Death of the Snow Dance

Youxi feels that something is not right recently, sometimes when she wakes up in the morning, her face will be full of tears or her voice will be hoarse.But she obviously didn't remember what nightmare she had.Could it just be a change in the body?At the same time, she found that she was not as afraid of the cold as before.Ichimaru Yin, who lived with her, didn't say anything unusual about her at night, it seemed that she was just thinking wildly.

For some reason, when I was awake, I would think of Ukiba more and more frequently.Since leaving Jingling Court, she has been trying to avoid thinking of him as much as possible.She was afraid that she couldn't bear the emptiness that she desperately wanted to see but could never see again when she missed him.She tried her best to enrich her life and gave Yin as much care as possible.But recently my mind seems to be out of control.However, what she tried to avoid happened in the end...

Surrounded by light blue and white light, so beautiful, she hasn't felt so at ease for a long time.There was a figure in front of her greeting her, but she didn't know who it was, and just ran forward happily.Just when she was about to see the figure in front of her clearly, she lost the support under her feet and began to fall.She hates the feeling of falling the most!Fortunately, someone rescued her, her falling body was caught by strong arms, and she touched the ground soon.No, it's not the ground, it feels soft, but it's a bed.She opened her eyes, which had been closed due to weightlessness, and was finally able to see her surroundings clearly.

He was actually lying on the bed with his whole body covered, and the person lying next to him was clearly Fuzhu.He was looking at himself with warm eyes, but he said something like "Thank you girl for saving her life".

This is the rare moment when she dreams of floating bamboo in all these years.She didn't realize it was a dream yet, but it was a little strange.Why did the words he said when he first met her become entangled with the scene of their last day together?

"Fuzhu!" She called his name, wanting to feel his warmth more.But suddenly he stood neatly at the door of Yugan hall and waved to her. "Xiaoxi, put on more clothes, let's go out." When she got up together, she was actually wearing an old dress, but it was not what she should wear in winter.Based on this, she guessed their next destination, but she didn't expect it to be so fast. Just after walking out of the gate of Yugantang, there was that place in front of her eyes: Moonlight Lake.

The throbbing at that time came back again, she held Fuzhu's hand without saying a word.

"You guys had fun, goodbye." Fuzhu spoke in a trembling voice, but with a smile in his eyes, he leaned over.She closed her eyes but didn't feel his lips.The person holding the hand is not Fuzhu.She ignored everyone except Fuzhu, at this time he was beside her, grabbing her wrist. "Is this the answer you gave me?" The pained expression gave out a joyful voice.

"Fuzhu, what's going on?" She wanted to turn around and talk to Fuzhu, she didn't quite understand the series of things that happened just now.Obviously familiar scene, familiar words, but it feels wrong.What is wrong?

But in the next second, she realized that her surroundings had become the hot springs of Nanaze Valley.Fuzhu, who was holding her wrist just now, was soaking in the hot spring, "Xiaoxi, come back here tonight, I have more important things to discuss with you tonight, so I must come."

She suddenly remembered.This is the last word Fuzhu said to her in Yugantang.She finally understood what the discordant feeling was just now.Everything that happened just now is the memory of her and Fuzhu before, but the scenes and dialogues are out of order.It seems as though things are viewed from the back and the conversation is from the front to the back.So, is this in a dream?

Give it a try, she closed her eyes for a moment, then opened them again, she was sitting by the bed in the bedroom of the Qisawa Valley hut, and Fuzhu was lying on that bed.Yes, this is when they just met.Fuzhu was injured, she rescued him.Is it really all just a dream?She should have realized a long time ago, how could the floating bamboo appear in front of her eyes again.I haven't had this fantasy for a long time.

"Are you aware of it? You Qi." What Fuzhu said this time was clearly aimed at her now.

"Fuzhu, is it really you? What happened just now?"

"Here are your dreams, and here are your thoughts, and here are my thoughts."

"I don't understand...Are you still so stupid? Hehe..." The improbable dialogue that she had been looking forward to for many years gave her a little vitality.

"You are not stupid at all~ You are also aware of the changes in your body? Before I die, I left the last sliver of strength for you. Because I also want to accompany you to make up for leaving you one step ahead of me. The pain it caused. Do you remember the little pendant on my Zanpakuto? I never told you what it was. Actually, it was a detector made by Kisuke Urahara for you. He gave it to me when he was done. Yes, as long as you enter my spiritual pressure, your location will be displayed. In fact, I have been continuously inputting spiritual pressure into it every day in the past, so I have accumulated a lot of my spiritual pressure. Finally, when I lost When King Ling left his right hand, Lord Lingwang left the last bit of power to me, and I put the last bit of power together with the previous ones in my Zanpakuto. So when you take it to Pisces , my power was transmitted to you. At that time, my soul was with you, and you should feel it. After that, I will accompany you in this way until recently."

"What's going on recently? I want you to stay with me in this way!" You Qi was rarely excited.

"No, my spiritual power has been affecting you more and more recently. Let's not say whether it's good or bad physically, but you always have nightmares unconsciously at night. It’s a very sad thing. As time goes on, the fusion of our energy gradually accelerates. Your body itself is a very powerful receiving container. You have already fused with Maiyi once before. But if it’s just fusion, it may not have any effect , just because you can't let go of me, the remaining memories will keep invading your brain, making you repeat those painful moments over and over again."

"I didn't repeat those moments..."

"That's because you don't remember, basically every day you have nightmares and you just wake up and you forget. As long as you think about my days, you have nightmares."

Only then did You Qi understand what was going on in the strange state after waking up recently.

"So, I tried my best to come to you in the present form. I can't torture you after leaving you, so my soul can't rest in peace, let alone reincarnated."

"But, I don't want to let you go... I want to keep thinking about every moment I was with you. I lie to myself, I tell people I'm fine, I tell myself I'm over the sad period, but now I'm Only then can I say it boldly, I miss you, I don’t want to leave you!” Emotions defeated reason in the dream, and those words that she swore she would never say, finally poured out. "Why did you protect me at that time? I was ready for Aizen to kill me! Aizen was not wrong, Jinglingting was not wrong, no one was wrong, but why did you have to sacrifice your life? My that It was very calm at the time, but you and they rescued me together, why did you save me?" Her words now have no logic, just what comes to mind and what to say.

"Hey... let's have a good cry." Fuzhu took her shoulders and let her lean on his chest.

Floating bamboo has an innate calming and warming power.She wept heartily in his arms, which was the first time she had vented joyfully since she woke up from Yugantang ten years ago.Only now can she express her emotions without any burden. In his arms, even if she is crying, it feels like a warm sun shining on her in winter.

When she calmed down, Fuzhu let her go from his arms. "Isn't it much better? You should also understand that the existence of a lover is not to limit your life, but to make your life better. If I am gone, but you can't move forward, then what right do I have to say that I love you? Take care of you, protect you? I'm just adding to your burden."

"Before I didn't want to admit that you left. Maybe, I just lacked a chance to say goodbye to you..."

"Then, tell me that sentence... In this way, I can reincarnate with peace of mind."

"When you reincarnate, will I become an aunt or a grandmother when I meet you again? It feels so strange."

"I want to start again from this world, and then keep reincarnating. Maybe in some lifetime, I can still meet you, and then, I will love you even better~" His hand stretched out to the ring on her heart.

"Well. Goodbye, Ukiba..."

After finishing speaking, You Qi felt unprecedentedly relaxed.The crescendo of light forced her to cover her eyes, and when she opened them again, she was lying on her own bed.

"It's really a sweet dream..." She stretched contentedly after a long absence.

It was already dawn, and today seemed to be the day when Yin was going back to Jinglingting. "Silver? Are you up?"

"Well, I'm packing things. What's the matter?" He was taken aback when he saw Xiaoxi today.Why did she suddenly look so radiant?After all, she didn't seem to have a nightmare last night. "Is it because you slept well that you are so happy?" He asked tentatively.

"Yeah, it's great~ By the way, can you clean it up for me after you clean it up?"

"Pack what?" No way?The doubts in Yin's heart are getting bigger and bigger.What the hell happened to her!

"Help me pack my luggage too! I want to go back with you. It's not a long stay, but I miss you a little bit. Go back and see them, and then I have other plans."

"Oh, you're so self-willed, why don't you just leave? There's nothing you can do about it..." Yin said on the surface that he was teasing her, but in fact he was already thanking God in his heart.I was worried that she would be exhausted by the nightmare, but now for some reason, she suddenly became enlightened!

"Thank you, Yin~ I'll go pick some special products and bring them back for everyone." After saying that, he left the door.

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No one thought that they would see Xiao Qi again.After so long, she has not been forgotten by everyone in Jingling Court.Even among the new Grim Reaper and Mao's students who are still in school, she has become a legend.

"Double happiness is coming to Jinglingting today, get out of class will be dismissed early for you!" After receiving the news, Jingle, who was teaching in Mao, gave the students a holiday.Ukitake was originally the honorary instructor at Mao, but after he left, Kyoraku Shunsui took the initiative to take on this task.It completely doesn't match the original image of a fool.Today, not only Ichimaru Gin is coming back to take over as the captain of the third team, but even Yuxi is coming back together.So he called it Double Happiness.

Everyone saw her at the captain's succession ceremony and chatted with her one after another.She is more peaceful than before, and she has regained some vitality than when she left last time.

"How long will you stay here this time? Do you have plans after hearing about it?" Luan Ju asked the question everyone wanted to ask.

"Maybe I won't be able to stay for too long, but I really plan to do it later. It's not convenient to disclose it now. If I can be accepted successfully, I will tell everyone where I am going! If it is not too embarrassing, hehe..."

Seeing her joking again, everyone really felt that the past Xiaoxi had come back.

In the evening, Xiaoxi returned to Kuchimu Mansion, and went to find Bai Zai first.I just chatted for a while during the day, but I haven't said hello to him yet.You Qi felt sorry for Bai Zai.She clearly promised Mai Yi to take good care of him, but because of her own reasons, she left him for so long, and in the future, she might be farther away from him.

"Youxi, have you let go now?"

"Well, I'm sorry brother, I made you worry."

"That's not worth mentioning. How can there be a brother in the world who doesn't worry about his sister..."

"Tomorrow, can you take me to Fuzhu's tombstone?"

"Okay." This was the first time she went to see him, and she asked for it.It seems that there is really nothing to worry about.

The next day, Bai Zai accompanied You Qi to Fuzhu's tombstone, where the decoration was very beautiful, which is the style Fuzhu likes.Because it was handled by Jingle Chunshui.

"Captain Chunshui is really amazing. If it were me, I would definitely not be able to come up with such a good layout and design." You Qi sighed.She also found it strange that she didn't feel sad at all when she came here.It's like visiting an old friend, with a peaceful heart without any disturbance.She approached the tombstone, stroked the words on the monument with her fingers, and said softly, "Fuzhu, here I come." She took off the necklace from her neck and held it in her hand, "I'll return this to you, because you need to give it to me personally." I can’t take it away from what was given to me. If we meet again by fate in the next life, you must ask me yourself, I haven’t given you the answer yet!”

She hid the necklace and ring next to the tombstone.After leaving the last sentence, she turned and left with a smile.She knew her next destination, and she no longer took the person she loved so deeply as a burden.With his love, she wants to move on.

"I love you."

The author has something to say:

I forgot to mention it when I wrote the article, and I added it after a long time: When I wrote the relationship between Ukitake and Youqi, the song I always thought was very suitable was "TooLateToSay" by Hiroyuki Sawano. The lyrics of the song part always feel very suitable for what Youqi wants to say to Fuzhu. (Although it is the soundtrack of Blue Exorcist, I always feel that it matches well...)

The lyrics are as follows:

Caught by the golden ring

Can't run away from it

When theyreciteaspell

This ring will hurt me

Caught by the golden ring

I'm a child of human and evil

Can't run away from it

How long should I hide myself

How long...

I'velost my focus and I cannot see you any more

I can't see your face anymore

And there's blue flame that's flickering

Somewhere in my body a blue flame flickers

WhereIcannotevendrawmysword

I can't even draw my sword

All this power'sinme, yetIcannotwielditalone

This power is in me but I can't control it

If you can hear, tell men now

let me know if you can hear

What it means

what does this mean

IknowIh□□elostitnow

i know i've lost it

I knew something was wrong some how

I also understand that something went wrong

There's nobody like me

no one like me

Butyou're no there

but you are not by my side

So I'll say goodbye

so i'm leaving

But now I can't even say my thank you...

It's just that now I can't thank you enough

I'velost my focus and I cannot see you any more

And there's blue flame that's flickering

Somewhere in my body a blue flame flickers

WhereIcannotevendrawmysword

I can't even draw my sword

All this power'sinme, yetIcannotwielditalone

This power is in me but I can't control it

If you can hear, tell men now

let me know if you can hear

What it means

what does this mean

And weare all different

we are so different

Not two are ever the same

Just like no two leaves are the same in the world

There's a burden in me

My burden is still heavy

Itwon't go away

I can't escape

'Though Idon't know everything

Although I can't know everything

I'llgomyownway

I'll go my own way too

And I'll keep on fighting all my life

fight to the end in my time

IknowIh□□elostitnow

i know i've lost it

I knew something was wrong some how

I also understand that something went wrong

There's nobody like me

no one like me

Butyou're no there

but you are not by my side

So I'll say goodbye

so i'm leaving

But now I can't even say my thank you...

I just can't thank you now