A Certain Someone

Jiang Tian's seat was at the far end of the rostrum. In fact, he lost his mind after speaking, but it was inappropriate to turn around and leave. It was because He Jin pressed him to the next process that he took the opportunity to leave.

He almost strode back to Mingli Building.Sheng Wang finally moved back to Class A, and finally he was able to return the seat he had occupied for a long time. From then on, he could see the other party's shadow falling on his desk without looking up.

But when he ran to the top floor and stopped by the back door frame, he didn't find Shengwang in the classroom.

The atmosphere in the classroom was very strange. The buzzing noise was muted when he entered the door. Everyone looked up at him, but no one spoke.

Jiang Tian was stunned for a moment, then walked back to his seat and asked Gao Tianyang, "Where's Sheng Wang?"

The expressions of the people around became weird instantly, and even Gao Tianyang froze for a moment.Jiang Tian raised his eyes and found that the carp and the little pepper were hesitant to speak in front of them.

At that moment, his heart sank suddenly, as if he had sensed something.

"What are you looking at, self-study!" Gao Tianyang shouted around.He threw away the untouched paper, scratched his hair a little irritably, and pulled Jiang Tian out of the classroom.

"Brother Sheng has gone to the Political and Education Office." Gao Tianyang said.

"why?"

"Fight." Gao Tianyang hesitated for a moment, then added: "Because Qi Jiahao said that you..."

His voice suddenly dropped, and the word "homosexuality" was extremely vague. He always felt that saying this in person was like stabbing Jiang Tian straight, bloody.

And when he finished speaking and raised his eyes, Jiang Tian had already strode down the stairs, and disappeared from sight in the blink of an eye.He only remembered that when the other party ran across the corner of the stairs, his lips were tightly pursed and his face was pale.

He almost bumped into someone on the way to the political and religious office, but Jiang Tian couldn't remember it.His mind was full of the scene of Sheng Mingyang walking away from the front row of the auditorium to answer the phone.He didn't dare to imagine the connection between the two, just like he didn't dare to imagine Shengwang standing alone in the office of the Department of Political Affairs.

But when he went straight into that office, he only saw Xu Dakou standing by the window with his waist down and frowning.

The door that was pushed open hit the wall with a "bang", he opened his mouth amidst the trembling sound of the wooden door, and said in a difficult voice, "Teacher..."

Xu Dazui turned around and looked at him with complicated expressions, unable to tell whether he wanted to scold him or sigh.

Jiang Tian tried his best to hold his breath and asked, "Where's Sheng Wang?"

"Let's go." Xu Dazui said.

For a moment, Jiang Tian frowned, as if he couldn't understand the meaning of these two words.His mind was buzzing, as if submerged in a glacier, numb from the cold one after another.

"What's gone?" He heard himself ask in confusion.

Xu Dazui finally sighed, "He was taken away by his father."

"Where did you go?"

"How would I know?" Xu Dazui frowned and looked at him, "Jiang Tian..."

As soon as he finished these two words, the boy at the door lowered his eyes.He finally seemed to be unable to stretch himself anymore. He bent over and supported his knees, breathing heavily, as if he had run tens of thousands of miles.

Xu Dazui suddenly couldn't say anything.It's not that he hasn't dealt with this kind of situation before, it's because he has encountered it that he wants to sigh even more.

There are no secrets in middle school, only rumors that spread like wildfire, and even if he warns the insider, some things will still spread everywhere, even within a few minutes.

Xu Dazui saw Jiang Tian's fingers propped on his knees curled up into fists, and his thumb pinched his joints tightly.

Seeing that even he felt pain, Jiang Tian stood up straight and asked in a hoarse voice, "Did you hit him?"

Xu Dazui was dumb for a long time, and replied: "No, I didn't hit him."

Jiang Tian nodded and left.

Xu Dazui saw him running under the window, passing through the flower bed full of dead leaves behind the building, and heading straight to No. [-] Road... I don't know where to look for it.

In fact, for a moment, Sheng Mingyang wanted to fight.The moment Sheng Wang said "don't look into it", everyone could see how embarrassing his father who kept saying "impossible" was.He had already raised his hand, and dropped it at the last moment, his fingers trembling like a spasm.

He stood there for a long time, and in the end he just suppressed his emotions and said to Xu Dazui: "Old Xu, I'll take him out for a while, so I won't take up your time."

Even when he was furious, he didn't drag him into a mess, neither father nor son were like that.He just patted Shengwang on the shoulder, signaling him to go outside.

Before going out, he stopped again, turned his head and said to Xu Dazui with a sad face, "I'll admit what's wrong for him, children are ignorant, and my father is also in a mess, causing trouble for you."

He bowed slightly, like those parents who are obviously successful in their careers but are humble and respectful to their teachers.

The slap obviously didn't fall, but Sheng Wang felt that he was hit hard, from the face to the heart.He wanted to say "Don't do this", but it was himself who caused this scene, and he was not qualified to say this.

But is he really so wrong?He obviously... just likes someone.

At that moment, Shengwang was so uncomfortable that he wanted to bend down.But in the end, he just followed Sheng Mingyang out silently.

He thought that Sheng Mingyang would take him home directly. He knew that the other party needed a place without outsiders, but Sheng Mingyang didn't.

The car directly got on the expressway around the city, and the speed was extremely fast, which was completely inconsistent with Sheng Mingyang's usual driving style.I don't know how long it took before stepping on the emergency brake, Sheng Wang was so painfully strangled by the seat belt, he slammed back on the back of the seat again.

The car was parked on an unknown side road in an industrial park in the suburbs, and there was no one around.This angle was just facing the sun, and both the driver's seat and the co-pilot's eyes were blinded.Sheng Mingyang reached out to grab the sunglasses, but finally lowered his hand and pulled the handbrake irritably.

He can't go on.

Sheng Wang's eyes were pierced by the light, but he didn't close them. He just kept staring at that spot of light until the world turned into a blank, and then he heard Sheng Mingyang ask, "When did it happen?"

His voice was full of anger, but it sounded muffled and depressing in the car, like dense water weeds entangled in layers, and tightened a little bit.

"I don't remember." Sheng Wang said.

These four words drew Sheng Mingyang's anger completely, and he patted the steering wheel heavily: "What do you mean you can't remember? Someday you will start ghosting—"

He might want to say "fooling around" or something, but he can't finish it in the middle of the sentence.He rubbed his eyebrows and took a few deep breaths. He was silent for a long time before trying to slow down his tone: "You tell me the truth, did you add him—"

"No." Sheng Wang interrupted.

At that moment, he felt a huge absurdity.

He wanted to say, do you know how much shadow Ji Huanyu left on Jiang Tian?Do you know how painful it is for him to be entangled in things that he shouldn't have to bear?You know how long it took him to get over those things?

And you're just arbitrarily and baselessly blaming him for everything, like he was born that way.

As if he couldn't be sad at all.

"I chased him." Sheng Wang said, "I like it. I opened the mouth first. I tried my best to hook him. I also threw myself into class B because he didn't respond, and because I wanted to be with him." It took a while to come back from the exam, can't you see how happy I am when I usually go around him?"

Sheng Mingyang's face was extremely ugly, and every time Sheng Wang said something, his expression became more and more embarrassed.It seemed that he was the one who was exposed to the public.

He frowned, and finally found a gap to interrupt: "Don't say that!"

Sheng Wang stopped talking, and his face was equally ugly.After a while, he said jerkyly, "You asked, and you asked me to tell the truth."

"Dad knows that you are not such a person, and you don't have those problems."

"You don't know." Sheng Wang said, "You don't know, I know best myself. I like my brother, and I'm gay."

Sheng Mingyang was still trying to reason: "I know you're a bit rebellious with these words now, it's purely to annoy me—"

"I didn't." Sheng Wang lowered his eyes, "I didn't worry about you. I was happy and sad at the same time. It's been a long time."

There was dead silence in the car, and Sheng Mingyang seemed to have been slapped.When Sheng Wang said this, he knew that everything he said just now was just trying to find a reason.He just didn't want to admit that his son had become like this.

Sheng Wang was sitting with downcast eyes, his father's fingers were holding the gear shifter out of the corner of his eye, his ring finger and little finger were twitching slightly, like an uncontrollable trembling.If there was anything on hand, if he was alone, he might have smashed a piece.

But he just held it for a while, and said coldly, "Break it."

Sheng Wang raised his eyes.

"You don't need to go back to school. I'll call Lao Xu later." Sheng Mingyang said, "I'll transfer you to another school."

"I won't turn." Sheng Wang said.

"Either you go or he goes!" Sheng Mingyang finally didn't suppress the fire, and roared.After shouting, he started the car with trembling fingers, and said without raising his eyes, "I have plenty of solutions, you choose one yourself."

The car drove straight out, Sheng Wang seemed to be pinned to death on the back of the seat, and then suddenly let go after a while.He felt weak and nauseated from the constant rushing and stopping.

He still remembered the joke he told on Jiang Tian's birthday night to make people happy, but he didn't expect it to be a prophecy.

"Dad, do you know that the college entrance examination is coming soon?" He closed his eyes in dizziness, and clenched his teeth tightly.After holding back for a while, he continued: "Have you ever thought about the impact of changing schools now? Have you thought about it every time you go through the procedures? Have you ever thought that I might not be able to catch up? Have you ever thought that I might be so Is it really impossible to adapt once, and then plummet?"

"Have you thought about it yourself?" Sheng Mingyang said with a blank expression, "If you think about it a little more, you won't be able to do such absurd things."

"I don't find it ridiculous."

"You really don't think so? You don't think it's absurd why you're afraid of being discovered? You don't think it's absurd why you're happy and sad at the same time. Why are you sad? Shouldn't you be justified?"

Sheng Wang was speechless.He wanted to say otherwise, but at that moment he suddenly couldn't find the words to refute.It's like people walking in the dark for a long time, even they can't figure out the way.

Sheng Mingyang didn't even look at him, "Go tell everyone now that you're dating your own brother, and see how others react!"

He was so angry that he almost couldn't choose a word, and he closed his eyes first after speaking.The car body shook, but Sheng Wang didn't feel alarmed, but his chest was cold.

I don't know how long it took before he stubbornly said: "I will continue."

Sheng Mingyang held the steering wheel silently, nodded after a long time and said, "Don't tell me that."

Who should I tell?Sheng Wang was at a loss for a moment.

The car whizzed past the curve in the mountain forest and drove into a suburban cemetery.It was neither early nor late, and the whole cemetery fell into desolation and silence, and the white marble statue was covered with thick frost, which made people feel numb from the cold.

Sheng Wang was dragged into the pale building, passed through rows of equally pale photos, and then stopped in front of one of them.

Sheng Mingyang dragged him, pointed at the smiling person in the photo, stuck for a long time and said tiredly: "Tell your mother, come, Wangzi. You look at her and say, you want to be with your brother, you It's gay, say!"

Jiang Tian ran to the end of No. [-] Road, went out along the west gate of the school, and stopped at Sheng Mingyang's parking place, where another person had already parked.

He turned around on the spot, and then hurried to the outside of the parasol tree.

Old man Ding and the mute were picking vegetables in the house. One could only make gestures, but the other couldn't understand much, so they could only sit silently facing each other.

The old man was bored at home for a holiday, thinking about Jiang Ou Ji Huanyu all day and night.This is what happens when you get old, worrying all the time.Sometimes he would wake up in the middle of the night with a start, and other times he wouldn't be able to sleep at all.Maybe it's too cold, and people have become dull from the vicissitudes of life.

So much so that when Jiang Tian appeared at the door, he didn't react for a few seconds. It took a long time for him to say "oh", and his eyes lit up and said, "Xiao Tian? Isn't school starting today?"

Jiang Tian gasped while holding the door frame, and let out a "hmm".It wasn't until this moment that he reached for his pocket that he realized that he hadn't brought his schoolbag with him for the meeting in the auditorium, and his cell phone was still hidden in the bag.

"Why are you running in such a hurry?" the old man turned upside down.

Jiang Tian lowered his head, and he gritted his teeth to swallow the sore feeling.Ask the old man: "Has Sheng Wang been here?"

"No ah."

Expected.

Jiang Tian nodded, but his movements were jerky and difficult.He borrowed the mobile phone from the old man and called Sheng Wang.

The phone rang a few times and was picked up, his heart revived instantly, but before he could speak, he heard Gao Tianyang say over there: "Brother Tim..."

His heart hit the ground again.

"Brother Sheng's schoolbag is in the classroom." Gao Tianyang said in a low voice.

Jiang Tian hung up the phone, found Sheng Mingyang in the old man's call history, and called Sheng Mingyang again, but the other party had turned off his phone.

He called a car and rushed back to Baima Alley, but there was no one in the house.Aunt Sun had cleaned it before she left, and the whole house smelled of detergent, and because of the dampness that hadn't dissipated, it was so empty that it made people feel cold.

He searched everywhere he could, but found nothing.In the end, with little hope, he ran to the rental house at the north gate of the attached high school that he hadn't lived in for a day.

It was deserted inside, he knew no one was there, and he didn't bring the key.But he stood there and couldn't help knocking on the door.It seemed that if he knocked a few more times, someone would open the door to welcome him in.

Because he remembered that someone said that he would not be shut out.

But he knocked for a long time but no one came to open it.

He has been used to playing the role of an adult since he was a child, taking care of old man Ding, Jiang Ou, and himself.He carried everything he could and couldn't carry on his back. Although he was very tired, he always felt that he could bear it.

So that sometimes there is an illusion, as if he is not afraid of anything, can afford everything, and he is omnipotent.

But when he was 18 years old and really entered adulthood, he realized that there were too many things that he couldn't take care of.He is like a poor bricklayer, tearing down the east wall to make up the west wall, but he is stretched to the left and right.In the end, he couldn't even do the simplest thing of standing with Sheng Wang.

It was only then that he realized that the connections between him and Sheng Wang were dense, but as thin as hair, and they were all held in other people's hands, and they would be completely broken if they were loosened.

The city is so big, people come and go, and the dense faces around are blurred, no matter how he runs, he can't find the one he wants to see.