[Ballet Elite] Rondo of Dreams

"What exactly do you want to say?" After sitting down, Ren stared at me for a long time, but didn't speak!I finally couldn't help but ask out loud!What's so nice about my face!That is, there is no cuteness and charm of Liliana, and there is no gentle beauty of Xiaoyezi!Since it's not because it looks good, is it picky? !

But what does it have to do with him? !

I can't understand what this guy is thinking!

Ren still stared at my face, "Because, I was thinking...is this the face of my future partner?"

"What?!" I slapped the table and stood up abruptly, "What partner, when did I agree? Why didn't I know?"

"Be careful!" Ren lifted up the cup that I accidentally knocked down, "Don't be so excited."

"Tell me, who made the decision?!" I asked with one hand on my hip and pointing at him with the other.

"Me." Ren replied casually.

"You decided!" I answered lightly, and then started to roll up my sleeves, "Then you won't run away even if I decide to give you a brick now?"

"I told you not to get excited!" Ren looked unmoved, "Calm down and listen to me."

I took a few deep breaths, and calmed down. If I hit him badly, I would go to the police station. Moreover, I might not be able to beat him.Calm down, Masumi, it doesn't hurt to listen to what he has to say.After he finished speaking, giving him another look like you are a fool is enough to relieve his anger.

"Okay, tell me."

"I, I already knew when I danced Sirofield last time, you and I are the same type of people!"

"Nonsense!" I'm not your type!I am a hard-working and serious person, which is different from people like you who don't even come to practice!

"Don't worry, keep listening," Ren smiled, "Sit down."

I glared at him fiercely, without making a sound.

"Well, whatever you like. You don't have to sit down." Ren shook his head indifferently, then pointed at me and continued, "Masumi, you belong to the kind of person who attaches great importance to yourself, except for yourself and yourself. You don’t really care about other things. It looks like a rough nerve, but it’s actually an extremely powerful self-protection. No matter what mistakes you make, you will always find a reason for yourself and forgive yourself. No matter what you encounter Difficult, if you fall, you will always get up by yourself. Sometimes after being hurt, you will look a little fragile, but it is just a superficial phenomenon. In fact, you have not suffered real damage mentally, so you will not need help from others , I can learn from the injury and stand up again. I have a strong personality, and such a person is worthy of me!"

"You mean, I'm an extremely selfish villain?!" I was on the verge of going crazy.What else is worthy of you, who should be worthy of you? !

"I didn't say that, selfishness is not necessarily a bad thing, it's just an egoist, and I also admit that I am such a person," Ren lit a cigarette, "Such a person is easily attracted Mental influences, especially after the things you care about are shaken, can easily cause mental confusion. Didn’t you notice? The last Sirofield, your character, has caused confusion, if it wasn’t for that Russian , let alone winning an award, I’m afraid you’ll dance like a mess, and you’ll never be able to stand on the stage again.”

Sirofield, the last...

Ren's words were like pouring a basin of ice water on my head, making me tremble all over.

That's right, when dancing the last Sirofield.

At that time, my hands and feet were cold and I couldn't concentrate!

At that time, because I wanted to dance with Liliana, I was a little nervous and unstable, and what I heard from Teacher and Feixiang...

What I care most about is the teacher.

I have always been extremely concerned about Liliana being the teacher's dance partner, and this time I am competing with her again; also, I was shaken by the teacher's words.Added two by two, the result was a mental turmoil that nearly spiraled out of control before taking the stage.This is not the first time such a thing has happened, it was the same when jumping into Swan Lake in Moscow.

Both times, if the teacher didn't reach out to me in time, the consequences would be unimaginable!

Yes, that's right!

I knew it a long time ago, I knew it a long time ago!

This great mental flaw and weakness of mine was a growth obstacle that I had to overcome.

However, I always acted as if I didn't know what to do.As long as I cover my ears and my heart, I can act as if I don’t know anything, and stay by the teacher’s side as a matter of course.

When I think about it, it’s also very simple. The reason why I never promised my uncle to go to Moscow, even though I was longing for it with all my heart and soul, and the longing was so painful, I still didn’t agree.It is because I have already understood thoroughly in my heart that once I go to Moscow, this situation will definitely happen again and again.My spirit is too easily shaken by the person I care about the most.And because the teacher is by my side, I know that I can rely on the teacher, and the teacher will always be there.In this way, it seems that there will be no mistakes on the surface, but in fact, the situation is getting worse every time.It's a vicious cycle like this...

The final result is that because I cannot be independent mentally, I will never be able to be independent in my dance and cannot make progress.And the one-step distance from Liliana will become an unbridgeable gap, and I will never be able to surpass Liliana, and forever, I can only wait for the teacher in place...

I don't want to be like this, I don't want to always have to let the teacher hold my hand so that I can move forward.

In this way, I will never be able to have an equal relationship with the teacher, and I will never be able to stand beside him. Even if I dance with him, I will not be able to encourage each other, run into each other, and promote each other like Xiao Yezi and Flying, thus creating a new one. ballet world.

I knew a long time ago that I must leave him in order to grow up and stand at the same height as him one day.

I already...knew...

Sitting down in a daze, I covered my face, crying until I was exhausted...

It was too painful, how could it be so painful, tearing pain surged up and down the whole body.I want to go to Moscow, I don't want to go to America.I want to dance with my teacher, I don't want to dance with anyone else!But, but... this is just a short-lived happiness, like a flower in a mirror, a moon in the water, I will never be able to grasp anything.I, I don't want to be like my mother. In the future, I will always sit alone in the dark, dancing with the people I like in fantasy.I want to stand upright on the stage, and dance with him!

However, even if it is so painful, I have to persevere!

Love is the art of struggling!