i see your calling

tell him what?

Tell him that today's weather is suitable for the lake to evaporate, tell him where the sparrow's eyes will turn in the middle of the night, tell him the simple change of day and night and the disappearance of the stars, or tell him about himself, that he wants to give up loving him, tell him that he is all unspeakable The original sin of Qi Nian, or frankly told him——

Until this moment, he still couldn't help liking Shen Pingge.

The liking is very simple. He just opens and closes his mouth, but he is dumb, and his liking is silent. The evaporation of the lake water can be traced. But it's just a secret liking, except for the eyes, no one can tell.

"We're going to the beach this Friday." Shen Pingge rubbed his hair again and stood up, "You can decide whether to go or not on that day."

Lian Yan looked up at him and wanted to ask him, if you knew I liked you, would you still ask me to go to the beach together?

you will not.

So many people like you, you don't want such a trivial like.

Lian Yan nodded and watched him leave.

He hasn't decided whether to go to the beach or not, and when he stays at home, he is always in a daze, turning the black ballpoint pen, tearing off the paper, and writing more questions than Neruda's "Questions".

Shen Yiming went home more often, Lian Yan often hid in his room, he gradually became aware of some details, for example, when Shen Yiming was cooking, he would specially cook an extra spicy dish, the fruit salad before meals for him Also changed to ice fruit.Lian Yan was not used to this kind of special care, but Shen Yiming did it naturally, as if it should be like this.

After dinner, Lian Yan was still used to huddling in the room and doing homework, but Shen Yiming came to him on his own initiative, sat on the chair beside him, and read his report card.

"Xiaoyan is a bit biased." Shen Yiming looked at it and said, "Do you think mathematics is too difficult?"

Mathematics is quite mysterious. He also wanted to learn mathematics well, but the pile of cold numbers really didn't attract him much. Lian Yan pinched her fingers, bit her lips, and nodded.

"If you don't know anything, just ask Pingge." Shen Yiming said with a smile, "Pingge's mathematics is pretty good. I remember that he still got full marks in mathematics during the senior high school entrance examination."

Lian Yan looked at Shen Yiming in shock.Full marks?

"It seems that math is pretty good now. At the end of the semester, did you take the 140 or 140..." Shen Yiming couldn't remember clearly, "If you ask Pingge more, it will be a free 1v1 tutoring, right? ?”

"But it doesn't mean that you are stupid, everyone has their own specialties." Shen Yiming pointed at Chinese and lowered his voice, "Let me tell you secretly, when Shen Pingge was in junior high school, he failed Chinese once. "

This surprised Lian Yan even more than the perfect score in mathematics. Shen Yiming said: "It will work later, and you got a very high score in the high school entrance examination. So, I think you can do it if you put in a lot of effort in mathematics in the high school entrance examination."

Lian Yan smiled and nodded.

He was worried, afraid that Shen Yiming would come to ask him why he hadn't been active recently, and didn't come to get close to him. He didn't know how to answer, but Shen Yiming didn't ask, as if he really just came to see him, just came to chat casually, just When he left at the end, Shen Yiming asked him if he wanted to go to the beach with him.

"Actually," Shen Yiming said, "I still want to go to the beach with you, Ping Ping. Although it's hot in summer, it's fun to step on the hot sand with bare feet."

"We will leave at about ten o'clock tomorrow morning. If you want to, just walk with us."

Whether to go or not to go, the question is not really important.

On Friday, Lian Yan caught a cold, probably because the air conditioner was blowing too much, and she was dizzy even with her head. In addition, she slept late in the first half of the night, and Shen Pingge waited until ten o'clock, but did not leave , He didn't listen to Shen Yiming say until [-]:[-]: "Okay, let's go."

Shen Pingge finally glanced at the window, "Yes."

When Lian Yan got up, it was already 10:30. The whole villa was eerily quiet. Lian Yan was suffering from a headache. She walked down the stairs slowly while leaning on the wall, and saw cold sandwiches and a glass of milk on the table. It says on the sticky note.

-remember to eat.

Lian Yan paused, then slowly tore off the sticky note.He didn't want to eat, Lian Yan suddenly understood his answer.

He wanted to follow.

He only gave himself an affirmative answer at this time, it was too late, Lian Yan stared at the sandwich, red and green were distinct, and entangled again, as if bringing chaos around, Lian Yan reached out and touched his forehead, feeling a little hot.

have a fever.

Shen Pingge and Shen Yiming will probably go away for two or three days, he certainly can't wait for Shen Pingge to come back to take care of him.

Nor is it necessary.

Lian Yan turned over himself, four steel coins, and a ten-yuan note—all his belongings.

The fever made Lian Yan feel nauseous. He sat on the sofa blankly for a while, and suddenly saw a few banknotes under the coffee table, all of which were red flowers.Lian Yan hesitated for a moment before reaching out to take one.

It's funny to say, he has been in the Shen's house for a few months, and he didn't think about keeping the accounts and returning the money to Shen Yiming. At this moment, he suddenly thought that he seemed to owe Shen Yiming a lot of money, such as tuition fees, book fees, and living expenses. , together with the pocket money, he owed the Shen family.

The money looks like he stole it, and he shouldn't have taken it.

Lian Yan suddenly thought of Xu Mei, and belatedly blamed Xu Mei. If she hadn't abandoned him, he wouldn't have to worry so much every day, and he wouldn't have to owe others.But if Xu Mei hadn't abandoned him, he wouldn't have had the chance to get in touch with Shen Pingge further.

Lian Yan turned her head to look at the large expanse of sunlight outside, and took a deep breath.

·

Lian Yan didn't go out to buy medicine until after twelve o'clock. The fingerprint lock of the villa also recorded his fingerprints that time. The doctor behind the glass cabinet looked at him with a smile: "What medicine do you want?"

Lian Yan took out the note she had prepared.

- What kind of medicine should I take for fever?

The doctor was stunned for a moment, and gave him a strange look. There was some pity in his eyes, and his tone softened. When he asked him about some symptoms, Lian Yan just nodded and shook his head. He didn't like that kind of pitiful eyes, but he couldn't say What, he lowered his head slightly, looking at the boxes of medicine.

"Little classmate?"

Lian Yan raised her head blankly.

"Let me ask you, do you want to get a bottle to heal quickly," the doctor said, "Your temperature is also a bit high."

Lian Yan doesn't like hospitals, and doesn't like the smell of alcohol and disinfectant. He can always think of the high fever when he was three years old from the hospital.

He had been in poor health since he was a child and had frequent fevers, and Xu Mei didn't pay attention to it. The fever was so severe that he passed out, so Xu Mei thought about sending him to the hospital. After three days in the hospital, the fever subsided and his throat burnt out.People start remembering things at the age of three, and if life really starts counting, it should start at the age of three.

From the beginning of his life, the gods sealed his mouth.

He thought that if he couldn't be saved in the hospital at the beginning, his life might be better.

Lian Yan shook her head, took the medicine, and smiled at the doctor when she finally left.

He was still very dizzy, and his face was very pale. Holding the box of medicine, he almost forgot where to go. After walking a few steps, he couldn't go any further. All scorching hot.

The fever, together with the dizziness caused by the low blood sugar caused by not eating well, almost made him collapse. Lian Yan suddenly wanted to cry,

Take a break... take a break before you go.

You can't cry either, it's ugly to cry outside.

Lian Yan reached out to touch the hot concrete floor, and everything in front of her was spinning and shaking, turning into a colorful kaleidoscope, and the sky turned into glass, refracting bright colors, upside down, as if someone was hitting him on the head with a hammer .

When Lian Yan finally fell into a coma, he vaguely heard someone calling him.

"Lian Yan!"

The author says:

Ah, it’s so hard to write 555, and I only managed to write this word all afternoon and night...