A Certain Someone

Jiang Ou took a sip from the paper cup he handed him, the temperature was adjusted just right, she swallowed the water, and suddenly realized that her son has always been like this for so many years, he doesn't talk often, but he always takes good care of him.It was because he was so nice and calm that sometimes even she would forget that he was actually not that old.

"Have you taken the medicine?" Jiang Tian asked in a deep voice after sitting with her for a while.

Jiang Ou nodded: "I ate one before coming here."

The communication between their mother and child seems to be like this all the time. Jiang Tian is not good at chatting, not good at explaining, and even less good at finding topics to make people relax and happy. Every time, she stays silently within her reach, like a steady and wordless shadow.

Jiang Ou stared at the shadow on the bottom of his feet for a while, and suddenly heard him ask: "How are you playing?"

She froze for a moment, somewhat surprised.She thought that Jiang Tian would get straight to the point and asked her what she had said to Ji Huanyu, but she didn't expect that after many years, he had learned to be tactful.

"Very good, not tired, very relaxed." Jiang Ou smiled lightly, she was still gentle and amiable when she stretched her eyebrows and eyes, but years of psychological torture made her a little more tired than before, "The old man is also very I like it, I found two chess friends, and I also met an old lady who can play the piano."

Jiang Tian said "hmm", turned his head towards the direction of the ward and said, "Then why answer him and come back?"

Jiang Ou smiled, and then sighed softly after a long time.She knew that the euphemism was only temporary, and her son still had the cold and stubborn temper that would go straight and never turn a corner.

"I just want to try." Jiang Ou said.

"try what?"

"Try the doctor's advice and see if I really get better."

"Why do you suddenly want to try?"

Jiang Ou opened his mouth, wanting to say because I know how tired the people around me are, and I also know how tired you are.But with five or six years of living in a foreign country lying in front of her, this sentence seemed extremely pale and powerless, and she couldn't say it.What's more, she still gets nervous for no reason because of a few words, and her recovery is not so complete.

She was left speechless by the question, and was about to joke that she stared at her mother for questioning?Suddenly, I remembered what the doctor had said, that she was more like a junior in this mother-child relationship, and she was more dependent than caring for each other.It was like this before, but she didn't realize it clearly. It was just that Jiang Tian was relatively independent, and she couldn't take care of her if she wanted to.

Later, because of Ji Huanyu and Du Cheng, she became panicky and suspicious, and felt that no one could be trusted, and no one was worthy of her affection.The only exception is Jiang Tian.

So she didn't even realize that she regarded this son as a life-saving straw, and her survival instinct made her hold on tightly, for fear that if she turned her head, even this one and only would disappear.

Seeing that she was in a daze for a long time without replying, Jiang Tian pursed his lips and lowered his eyes.He rested his elbows on his knees and clasped his fingers loosely.After a while, he asked again, "How was your chat with him?"

"Who?" Jiang Ou was at a loss for a moment before realizing that he was talking about Ji Huanyu, so she replied, "It's different from what I imagined."

Jiang Tian turned her head to look at her, she frowned lightly and thought about it: "I thought I would be very uncomfortable, anxious and sweating or something, but I didn't. He has changed so much that I almost didn't recognize him. Maybe he really had a good time No, I have nothing to be angry about."

This time Jiang Tian didn't speak, and was silent for a long time, so long that Jiang Ou couldn't sit still, so he glanced at him.

"Xiao Tian?" Jiang Ou called him.

"Ah."

"Do you think Mom is ridiculous?"

Jiang Tian twitched the corner of his mouth, it was not a smile at all."It's not funny, I just can't figure it out," he said.

"What can't you figure out?" Jiang Ou asked warmly.

Jiang Tian didn't raise his eyes, and asked quietly: "Even Ji Huanyu, you can say nothing, why can't I?"

Jiang Ou's heart twitched violently, as if someone had pinched a bit of flesh on the tip of his heart with the sharpest nails.

Although he spoke directly, he never asked such a question.I'm afraid that she will be restless, insomnia or emotionally collapsed.He suppressed his own temper and made insinuations for so many years, but today was the first time he couldn't hold back.

"Am I more unacceptable than Ji Huanyu?"

His tone was actually calm, like he was really just confused.The more this happened, the more painful Jiang Ou felt.

Once bitten by a snake for ten years, she was afraid of well ropes, and she got into a bull's-eye all these years, just because she was afraid that she would not be able to raise herself well, and that Jiang Tian would stray into Ji Huanyu's path... In the final analysis, she just didn't want Jiang Tian to have anything to do with Ji Huanyu. similarities.

But she never expected that Jiang Tian would put himself and Ji Huanyu on the same scale after going around in a big circle.And she was tongue-tied, not knowing how to refute.

She wanted to say of course not, how could it be possible?You are very different from Ji Huanyu.

But when she looked around in a daze, she found that in these years, everything she did seemed to be on the opposite side of this point of view, and every reaction of hers seemed to be clamoring "you will become that scum if you are not careful" .

The scariest thing is that if Jiang Tian didn't ask, she would never even realize it.

but……

"I really didn't mean that, Xiaotian." Jiang Ou took a sip of water, squeezed the cup and slowly suppressed his emotions.The process of facing Ji Huanyu just now provided her with experience, and she subconsciously recalled that moment, trying to imagine herself as a bystander.Sitting in front of her was not her son, but a strange young man who was trying to talk to her.

She is less prone to anxiety, much better than previous years.she's just sad...

In order to avoid violent emotional ups and downs these years, and because of drugs, she has not organized her thoughts for a long time, or she has not "thought" this behavior for a long time, so that at this moment, too many words flooded mouth, she didn't know what to say.

After a long silence, she finally found the beginning of a sentence: "I actually tried it."

Jiang Tian raised his eyes.

It was like an encouragement. She squeezed the cup and continued: "Mom really tried to understand. I didn't need to take medicine for a while. They all hope that their sons and daughters can get married and have a good baby? My mother, your grandmother told me before. She said that she thought that when she was old, she was gone, what should I do alone? Well, she is relieved to have a reliable person who can take care of me. In fact, I am almost the same, I just think..."

She paused, her eye circles a little red.She bowed her head and took a sip of water before she said, "My son was lonely when he was a child, and no one took care of him. In fact, it's strange that Ji Huanyu is useless, and I'm not qualified myself. It's better for an old man without blood to kiss you. But The old man is getting older, and his health is not as good as before. Including myself, I will go first in the future. If you were not married at that time, you would still be alone. It doesn’t matter at ordinary times. What if you are sick? Are you in trouble? In the future Are you older?"

Jiang Tian moved a bit: "Marriage can't guarantee these things."

"I know." Jiang Ou said very slowly, always with a nasal tone, "You see, Mom really thought about it. I told myself later that getting married doesn't mean anything, and it might be a problem if you get married. Li, I am a living example. But I have you, who will you have in the future? I thought and thought at that time, and I was stuck in it for many days and couldn't get out."

Jiang Tian pondered for a long time, then turned to Jiang Ou: "When you came to Wutong to pick me up, what you thought was that someone would take care of you when you were 80 or [-] years old?"

"Of course not." Jiang Ou said.

"Then why should I think?" Jiang Tian said.

He didn't ask questions, and his tone was not serious, as always, he was indifferent, with a bit of helplessness and arrogance.But Jiang Ou was indeed stunned.

"The old man has never been married, never had a child, and he is still being raised. There is only a nurse next to Ji Huanyu." Jiang Tian stroked his knuckles with his thumb, and said in a trance: "Who knows what will happen in the future, so many years in advance Is planning useful?"

"How do you know if you don't try?" Jiang Ou said.

"I tried it when I was 18," Jiang Tian said.

Jiang Ou was suddenly speechless.

18 years old is a hurdle, and since then, Jiang Tian has never had a birthday.She and old man Ding, the professor, classmates or neighbors, whoever tried to prepare for him, would be rejected.He seemed to be afraid of that day, and even hated that day.

As long as he thinks about it, Jiang Ou will feel unbearable.

She bowed her head hastily and took another sip of water.

The corridors are not that warm and the water cools down quickly.Jiang Tian reached for her paper cup, got up and walked to the water room.

In the past few years, Jiang Ou has seen his back many times.Perhaps because this floor is too empty, it seems more and more silent and lonely.The corridor is very long, and the water room is at the other end.

For a moment, Jiang Ou had an illusion.It seems that the lonely figure will walk on the narrow road for a long time, and it will never end.

She clenched her fingers, then suddenly got up and followed.

Jiang Tian was mixing warm water in the water room, and the cup was filled with hot air, covering the stainless steel water tank with a layer of white mist.From the corner of the eye, Jiang Ou followed and stood beside him.

After a few seconds, he heard the other party ask softly: "Does it have to be Xiaowang?"

Jiang Tian was taken aback, almost scalding his index finger with boiling water.

He lowered his eyes, turned off the faucet hastily, stood there holding the slightly hot water cup for a long time, and then said, "Why can't it be him?"

Why is it that even Ji Huanyu can treat Ji Huanyu calmly, but he is always so sensitive when he hears Sheng Wang's name?

There was no blood on Jiang Ou's face, and he looked a little pale: "Because I really regard Xiao Wang as my son."

She knew that Sheng Mingyang was a businessman and would be kind to Jiang Tian, ​​but it was difficult to treat him as her own.But she wasn't, for a long time she really regarded Shengwang as her second son, her own.It's not because she has deep feelings for Sheng Mingyang, but because she regards Sheng Wang as Jiang Tian in another time and space.

"Have I told you before? I have heard a lot about Xiaowang's childhood. I think he is very similar to you when you were young, but he was raised like that, and you were raised like this by me. I often think, If I can be more qualified, I will spend more time with you and spoil you, will you also grow up like Xiao Wang, who can laugh, make trouble and get angry. It's not that he has a better personality than you, I just think... If that's the case, Will you mature a little later, think less, and smile more." Jiang Ou said.

She really regards Shengwang as her son, how can she accept the fact that the two sons are together?

Jiang Tian didn't say a word after hearing those words, just stood silently, staring at the slightly shaking water line in the cup, and after a long time, he suddenly said, "Have you seen him before?"

Jiang Ou didn't react for a while: "Who have you met?"

"Shengwang."

"……No."

"You should see him," Jiang Tian said.

"why?"

"When I saw him a month ago, he couldn't laugh, make trouble, or get angry anymore." He twitched the corners of his lips and laughed at himself, "It took five or six years to raise another Jiang Tian. .”

Jiang Ou's breathing was stagnant, and there was a long gap in his heart, and blood was gurgling.She was very sad, and she didn't know whether it was because of Jiang Tian who said such words, or because of the prestige of becoming "Jiang Tian".Or... because of going around for so many years, turning everyone into "Jiang Tian" himself.

She suddenly remembered the young man she saw outside the hospital, opened her mouth in a daze, and asked, "Is Xiao Wang here?"

"Here, I didn't let him come up." Jiang Tian said.

She subconsciously wanted to ask why, but fortunately she stopped before the words came out, otherwise it would only increase embarrassment.She also wanted to ask "are you together again", but she couldn't ask.Because she even told Ji Huanyu to forget it, she didn't know what position she could use to ask this question.

It seemed that if she asked, she would put the two of them on the same line as Ji Huanyu, which should have been the last thing she wanted to see.

She didn't find a place to ask, but Jiang Tian took the initiative to speak: "I probably can't change someone else."

Jiang Ou froze for a moment.

"I want to be with him for a long time, and I don't want to miss it for a year." Jiang Tian looked at her, "If I can't accept it, I will find you alone in the future, and nothing will change. If I can accept it, then the two will be together. "

He paused and said, "I'm not asking for advice, I just want to tell you."