middle of the road

With a flick of his wrist, Cheng Yang was about to close the door, but Chi Yu pushed hard on the door with sharp eyes and hands, and pressed it hard, "Don't close it."

"Let go." Cheng Yang had blue veins on the back of his hand holding the door frame, his gaze suddenly sank, and his voice was almost gritted out between his teeth.

After so many harsh words, he still dared to come to him.

Chi Yu shook his head, "Cheng Yang, can we talk?"

He leaned forward slightly, and shifted his center of gravity a little bit inward, so as to counteract Cheng Yang's strength, "Give me some time, I have something to say."

"I warned you, and I also said that we have nothing to talk about with you." Cheng Yang looked at him, suddenly raised his voice, his eyes were as fierce as his hands, "How much do you want me to repeat?" What the hell do you want to do?!"

"Don't you understand? What do I want to do?" Chi Yu's eyes showed a trace of sadness. He came here again and again, even if he was forgiven, he still pursued him. How could Cheng Yang not notice it, "Would you like to Sit down, then we can stand here and talk."

Cheng Yang had a strong urge to kick the door into pieces. Chi Yu completely ignored his warning and challenged his bottom line again and again. He told him that he was not a very patient person. It has never been anything to do with gentleness. If Chi Yu's knowledge of him is still nine years ago, then he should know.

"Ms. Cheng is on vacation today?" There was the sound of opening the door from the opposite side. Aunt Wang, who lives on the same floor and usually has a good relationship, is probably going out to buy groceries, and is locking the door with a recycle bag under her arm, "Have Yingying and the others come back? "

"Come back at noon." Cheng Yang restrained his anger, and greeted her in a normal tone.

"Oh, that's coming soon." Aunt Wang turned around and looked at Chi Yu, "Who is this?"

"Nothing." Cheng Yang said lightly, "A friend."

"That's it..." Aunt Wang walked downstairs step by step, turning her head three times. Her eyes were obviously guarded because of the unusual atmosphere on his side. When her eyes disappeared in the corridor, Cheng Yang suddenly grabbed Chi. Yu's collar, yanked in, then kicked the door, dragged the person in and threw him behind the door. At the same time, the door frame was smashed hard, making a sound that was almost shattered.

"Okay, tell me." Cheng Yang could see that he was desperately enduring, "5 minutes, if you want to keep those few words, you'd better shut up now."

Until this moment, Chi Yu really felt that he had entered this room. The space made of bricks, cement, wood and glass completely enveloped him. Only then did he let go of a heart in his throat. He knew that Cheng Yang I don't want to hear it, but I can see that he has been enduring it.

Chi Yu didn't want to force him like this, but he didn't expect that Cheng Yang's gesture of rejection would be so thorough, and even wanting to talk to him calmly would become so difficult.

"You left so suddenly at that time, I've always wanted to apologize to you, Cheng Yang." Chi Yu called his name, his heart trembling, "What happened back then was my fault, I shouldn't have taken advantage of it. You came to deal with my dad, and I shouldn’t have secretly changed my choice when I knew you wanted to go to a school with me. I was young at the time, and I had a lot of naive and immature ideas, and I did too many wrong things, but I never really thought about it. I want to give up on you."

Cheng Yang sneered faintly, stepped back a little, looked at the dark and gloomy sky outside the living room window, never thought about it...

The lingering drizzle has been falling, no matter how far or near, the scenery is covered with hazy as if blurred, and the humidity with a bit of warmth stretches out, and the air in the room becomes thick together, making people feel as if they are stuck in a quagmire , the bottom of my heart added an unspeakable irritability.

"Don't move." He ordered Chi Yu to stay where he was, Chi Yu supported the door panel and slowly stood up straight, stopping the steps that wanted to move forward.

"Before you, I never liked anyone. I didn't know what it was like to like. At that time, I didn't even know what I wanted." I blamed myself, "Because of the matter with my family, I have been living in hatred, so at that time, I really didn't know how to treat you, and I didn't know what to do to be considered as liking you."

"But I promised myself that even if I pass the test in other places, I will come back to see you often in the future. I never thought of breaking up with you completely." Chi Yu said: "Cheng Yang, I like you, I really like you very much , that's why I was so sad when you suddenly left me at that time."

"I have been looking for you for so many years, and I have been regretting it. I have never forgotten you. You believe me."

Chi Yu finished speaking in one breath, perhaps there was an explanation in the words, but it was definitely not a sophistry.

The mistake has been made, and he has no reason to excuse himself, so he is not prepared.

It was enough for him to let Cheng Yang understand what he thought about him back then...and now.

When the voice fell, Cheng Yang didn't have any direct reaction. He still looked out of the window. After a long while, when Chi Yu wondered if he wasn't listening at all, he slowly turned his head, "If you are talking about this Tell me nine years ago, I might be happy."

Speaking of the word happy, a cold smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "But now you also know that it was all in the past."

"Cheng Yang..." Chi Yu suddenly felt a little sad, and he stopped him, as if trying to stop him from saying what he said next.

"You just ask anyone, if he still remembers his childishness and immaturity nine years ago, I believe no one will give you an affirmative answer." Cheng Yang looked away a little bit, and did not look at him again, "I Because you know in your heart what happened, and since you all know it’s over, and it’s not a very good memory, don’t talk about it in the future.”

"But you used to have feelings for me, right?" Chi Yu still looked at him, "At that time you changed your choice, you thought about being with me."

"It's a pity that you didn't have one at that time, and you changed your choice." Cheng Yang said, "And you also said that was in the past, so what do you think you can prove now?"

Chi Yu took a step forward, keeping his gaze fixed on his face, and lowered his voice, "Do you really have no feelings for me at all?"

Chi Yu didn't come here to apologize, and he didn't just want to make things clear. Cheng Yang should have expected it in his repeated pestering.

He took a deep breath, and the air that he felt dry and hot just now felt a little cool in his lungs, "It's been nine years, not nine days, even if you ask me on the ninth day, I might think this question is ridiculous , let alone now." Now he will only feel more ironic, "What do you want me to say, that I, Cheng Yang, is waiting to remember a person I want to escape all the time, do you think it is possible?"

When did Cheng Yang walk so close to him, he didn't notice it. When he realized it, Chi Yu was already standing at an arm's length away from him.

In the next second, someone hugged him.

It was so light when she hugged her, and she wrapped it around slowly, as if she was holding a piece of exquisite porcelain, but when her warm body was really in her arms, Chi Yu's arms suddenly tightened, wrapping around Cheng Yang's shoulders , the force seems to want to strangle him in the chest.

"Let me go." Cheng Yang struggled twice, Chi Yu hugged him too tightly, leaving no room for him to break free, "What are you doing?"

Chi Yu pressed against his cheek, and slowly lowered her head. The body in her arms was not as thin as before, but it was still as powerful as before. Under the constant struggle, Cheng Yang's body could be clearly felt tense. Chi Yu had to tighten his arms again and again in order to completely control him.

Chi Yu gently buried her face on Cheng Yang's shoulder, just like when they were lingering countless times before, his clean and light breath filled his mouth and nose, he was so familiar with this smell, but it had also been in his countless nightmares, Because he could not get it again, he was tortured and feared for a while.

But even so, he still couldn't help the greed raging in his heart, and didn't want to let go, "Is that person your boyfriend just now?"

"No." Cheng Yang couldn't break free again and again, his voice suddenly became extremely cold, "I'll count to three, let me go."

"In all these years, have you ever had anyone by your side?"

"One." After Cheng Yang reported this, he was still trying to calm himself down. He didn't question hysterically before, and he doesn't intend to do so now, "Chi Yu, I don't want to lose my temper with you early in the morning. We shouldn't I know each other, isn't it good for each other to live peacefully?"

"Not good." Chi Yu rejected him mercilessly, "I can't live in peace, without you, I can't live in peace for a day."

"But feelings are a matter between two people. It's not that you say you still remember. I have the obligation to cooperate with you to regain the past. I have forgotten it." Cheng Yang clenched his hand tightly by his side, almost in the next second. Breaking through the shackles of his will, he is still enduring at this moment, "You also know what life I lived in the past, my memory can't be very good, do you expect me to remember all the pains in the past clearly?"

"But I still remember, I think about you every second, I can't forget those." Chi Yu said in a muffled voice, "Give me one more chance Cheng Yang, let's start again, okay, as long as you promise me, no matter what happens I'm willing to do anything."

Cheng Yang was too lazy to count anymore, he believed that even if he counted to the [-]th, Chi Yu would not let him go, and the violence he had deliberately restrained as a teacher for so many years, after all his patience was exhausted, he was torn to pieces again and again The cloak of tolerance has been turned out from the deepest part.

He took a step back suddenly, grabbed Chi Yu's arms on both sides, pressed down hard, and then pushed his knees heavily towards his abdomen.

At that moment, he didn't take half of his strength.

Chi Yu let out a short snort, then bent down and stood still against the door.

Cold sweat covered his forehead at a speed visible to the naked eye.

He gasped intermittently, his face wrinkled and twisted uncontrollably, and his body trembled slightly under such a temperature.

Of course, it is impossible to really beat the man out just because of this. Cheng Yang didn't show politeness to him, but went up and pushed him, the door opened, and then pulled him by the shoulders and threw the man out. With almost no effort, Chi Yu just Then he staggered a step, and fell to the door like a rag.

Then without warning, he coughed twice, and what rolled out along with the scorching breath was a piece of scarlet blood, half hanging on the corner of his mouth, and the other half, scattered on the light gray floor of Cheng Yang's house .

Cheng Yang watched and frowned slightly. Although his blow was hard, it would never hit someone like this.

"It's okay." Chi Yu panted heavily, his chest heaving violently, he leaned against the door, "There's something wrong with my stomach."

"Fortunately... I didn't eat anything yesterday, otherwise, the floor of your house might... be unreadable." He suppressed a smile, "It's okay, don't be afraid..."

Cheng Yang didn't feel scared, and the next second he closed the door directly, "Don't come to me again."

The strength in Chi Yu's body seemed to be drained, and he couldn't stand up, his stomach throbbed crazily.

He raised his hand and wiped the blood on his chin repeatedly.

Fortunately, not many, he leaned his head back against the broken wall, and smiled with some pain.

He said that he didn't know how to like people, but he obviously liked Cheng Yang terribly.

He has to like him so much that he will allow him to take a stick and knock on his most vulnerable place for a long time.

It really hurts... Chi Yu looked at his hand, it was so painful that he couldn't even feel the slight satisfaction when he was holding Cheng Yang just now.