[Inuyasha] There is someone above me

The endless darkness made her unable to see anything, so she could only think about this problem with all her mind.

The option that was not considered at all at first - staying forever in that illusory world that is said to be very happy was included in her considerations, and she began to imagine what would happen after doing this, the more she thought about it, the more unbearable she was surrounding darkness.

How long?How long have you been here?

I... how long will I continue to stay here?

What are you holding on to?

Zhizi was a little confused and opened her mouth, but still didn't say the decisive choice.She doesn't believe that someone will come to save her like Kagome, because Sesshomaru is also unable to protect herself, and their opponent is the supreme author who cannot resist.

She just doesn't want to choose that way.She couldn't forget Sesshomaru's words that night - there are very few things you like, and I hope you can have more.She also couldn't forget how Sesshomaru paid attention to herself who didn't care about everything.

Sesshomaru, maybe he is also worried?

Such a person who doesn't really care about everything, doesn't have any curiosity and pursuit of the outside world, just because he is an illusory character, and thinks that everything is meaningless is really nothing to worry about.That kind of self is just a walking dead, not living at all.

Just like now, she doesn't give up on the world of "Inuyasha" fan fiction at all. She abandons the world she has been in for a long time without hesitation, just like she did not hesitate to give up returning to reality.

Now, do you want to throw it away again?

What is the difference between this self and before?

She didn't want this, she hoped that she could like that world more - just like Sesshomaru wanted.She didn't want to give up all this because she didn't care, and she didn't want Sesshomaru to stay in that illusory and unfamiliar world for the rest of her life.She wanted to live in that world with Sesshomaru - just like they had decided in the first place.She didn't want to give up unilaterally, even if the result of her insistence was only this darkness, but she fulfilled her promise and fulfilled Sesshomaru's expectation, even if the result was nothing.

She began to think about all countermeasures.Her thoughts cleared in the darkness.

She suddenly figured out something she had never thought about carefully before: where did the real Gardenia go?The answer is close at hand.At the beginning, the voice described everything indifferently, covering up his real purpose lightly: If you really just want to get everything back on track, you don’t need to create such a world for yourself, you just need to let her stay in this dark place. Just fine.

Isn't its purpose to make Gardenia give up her body, blend into that illusory world, and give everything to the original Gardenia?

Who would do that?Who would go to the trouble of doing this?

The answer can only be the original Gardenia, not the so-called author.As an author, isn't it just a matter of setting to change the inner core of the protagonist, so why is there such a need for such painstaking efforts?

"You are actually the original Gardenia witch, and you are also the current Jade of the Four Souls, right?" Gardenia finally understood the meaning of "Senior Uncle" that Naraku had said at the beginning——Senior Brother's Uncle, but it is not the original Did perishing with monsters create her own Gardenia Priestess?

Chapter 31

However, that voice did not answer her question, but showed the illusory world in front of her again.

This time, Sesshomaru found "Gardenia" in that illusory world, which was another person who was exactly like her, not only in appearance, but also in character.She looked at that "Gardenia" and told Sesshomaru that everything was over, and she returned to this world with him by relying on the Jade of the Four Souls, and she will live with him and this world in the future.

Sesshomaru asks the fake her why she doesn't consider going back to the original novel world.

"Since I've come back, it's enough to have you here, isn't it the same everywhere?" This "Gardenia" is indeed exactly the same as her, even it doesn't matter to anything, and the attitude of giving up everything easily is exactly the same of.

"You promised me to live there together."

"But there's nothing wrong here?" The fake "Gardenia" even imitated the movements and tone perfectly.

Sesshomaru didn't seem to agree, but there was no further text.Zhizi watched the false "Gardenia" and Sesshomaru get closer and closer, completely taking his place.

She found that that voice, whether it was the author or something, knew her too well.Just arranging a fake "Gardenia" can completely move the real Gardenia.

Gardenia is afraid, afraid that the fake "Gardenia" has completely replaced her, afraid that Sesshomaru really completely regards that fake "Gardenia" as herself, instead of still persistently trying to return to that fake "Gardenia" as she is now. The world of "Inuyasha" fans.

Her heart was shaken, as if she was waiting for Sesshomaru to give up, and then she could give up with him, choosing to live with Sesshoumaru in that false world.

However, this may be something that the voice in control failed to expect:

"You are indeed similar to Zhizi, but you are definitely not her."

It's not like there?Zhi Zi thinks that she is also a little confused about which one is the real self.

"She won't give up as easily as you do, even if she's just like you in the bottom of her heart."

"I trust her." This sentence came out of Sesshomaru's mouth, and it was enough.

Because even Zhizi herself doesn't believe that she will persevere, but Sesshomaru is willing to insist on believing in her when nothing is clear and everything is confusing.

Then what else can't she do?

She no longer looked at that false self with jealousy, and no longer secretly anxious, because she also believed in him.

Although the two can't touch each other, although Zhizi has nothing to do now, although Sesshomaru seems to never see her again, they still seem to be together.

In the end, maybe that voice got tired of it, and it finally showed up and planned to negotiate a compromise with Zhizi...

After an unknown period of time, Zhizi finally touched the Sesshomaru again.

She gently stroked his chest, as if confirming the existence of Sesshomaru.

I thought you would disappear forever.But I believe you, I didn't give up on this world like before, so in the end it compromised and decided to share this body with me.She didn't know if Sesshomaru Ming understood, she just wanted to tell him what she felt.

Kesishengwan is clearly concerned with more practical matters: Who do you share your body with?

"And the original owner of this body." Zhizi replied with a smile.

It was a decision she had made on her own and accepted by it.She didn't force it, and she wouldn't regret it. Similarly, she hoped that Sesshomaru could accept the fact that there were two people in this body.Because, it has been like this from the very beginning.

Its name is Gardenia, and it has a brother named Rapeseed.The difference in the painting styles of the names of the two seems to indicate that the two will have completely different temperaments in the future.

Rapeseed is dedicated to the suffering of the people, hoping to contribute her strength to all beings in the world, so she took the initiative to find the mage who inherited the fan artifact at that time.And Zhizi is completely passive. Originally, she was just an ordinary little girl, but her innate powerful spiritual power was discovered by Rapese's master.But at this time, the village where she lived was very miserable because of the rampage of monsters.Both her parents died because of this, and only she survived by relying on her own spiritual power by accident.

From the very beginning, she was different from Rapeseed. She only used spiritual power to survive, and she became a witch by following her master just to survive.In her opinion, the lofty ideal of rape has nothing to do with her.But what is her ideal, she has never thought about it, she seems to just want to live, even if it is only a passive life.

But the more she is so desireless, the more Master regards her as a single-minded witch, and Rapese also admires her, and finally she inherits Master's powerful fan.With power comes responsibility, and she began to hunt and slay demons more frequently than before, and began to face more critical moments, sometimes even endangering her life.

"What will you do if I die?" She asked Rapese casually once.

"Then I will inherit your fan and continue to cast down demons for you. Master said that when people in our sect die, their souls will return to the fan to protect future generations. At that time, you must protect me well, junior sister." .”

Rape joked about it, but she didn't expect how much it would affect her.

She didn't care about these things at first, but only today did she realize that even the things after her death are passive and pre-determined.She didn't want to die, and she didn't want to protect the world like a witch after she died.She just wanted to live, to live forever and ever.Because she didn't even know what she wanted, how could she die?

Isn't this equivalent to living only for others all your life, and you really become a so-called "great" demon-killing and moralist like Rape?

She finds it ridiculous, but she doesn't know what to change, after all, people are mortal.

But she didn't expect the death to come so quickly.Before she had time to think about the meaning of her life, she ran into the bone monster that caused headaches for everyone later.Even though she had a powerful fan, she was eventually possessed by a cunning bone monster and took over her body.

In this case, she had two choices: [-]. She had no choice but to be completely occupied by the bone monster, and her soul became its slave; The soul is still imprisoned, but it is just imprisoned in the fan with the predecessors to become the power of this artifact.

In the end, the only remaining sense of responsibility as a miko made her choose the latter.But she didn't want to die, she wanted to live, even if she couldn't even figure out the reason for living.

But as long as you are alive, you will figure it out one day, but if you die, you really have nothing, and even your soul has become a victim.She finally hesitated, and used the purification power of the fan as her own power to seal the bone monster.

The price is the eternal danger of being backlashed by the bones, and the state where she can no longer use the excess spiritual power. At the same time, she turned into a child and was picked up by the senior brother who came desperately.She thought that the senior brother should know everything, and that even though it was normal now, once she became weak, the bone monster would come out.

Therefore, when she saw him, she was a little desperate. She thought that the senior brother would carelessly destroy the same family in order to avoid these risks, but he just raised her as an ordinary child, as if he didn't see this at all, and she was also happy Dress up with him.

But at the age of 14, another soul suddenly squeezed into her body.That soul didn't notice her existence at all, and what's even more hateful is that that soul didn't seem to have any awareness of occupying someone else's body, didn't feel uneasy at all, didn't explore at all, as if it didn't care about everything .Two souls in one body maintain a delicate balance.But this balance was finally broken by the soul who arrived later.

Because of the spiritual power set by Qie Jinjiang, Zhizi's body showed strength, and the spiritual power used to seal the bones was naturally reduced, and the bones actually showed signs of awakening.But the original gardenia had already made preparations in the past ten years. Not only did she not let the bones swallow her, but she fused the bones into her own strength.

She became that bone monster.This should be a taboo and shame for a witch, but she doesn't care: as long as she can live, it doesn't matter if she becomes a monster.But the invasion of that soul made her unable to fully use her body.

She tried her best but was wasted because of that soul's resolute suicide for Sesshomaru.Earlier, that spirit had thrown the fan at her bone body.At that time, she also thought that she was going to die, but the fan did not kill her, but disappeared into the bones.It's like those seniors couldn't bear to hurt her as a junior, even if this junior has degenerated into a monster.

Later, she was sucked into the Jade of Four Souls, but this time, did she survive?She almost thought that someone was helping her secretly.However, she heard a voice that told her that she was just a set protagonist.And that voice is the author, and the author hopes that she can regain her body and complete the plot set by the author.Just like in the past she passively became a shrine maiden and died in her line of duty.

She didn't refuse: She doesn't even mind being a monster, how could she mind getting her body back again?

But she failed.The person who seemed to be just as casual as herself, who was not firm and persistent enough for anything, actually persisted until the end. She suddenly felt that her behavior was a bit ridiculous: she didn't even know what to insist on, so she obeyed the author's actions.

Unexpectedly, that soul actually offered to share the body with him.

"This was originally your body. I hope you and I can live a good life and truly integrate into this world."

That soul was right, neither of them ever really took the initiative to do what they wanted to do.Living well is the promise of that soul to Sesshomaru.

Chapter 32

"Little Zhi, what is this kind of monster?" Zhizi curiously asked the original owner in her body - the original Zhizi witch.

"Ghosts, monsters that specialize in making people have nightmares, other than that they are harmless." The soul called Xiaozhi answered boredly, and did not know how many times she protested, "Don't call me Xiaozhi, I My name is Zhizi, and you are the one who took my name."

"Don't worry about such details. A cute name like Xiao Zhi is more suitable for you. Do you think there are any monsters that make people have sweet dreams?"

"Are you insane? Monsters are usually harmful to people. How can there be such a weird monster."

"Okay, then let Qie Jinjiang create some monsters like this one day to benefit the public."

"Can you stop being so casual..."

The two were complaining to each other in their minds, completely ignoring Sesshomaru who was processing dinner at the side.The raw material for the dinner is a wild boar, and it has been wild boar several times before, but sishengwan is rarely eaten.In this way, Sesshomaru was a little embarrassed to watch him eat, so Gardenia simply handed over the responsibility of roasting pigs to Sesshomaru. It just so happened that the human head stick of evil view is very useful, and Gardenia only needs to add some seasonings every time. just fine.

The boar meat was a little knotted, Gardenia couldn't cut the meat off smoothly for a while, but a white light and green light flashed, and that piece of meat was cut off by the light knife transformed by Sesshomaru's demonic power.

"Why do you use a demon knife for chopping pigs? I'll do it myself." Zhi Zi, who had always been very embarrassed to let Sesshomaru handle the ingredients, felt a little embarrassed at this time.

"Too slow." Sesshomaru blocked her mouth.

Gardenia sprinkled it with real-world seasonings sent by Toche Jinjiang as usual, and then roasted it for a while before eating it, but she suddenly thought of the little gardenia in her body.

Although an agreement was finally reached for the two to share their bodies, that person never seemed to be interested in anything. He rarely asked to use his body, and he always lived in harmony with himself in his body. What a good friend.

"Xiao Zhi, come and taste it. It's probably different from what you used to eat." It must be different, those seasonings are not available in this era, and even Sesshomaru has praised them as good things.

Soon, the two reached an agreement and exchanged bodies.Gardenia, who was on the stone casually just now, immediately sat up straight, and solemnly handed the wild boar to her mouth, and then lightly bit her mouth with the most gentle gesture.

Well enough.Xiaozhi reluctantly gave Zhizi such a response and gave Zhizi the right to use her body.Xiaozhi looked at the inexplicably harmonious Zhizi, Sesshomaru, and Xiejian, two monsters, half monsters, and couldn't quite understand Zhizi's thoughts.She clearly knows that she is superfluous to them, and she rarely does superfluous things.

But Zhizi always seems to want to carry out her promise, she must let her experience these things, even if she doesn't seem interested.

It was late at night, and Zhizi fell asleep, but Xiao Zhi was still awake.

She looked at Sesshomaru not far away, suddenly occupied her body maliciously, and walked to Sesshomaru on her own initiative.

But looking at Sesshomaru's indifferent and cold face, her malice disappeared for no reason.

"You, why did you agree with Zhizi's actions?" Xiao Zhi kept telling herself that Zhizi was forced to share her body with her because she was coerced by her, but Sesshomaru didn't seem to care, and she didn't understand the way she didn't express her opinion of.

"I trust her. It's her choice."

"But it's a dangerous choice."

"If there is danger, I will protect her."

"I'm really confident." Xiaozhi inexplicably thought of her senior brother - Rapeseed.Was that person also like this at the beginning, instead of cutting grass and roots, raising himself like an ordinary person, did he also believe that she could control that bone monster?In fact, if it wasn't for Zhizi's sudden intervention, Xiaozhi would have been able to restrain the bone monster until his body died of old age.Now this half-demon body has indeed failed Raleigh's trust.

"You compromised too quickly. Now is the best result. Gardenia said she believes you are a good witch, because you have never killed humans, only monsters."

"Heh..." Xiao Zhi disagreed.

"After you were absorbed by the Jade of the Four Souls, you could have randomly found a human body to possess, but you didn't. If you need a reason, this is the biggest reason. Actually, you don't want to take back your body that much."

Really, Xiaozhi can't even see through herself.Even the aloof author approached her again and gave her a similar evaluation.

"You don't really want to live that much, do you?" The author asked.

"From the very beginning, I only want to live until the day when I understand what I really want. But I only wait until the day when I know that everything is arranged for me, and even my future has to follow what you set Let's go, what do you think is the need for me to regain my body?" In fact, she is very satisfied as long as she sees herself completely out of the author's control and living on her own will.

According to the original setting, she should turn into the jade of the four souls when she ate the gardenia, and then fell in love and killed Naraku who was born later.This is all set by the high-ranking author, and there is no room for her ideas from the beginning.

"Okay then. I won't interfere with you anymore. This article will be a mess." The author's voice seemed a little melancholy.

"Why do you stick to the original setting?" Xiao Zhi smiled, "I think the ending is very good now."

It's a pity that Xiaozhi still didn't tell Zhizi about these things, but made them worry about the author who might make a comeback occasionally.This is probably one of her few pleasures.Another great pleasure is to use Gardenia's body to tease Sesshomaru.

"Sesshomaru," Xiao Zhi pointed to herself, "What do you like about her?"

"I don't have to tell you."

"But she wants to know," Xiaozhi said the truth, "and she dare not ask."

"You don't need to ask, I'll tell her in person. It's her who gave me this feeling of liking. There is no problem at all."

Isn't that what I said?Xiao Zhi complained.This killing pill is really as inconsistent as Zhizi's evaluation.

However, on the second day, Sesshomaru still led Gardenia around as usual, taking her to see the surrounding scenery, various people and monsters.Both are indeed taking their travel promises seriously—making themselves like the world a little more.Occasionally they would chat about irritable topics, such as what Naraku was planning to do again.In the end, Sesshomaru told Zhizi what Xiaozhi thought would be ignored.

She thought that Sesshomaru would speak indifferently like last night, but she always felt that Sesshoumaru was a bit embarrassed, and she didn't even know if her cheeks were reddish due to the sunset, but Zhizi was uncharacteristically, she was very embarrassed by Sesshoumaru. The sudden confession-like words just froze for a moment, and then replied lightly:

"It's a coincidence, so am I."

The author has something to say:

I finally finished filling the pit, but I always feel that this ending is very strange.It's a pity that I have already written Sesshomaru, so let's end it like this.

This article has been stuck for at least two years, and I felt unsatisfactory when I first wrote it.I picked it up again after such a long time because I felt uneasy in my conscience, and I couldn't give up an article so easily, even if it was an article that I was not satisfied with and could even be called a dark history.

Another article is also a pit.But that article is completely different from this article. The reason for that article is that the setting is too complicated and the writing is not strong enough for readers to understand.It is decided to pick it up this year as well. As for when the update will start, it is still undecided.Because looking back at that article, I found that there were too many foreshadowings, the plot was more complicated, and the hard disk broke once, it was difficult even for me to recall the planned follow-up.