[Tutor] Your routine has fallen out!

Yes. "Old E hit my head hard with his fist, and paused for a while strangely, "Why do you always play cards out of common sense?Wouldn't it be nice to just quietly follow the path you designed yourself?I have to say some unnecessary nonsense, and I always like to do some inexplicable stupid things. "

"It's okay if you hate me, but Evil, do you want...let me go first?" I was a little embarrassed.

I can hear the old E saying that there's no point in saying nothing, but it's not something people should call out, so I hope to get to zero as soon as possible before everything gets worse.

Old E obviously saw my intentions, he snorted coldly, the cold and bitter voice was right next to my ear, making my scalp tingle: "No matter what changes happen to the memory, you are still you after all. You want to escape from everything, and you always think you can find the optimal solution, but haven’t you noticed? No matter how you avoid it, the result is just running away repeatedly. In fact, you haven’t solved anything.”

Inexplicably, I felt a sense of embarrassment about being told what was on my mind.

Before I could answer, Old E continued: "Do you know why you lost your memory?"

"Isn't it simply necessary..."

"At first it was a physiological reaction, your body's automatic protective response to make you forget the bad news that your mother passed away. But you obviously tasted the sweetness of losing memory to reduce stress, and then you passed the ten-year Bazooka research has found a way to change time and space. You make yourself disappear from where you should be. Of course, including your memory, disappear together."

"I can't understand the second half of the sentence..." Although the occasion is a bit wrong, I still hope that old E can answer one of my doubts. What is the reason that time and space change together?"

"It's just that the cowardly Angulo wants to escape from reality."

"You will be a hot and key person in the world ten years later. Now you know that only you can make a ring that can draw out the flames in the human body to the maximum, and only you can treat a severely damaged body. A near-impossible fix."

"You just ran away because you couldn't bear the expectations of everyone."

"And you left so many clues for yourself, to put it bluntly, it's guilt."

"You can't totally give up on your mission. You want to still be able to respond to everyone's expectations—without the pressures that are suffocating you."

"So you put the 'now' self in an unbreakable cage, and leave the ignorant self to complete what you should have done."

I heard Evil answer my doubts in one breath.I can't believe that "I" is torturing myself so much just to escape reality! ?

"But it doesn't make any sense. I'm still me. I still have to experience what I have to experience. Since I still have to do it by myself, isn't it ridiculous to increase the difficulty of completing the work for myself? Just retrieving the memory is enough. It's going to make me exhausted..."

"So, in addition to business, you are still avoiding private affairs." Evil stared into my eyes, making me panic for no reason.

"Of course you don't remember me now. Because you don't want your dear Lei Shou to know that you were with me."

"And yes, for a long time."

everyday cry

I could only stare blankly into Evil's eyes, unable to move.

Does "together" mean "communication"?Does it mean that they were once a couple?Does it mean that I once liked Evil as much as Rambo?

Is it...does it mean that I have hurt other people badly?

Evil doesn't seem to care much about my absent-mindedness.His hand landed on my cheek, slowly touched my shoulder, worked its way down the arm, and finally grabbed my wrist.He leaned on the work table in front of me, slightly looking down at me who was stunned on the seat.

"Surprised?" he asked, with a little bit of vengeful slyness, "more surprised than I found out you and Rambo were together?"

He lowered his head as he spoke, his lips were printed on my forehead, and then he murmured: "I don't think so."

"Although there have been omens since a long time ago. But seeing the two of you walking together, I still can't help it, and the pain starts from the fingertips."

I really want to question Evil, if this is the case, why didn't he come to me after I was transferred to Japan?Why pretend to be ordinary friendly when Rambo brought me to Italy to meet?Why didn't you tell me those secrets about memory earlier?Now why are you saying such things to me?

But I couldn't ask a word.

Because even I know their answers are obvious—

It must be "I" who kept Evil silent.

"That's... despicable." The eye sockets and the tip of the nose felt a little sour, I didn't reject Evil's movement of grabbing my wrist and changed it to hold my palm, I rubbed my eyes with the other hand, as expected Inland had a wet touch on the index finger.

"That's right, because you always 'tempt' me unconsciously, I originally planned to hold the attitude of blessing like this..."

"No." My tears did flow, and I covered my eyes, but I couldn't stop them from flowing over my cheeks and down my neck. "I mean myself. . . . so despicable."

Evil seemed to be taken aback for a moment, then he sighed, hugged me again, gently patted my head with one hand, and kept holding the other hand tightly, without letting go.

"I didn't actually blame you," he said, "nor did I ask you to respond or promise me anything."

"I just want to tell you that you are still on my chest, even if you don't remember it, it hasn't changed."

<<

Evil didn't stay for too long after he finished speaking, he just told me not to care, but made me care more at the same time, coaxing children until my tears flowed clean.

I kept apologizing to him and kept saying "I'm sorry" to him from the moment I was able to speak to him fluently.

I know why I do it myself.

What you want to escape must be completely avoided.I must be such a person.

Escaping from the mother's death erases everything about myself and my mother from the very beginning, and escaping from work that is gradually becoming incapable allows the unanticipated self to respond to non-existent expectations.

And as for why escape from Evil.

Presumably at that time, if I dated Lei Shou, I would have gained a lot of convenience in work.The support of his identity allowed me to escape faster, and this escape also added the avoidance of insiders.

——For a lover who knows the reasons for all my actions, I can't avoid it.

So I let everyone fall apart, shuffled three people into different time and space, and uprooted my own memory, thinking that this way I could start over.

Why am I so ignorant?

Once a person loses his memory, it is equivalent to losing the meaning of his own existence.

After discovering this point, instinct makes people have to pursue their past.

You can't just live like this. ——Those words echoed in my mind over and over again.Grab all the broken clues, and work desperately at some cost.

Then, everything is back to square one.

The initial embarrassment has not changed now.

What's the point of trying so hard?

I just took advantage of Lanbo's affection for me and Evil's connivance with me.

In the end, I still had to face the real reality.

"sorry."

To my apology after sentence, Evil just answered me over and over again:

"It's ok."

<<

"I'm sorry, Luce. I think I...don't have the concentration right now to help you make a perfect ring." I handed the sunny attribute ring that I had spent two full days to complete, and said apologetically, "Head Keep empty. This is the limit of what I can do, I hope it can help you."

Lusilia rubbed my hair, immediately put on the ring, and lit a flame in front of me.

Suddenly, Luce's fingertips burst into dazzling fire like beautiful fireworks.

"Look, isn't it beautiful?" He hooked my neck and said with a smile, "It's thanks to little Luoluo's hard work."

"You've always been so insecure about yourself that you always feel like you can't do anything. Actually, you can handle everything, right? The extent of this flame has long been beyond my imagination, even if you say you don't have the energy to do it The method is concentrated."

"come back."

"Liu Dao Mukuro can help you solve your current distress."

"And that stupid cow should work harder."

Listening to Lusilia's earnest words, I suddenly realized something: "You are not that Lusilia! You are the Lusi of the world ten years from now, right?"

Lusilia in this world doesn't know so many secrets, and Lusilia in this world doesn't know how to ignite a flame.

"Bin~go!" Lucilia, who hadn't changed at all, grabbed my cheek hard, and her smile became warmer, "So you can trust me with confidence. Find Liudao Mukuro, and then everything will be fine. Finish."

"I'm your psychological mentor, aren't I?"

"I also remember I said to you, 'Congratulations on your recovery'."

I am so grateful that I don't know what to say.And this one in front of me