golden moonlight

The hawthorn grove in Shi Xiaozha's house became a paradise for Sui Tan.

He didn't go to school every day, and after leaving old man Geng's house, he went directly to the hillside planted with hawthorn trees. Shi Xiaozhang was probably already waiting for him there.Shi Xiaozhao gets up very early every day, and sometimes he has to sell hawthorns and homemade hawthorn candies in the market. Every time Sui Tan looks at his thin body, it is hard to imagine how he shoulders the burden. Those heavy fruits and jars go so far.

Shi Xiaozha is used to it.If the fruit sells well, he will use some change to buy it at the market, or exchange it for some snacks that he doesn't know how to make and that are not available in the village and bring them to Sui Tan.Those snacks were rough and simple, and Sui Tan, who grew up in Shanghai, had never seen them, and even if he had seen them, he must have never eaten them. At that time, Sui Tan would not touch such inferior things.

But Shi Xiaozhao gave him those rough snacks like offering treasures.Those eyes were bright, staring at Sui Tan's face with an expectant expression, Sui Tan looked at the amber little sugar figurine Shi Xiaozhao handed over, and then put it in his mouth.

"Is it delicious?" Shi Xiaozhao's expectant voice rang out impatiently.Sui Tan thought he was funny, so he deliberately pretended to be unmoved and said, "I've eaten it before."

"Huh?" Shi Xiaozhao was stunned for a moment, then dropped her shoulders in disappointment, but immediately pulled herself together and asked, "Yes, is it your favorite food?"

"It's okay," Sui Tan replied lightly, and then looked at Shi Xiaozha as if realizing something: "You haven't eaten it, have you?"

Shi Xiaozha shook her head honestly: "No, I haven't eaten."

Sui Tan was dumbfounded, and looked at Shi Xiaozha suspiciously: "You brought it to me without eating it? Do you want to test me for poison?"

"Testing poison?" Shi Xiaozhao tilted her head in confusion, with a look of innocence to the point of foolishness on her face.Seeing his appearance, Sui Tan secretly rolled his eyes, feeling that he was thinking too much.As a fool like Xiaozhao, if he could think of a way to let Sui Tan taste it first and then decide whether to eat it or not, he wouldn't just stay in the hawthorn bush honestly every day.

Sui Tan figured it out, but Shi Xiaozhao also understood what Sui Tan meant.He looked at Sui Tan in surprise, as if he didn't understand why Sui Tan thought this way at all, then his two eyebrows frowned slightly, his delicate face was flushed because of being misunderstood, and he opened his mouth hastily like a cannonball start speaking.

"I didn't, I didn't!"

When he was in a hurry, he stuttered a little. Normally, because Sui Tan couldn't understand the local dialect, Shi Xiaozha always spoke slowly, and he could articulate every sentence clearly.But now he chattered a lot in a hurry, Sui Tan didn't understand anything like at the beginning, and he could vaguely distinguish "everyone likes to eat" and "you love food" in his hasty words. Eat sweets" and such words.

Seeing that his eyes were red with anxiety, Sui Tan quickly grabbed one of his waving wrists and raised his voice, "I know you didn't! I'm just kidding you!"

Only then did Shi Xiaozhao stop, and looked at Sui Tan with a dazed and worried expression that couldn't tell the truth from the fake.For a moment, Sui Tan felt some guilt in his heart, but he still stalked his mouth with distaste: "Why are you so stupid, can't you tell when I'm joking with you?"

In fact, it wasn't entirely a joke at the beginning, but now Sui Tan has no intention of admitting it.Shi Xiaozha blinked and looked at him, with three parts of relief, three parts of fear, and three parts of grievance on his face.

"I thought...you really thought I was a bad person..."

Relieved, Shi Xiaozha's speech slowed down again.Sui Tan could see that he wanted to complain to him, but he didn't dare, for fear of making Sui Tan complain and get angry.Sui Tan felt that this teacher, Xiaozha, was really petty, that he could care so much about such a trivial matter, but there was another part of his heart that gave birth to a strange sense of satisfaction, full of being able to influence a person's emotions like this.

"You're so stupid, do you believe everything I tell you?" He said with distaste on his lips, but happily said to Shi Xiaozha in his heart.Shi Xiaozhao obviously still felt a little wronged, her eyes wandered, and then she looked at Sui Tan again, her mouth puffed up slightly.

"I believe it..." Shi Xiaozha whispered, then lowered her head, staring at her dirty cloth shoes, with her hands behind her back, as if twisted together a little irritably.

Sui Tan stared at Shi Xiaozha's fair neck, feeling a little strange.It is true that Shi Xiaozha believes everything he says, Sui Tan knows this best.Unlike most children in the village, Shi Xiaozha, who only lives with his grandmother, did not go to school. His parents disappeared before he finished elementary school. His grandmother’s health was getting worse and worse. The family barely supported him to finish elementary school. There was no room left to read on.

Shi Xiaozha has no parents, only a grandmother with handicapped legs and feet. He is still a boy, so he will not be wiped out, but many people in the village hope that he is a girl. A piece of beans, the earthen house where he and his grandmother lived, and this piece of hawthorn tree can be divided among the prosperous families in the village.

So very few people like Shi Xiaozha, most people think he is a hindrance.Parents teach their children this way, so naturally no children are willing to play with Shi Xiaozha. Even if there are a few children who like Shi Xiaozha's docile temperament and delicate face, Shi Xiaozha still needs to take care of the hawthorn tree from morning to night and not go to school. , not playing with the children, over time, even those children who liked him gradually alienated him.

Shi Xiaozha has no parents to rely on, and no friends to accompany him. In fact, Sui Tan is the first friend he made after dropping out of school.

Still from outside.Shanghai... the kind of place that only adults have heard of is the beautiful new world that Shi Xiaozha has always yearned for. Sui Tan, who came from Shanghai, became a person from the new world.He said many things that Shi Xiaozha couldn't even imagine, such as the endless sea, countless high-rise buildings, the trams that shuttle between the high-rise buildings and the main road, and the colorful lights that light up on the street at night. Neon... Once Sui Tan even brought him a few photos. When a distant relative came to Shanghai, Sui Tan and his grandparents accompanied the distant relative to play in Shanghai.

Sui Tan in the photo is a few years younger than now, but his bored look is very similar to now.They took photos together in many places: on the bank of the rushing Huangpu River, there are also towering buildings on the opposite bank; the night is not dark at all, the winding streets are full of neon lights, and the characters of No. [-] Department Store are clearly visible; A beautiful house of a style I have never seen before, with green plants on the walls that Shi Xiaozha has never seen before. Sui Tan said that it was called a "foreign house", which was built by foreigners in Shanghai before, and Shi Xiaozha had never seen even foreigners , not to mention bungalows.

What Sui Tan told him about the outside world was something that Shi Xiaozha had never heard of or seen. He didn't often pester Sui Tan to tell him about the outside world, but as long as Sui Tan talked about it, Shi Xiaozha would know. I was fascinated by it.Longing for the outside world and longing for friends are all mixed together in Sui Tan. For Shi Xiaozha, it seems that as long as he has Sui Tan, everything he wants can be satisfied.

So no matter what Sui Tan said, Shi Xiaozha believed it. Since Sui Tan came from a beautiful new world, and there were so many unimaginable things there, other unimaginable things, if they were outside A new world will definitely be established.

"You're really clinging to me." Sui Tan looked at him with an elusive tone in his tone.Shi Xiaozha didn't hear anything, but asked blankly, "What does 'sticky' mean?"

Sui Tan looked at those clean and ignorant eyes, and the weird sense of satisfaction in his heart seemed to be slowly mutating, but he deliberately ignored the dangers that might arise from this mutation, and only stared at those clean eyes. The eyes said: "Probably... it means I like it."

Hearing that Master Xiaozha's eyes widened for a moment, then he smiled again. He nodded at Sui Tan and smiled foolishly, "So liking means 'sticky'? Then I'm 'sticky' to you!"

Sui Tan choked on this frank and stupid declaration.Although Shi Xiaozha's smile was a bit dull, Sui Tan had never seen such cleanliness in the past ten years. The cleaner it was, the more strange anger rose in Sui Tan's heart.

How could such a valley that could bury the rest of his life be worthy of such a clean smile?

Sui Tan's expression turned gloomy, but unusual flames surged in his big eyes.He stared at Shi Xiaozha until the smile on Shi Xiaozha's face disappeared at a loss, then Sui Tan approached Shi Xiaozha and whispered in a strange tone:

"It's not the kind of liking you said, it's another kind."

As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and pinched Shi Xiaozhao's waist gently and gently.

This action is obviously frivolous.Sui Tan feared that Shi Xiaozha didn't understand what he meant, so he didn't withdraw his hand after squeezing it, but still held Shi Xiaozha's waist.The waist was thin and flexible, very comfortable to the touch, but the face of the owner of the waist changed a little.

Shi Xiaozhao obviously didn't understand what Sui Tan was doing, but he instinctively felt a little uncomfortable.This kind of discomfort was so naked that he didn't even dare to ask "what kind of like is that" that he wanted to ask.

"This... Do you understand?" Sui Tan raised his eyebrows and looked at Shi Xiaozha with burning eyes.He felt the body under his palm visibly trembling, Shi Xiaozha's eyes were still blank, but his expression looked very scared.

This frightened expression put Sui Tan in a good mood.His expression remained unchanged, but he let out a snort from the end of his nose: "What are you afraid of? You're so scared after sticking to me so tightly?"

Shi Xiaozha was still trembling a little, but he never escaped from Sui Tan's palm, his waist was still obediently held by Sui Tan, and he didn't dare to move.

"You and I……"

He spat out a few words incoherently, but in the end nothing came out.Sui Tan could see that he was really scared, but even though he was scared, Shi Xiaozhao didn't jump up and slap himself, or push himself away and then turned and ran away.Because it was Sui Tan, he neither resisted nor left.

Sui talked and laughed.He lightly pinched Shi Xiaozha's waist with his hand again, then let go of his hand, and chuckled lightly: "Why did I scare you like this... No, no, I thought you were. "

Sui Tan let go of her hand but it didn't make Shi Xiaozha feel any easier.He still looked at Sui Tan with a startled look, and asked fearfully, "Yes, what is it?"

Sui Tan looked at him, with a more meaningful smile on his lips. "He's someone who likes men."

"People who like men..." Shi Xiaozhao murmured and repeated, her tone even more frightened. "Is it like a woman loves a man... the kind of love?"

"That's right." Sui Tan said while admiring Shi Xiaozha's flustered, surprised, and bewildered expression, "Some men, like women, like to sleep with men."

Shi Xiaozha's body shook violently, and disbelief was written all over her face in an instant.He was still young, and there was no adult in his family to guide him in this kind of thing. When he first heard the word "sleep", he felt the hairs all over his body explode.

"What's there to be afraid of..." Sui Tan laughed and said, "Is sleeping with a man that scary? It's no different from sleeping with a woman, except that one can have a baby and the other can't."

Shi Xiaozhao couldn't even imagine that Sui Tan could easily say the word "sleep", let alone a man and a man.He trembled and said, "Why...would you sleep with a man, not a woman...?"

"What's the reason?" Sui Tan said coldly. "I just like it. Sleeping with a woman is so so, isn't it for the purpose of having a child. But when the child is born but is not raised and left alone, it is better to sleep with a man. As long as you like it, there is nothing wrong with it."

Originally, Sui talked about such a lot of fallacies just to scare and fool Shi Xiaozha, but as he talked, he really began to feel that it is meaningless to marry a woman and have children just to have children.

Shi Xiaozha was so shocked by these unheard-of shocking things that she couldn't even think for a while.He tried his best to sort out a train of thought from Sui Tan's words, but found that his mind was in a mess and he couldn't sort out anything.The last question he asked was not the result of his thinking, but a question he subconsciously felt was the most important question he asked instinctively.

"Then, then we... the two of us, can, can we sleep... sleep?"

There were only a few simple words in a sentence, and Shi Xiaozhao insisted on stuttering for a long time before he said it. His face was flushed, and his eyes began to turn red for no reason. Not only the speaking lips were trembling, but the whole body People were also trembling, obviously feeling extremely ashamed to ask this question.

Sui Tan originally wanted to play tricks on him, but seeing him like this, he felt a little unbearable, so he stretched out his hand and slapped Shi Xiaozhao on the shoulder, shrugged and said, "It's fine, but since it's not for the purpose of having a baby , then you must really like it before sleeping together."

"I really like it..." Shi Xiaozha murmured, then raised her head and looked at Sui Tan with a troubled face, "Then we...I..."

He didn't know what to say, but Sui Tan understood.An indescribable emotion surged in Sui Tan's heart. The weird desire to destroy and the pityful touch were entangled with each other, and finally he sighed in his heart.

"Why are you so honest..." He pretended to laugh heartily, "I know you don't like me that way, I'm just kidding you."

Shi Xiaozha opened her eyes and blinked.He already felt instinctively that the crisis just now had been resolved, but his stupid brain hadn't figured out what was going on.He nodded towards Sui Tan half understanding, and explained as if he was afraid that Sui Tan would misunderstand: "But you are very good, I really like you."

Sui Tan froze in place for a moment, and that strange emotion began to surge again.