[Tutor] Eight-pack abs Sakuragi-san

"Vongola's candidate for heir, Tsunayoshi Sawada, and XANXUS, who is also a candidate for heir."

"To become the orthodox heir, one must have the complete Vengley Ring. In order to fight for ownership, the two must have a duel between the Agang family and Varian!"

In this way, with a few simple words, my destiny seems to be completely bound.

Looking at the father in the orange worker's clothes, he obviously still looked strange and sloppy, but he couldn't recognize him at all.Even with such a deep blood relationship, at this moment, it seems to be stranger than passers-by.

Everything, without even asking for my own opinion.

It's just that I told myself simply, and then I was forced to accept it.

I remember before, Brother Dino said: "Gang, haven't you seen your position clearly?"

I could only twiddle my movements, and then laughed a few words, not daring to reach out to take the box of Vongola's ring in Dino's hand, and immediately found a lame excuse to leave quickly.

What do they want me to see clearly?

Can you see what kind of cowardly waste Vengley's candidate for the tenth leader is?

Can you see clearly that the ordinary companions around you are innocently involved in dangerous battles because of me?

Seeing that someone I hold dear is going to be seriously injured and hospitalized in order to protect me?

See clearly - do I have no choice to refuse at all?

After Rambo's Ring of Thunder was targeted and then injured by a stranger;

The moment when a flame ignited from the palm of XANXUS, and the huge killing intent made me unable to move;

From the time when Dad stood on a high place and condescendingly announced the battle of Pengelie's candidates;

I seem to finally see clearly...

This is a life-stakes battle, and I have no way out.

In the past few days, I have been receiving special training from Li Baowen every day, being pushed down from the cliff, stepping on small rocks surrounded by landmines, rolling and drinking water under the waterfall... These special trainings let me It's completely unbearable, but it can only be accepted passively.

But after being exhausted every day, he would still go to the hospital to see that Sakuragi-san who was still sleeping.

The sunlight penetrated through the gap in the curtains, and just spread a thin and long light spot, which gently sprinkled on one side of the girl's cheek.The girl's whole body seemed to be filled with soft orange light, giving her a kind, very warm feeling.

The girl's hands were wrapped in white bandages, her face was bloodless, and her long black hair was casually draped over her shoulders. After taking off the thick black frame, the girl's delicate face showed a faint beauty.

Today, I didn't wake up again.

Even though he hadn't woken up yet, just looking at the sleeping Sakuragi-san like this made him feel relieved all of a sudden.

The time engraved by the time seems to have forgotten the passage at this moment. I really want to stay here forever, just watching the girl quietly like this. Even in such a peaceful time, I feel extremely satisfied.

In my mind, I couldn't help but recall that day, when the bright red and warm blood seeped into my shirt, even though it hurt, I just suppressed it and didn't make a sound, the girl just kept trembling like that, and then stretched out her hands tightly Hug yourself.

At that moment, his vision seemed to be dyed red by the blood, and the temperature of the blood was enough to burn his skin. For the first time, there was such a huge and shocking fear in his heart, as if he would be completely swallowed up in the next second.

Twice, it was like that—assaulted, badly wounded, taken to the hospital.

And all of this is for myself.

This should be Sakuragi-san's misfortune. After meeting her, her good life has turned into such a ghost.

However, even if Sakuragi-san wakes up, he won't blame himself.He must have just put on his glasses casually, and said that he was really unlucky, to have encountered such a thing after skipping class once.Then I guess I have to seriously warn myself not to skip cram school anymore, but to study hard.

Although it may not be appropriate to use the word gentle, I really think Sakuragi-san is a very gentle person.

The girl looked at her with unreserved trust forever.

Looking at myself with those eyes, sometimes I feel very strange, as if I saw a completely different self, and then I naturally gained confidence in myself.

However, he really hasn't changed at all.

At the beginning, I always tried my best to do everything well, but no matter what I did, it seemed that I had never had the talent.

No one will be used to being called a waste material at the beginning, but when they are called, they can't help but laugh at themselves, and then they get used to it.

Even if I didn't do good deeds, I would think to myself, it doesn't matter, I am a waste material.When encountering something that is a bit difficult, he would think, how could the waste material gang do such a thing well.

Therefore, how can I, who is a waste material, be qualified for the position of Pengelie Judaime.

People like me who don't believe that they will become the leader of the mafia, people who dare not face the enemy cowardly, people who still can't believe in themselves even if they want to protect everyone, what the hell? What qualifications do people have to risk their lives to protect?

Takeshi Yamamoto, Hayato Gokuji, and even Brother Ping have been training desperately these days, and all of this is for me, for me who is so weak and inferior, thinking about it this way, I feel—a little sad .

It was me who failed everyone's expectations.

Then, the next day, Sakuragi-san finally woke up.

I have never been so eager to see those dark green pupils, and I have never felt such inflated joy in my heart after feeling the girl's gaze, and I was so excited that I almost wanted to cry on the spot.

The girl's eyes didn't change at all, and she didn't blame her at all. Instead, she looked worriedly at the wounds on her body after training.And I just looked at the bandage on Sakuragi-san's hand, and every time I saw it, I felt a stabbing pain in my chest. This was the wound left because of me, the scar that would leave a mark.Even Sakuragi-san is a girl, so she must be concerned about these conspicuous marks on her arms.

Then, when I was walking downstairs in the hospital with Sakuragi-san, I finally said it.

That day, Takeshi Yamamoto said: "Sakuragi is working so hard because he likes Ganga, and Ganga and Sakuragi are dating now."

Then I suddenly understood that in the eyes of other people, I was dating Sakuragi.It turned out that Sakuragi had always thought so too.

That's why I want to sleep on the same bed with myself dependently;

That's why, after he caught her who fell from mid-air, he blushed and said such strong words to himself;

That's why I told myself in the swimming pool that if I wanted to see a bikini, I would secretly change it for myself in the future;

That's why, on that day, I tried desperately to protect myself with my body...

only--

[I already have someone I like, and I have been secretly in love for several years. 】

This sentence is what Sakuragi-san said the day before Valentine's Day.

Although I have fantasized that perhaps Sakuragi-san likes me, this sentence proves that Sakuragi-san does have someone he likes, and it is absolutely impossible to be him.

That's right, how could I, who had only been in contact with Sakuragi-san for a few months, be worth the person whom Sakuragi-san had been secretly in love with for several years.Moreover, the person Sakuragi-san likes must be a very good boy.

I'm really... so envious.

However, there must be a misunderstanding.

After amnesia, Sakuragi-san, who can't remember anything, can only rely on me to learn about the past. My mother said that Sakuragi-san was my girlfriend, and she also mentioned that they had gone on a date together.Even Bi Yangqi and her surrounding companions have always said that Sakuragi-san has a good relationship with her, and she has always forgotten to explain, so Sakuragi-san thinks that she is her boyfriend.

That's why she thought that the former self liked me very much, and that's why she tried so hard to protect herself.

If Sakuragi-san, who has recovered her memory, remembers that the person she likes is not herself, but another outstanding boy, she will be very disappointed, and at that time, Sakuragi-san will definitely be embarrassed when she sees herself again Bar.

So, it's better to make it clear now. In this case, Sakuragi-san will no longer desperately save herself, won't be involved in the current dangerous battle, and won't be injured again.

It's just that I didn't expect that when I said something—Sakuragi-san cried.

From those eyes, there was a layer of mist, and then crystal clear tears burst out, and just like that, quietly slid down from the cheeks.Drop by drop, it couldn't stop falling, even though the girl didn't have any expression on her face, she could easily feel that kind of extreme sadness.

Obviously, this is not my original intention at all, no matter what, I don't want to see the sad expression on that face, and I still cry for myself, and cry for myself again.

Then, she said—[Okay, I see. 】

She knew it, but I didn't.

I don't know what she means, what she's going to do, and how I should answer.

However, I couldn't ask, so I could only stand quietly watching Sakuragi-san turn and leave, and then disappeared from my sight.

At that moment, I felt that I would lose Sakuragi-san like this.

Suddenly regretting, regretting myself, I shouldn't have said it——If only I kept it a secret from Sakuragi-san, then maybe she could be loved by her all the time.In this way, maybe if I confess to Sakuragi-san, it will be accepted happily, and then I can really date.

Such a self is really selfish.

Then, only one day later, Sakuragi-san went to school, still as usual, the previous arm injury seemed to have no effect at all, but she didn't look at me again.

Whether it was in class or after class, she never shifted her eyes to me. Even if she came into the classroom after lunch break, she just glanced at me casually and sat back in her seat indifferently.

This is the first time that I haven't communicated with Sakuragi-san for a day at school. I feel extremely depressed, and I always feel empty in my heart, as if a piece is missing, and this empty feeling can't be filled by anything at all.

A few days later, the day to fight Varian was getting closer, and Libun's training became more and more intensive. When he went to school again, he was too tired to listen to the teacher.

When it was time for physical education class, Takeshi Yamamoto and Hayato Gokudera disappeared again, probably they were hurrying to exercise again.He didn't see Li Baoen who came to destroy him, and suddenly a feeling of luck welled up in his heart.Then, he secretly hid behind a remote tree and wanted to take a rest. After lying down for a few minutes, he heard the sound of human footsteps.

Obviously, it might be the classmate who found out that he was lazy and skipped class, but I had a strange feeling, that feeling was very familiar—is it Sakuragi-san?

He felt that the person seemed to sit down beside him, and then there was no sound, but he could still feel the girl's gaze on him.My heartbeat suddenly accelerated rapidly, and my body became tense and stiff in an instant. I didn't know whether I should open my eyes. I really wanted to open my eyes and look at the pair of eyes I liked, but I seemed to lose my direct gaze. Maiden's courage.

"Kokichi Sawada."

The girl slowly called out her name. In the girl's voice, her name seemed to be the most beautiful word in the world. Just listening to it like this, a warm feeling gushed out from the bottom of her heart.

Then I felt a gentle touch on my hair, it seemed that Sakuragi-san was stroking her hair with her hands, just like when she helped me wrap the scarf that day, the real temperature was not the scarf, but the coolness transmitted through her fingertips to the temperature.This kind of temperature, rippling in the heart layer by layer, seems to be enough to make the whole person feel warm.

"I really like you."

The girl's voice was softly accompanied by a sigh, and my heart suddenly trembled at that moment.The girl's voice seemed to coincide with the girl's confession at the top of the Ferris wheel, which made me stiff for a moment at a loss, but I still didn't dare to open my eyes.

But even so, I can't help but imagine in my mind, what kind of gentle expression on the girl's face that said these words, those beautiful dark green pupils must be mingled with the sun, revealing a soft and warm light .

"I have always wanted to touch you, but I have never been able to."

"Even if you say welcome back countless times in front of you, you still can't hear it.

"I want to protect your heart all the time, but I can't convey it."

"Just thinking about it now, it doesn't matter."

Sakuragi-san spoke, and the soft voice seemed to be blown away in the wind.It's just that I don't understand at all, what it means not to touch me, and why I can't hear the countless welcome back she said.

In this case, it seems that Sakuragi-san is far away from me, obviously we have been together all the time.If this is the case, why do you say such a thing?Why, still have to be so sad?Obviously, I just hope you don't get hurt again.

"It would have been better if I hadn't woken up."

"Always, if I stay by your side as a ghost, it won't bother you anymore, right?"