I really want to be a good person!

After leaving the team, Nian Zhifei and Yun Xiangqing didn't go to any restaurant, but went to a nearby free park.

Nian Zhifei supported Yun Xiangqing to sit down on a bench, while Lin Qingce went to a nearby fast food restaurant to order for them, leaving room for the two siblings to chat.

Sitting among the lush trees, the gentle breeze brought the fragrance of the grass, and the mood of both of them gradually relaxed.

Yun Xiangqing turned sideways and stared at Nian Zhifei without blinking, and carefully traced his facial features, as if trying to find a trace of familiar details from this face.

However, no, really nothing.

This is a completely different face from "Cloud to Light".Yun Xiangqing still remembered "Yun Xiangguang" in the photo. His appearance resembled that of his father, handsome, wild, and breathtaking, like an extremely dangerous weapon.But Nian Zhifei in front of him has a beautiful appearance and a soft and cute temperament, which makes people feel soft when they see him.

How could they be the same person?How much suffering did you go through?Yun Xiangqing couldn't help feeling palpitations.

Time passed by, and Nian Zhifei was the first to lose in the silence, and couldn't help but whisper: "I'm sorry... I can only face you like this... So, if..."

——If you can't accept it, I think I can accept it.

Before Nian Zhifei could finish speaking, Yun Xiangqing covered his mouth.She choked with sobs and shook her head, and asked softly: "Is it Xiaoguang's birthday?... You were very wrong that day, but I didn't think so much.... Was it that day?"

After all, they were brothers and sisters connected by blood. Even if Yun Xiangqing didn't finish speaking, Nian Zhifei understood.He was silent for a while, closed his eyes and nodded slightly.

Yun Xiangqing shuddered and sobbed loudly, and said tearfully, "Little brother, that day is your birthday!"

The mother regards Xiaoguang as her own son.So, from the day she hugged Xiaoguang back, everything that originally belonged to "Yun Xiangguang", his name, his birthday, his room, his toys, his relatives, etc., etc., belonged to him up.

Nian Zhifei lowered his eyes and smiled wryly. "I found out later."

"Why didn't you say it?" Yun Xiangqing's tears rolled down.

"...I once thought about telling you, but... I have lost all proof. I am not sure that you will believe me." Nian Zhifei replied in a low voice.

Unexpectedly, Yun Xiangqing only shook her head when she heard this. "That's not a reason! Is it because of Xiaoguang, or because of us?"

Nian Zhifei was tongue-tied, and after a while, he looked away, let go, and smiled self-deprecatingly. "Things have passed, and things are different. I am no longer a 'cloud to light', and it is impossible to become a 'cloud to light' again. Does it matter whether I say it or not? Is there a difference?"

"Yes!" Yun Xiangqing choked up and replied firmly. "Maybe for mom, Xiaoguang is Yun Xiangguang. But for me, no! For Yaohui, no! For you, it shouldn't be! So, why don't you say it?"

Nian Zhifei choked suddenly.

"Why?" Yun Xiangqing repeated stubbornly.

Nian Zhifei looked down at his hands, and laughed at himself again. "...Because I'm not good enough, far from enough."

The name flashed across Yun Xiangqing's heart in an instant.

Last night, Yun Xiangqing, Qi Zhendong, Qi Yaohui and his son closed the door and chatted a lot about the younger brother, about Qujiang, and about Long Xinghe.

"Little brother," Yun Xiangqing couldn't help but leaned over and hugged him tightly, "It's not your fault, really not."

"I know." Nian Zhifei responded quickly, but the bitterness in his eyes couldn't be erased at all.

Nian Zhifei hugged Yun Xiangqing and took two deep breaths, then tried to put on a smile, and gently pushed her away. "Stop talking about these unhappy things," his eyes fell on Yun Xiangqing's stomach, and he changed the subject naturally. "How many months? Boys and girls? Can you move?"

Every mother in this world who mentions her child can't help but talk endlessly, and Yun Xiangqing is obviously no exception.However, as soon as a little tenderness appeared in her eyes, an alarm sounded in her heart.

"Little brother!" In an instant, her fingers clasped the back of Nian Zhifei's hand firmly, and she let out a shrill scream.

Nian Zhifei was startled by the sound, and immediately stared at Yun Xiangqing in bewilderment.

Yun Xiangqing was more flustered and terrified than Nian Zhifei, her eyes filled with tears instantly, and she asked in disbelief, "Are you refusing to recognize us?"

"I didn't!" Nian Zhifei shook his head hastily.

Family affection is something he has longed for for two lifetimes, why would he refuse to recognize them?

"Then come home with me!" Yun Xiangqing said loudly.

"...go home?" Nian Zhifei smiled wryly and asked softly. "What to do?...see cloud...see mother? Tell her that you have misidentified your son for more than 20 years. I am your son. I was not found and died outside. Now there is only one orphan left. The soul, maybe because the grievances persist, so the dead body is attached to someone else? Will she accept it? Will she trust me? Or will she be afraid of me?... Sister Qing, are you not afraid of me?"

Yun Xiangqing sobbed and shook her head desperately. "Little brother, it's my sister who is sorry for you. My sister should insist..."

Nian Zhifei was also extremely tired and shook his head slightly, and replied softly: "I can understand."

"I have been under the general's command for more than ten years, and I have always wanted to come back to you, but I have no choice. I don't have an ID card and I can't read and write. It is impossible for me to come back through normal channels. If it is a smuggled immigration, I can't give you any money. .I'm still addicted to drugs, I don't know...don't know..."

——I don’t know if you will despise me.

"Then, I met Qu Jiang. He was able to take me back to country C on the condition that he would be his son's substitute. ... This condition is really generous."

Speaking of this, Nian Zhifei couldn't help laughing at himself.But soon, his expression turned into disgust, deep disgust.To Qujiang, but also to myself.

"I understand that if I know too much, I might be silenced. But I really can't care about that much anymore. I want to go home. That is the only belief that supports me to live....I am so naive! I didn't think that his so-called "substitute" turned me into Long Xinghe.... Then, I got deeper and deeper into this quagmire, and many things happened in the middle. I knew that Qu Jiang would definitely not let me go Yes. At first I didn’t dare to look for you, I was afraid that Qujiang would use you to blackmail me; later, I looked for you like crazy, because if I didn’t do anything else, I would really go crazy.  … As a result I didn't find anything..."

"Little brother!"

"I know I know!"

Yun Xiangqing was anxious to explain, but Nian Zhifei interrupted her even more anxiously.

"Yaohui explained everything to me, I understand.... Sister Qing, it's all over. But, it's all over."

Nian Zhifei really didn't want to tear open the wound that had already healed and apply medicine again, just because that was the correct way to apply medicine.

- That's not it, that's secondary damage.

In the hospital last night, Nian Zhifei could have chosen to stay.Just, what are you doing here?Meet Yun Xiangqing?Cry with her?Just like those family-finding shows?

There was a time when Long Xinghe liked watching family-hunting programs on TV very much, almost every time he watched them with great interest.But he only likes to watch the process of the previous column team working hard to help the parties find clues to their relatives. He always feels uncomfortable when the relatives hug each other and cry bitterly after the reunion, and tell each other how they miss and the past.Often before both parties started to cry, he would unbearably change the channel.

——If it was me, what can I tell my family?

At that time, Long Xinghe often asked himself this question.Then I found it hard to tell.Everything he experienced was hard to say, and it became more and more difficult to say.

But it was precisely because of this that when he couldn't find his information on the missing persons website, he could comfort himself: This is what it should be, no one would want to be associated with the underworld, murderers, and drug addicts.It's not about giving up, it's just a... rational and correct choice.Only by convincing himself in this way can he restrain himself and not turn the longing and longing for more than ten years into hatred that can swallow everything.

Later, he became Nian Zhifei, and he finally found his family.Only then did he realize that there was no room for him in the family.

- I can understand.

Dreaming back at midnight, Nian Zhifei said this to himself over and over again.

I understand, I really understand.Not everyone in this world is Qi Yaohui, knowing that it is a dead end full of thorns, he insists on breaking through.Even if he could only find a pile of bones to leave him with endless pain, he would never give up.Most people are not like him, and most people will instinctively choose to seek good luck and avoid bad luck.If it hurts too much, you will naturally let go; if it is too difficult, you will naturally give up.If the son is lost and cannot accept it, then find a substitute to comfort him for the rest of his life.Otherwise, what else can we do?People always have to live, and they can't pass this hurdle all their lives.

It's okay, I can understand, but only understand.

Yun Xiangqing burst into tears, and explained in a choked up voice: "Little brother, after you lost her, my mother almost went crazy. She brought Xiaoguang back, and all of us knew it was wrong. If she is separated from Xiaoguang, she will not survive! Do you understand?"

"I understand." Nian Zhifei smiled and wiped away Yun Xiangqing's tears, "This incident is a nightmare for all of us. Perhaps, I did resent you once. When I realized Xiaoguang's existence, It's even more impossible not to hate. But... Xiaoguang is very good."

He has a complete life and a bright future, but I am not sure that I can be a "Yun Xiangguang" that will satisfy all of you, and I dare not challenge the feelings that Yun Xiangguang has accumulated with you for so many years And tacit understanding.

"That's not the case, little brother!" Yun Xiangqing shook her head desperately, "This is not a multiple-choice question, we will choose whoever is better. You are Yun Xiangguang!"

"But I'm not anymore." Nian Zhifei looked at the green shade in front of him, full of helplessness. "I never thought of surviving....I have killed people, laundered money, and abused drugs for many years after my pheromones were exhausted. Later, even Xiang Nan... even one of my former brothers died. So I set up a scheme to hide the 20 billion black money from those international criminal groups. If Qu Jiang couldn't pay the money, he could only pay with his life. … …no regrets anymore, things are settled, I have no regrets anymore.

"But somehow, by mistake, I survived in Nian Zhifei's body again. I knew I should tell my grandma that I was not his grandson, and I didn't deserve to be her grandson. But...waking up in the hospital, grandma Looking at my eyes... I was dumbfounded. In the end, I lied to her for so many years.

"Sister Qing, let me continue to lie. Grandma and Uncle Liu are very kind to me. And my classmates and colleagues, they have never found out, except...except Yaohui. I can be this 'Nian Zhifei', I, I...I don't want to be someone else anymore."

Yun Xiangqing kept sobbing, shaking all over while crying, her eyes were red and swollen.She understood, the little brother spoke in a mess, and even some words didn't convey the meaning, but she still understood."Yun Xiangguang" from the previous life is dead, and now in front of her eyes is the newly born "Nian Zhifei".

"Yun Xiangguang" in the previous life had nothing and never had a good day. He didn't die without regrets, but he was completely desperate and had no more worries.But now Nian Zhifei, he has relatives, friends, career, and lover, he has everything, and he will not give up anything, even for the three words "Yun Xiangguang".

The mother took Xiaoguang back from the orphanage in order to keep herself alive, and all of them acquiesced in her choice in order to keep the mother alive.Then, they also extravagantly hope that the little brother can understand, understand, and accept.

The younger brother is a good boy, he can understand, understand, and accept.He accepted the existence of another Yun Xiangguang; he also accepted that his mother begged him to break up with Qi Yaohui for Yun Xiangguang; he accepted the family affection he had longed for for two lifetimes, and she and his mother mistakenly paid another Yun Xiangguang.

And now, it's finally their turn to understand, be considerate and accept.Accepting the younger brother's rebirth from the body of "Nian Zhifei", he was like a chick whose shell had broken out. The first thing he saw was not them, but Grandma Nian.It wasn't them who gave him family affection, but Grandma Nian.They chose a better path for themselves back then, and now, my younger brother also wants to choose a better path for himself.

——They should understand, they can only understand!

"A lie repeated a thousand times becomes the truth! What's more, it's a lie that has been repeated for more than 20 years!"

Yun Xiangqing suddenly thought of what Qi Yaohui said last night, Yaohui was right.He was right all along.Over the past 20 years, they have taken care of the feelings of the living, but never cared about the feelings of the "dead".Now that the "dead man" has come back from the dead, it is only natural that he refuses to return to the home that no longer has his place.

"Little brother, forgive sister, forgive me..." Yun Xiangqing almost used all her strength to hold Nian Zhifei's hand tightly.It seemed that as long as she let go, Nian Zhifei would disappear from her eyes again, completely, just like it had been for more than 20 years. "My sister listens to you, I just ask you not to ignore her. After so many years, my sister really misses you..."

Nian Zhifei's eyes warmed slightly, and he subconsciously avoided the word "forgive", and only responded softly: "I miss my sister very much too. Don't cry, pregnant women can't cry."

But Yun Xiangqing just hugged Nian Zhifei desperately and shook her head, crying even louder.