei, why are you drenched? It's so late, you haven't come home yet?"

The old policemen who have been with Bureau Liu for many years know that this year Zhifei said that he is the nephew of Bureau Liu, but in fact he is treated as a son by Bureau Liu.Since childhood, the family education has been strict, and he is still hanging out at [-] o'clock in the morning. Director Liu will definitely not be happy.

"Yes! Feifei, does Uncle Liu know what you look like?" Another old policeman followed suit, even taking out his mobile phone.

"Don't, don't! It's too late, let's talk to Director Liu tomorrow." Seeing this, several colleagues hurriedly stopped him.

Really angered Director Liu, shouldn't it be true that beating a child on a rainy day means being idle when you are idle?

Chen Xudong didn't care about the quarrel of several colleagues for a while, he took the antipyretic medicine and hot water and brought them to Nian Zhifei's lips. "Come on, youngster, take the medicine first."

Nian Zhifei opened his mouth blankly to swallow the pills, then obediently lowered his head to drink water, obediently like an artificial intelligence that only knows how to follow orders.

"Cough cough...cough cough..." Xu Shi drank too fast, Nian Zhifei suddenly choked and coughed earth-shatteringly.

"Slow down! Don't worry, slow down!" Chen Xudong hurriedly got up to help him.

"Brother..." Nian Zhifei finally coughed up tears because of these coughs, he raised his head in a daze, grabbed Chen Xudong's lapel tightly, and yelled again. "Brother..."

"Nianzai, what's the matter with you?" Chen Xudong frowned, looking at him with anxiety and distress.

"...Brother..." Nian Zhifei's voice trembled, and he suddenly threw himself into Chen Xudong's arms, wailing loudly.