[Korean Entertainment] If it were you, I would love it

, Some people went to the dance floor to dance, and some drank wine in twos and threes.

Uncontrollably, he found Quan Zhilong's figure.It was in a somewhat dark corner, very intimate with his girlfriend, even - kissing.

Sad, sad, still sad...

Han Yezhen sat alone on the bar counter and kept drinking, trying to use alcohol to numb the sourness that kept pouring up in her chest.

Although it was a welcome party for herself, she didn't know anyone here except her uncle and Quan Zhilong...

This time I came back and thought about countless scenarios of getting along with him, but I never thought it would be like this.Without the joy of reuniting with old friends, it seems that only oneself is responsible for the friendship of childhood.

Over the years, he has hinted secretly, so smart and delicate, does he really not know his own intentions?Han Yizhen took a sip of wine, shook her head and forced herself not to think deeply.

"Ah, don't you know him! There is a person in your heart who wants to give her the whole world, how can you win his heart..." Han Yizhen has known him for so many years, and perhaps knows him better than herself.

If he likes someone, he will give her the best, he will be full of her, and he will be very dependent...

"Let's go... I saw it with my own eyes, there is nothing to be reconciled to. But, please be happy..." Han Yizhen drank the whiskey in the glass in one gulp, wiped away her tears, got up and left this place that did not belong to her .

The next day, Han Yezhen went to Quan's house in person to bid farewell to the elders and Quan Damei, and then took a taxi to the airport.While waiting at the airport, he called his uncle who was in a meeting. Yang Xianshuo pinched the bridge of his nose and complained in his heart, what am I trying to do? I just started the welcome party and went back the next day.Apparently, Yang Xianshuo was used to his niece's magical touch, so he just told him to be careful.

When Han Yizhen was about to check the ticket, she turned her head for the last time... resolutely turned and entered the aisle, but at the same time as she was smiling, a tear fell from the corner of her eye, which looked extraordinarily crystal clear under the refraction of the light.

Park Ji's distress

After Han Yezhen returned to the United States, it didn't take long for her to transfer to the UK alone.She just needs a quiet space now. If she is at home, sooner or later the family will find out that something is wrong with her.

After finishing her business in Japan, Pu Zhi hurried back to South Korea, only to find that she had already left. For this reason, she went to find Han Yezhen after she transferred to England and harassed her for a while.

Three years passed in a flash,

On the afternoon of Christmas Eve, Han Yezhen sat on the bay window of the apartment with an open book, but her eyes were lost in thought as she watched the dancing snowflakes outside the window.

Paying attention to him has become a deep-rooted habit, and I can't get rid of it.Thinking of the news I read the day before yesterday, “At the MNETASIA MUSICA WARDS awards show on November 11, G-DRAGON won four awards: Best Singer of the Year, Best Male Singer, Best Dance Performance Male Singer, and Best Music Video.” Han Yezhen Can't help being happy for him, every award represents further recognition for him.She knows how much Quan Zhilong has paid for his favorite music career.

In the past three years, Han Yezhen has accumulated a lot, but the cheerful smile on her face has become less and less.She is definitely a weirdo in the eyes of her classmates!Because she has always been alone.Some boys fell in love with her because of her exquisite and beautiful appearance and talent of famous colleges, but no one could take off this rose.

She said, "Loneliness is a special condiment. It is bitter and unbearable in the mouth at first. When you get used to its taste, you will feel that it has a special sweetness. The last thing I need now is someone to accompany me." By my side, I want to recall our few memories by myself..."

The quiet room was broken by a sudden bell.

"surprise!"

As soon as Han Yizhen opened the door, she saw Pu Zhi appearing in front of her holding a large bouquet of colorful roses.

"Why are you here? You didn't tell me in advance, so I can pick up the plane!" Han Yizhen took the flower and turned sideways to let Pu Zhi come in.

As soon as Pu Zhi entered the living room, he threw himself on the sofa, "Ah, Miss Ben is exhausted! In order to buy colorful roses for you, I traveled more than half of London to get them together!"

Then she took a sip of water and continued: "I said you've almost exiled yourself enough. Could it be that you really won't return to Korea in this life? Uncles and aunts have moved their headquarters back."

Han Yizhen put the roses in the vase, and replied calmly: "Yesterday, my brother called and gave me an ultimatum, and also took care of the graduation procedures for me. Now, I can leave at any time."

Park Zhiyi shrugged and didn't dwell on this issue, and began to hang on Han Yezhen and ask if he had a partner.

"Yejin, I'm hungry..." Pu Zhi blinked her deer-like eyes, and said that she missed the ramen you made...

Han Yezhen pinched Pu Zhi's baby-fat cheeks, and ordered her to cook.Pu Zhi was wandering around, looking at this and that.She was suddenly attracted by the medicine bottles on the bedside of her bedroom, why did she take medicine?This is Pu Zhi's question.

She picked it up and looked at it. They were all incomprehensible technical terms, and there were no functions marked on them.She took a photo and sent it to a doctor friend, asking what kind of medicine it was.

As a result, looking at the text messages sent back by the other party, I couldn't get back to my senses for a long time.

"The second stage of depression turned into the third stage...do you like him to this extent..."

Pu Zhi walked to the door of the kitchen and looked at the busy Han Yizhen, feeling as if she had been in another world. How could such a cheerful person suffer from depression...

"When are you going to tell me?"

Han Yezhen happened to be holding the prepared ramen and was jumped by Park Zhi behind him, "I was scared to death, when will I tell you?"

Pu Zhi didn't speak, just looked at her calmly.

"You already know..."

It turned out that after Han Yezhen left Korea, she was immersed in sad and negative emotions every day and had nightmares all night. In order to prevent her family from noticing that something was wrong with her, she transferred to the UK alone.In order to numb my heart that is about to break, I either draw pictures and make clothes every day, or drink alcohol. When I am awake, I cry alone in the empty room.

After more than a month of such days, she began to suffer from insomnia all night, and she could only keep her eyes open until dawn in bed.When she realized that she could not control her emotions, she went to the hospital for an examination and found that she had mild depression.

In the following days, she began to cooperate with the treatment, but the effect was minimal.From the initial 1 drug to the current 5 drugs.Ten years of obsession plus every time she sees reports about him and Kiko, she feels like she's losing control and bursting.

Sometimes she thought, forget it like this, don't need treatment.Every time she went to the hospital for biological treatment, she had the illusion that she had died once.Coupled with the psychological torture, Han Yezhen took sleeping pills several times and tried to swallow them all, but when she remembered that her family still couldn’t let go of him, her emotions broke down again to the point of throwing the pills against the wall, squatting weakly on the ground, hugging herself and crying bitterly .

Pu Zhi learned from the doctor friend that Han Yezhen's symptoms are more serious now, and it is easier to fall into extremes if there is any stimulation.

"Do uncle, aunt and Brother Zaihuan know about it?" Pu Zhi couldn't hide the worry on his face.

Han Yezhen shook her head, "The last thing I want to see is that he gets hurt because of my liking. Since it's not me that makes him happy, at least don't let him get hurt because of me." Han Yezhen looked at Pu Zhi seriously, " This matter is our secret! Promise me not to tell anyone."

Pu Zhi really couldn't imagine how there could be such a stupid person in the world who would not look back after hurting himself completely.But looking at his friend's earnest eyes with pleading eyes, he couldn't say the words of rejection.

Park Zhi hugged Han Yezhen, her voice choked up: "There is not only one Quan Zhilong in the world, but also Han's father, Han's mother, brother Zaihuan, Uncle Yang and me. You must persevere for us. When you recover from illness , let me introduce you to a boy who is more handsome than him, more talented than him, and has a better personality than him."

Han Yezhen stroked Pu Zhi's hair and said softly, "Okay..."

It's a pity that no matter how good it is, it's not him...

The next day, Han Yezhen returned to Korea with Park Ji.

……

sorry i want to leave

In August, after accepting the ice bucket challenge for the second time, GD uploaded the video to ins "peaceeminusone" and named it mydearkiko

On August 8, kiko appeared at GD's birthday party

On October 10, the two were at a private part in Cheongdam-dong late at night. GD touched Kiko's cheek from time to time, and there was a suspected kissing movement. The two took pictures of each other with their mobile phone cameras.At the same time, Quan Zhilong's friend Yokan was present.

On November 11, a photo of the two of them eating at a Korean restaurant was posted on ins by netizens. Kiko, who was sitting sideways, was all smiles, and GD turned his back to the camera.

……

It has been a whole year since Han Yezhen came back to Korea, and she smiled happily every day, as if that cheerful and bright girl had returned. Even Pu Zhi, who was always worried at the beginning, thought that Han Yezhen's condition had improved.

However, what they didn't know was that Han Yezhen had to rely on sleeping pills to fall asleep every night, and sometimes she would wake up with cramps due to pain, and six new drugs were added to control depression in a year.Every time I read their reports, there will be a sharp knife scratching my already broken heart.

November 2014, 11 was the busiest day of the year Han Yejin came to Korea.

"Mom, I'm going to visit Uncle Quan and Aunt Quan today, and I won't be able to stay there tonight." Han Yezhen called Han Mu while sitting in a low-key coffee shop in Seoul