Ai Min of Fomalhaut's Self-written Book

?Almost suffered from insomnia all night, but Zhao Zhen slept soundly. Occasionally my name was murmured twice in my dream. I felt very sad and pushed him away.

I read a sentence before: Inside and outside the red wall, there is a gap between clouds and mud.It tells the story of a woman and a man who are in love with each other, but become the emperor's concubine by accident. When they are infinitely sad, they make such a sentence.

For me, I am afraid that life and death are separated.

Things have gone so bad, what else can I do?how to think?

The sleeping pillows in Yuhua Palace are made of very good material, and the tears will be sucked up without a trace if they flow into them.

It was probably because I had cried that I could sleep peacefully. When the fourth watch was approaching, I fell into a deep sleep.

When he woke up, it was already bright, and Zhao Zhen had already left, so he must have gone to court early.I looked at the place where he slept, thinking that this life might be ruined, the corners of my eyes were sore, and my heart was full of empty sadness.

Jin Su didn't know when she came to me, seeing that I was just staring at the bedside in a daze, thinking it was because I was missing Zhao Zhen, she sneered and said joyfully, "Your majesty, the emperor has already gone to court early, before I leave When I left, I also specially ordered not to wake up the empress."

I looked up at her blankly.

Jin Su became more and more joyful: "The emperor stayed in Yuhua Palace yesterday, and it will be a matter of time before the concubine confers the title. The servants congratulate the concubine, congratulate the concubine."

My mood sank, and my face couldn't help but turn cold: "I don't like this name, and you shouldn't call me that in the future."

Jin Su's face was startled, she didn't know why I suddenly looked so sad, she just didn't know what to do.

Sighing, he waved his hand at her: "You go down first."

"Yes." She was blessed and stepped back lightly.

Near noon, there was a notification from the internal supervisor at the door:

"The emperor and queen are here."

I have been in the palace for many days, and this is the first time I have seen the Empress. I saw her wearing a golden forged dress with gold and silver wishful cloud patterns carved in silk, with intricate and delicate embroidery on the collar, and a bright red peony on her hair. Without the softness and softness of a woman, it is a bit more solemn.

Her appearance is just ordinary, neither good nor bad, if it wasn't for her father's power, and the queen mother tried her best to win her over, she might not be able to become queen so smoothly.

I don't want to see either of them. Zhao Zhen came here before, and I have never been to the front of the palace to greet him. This time, I saw the queen also came. I thought I might offend her. I will have a hard time in the future, so I will bear it Temperament came to the hall to greet him.

"Are you the Empress Dowager's distant relative Ai Min?" She asked me, her voice was high-pitched.

I looked up at Zhao Zhen.

He said unhurriedly: "Why are you asking this question knowingly?" After that, I looked at me with my eyes, and I lowered my head lightly, not wanting to look at him.

The queen looked at me carefully for a long time: "It's a beauty." After a pause, maybe she felt that I was dressed too casually, and then said: "Why are you so careless? I heard that the emperor often comes to you. Pay attention."

"Yes." I didn't look at her, I just replied lightly.

As soon as she entered the palace and sat down, her maid immediately looked for a tea set to make tea, but she couldn't find it after searching, so she could only stand aside.

Zhao Zhen and her queen sat in the upper seat, and I sat on the side a foot away.

I don't know what else she wants to do besides meeting me this time, she is a little weak, and I don't want to sit as neatly and dignified as her, but I just sit as usual, occasionally looking up at the two of them, the two of them smile He lowered his neck and whispered something.It's nothing to do with me, let alone look up.

The two of them chatted for a while, the queen probably didn't have much interest in me, and got up to leave. Before leaving, she smiled obsequiously at Zhao Zhen: "Your Majesty, don't take advantage of the Queen Mother's kindness, and spend more time with her when you have time." Bar."

Such a few words are probably very reassuring to me.

After the queen left, Zhao Zhen opened the food box that he brought with him, and gave me some cakes. Seeing that I was eating quietly, he said with a negligent smile: "Ming'er, why are you so petty? When the queen comes, she doesn't serve a few pots of good tea."

I didn't even look at him, I just said, "I don't like drinking tea, so I'm not prepared."

Zhao Zhen remembered something and looked around: "Where is the maid with you?"

"out."

Zhao Zhen tapped his fingers on the table, and said: "There are too few maids, I will send a few more maids tomorrow."

I raised my eyes to look at him, then lowered my eyes, fiddled with the chain of nine pieces on the table, and said indifferently: "No, I'm not in the habit of being served by others."

He was silent for a while, and then said softly: "Didn't you pick out the clothes for you and let Bofang deliver them? Why not?"

Those clothes are made of high-quality materials, and the patterns are exquisite and cumbersome, but... I looked up at him: "I don't have the habit of dressing myself up and waiting for others to come back."

Zhao Zhen was stunned by what I said, and there was a little helplessness in his eyes: "That is for other people to see, otherwise." He paused, and looked at me pitifully: "Otherwise they will talk about you behind your back."

Dress up for others to see?

In this huge palace, there is no one I care about. If there is no one I care about, who should I dress up for?Since I'm someone who doesn't care, who am I afraid to say?

I didn't want to talk to him, I just rested my hands on my chest and stopped looking at him with lowered eyes.