i see your calling

In the short 15 years of Lian Yan, he has received a lot of ridicule and teasing. When he was still in that dilapidated Tongzi building, the uncle who played chess downstairs would deliberately call him over, saying, "That dumb, come and sing a song for everyone." Qu'er chant", often provoked roars of laughter, to be honest, Lian Yan didn't feel angry at all, often just smiled awkwardly, and then ran away.

Willful anger and temper tantrums are the temperament of those who are pampered, and Lian Yan hardly has it.

But today Lian Yan really felt the feeling of trembling from anger, his heart seemed to be blocked, almost making him unable to breathe.He couldn't think of words to fight back, he didn't know how to curse, and his explanation seemed weak.

【Happy every day】: We don't.

As for nothing, he couldn't tell why.

[Wei Ziping]: Then why did Shen Pingge change rooms with Wang Dao?Didn't I just want to share a room with you?

What should I say?Said that Shen Pingge shared a room with him because he wanted to take care of him?Then why did Shen Pingge take care of him—and then talk about the past between him and Shen Pingge?Those things are messier.

[Wei Ziping]: You are not gay, so why are you kissing Shen Pingge?

[Wei Ziping]: Besides, Shen Pingge didn't push you away.

The language is too pale, and it's clear in the video. Even though the distance is so far, even the affection in Yan Xiao's smile is very obvious, and the lights can't cover it up.He shamelessly took the initiative to hug Shen Pingge and ask for a kiss, and Shen Pingge did not push him away at first.

Lian Yan's clenched hands hurt, and his temples seemed to be throbbing. He couldn't refute these things, and all explanations were like sophistry without reason.

Wei Ziping didn't send any more messages, he expected that those words would break him, so he waited for him calmly and coldly across the screen.

After a while, Lian Yan sent a message.

【Happy every day】: I am gay.

【Happy every day】: He is not.

Wei Ziping quickly replied, just one word.

[Wei Ziping]: Oh?

[Happy every day]: I kissed him, but he didn't push me away because...

【Happy every day】: It's because I hugged him all the time, and he was scared.

He didn't want to talk about this kind of thing with Wei Ziping, but he couldn't help it. He wanted to ask others for help - but who could he turn to?

[Wei Ziping]: That's right.

Lian Yan took out the toilet paper from her backpack and took out more than a dozen in a row. He didn't need so much paper, but there was nowhere to vent his anxiety. He could only express it through this simple movement, holding a ball of toilet paper in his hand. , making a muffled, blunt sound, which was so subtle and unpleasant that it only exploded in his ears.

[Happy every day]: So what are you talking about?

[Wei Ziping]: It's nothing, just talking.

[Wei Ziping]: Stop talking, I'm sleepy, I'll go to bed first.

[Wei Ziping]: I wish you success as soon as possible, haha.

As he said, Lian Yan sent a few more messages, but Wei Ziping didn't reply at all.

Wei Ziping didn't just gossip, he told Lian Yan plainly that he had a video, it was like a time bomb, he didn't know when and where it would "boom" and destroy everything.

The screen of the mobile phone gradually dimmed, and finally completely blacked out. Lian Yan saw his own eyes, blank eyes, and parted lips. He breathed awkwardly, as if he had just floated up from the deep sea, and every inch of oxygen seemed extremely precious.

"Hello," a voice suddenly came from the side, Lian Yan looked over, and the strange woman looked at him worriedly, "You don't seem to be feeling well, do you need help?"

Lian Yan hadn't recovered from that state, she shook her head after a while, raised her right hand, and forced a thank you gesture.

The woman suddenly realized, and looked at him with pity, "Do you really need help?" Lian Yan shook her head again, and the woman gave up and handed him a piece of candy before continuing to read the book in her hand.

The plane arrived soon, and Lian Yan vaguely remembered that he was asleep. As for whether he fell asleep, he didn't remember.

It was still daylight when he got off the plane, and he saw Wei Ziping, who was wearing black short sleeves, a little impatient, as if he had just woken up, and when he met his eyes, Lian Yan suddenly became nervous, but saw Wei Ziping She smiled at him, a light and light smile that almost broke Lian Yan into a cold sweat.

Shen Pingge was waiting for him there, still wearing a peaked cap, lightly clutching the trunk lever with his bony hands, and beckoning to him.

Lian Yan looked at his lips subconsciously, and didn't move for a long time. People around him came and went. He knew that he should leave here, but he just couldn't move.

Lian Yan looked up into his eyes.

"What's wrong?" Shen Pingge asked.

Lian Yan shook her head.

He still didn't have the courage to say it.

Why didn't you run away when I hugged you at the beginning?

You don't like me, then you should stay away from me.

These bad things are just related to his own words, maybe he can solve the problem more rationally, but Shen Pingge is involved-he doesn't want Shen Pingge to know about it, and he doesn't want it to hurt others. Shen Pingge, so everything cannot be done rationally.

Shen Pingge has always been taking care of him. Ever since the incident with Cai Tian, ​​Shen Pingge has always protected him. He is used to hiding behind Shen Pingge. He doesn't need to worry about what is in front of him. He just needs to follow Shen Pingge.

But now he can't tell Shen Pingge these things, Shen Pingge has helped him enough.

If it's possible - he said that if he could, he might be able to protect Shen Pingge for a while.

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After tossing and turning the bus and returning the same way, the sky outside gradually darkened. The sun was like a gushing volcanic lava, burning the horizon hotly. The air seemed to be distorted and deformed, containing a fire in the world. The air conditioner, the wind is also warm, it seems to be sticky and turbid with volcanic ash.

He didn't arrive at the place until almost seven o'clock, Shen Yiming waited for them early, specially pushed the company's affairs, looked very happy, and wanted to take them out for dinner.

"Where do you want to eat?" Shen Yiming said, "Barbecue or western food? There are new ones nearby, so you can try it. Let's not talk about the results, just celebrate."

Lian Yan felt guilty towards Shen Pingge, and even felt guilty towards Shen Yiming. Shen Yiming's joy was obvious, he couldn't think about it, but he couldn't refuse, he didn't want to defeat Shen Yiming's interest.

When Shen Yiming and Shen Pingge were talking, Lian Yan fled to the bedroom to put the suitcase, her mind was very messy, it was full of Wei Ziping's words and videos, when she put the suitcase, she suddenly heard a voice from the door, Shen Ping Greg didn't know when he came over.

He leaned against the door, folded his arms, and the shadow under the light was like accidentally spilled brown tea, flowing with his movements, "If you feel tired, don't go, that's how he is, he likes to celebrate everything, it doesn't matter if you don't go."

Shen Pingge is too good at thinking about people's thoughts, he is probably absent-minded too obviously - but the more thoughtful Shen Pingge is, the more uneasy he feels.

Lian Yan just lowered her head, squatted and pushed the suitcase deep into the cabinet, shaking her head.

Go ahead.

Shen Yiming drove them to a nearby barbecue restaurant. The seats inside were almost full, and the private rooms booked in advance seemed quiet in comparison—in fact, Lian Yan preferred the hall-style ones. silence.

Shen Yiming didn't seem to see the embarrassment between them. After the meat came out, he fried the meat and asked them about the competition. Lian Yan stared at the sizzling fried meat and said nothing. Lian Yan didn't listen carefully to what he was saying, and was in a daze.

He seemed to be drifting away, and everything around him had nothing to do with him.

"Hey," shaking hands in front of her eyes, Lian Yan looked at Shen Yiming blankly, Shen Yiming rubbed his hair a little funny, "What are you thinking?"

He forced a smile, took the chopsticks to turn over the sliced ​​meat.

"Xiaoyan wants to eat spicy food." Shen Yiming stood up, "I'll get you a bowl of ingredients, do you want to add something else?"

Lian Yan knew that he should refuse at this time, and then go to fill it himself, instead of bothering others, but he was really tired, so he nodded obediently.

The roasted golden and crispy barbecue meat is wrapped in bright red chili powder, rolled into lettuce leaves brushed with sauce, and the meat is rich in aroma when bitten down.Lian Yan buried her head in eating, avoiding eye contact with Shen Pingge, the chili was too hot, Lian Yan exhaled from the hot pepper, and her rare mood improved, which made him temporarily forget about the video.

"Pingge," Shen Yiming said suddenly while rolling the meat, "What happened to your lip? Did you get it?"

Lian Yan paused.

"Ah..." He heard Shen Pingge's voice, his tone was very calm, "I accidentally knocked on it, it will be fine in a few days."

Lian Yan found out that Shen Pingge didn't eat too much. Eating with a broken lip would inevitably hurt. He still had unfinished meat rolls in his hand, but he lost his appetite. how much to eat.

"You two eat too little." Shen Yiming took care of most of the table, and the rest had to be packed, "Are you full? Go home when you're full."

"Are you full?" Shen Pingge looked at Lian Yan suddenly.

Lian Yan became nervous for no reason, and said "hmm".

He was afraid that Shen Pingge would talk to him. Although the words could not come out, the eyes would betray his thoughts. Since he came back, he rarely had eye contact with Shen Pingge. He kept avoiding it, but there was no other way. .

The street lights outside were dim, it was only nine o'clock, there was a bustling night market on the side of the road, and there were many unhygienic barbecue stalls, the smell of mutton turned into smoke and entered the window, Shen Yiming closed the window, and after driving for a while, the car suddenly stopped down.

"Pingge," Shen Yiming took some money from his wallet and handed it to Shen Pingge, "Go to Starbucks and buy me a cup of coffee. If you want to drink something, you can also buy Xiaoyan a Frappuccino .”

Shen Ping frowned indiscriminately: "Don't drink coffee at night."

"Listen to me," Shen Yiming unlocked the car door, "Hurry up."

Shen Pingge was a little helpless, pushed the door and got out of the car, the car became quiet again, Lian Yan took out her mobile phone, before pressing the screen bright button, she suddenly heard Shen Yiming's voice.

"Xiaoyan, Pingge is not here now, I want to ask you a question, tell me honestly." Shen Yiming turned his head and talked to him with a smile, "OK?"

Lian Yan looked at him helplessly, she couldn't think of any problem to push Shen Pingge away, but she still nodded.

"You and Pingge," Shen Yiming said slowly, "Did you two quarrel?"

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