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After coming out of the doctor's office, Zhou Zhijie walked downstairs with Xiao Mocun, intending to send him to the parking lot.

Xiao Mocun didn't tell him about the last conflict, but from the other party's expression, he already knew that the situation was not good.

"Don't worry too much." He put his old friend on the shoulder, pretending to be relaxed, "It's not all bad news, at least you now know why you are like a dog."

After speaking, he smiled at Xiao Mocun, and looked at him jokingly.

Xiao Mocun hooked the corner of his mouth in a perfunctory manner, and pushed the hand on his shoulder away: "Who is like a dog."

"You." Zhou Zhijie continued to tease, "Didn't you say that you were a mad dog when facing Yu Nian? May you say it or not?"

As soon as Yu Nian's name was mentioned, Xiao Mocun couldn't pretend the sporadic lightness on his face.The air pressure around him suddenly dropped, and a thick layer of frost formed on his cold facial features.

The last time I came to this hospital was with an ambulance.

The remorse and fear of that night still make his blood run backwards.

The next day after that, Xiao Mocun left the steamed buns at the pet shop in the community, simply packed up a few clothes and left their home, never going back.

He didn't know which day Yu Nian would return home, and he didn't want to take any risks, so he moved away neatly.Now it seems that this is a very correct decision, for himself, for Yu Nian, and for the child.

I don't know if it's human nature or body hormones, Xiao Mocun feels that he has changed a lot since he found out that Yu Nian had a baby with the two of them.When he sees a passerby pushing a stroller on the way to work, he will slam on the brakes more urgently than before. When his colleagues talk about children, he is no longer as uninterested as before, but will listen silently for a while.

What brand of child seat is the safest, which theme park is most suitable for parent-child travel, and what type of insurance should be purchased for children of different ages.He never dismissed these things in the past, but now he began to pay attention.

He knew that he was looking forward to the birth of this child, he was nervous about the safety of Yu Nian and the child, he cared about their well-being, and wanted to do his best to give them the best life, even though he was so ungrateful.

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Zhou Zhijie guessed that he was not feeling well, so he hurriedly comforted him: "It's okay, don't be desperate, this is not like you who are crazy as hell. It's useless to think so much now, since If others can cure it, so can you. Hurry back to the company and ask for leave, and we two will leave as soon as possible."

Xiao Mocun collected his emotions and responded in a low voice.

The two went down the stairs and walked silently on the flat ground of the hospital with the wind blowing.There were yellow leaves on the ground that the cleaners didn't have time to clean, and the feet rustled when they stepped on them. The hem of Alpha's black windbreaker was blown up a little, and he looked tall and straight. It was difficult to link him with any rare disease.

After walking for a while, an uncertain voice suddenly came from behind.

"Silence?"

The two turned around and saw Yu Nian, who was wrapped in a thick coat over the blue and white striped hospital gown, the surprise on his face turned into surprise at the moment when he saw Xiao Mocun's face.

Xiao Mocun's eyes suddenly sank.

Ten days had passed, and he never thought that Yu Nian was still in the hospital.Seeing the thin and thin Beta appearing in front of his eyes, Alpha frowned deeply.

"I'm going back to work first." Zhou Zhijie patted him on the shoulder.

Xiao Mo Cun let out a hum in his throat, his gaze was still tightly locked on Yu Nian, seeing him hesitate for two seconds and then slowly walking towards him, his steps were very careful and steady, probably because he was worried about the flesh and blood in his stomach.

"Why did you come here?" Yu Nian walked half a meter in front of him and looked up at him slightly, his eyes full of expectation.

"Did you come to see me?"

Beta took it for granted that her Alpha came to the hospital to look for him, and couldn't hide the joy in her eyes.His chin has become thinner and his bangs have grown a lot. The large coat on his body seems to be newly bought, and he has never seen it before.

Xiao Mocun looked at Yu Nian like this and remained silent for a long time.

He didn't know what to say, he couldn't open his mouth, and he couldn't tell the other party that he didn't come to see him, but came to treat the illness, which might make each other irreparable.

Yu Nian thought her husband had acquiesced, but she was awkward and refused to say it, and the smile in her eyes was even bigger.He took a step closer, stretched out his hands from the fat cuffs to help her husband tidy up the somewhat messy neckline, lightly pursed his lips and said, "It's the one I bought for you."

Xiao Mocun didn't stop him, and remained silent.

There was more than a smile on Yu Nian's face.His eyes were shining with happiness, and he looked at Xiao Mocun shyly and contentedly, "You made a special trip to visit me and the baby on weekdays, and you also specially wore this windbreaker I gave you, I am very happy."

Then he lowered his eyes and said, "The baby is also very happy."

It's a pity that Xiao Mocun didn't do it on purpose.In a hurry to go out in the morning, he took a coat from the suitcase and put it on over the shirt, never expecting that it was a gift for the third anniversary.

As for Yu Nian...he didn't even know that Yu Nian was still in the hospital.

His neglect and contempt for Yu Nian has reached an extremely bad level, and he even came for medical treatment because the situation was so bad that it couldn't get worse.Now that I have calmed down and thought about it carefully, in fact, he has treated Yu Nian as badly as possible. Over the years, he has escalated from cold violence to real violence, and almost hurt their flesh and blood.

These things can't all be pushed to the so-called pheromone climbing disorder, at most it's just a catalyst to make things worse, rooted in his self-righteousness.

But Yu Nian didn't know about all this, or he didn't care about it.My own Beta loves me like a fool, has no complaints or regrets, and will never leave even if I am afraid.

Xiao Mocun looked at Yu Nian calmly, but the heart in his chest felt strong remorse again, overwhelmed, just like every time he hurt Yu Nian.

After finishing the collar, Yu Nian patted the folds on her husband's shoulders again, as if trying to cover up her panic.

Sure enough, he asked in a low voice while arranging his clothes, "Have you calmed down about what happened last time?"

He was referring to the medicine thing.

"I've thought about it carefully. It's my fault to take medicine without telling you. I should tell you. In fact, I didn't intend to lie to you, but I was afraid of the pain... You are also angry, so let's even it out, okay? ?”

I don't know how long it took him to muster up the courage to say these words, and how many drafts he had to type up to say them so smoothly.After he finished speaking, he didn't dare to look at Xiao Mocun's reaction, so he lowered his eyes and waited quietly.

Speechless for a while.

Yu Nian felt a sense of loss in her heart. She guessed that her husband would not forgive her, but she grabbed her left hand just as she left the windbreaker.

"Why are you so stupid." Xiao Mocun asked in a low voice while holding his wrist.

Yu Nian was taken aback, thinking that Alpha had suddenly gone crazy again, so he didn't pull it away after a few strokes, but let him hold it nervously.

Xiao Mocun stared at him with burning eyes: "You are afraid of me, you are even afraid of me holding your hand like this, but in the end you force yourself to take medicine to please me. In the end, I not only didn't appreciate it, but also beat and scolded you, It made you almost have a miscarriage, and you forgot about it when you turned around, and you are here to help me tidy up my clothes. Yu Nian, how can there be such a stupid person like you in the world?"

Yu Nian was worried about the safety of the baby in his belly. He broke free from his wrist and took a step back while stroking his stomach. His eyes trembled slightly and he said, "Don't be angry, I won't touch your clothes... Let's go back to the ward and sit for a while. -"

"Yu Nian." Xiao Mocun interrupted him, two deep furrows appeared between his brows, and his tone was extremely stiff.

"Don't be so stupid anymore. If I hit you, fight back, hit me with a chair, resist with a knife, if you don't dare, run away. If you are afraid of me, hide away, don't come close to me, don't hurt you and me again Children's chances, don't you understand this?"

The autumn wind passed over the two of them with a cool air. Yu Nian's lips trembled, his neck was tucked into his coat, and his eyes looked at him in fear, as if he didn't understand why he said this suddenly.

"Mo Cun..." His voice added a bit of fear, "What's wrong with you?"

Seeing him like this, Xiao Mocun became even more angry in his heart, and almost blurted out the harsh words.

"What's wrong with me, guess what's wrong with me? Do you know that in the past few years, you have become almost unknown to me, and you circle around me every day, all day long in fear and fear, either asking me what I want to eat or when I will come back , Don’t be angry with one sentence, you are wrong, where is there a little bit of the free and easy life back then?"

These words have been kept in Xiao Mocun's mind for a long time, and he has said it once or twice, but every time Yu Nian seems to have no ears, so what to do afterwards.

When a fist hits cotton, people will not feel relieved.

But this time, his Beta seemed to listen.

Every time he said a word, the other party's eyes became more wet, his lips were tightly pressed, and his hands gathered his coat tighter.

When he finally finished speaking, Yu Nian was quiet for a while, and when he spoke again, his voice was full of disappointment.

"Are you going to hit me again?"

Xiao Mocun was shocked all over, and became dumb for an instant.

In the next second, Yu Nian slowly took a small step back, and the hand on his abdomen did not leave for a moment.He breathed slowly, trying not to let his emotions fluctuate violently, and silently clenched his coat with his fingers.

"Do you know that I don't know you anymore?" His voice was soft and low, confiding his incomprehension, "You were not like this before, you are like two people now."

In the same words, he returned it to his Alpha as it was, and then looked down at his right hand in his abdomen.

"In the past, if you had something to say, you would talk about it. You would teach me to spell the models I couldn't spell. You wouldn't call me stupid if I couldn't solve Sudoku. You would even go to watch the literary movies that you were least interested in with me. He also took off his coat for me to wear, and refused to take it back even when he sneezed on the cold.”

"At that time, you would tell me what you hated to eat, which teacher's class you hated, which great writer's words you hated, and you would also tell me that you liked the smell of me, that I celebrated your birthday, and that you liked to study by yourself with me. "

While talking, Yu Nian fell into the memories he cherished, with smiles and tears on his face, and after a long while, he slowly said: "But now, now we can't say a few words for a week, see It's either a quarrel or a cold war, and it's been a long time since I talked calmly."

The best memories against the most embarrassing reality.

Xiao Mocun hadn't heard Yu Nian say such words for a long time, the most fragile and soft part of his heart was pierced by every word, he raised his eyebrows and asked: "In that case, why didn't you leave me?"

Yu Nian should leave him.

When it rains, you should take an umbrella, and you should leave far away after being injured again and again. The Beta in front of you should have escaped from your side before being riddled with holes.

But Yu Nian looked up at him with red eyes, and said weakly, "Do you think I don't want to?"

"I've thought about it countless times, but I just can't do it."

"I thought about it when you slammed the door and left home for the first time that year. Then you smashed things at home, forced me to be quiet with pheromones, and then you did something to me. I thought about it every time."

He counted each of Xiao Mocun's crimes in detail, as if turning out the scars on his heart and laying them out in the sun.

"I advised myself to forget it. What are you holding on to? You won't change back to your original appearance. It's time to leave you and start a new life. It's no big deal to change your glands."

Speaking of this, he choked up hard, his voice was hoarse, and his fingertips holding his clothes trembled slightly.

"But I just can't do it... I just can't get out of that house, I can't convince myself to leave you, I want to go back to the past even in my dreams. Tell me, what can I do?"

Yu Nian just looked up at his Alpha, tears streaming down his cheeks silently, and he didn't say a word for a long time.

Loving someone is so involuntary.

Xiao Mocun may not understand it, but Yu Nian knows it well.

His free-spiritedness and optimism didn't play a single role in love. From the moment he met Xiao Mocun, he seemed to have accepted the most vicious curse of fate. The shackles of emotion firmly bind the hands and feet.