Love to hear

The moon and stars were sparse, and it was still cold without wind. Su Chengyin kept the windows tight and made up his mind secretly with his fingers on the curtains.

Besides Su Qiu, there was another person he wanted to confess to. Su Chengyin turned around, picked up her phone and sat cross-legged on the small bed: Are you home?

The other side quickly replied to him: On the bus.

SCY: There is something I have kept from you for a long time. Today I voluntarily surrendered. Can I be punished lightly?

Seam: Oh?how long?

SCY: From the first day we met until now.

Xie Qiao: That's not an easy punishment. You can think it over before you talk about it. I'll get off the bus and hail a taxi and I'll kill you in no time.

With a smile in his eyes, Su Chengyin hung his fingertips on the screen, thought for a while, and just about to switch from Jiugongge to voice, there was a light knock on the bedroom door.

There was a shadow in the crack of the door, Su Chengyin looked at the shadow and took a deep breath, he went back to the crack first: Auntie wanted to talk to me, I'll get back to you later.

Looking up again, Su Qiu had already opened the door and walked in, holding a glass of milk and looking around, she was stunned: "This..."

What's the deal with the soft light that fills the room like a galaxy?

Su Chengyin also raised his head to look at the light and shadow falling on the wall, mottled and intertwined, so beautiful.

He laughed, turned around and patted the rattan night light on the bedside table, Su Qiu suddenly realized, and she praised: "Did you buy it for the Chinese New Year? It looks pretty."

After she finished speaking, she paused, and suddenly remembered what she was here for. She looked at Su Chengyin with a restrained smile, turned into a probing look, and asked softly, as if after these few hours, she finally recovered from her shock: "What about rest?"

Su Chengyin nodded, took the milk with one hand and patted the bed with the other, and Su Qiu sat opposite him, wringing and rubbing his fingers, and said, "Xinyu fell asleep, I...I've been thinking about it, but... .”

After taking a sip of milk and putting it on the bedside table, Su Chengyin typed: Auntie, I'm not being bullied, don't worry.

"Ah...you didn't get caught, then, that's good..." Stumbling, Su Qiu didn't know how to ask, "Your brother, he is not sensible, I'm worried...he Never lie, although it is annoying, but he dare not lie... What he said... I still want to ask you in the end--"

Su Chengyin held Su Qiu's wrist and interrupted her questioning, which caused both of them torment. He half raised his body to reach the chair, took the diary out of the schoolbag and put it in the middle of the bed.

Su Qiu asked suspiciously, "What is this?"

It's been too long, no wonder she has forgotten it, she only saw Su Chengyin holding it in the year Su Chun passed away, and later this diary was like Su Chengyin's autistic refusal. The year suddenly disappeared.

Su Chengyin raised the corners of his lips slightly, he sat next to Su Qiu, and typed: Auntie, I'm really sorry, I've kept some things from you.

Su Qiu tightened her heart. The former little Douding beside her had grown into a big boy. Thinking about it, she had never been angry with him, nor had she ever been disappointed in him. At this moment, she couldn't tell what kind of emotion she was feeling.

Su Chengyin continued without hesitation for a moment: I can talk.

He paused for a moment before putting down his phone to look at Su Qiu. Seeing her bewildered and surprised expression, he said, "Auntie."

Su Qiu slowly opened her eyes wide, and covered her mouth with her hands, as if her eardrums had been cut by the hoarse voice, she slowly shook her head in disbelief, watching Su Chengyin touch her throat, her lips opened and closed, leaking out that it wasn't her The hallucinated voice: "I don't remember how the doctor diagnosed it at the beginning. I did burn out my throat. I couldn't speak for a long time, and it hurt. But later, I can actually talk."

Blinking his eyes, Su Qiu burst into tears.

Su Chengyin pursed her lips, and smiled at her lightly and cautiously: "It's the voice... The voice is terrible, like a hundred-year-old little old man."

The only sound left in the room was Su Qiu's uncontrollable sobbing.

Even after presetting it thousands of times, Su Chengyin still couldn't hold back his red eyes. He rubbed his face, took a tissue and handed it to Su Qiu: "I'm sorry, I really kept it from you for a long time."

The paper towel was slapped away, and it flew to the ground and rolled a few times before stopping.

Su Qiu was extremely sad, she suppressed the desire to cry, grabbed Su Chengyin's wrist with her backhand and asked him: "Why!"

Because he wants to be cared for, because Lin Chu doesn't like him.

"Because it's nice to be dumb..."

"Stupid?!"

Su Qiu couldn't bear it anymore, sobbing and yelling at him: "Are you stupid! Are you stupid! Are you stupid! How old were you then? Ah? You are so capable and thoughtful! Are you stupid! "

Su Chengyin clenched his teeth, tears fell down uncontrollably, he leaned over and hugged Su Qiu, feeling her trembling, his heart was filled with grievance and sadness, he wanted to open his mouth to apologize, he wanted to tell her not to cry, Isn't this something to be happy about?

He buried his head into Su Qiu's neck, his greed was so overwhelming that he couldn't say anything except sobbing.

Su Qiu hugged him tightly in grief and anger, and cried and scolded him one sentence after another, scolding him for being stupid, scolding him for not hiding it all his life, scolding him for being so ignorant, sobbing hard, gradually unable to continue scolding.

After a while, Su Chengyin stroked Su Qiu's back to help her calm down. He whispered in her ear, "Auntie, I'm sorry."

Su Qiu murmured blankly: "I'm sorry? What are you sorry for me...you didn't...it was me---"

"There are still many things," Su Chengyin interrupted her, "There are still many things to tell you."

"...I don't want to hear it anymore," Su Qiu felt tired, "Stop talking."

Su Chengyin let go of his embrace, both of them were still in tears, he shook his head and said firmly: "Wei Baiwen, I asked you before if you knew him, remember?"

Su Qiu didn't respond, and looked at their hands holding each other with downcast eyes.

"I also asked you, do you know where I came from? You said that my mother loves me so much, where else did it come from besides the flesh and blood that fell from her body? Remember?"

Bringing the diary over, Su Chengyin turned to that page, pointed to "Wei Baiwen" and showed it to Su Qiu: "This is written by my mother."

Su Qiu lowered her head slightly, her eyes were filled with tears so she couldn't see clearly: "And then."

Su Chengyin closed the diary, and a long past was brought up again by Xu Xu. With a hoarse voice, he calmly and seriously told about regrets, chance encounters and the truth.

The story sounds so long, and after the story is over, the silence is even longer.

Su Chengyin became more and more panicked in the silence where even the sobs disappeared. He leaned over and leaned on Su Qiu's shoulder: "Auntie, talk to me."

After hearing this, Su Qiu snorted, "What did you say?" She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, "You said you were picked up by my sister, but it turned out to be closer than your own, just as stupid as you are?"

"I...I'm telling you, to—"

"What are you thinking? Want me to know that you are not my nephew, and tell you to get out of my house immediately?"

Su Qiu raised his hand and patted his face: "Will you kiss me, it's been 12 years."

That's right, it's been 12 years, but when the 12 years of deep feelings were stuck in the choice, neither Su Qiu nor he chose it.

"Auntie, Wei Baiwen said that my throat can be cured, are you happy?"

"Nonsense, what do you say?"

Su Chengyin closed her eyes: "There is one more happy thing."

Su Qiu let out a long sigh, and the tears finally subsided: "Well, you really didn't lie to me, one thing after another, you hid it well."

"I...I have someone I like, and Xinyu saw it tonight."

Su Chengyin straightened up, ready to be slapped: "It's Chen Qi."

"Yes...Xinyu saw it tonight...I just wanted to ask you what's going on...What are you doing in the corner?"

"Kissing in..."

Different from Su Qiu in all the presets, she stared at the legs of the table and nodded calmly: "It's one thing to think about it, but another thing to hear you admit it."

After saying that, she shed tears again, she had thought a lot in the past few hours after dinner, she turned her head to look at Su Chengyin: "I really want to slap you."

Su Chengyin pursed her lips.

Su Qiu raised his face and took a deep breath: "It's okay, it's just a disease. It's a mental illness. I checked it out. How can a man like a man? You have a mental problem. I'll take you to see it. It can be cured."

Su Chengyin was stunned, and grabbed her arm again: "No! I, I don't! How can liking someone be sick?"

"If you like girls then—"

"I don't like it, I just like him!"

Su Qiu was taken aback by his eager yelling. She suddenly broke away from his hands and frowned: "Why are you crazy? Chengyin, what happened to you tonight? Are you trying to piss me off? ? I’m here to tell you in a good voice, Xinyu would have been beaten to death by me long ago!”

Su Chengyin has no way to explain: "I...No, I don't want to anger you, I..."

"I have learned something wrong." Su Qiu murmured shaking his head, "You are very capable, and you have kept it from me for so many years, but it is a good thing anyway, I forgive you for not caring about you, but I really didn't care enough. But this is absolutely impossible, is it because of a mental illness, mental illness, liking men? Do you still want to live after letting others know?"

She thought that Su Qiu would be angry and would scold him and beat him, but she never thought it would be like this.

Su Chengyin cried in despair: "I can't live without him."

Su Qiu was furious: "Su Chengyin!"

"Auntie, if I hadn't been bumped into by Xinyu tonight, I originally wanted to wait until the night before the college entrance examination to tell you all this. I...I didn't come here to ask for your consent, whether you agree or not, I All with him."

"Together? Why are you together? Are you able to have children or he can?!"

Su Chengyin wiped away tears, choked up and said: "Just together, we will go abroad together after the college entrance examination, go abroad to study in university, we will---"

With a slap down, Su Qiu's entire palm hurt and numb.

"Going abroad, going far away?" Su Qiu laughed angrily, "No wonder you told me that you picked it up. After a long time, it turned out that you disliked me, not your aunt, and you wanted to leave this house quickly, right?!"

"No! No!" In the blink of an eye, red and swollen palm prints appeared on his face. Su Chengyin cried out of breath, grabbed Su Qiu's wrist and hurriedly explained, "I like this place, I've always wanted to stay here and watch Xinyu grow up, but, but---"

"But what! I'm so angry with Su Chengyin, what's his phone number, do his parents know that their son is so disgusting?!"

"But you don't want me!"

Su Chengyin broke down and cried, the "disgusting" made him feel unspeakable.

"It was snowing, on the day it was snowing, I heard it. You were arguing, and I stood at the door. I heard everything. I stayed at this house and didn't leave. My uncle hates me. Let me go as far away as possible. I heard you divorced..."

Su Qiu was stunned.

The small bedroom filled with warm light was fragmented, and no one heard the movement at the door.

Lin Chu inserted the keyhole a few times before opening the door. As soon as he entered the room, he saw Xinyu walking through the living room on his waist. He was curious and hiccupped and smiled: "What are you doing, little brat?"

Xinyu raised a finger in front of her pouting lips: "Eavesdrop."

Lin Chu came to change his shoes, bent over and hugged him "hey": "Eavesdropping is not a good habit."

Xinyu was carried into the bedroom and stuffed under the quilt, Lin Chu patted him on the head: "I'm not afraid of catching a cold, what do you want to eavesdrop on?"

Xinyu pinched his nose because of his father's smell of alcohol, and said sharply: "My mother went to ask my brother for a long time, and it seems that there was a quarrel, which woke me up."

"What?" Lin Chu took off his coat, sat on the edge of the bed, covered the back of his neck and turned his head back and forth to relax, "What are you asking? Your brother is so obedient all day long, what can happen?"

Xinyu wrinkled his face, the grievances he had suffered from his brother and his mother tonight flooded into his head, and said angrily: "It's a big deal! But no one listens to me, I'm so mad!"

Lin Chu laughed haha ​​and scolded him, "Come and talk to Dad, Dad will give you justice."

In the small bedroom, Su Qiu swallowed. She was so emotional that she could only randomly recall some fragments of that night.

The room was so dark, I just wanted to take Yuan University, but suddenly I had the urge to go far away, as if paving the way for her to send him away.

Su Qiu raised his arms and hugged the weeping Su Chengyin, "That's...that's not..." As he spoke, his voice gradually became louder, and finally he said firmly, "It's not that you like men. Reason! You just have a mental problem!"

He guessed again: "Or... Did he lie to you? That's why you said that he took you abroad? How much does it cost to go abroad, huh? Is he playing with you and making a deal with you?"

The more I talked, the more I felt that this was a possibility. Su Qiu grabbed his shoulders and pushed him away, saying in horror: "What did he do to you? How far have you guys gone?!"

Su Chengyin broke away from her: "No, no... How can you trust me? He's so good, he's not. "

From the corner of the eye, I caught a glimpse of the diary, which recorded Chen Qi's tenderness and love for him. No one would treat him like this again. Su Chengyin picked up the diary: "Auntie, you can read—"

Su Qiu was so frightened by her conjecture that she lost her mind. She snatched the diary and threw it on the ground, screaming almost sharply: "Say! What did that bastard do to you!"

Bang.

The door of the small bedroom was slammed open and crumbling.

Lin Chu rushed in blushing, his chest was heaving violently, and his face was full of disgust towards Su Chengyin: "What good thing have you done for my son to see! Ah? Are you disgusting? Are you fucking sick? !"

Wrapped in the quilt, Xinyu cried, he didn't know what he did wrong, why his father dropped the lamp and went out angrily, he also heard his mother's cry, but he didn't dare to get out of bed Otherwise he would have seen his brother standing by the bed, helpless in the face of contempt.

Su Qiu squatted on the ground covering his face and weeping bitterly. Lin Chu glanced at her, then at Su Chengyin who was sobbing, and scratched his head on the spot and turned around twice: "I have already said that there is something wrong with this child. Fuck, it's just too disgusting. , you fucked up men and got it to the door, and let my son see it, it's too dirty!"

The rude scolding continued, Su Chengyin looked up at Lin Chu, and he said angrily: "I didn't mess around."

Lin Chu was still scolding, but the scolding stopped suddenly. He stared at Su Chengyin suddenly: "You...you just said, talked?"

"I didn't mess around." Su Chengyin repeated, he couldn't do it, he couldn't make sense, he gave up and said, "Little aunt, little uncle, you go out, I will move to live in school tomorrow."

You go out, you who say something disgusting, don't stay in my warm light.

Su Chengyin bent down/pulled Su Qiu up: "I don't have any complaints about your choice of this home, really, it's just that I have my own choice now, and you should be happy for me."

Su Qiu was dizzy, and was caught by Lin Chu. Lin Chu was still in shock, and the wine was so frightened that he woke up. His eyes widened, and there was horror in them besides disgust. His Adam's apple rolled with difficulty, and asked, "You When will you be able to speak?"

Su Chengyin said coldly: "Six years old."

Lin Chu dragged Su Qiu back, shaking his head again and again: "Damn, you must have something wrong, you must be fucking psychopathic, you! You hurry up, and don't come back after you leave tomorrow!"

Su Chengyin looked at him, his eyes hurt too much from crying, and he couldn't stop the pain even if he closed it tightly.

"I don't listen to you," he said.

Lin Chu was still shouting, and Su Qiu was still crying.

Su Chengyin walked to the door, and the moment the door lock fell, this tragic coming out was finally over.

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