Pilot

It rained the day Shi Ye came home from the hospital, so it wasn't so hot anymore.

Niu Xiaojun came to pick him up.Shi Ye kept silent on the road, just staring at the raindrops on the car window in a daze, his eyebrows furrowed slightly.Niu Xiaojun sized him up several times, but he couldn't tell whether this person was happy or unhappy.

Shi Ye always seemed unhappy in front of others.

"Brother Ce asked me to discuss it with you," Niu Xiaojun tried his best to force out that understated tone, "What are you talking about, isn't this a lead singer? In terms of etiquette, we should have a meal together. This intoxication and that matter are making trouble... …It’s finally a good thing now, so it’s time to celebrate.”

He originally thought that Shi Ye would just ignore him and pretend not to hear, but in the next second he heard Shi Ye say: "Okay."

"what?"

Shi Ye raised his eyebrows: "Ah what?"

"No, no, no..." Niu Xiaojun was so startled that he almost turned on the wrong turn signal, and after observing Shi Ye's expression, he asked cautiously, "I said you didn't want to go, and I planned to say that you couldn't go because you were uncomfortable... ..."

"Don't you say that the more you care about it, the more you avoid it," Shi Ye said in a flat tone, "It's the same now anyway, whether or not a new lead singer comes. I don't care who Sheng Xia is, it's just cooperation."

The car stopped for a moment and they were stranded at a red light.

Probably because the rain outside the window and the gloomy clouds in the sky would affect his mood, Niu Xiaojun felt sad all of a sudden.He has always been a person with good stress resistance, and he is considered optimistic, but the recent series of events really made him uncomfortable.

"The band is actually a family, Mr. Shi, you know very well that you are not colleagues, not just for cooperation." He said in a more serious tone, "You can easily pick it up and put it down, because you have the capital to do that. You are solo There will also be endless work... But have you never thought about Zhong Zheng and Xiao Xiang? When you were struggling at the beginning, Zhong Zheng took out all the tuition fees and rented a recording studio for Shi Ye. And Xiao Xiang , if she didn't go on tour with us that year, she would have married that Fujian local tycoon long ago and enjoyed a happy life, why is she spending time with you now?"

Green light.

Before Niu Xiaojun started the car, he said one last sentence: "Master Shi, you can't think about the problem so one-sidedly, you still have to consider everyone." He was holding his breath, and his words were very emotional.It's not that he is not afraid of Shi Ye, but he has held back these words for too long, so he just waited to have a good chat with Shi Ye.

But after Shi Ye finished listening, he didn't respond. Instead, he leaned over and turned on the car music.The first song that jumped out was the title song "Breathing Cloud" in Aviator's third album.Shi Ye frowned, nodded, and cut directly to the next song.

The next one, the next one, and the next one are still the pilot's song.

Shi Ye lost his patience, and simply turned on the Bluetooth, connected to his mobile phone, clicked on a playlist that he had compiled before, and started to play randomly.During the whole process, he left Niu Xiaojun alone without saying a word.

The random one was LinkinPark's "OneMoreLight", a song neither new nor old.

Shi Ye tapped the time subconsciously with his fingers, while repeating the lyrics in his heart, he suddenly said: "Listen to the lyrics - Who care if one more light goes out, who cares if a light goes out?"

Niu Xiaojun didn't answer, pretending to be driving seriously.

"I used to think that making myself happy is a great skill. If I care too much about what others think of me, what kind of rock and roll will I play?" Shi Ye turned his face out of the window, "You know, we have all devoted ourselves to burning our days , burning dreams, burning enthusiasm. I used to think that music is the best way to express myself. I am full of enthusiasm and dedicate myself to writing every song, but I am intoxicated by this..."

Niu Xiaojun couldn't hold back his words of persuasion: "Master Shi, that has nothing to do with you."

"Boren died because of me, is that what you said?" Shi Ye chuckled, "He tried so hard to destroy the band and me even if he killed himself, can you really say that it has nothing to do with me? "

"He's just...jealous!" Niu Xiaojun was emotional, "I'm jealous of your talent, jealous of everyone admiring you, jealous of fans liking you! It's not your fault, it's because you are not suitable to be a band together, two strong people get together , in the end it was either death or injury..."

"But the other person is gone. His life, and the possibility of the future... are gone." Shi Ye said softly, "He actually called me for help, and I had the opportunity to give him a hand... and The people I play music with play themselves to this end, do you think, can I forgive myself?"

Niu Xiaojun was silent for a long time.

"I don't know what to say." Niu Xiaojun sighed, "But we still have to move forward."

"I know, but this matter will never pass, you know very well, Bull Demon King." Shi Ye twitched the corner of his mouth, "I just... I don't know anymore."

Niu Xiaojun paused for a moment, then sighed softly: "I know, we are all responsible. This matter... well, from now on, I don't want the band to be rich and powerful, nor do I want to talk about ideals and ambitions, I just hope that everyone can play happily together Band, make the songs you like, you are all in good health, can eat and sleep. Also, it would be best if the band can... be harmonious."

He emphasized the word harmony.

"I won't bully him." Changing the subject, Shi Ye's face remained indifferent, "I said I would treat him as a band member, so I wouldn't look at him with too much emotion."

If he said this, he would definitely do what he said, and Niu Xiaojun felt relieved now.But I still couldn't hold back my curiosity, and asked, "I knew you before? Could there be a festival?"

Seems like a weird relationship.

Shi Ye had come out with a cigarette in his mouth, but after hearing this, he paused and said, "I know him. When I met him, I still liked girls."

"Huh?" Niu Xiaojun recalled Shi Ye's sudden change in the past, "That should be... four years ago, right? I remember the year when Shen Zui first started taking drugs?"

"Well," Shi Ye lit up his cigarette, "Didn't I always quarrel with Shen Zui at that time? Do you remember that I went on a trip alone before the tour? I happened to be in Shangri-La at that time, and Sister Xie Hong called me to tell me I'm going to Dali to save the field."

"Sister Xie Hong! That's right! Sister Xie Hong went to Dali to open a bar..." Niu Xiaojun was startled, and suddenly remembered something, "God! Midsummer is from Dali!! That's when you met?! "

"Yes." Shi Ye looked very plain, "He was still young at that time."

"..." Niu Xiaojun calculated how old Sheng Xia was back then, and fell silent, "You really dare to play, sir."

They ran into another red light.

"What am I playing? He's pretty much playing with me." Shi Ye didn't bother to say any more, and turned his head out of the window again.This was unbearable, Shi Ye saw a familiar figure through the car window——

The rain outside is actually not too heavy, but you will still get wet without an umbrella.In Shi Ye's sight, Sheng Xia was wearing a hooded gray sweater, carrying a backpack, wearing earphones and lowering her head in a daze, waiting to cross the road.

He didn't open an umbrella, he just pulled up his clothes and hat, his expression was still calm, as if he couldn't feel the crowds around him or the rain falling on him, he just folded his hands and bowed his head to listen to the music, his brows were still slightly frowned.

Standing there, Sheng Xia was obviously alone, but it seemed that he stood out of a world of his own, clearly separating others from the outside.

After a while the sidewalk light turned green.Everyone else was walking forward, only Sheng Xia stood there with his head down, foolishly.

Shi Ye stared at Sheng Xia.Seeing his fingers slowly closing unconsciously, and seeing the green light on the sidewalk turn into a red light, Sheng Xia was still standing there in a daze.

After being able to pass, Niu Xiaojun started the car and crossed the intersection, quickly leaving that figure behind.

Shi Ye didn't look back, he forced himself to listen to what Niu Xiaojun had to say.

Niu Xiaojun said that he would try to win the music festival in the second half of the year, and that he wanted to go to Zhong Zheng’s hotpot restaurant to have a good meal at night, and that he would play in a band happily in the future, everything will be successful, like a family... ...Niu Xiaojun can keep talking even if no one pays attention, it has always been like this.

But Shi Ye didn't make it past two intersections.When Niu Xiaojun was about to turn the corner, he said in a daze, "Stop."

After saying it, he was taken aback by himself.

Niu Xiaojun was taken aback: "Huh?"

"Stop the car." Shi Ye avoided his impatience and ordered in a cold voice, "Give me an umbrella."

During his reign, everyone in the band was afraid of Shi Ye, especially when he was serious.Niu Xiaojun found the parking space next to him, parked the car suspiciously, and handed him the umbrella: "Where are you going? What treasure did you see?"

Shi Ye shook his head: "You go first, I will go back by myself."

After getting out of the car, the damp and cold air outside rushed over, clearing his mind for a moment, so Shi Ye began to hesitate, began to hesitate.

But the voice in my heart was too loud, and kept clamoring for him to hurry up... run over, immediately, right now.

Shi Ye hated being coerced by emotions, so he didn't run away, he tried not to let himself be so fast and eager.

But I couldn't control it... my pace was getting faster and faster, and the more I walked, the more I felt like I was running for my life.

Soon Shi Ye crossed this street, passed through the crowds of rainy days, umbrellas of various colors, and rushed to the previous intersection.

He even forgot to open an umbrella, and he suddenly found out when he walked under the traffic light. At this moment, his hair was already dripping wet, and the raindrops dripped on his face, and a few drops of water slid down his cheeks, like tears.

Shi Ye raised his head and looked around blankly, only to find that he could no longer find Sheng Xia.