middle of the road

Chi Yu didn't want to push Cheng Yang too hard.

Cheng Yang's current looseness, even if he has not stated it, is already the biggest compromise for him.

Although he desires far more from him than now, he also knows that it is impossible to rush. The only thing he can do now is to maintain the delicate balance that he has struggled for.

He can wait, and he can only wait, as long as Cheng Yang doesn't chase him away or completely reject him, he will be willing for as long as he wants.

Because being able to stay by his side like this was his greatest expectation during those nine years of being alone and having nothing to do.

Compared with what he really went through, what was he unable to bear.

Now Chi Yu goes there to see him almost every two weeks. Usually he will calculate the time and try to choose a day when Cheng Ying and Cheng Le are both there. , while being relatively kind to him.

Of course, being pleasant is not the same as being enthusiastic. @无限好文, all in Jinjiang Literature City

Cheng Yang was not a talkative person in the first place, and now unless necessary, he seldom communicated with him. Chi Yu thought about it and found that his biggest improvement since the Chinese New Year was probably only when he was able to enter the kitchen on the day he came. To the extent of having a busy dinner with him.

In fact, it was quite difficult, especially compared to his inner urgency.

However, looking at the specially bought extra vegetables and the figure standing beside him, whether it is the daily life slowly flowing in the pots and pans, or the faint tranquility in the surrounding atmosphere, he wants to cherish it at the same time. , the contradictory longing left him time to go a little slower.

He still wanted to stay a little longer, because that was Cheng Yang, that was his house, his territory.

What free access means here, no one understands its meaning better than Chi Yu, who has been turned away many times.

But it is precisely because he understands that he has never stayed here, no matter how late it is, he will leave when the time comes.

It's not that he doesn't want to, but that he is walking on thin ice, and he is not allowed to make such excessive and out-of-bounds demands right now.

Of course, it was also because Cheng Yang never kept him.

Once it was raining heavily outside, Cheng Yang stood up and looked out the window, hesitant to speak, but finally said nothing.

Chi Yu didn't make things difficult for him, and tactfully said that he would not go back to City S today, and would find a hotel next to him to stay first, and talk about it tomorrow morning.

At that time, Cheng Ying and Cheng Le's vacation was shortened to one month and one day due to the approaching college entrance examination, so most of the time it was the two of them. Fortunately, Cheng Yang was used to it, but his attitude was still a bit lukewarm, and Chi Yu I found that no matter what I did, when I was with him, Cheng Yang would often lose his mind.

Chi Yu didn't know what he was thinking, guessed it was related to him, but he couldn't tell the difference between Cheng Yang like this and before.

He couldn't bear to force him, but he didn't want him to give up just yet. He didn't know what else he could do for him other than to feel sorry for him silently.

He had to send him messages or call him as much as possible when he didn't see each other usually. Cheng Yang usually didn't answer the phone calls, so most of them were text messages, and he was talking about the content. If he talked too much and didn't respond, Chi Yu also I doubt whether Cheng Yang has seen it or not.

It wasn't until one time that he had to go on a business trip temporarily and said that he couldn't go to his place this weekend, and Cheng Yang replied "Yeah" to him, that Chi Yu didn't know that he would watch it.

He was so happy that time, he immediately searched with Cheng Yang's mobile phone number, found the wechat avatar he had seen countless times, clicked add to address book and pressed send.

And such a request was approved before going to bed that night, and since then a fat orange cat lying on the ground has become his top friend.

Cheng Yang's WeChat name is his real name, and apart from reposting some teaching notices and news from the school, there is nothing related to his private life in Moments, so Chi Yu turned from the beginning to the end.

During the process, he accidentally discovered that he and he had a mutual friend, and Teacher Feng liked almost all of his retweets, which made Chi Yu very jealous, so he clicked all of them one by one that night.

The day before the May Day holiday, the school did not have evening self-study, Cheng Yang waited for the students to leave, packed up their things and left the school gate.

As soon as he came out in front of a car parked diagonally across the road, someone stretched out his arm and waved at him vigorously, "Cheng Yang! Cheng Yang! This way!"

Cheng Yang took a closer look and recognized that it was Fu Jin, so he wasn't surprised. Jiang Mingyang said before that Fu Jin wanted to come and see him but was stopped by him and Chi Yu, but he didn't know why this time. Let the two of them finally let him come to see his "rival in love".

He walked over, and Fu Jin rushed up and hugged him before he reached the front, and shouted excitedly, "Fuck, I finally saw you!"

Cheng Yang put his hand on his arm with a smile, and patted it lightly twice, "Long time no see."

"It's almost ten years, isn't it too long?" Fu Jin let go of him, pulled his arm and stuffed him into the car, "Go up and say, let's go eat first!"

Fu Jin opened the door and asked Chi Yu to roll to sit in front. Cheng Yang saw Jiang Mingyang in the driver's seat, and it turned out that they came together.

"Or go to the one you invited me to before, and I booked a box?" Jiang Mingyang looked back at him and asked.

"It's all right." Cheng Yang said.

"Didn't say hello to you in advance, he insisted on giving you a surprise." Jiang Mingyang smiled apologetically, "Did it affect your arrangement?"

"No."

"That's all right." Fu Jin asked him to drive hard, and he finally came this time, so don't steal his words. He took a serious look at Cheng Yang, narrowed his eyes and smiled, "Well, it really didn't matter at all. Even with a disability, he is still so handsome, as expected of the person I, Colonel Fu, fell in love with at the beginning."

Cheng Yang smiled helplessly, and at the same time there were two coughs of varying pitches from the front.

Cheng Yang ordered food, and ordered some local specialties as last time. Instead of wine, he ordered a pot of Pu'er tea.

Chi Yu sat next to him, and when he put down the menu, he naturally pushed the hot bowls and chopsticks in front of him.

On the way, Cheng Yang went to the bathroom, came out and saw Fu Jin at the door.

"Want to go outside for a walk?" Fu Jin asked.

Cheng Yang knew that he had something to say, and the two walked out of the yard together.

Fu Jin asked him about his living conditions in the past few years, which was also what he cared most about. He originally wanted to deliberately avoid the year when he dropped out of No. [-] Middle School, but he guessed that the instigator didn't dare to ask, and he wanted to know, so he just asked He wanted to use his outsider's mouth to find out for Chi Yu.

Besides, it's been so many years, maybe Cheng Yang has long stopped treating this section as a minefield that cannot be stepped on.

"It's not dropping out of school." Cheng Yang looked relaxed, "It's dropping out of school."

Fu Jin: "Huh?"

Cheng Yang: "I went back to finish the third year of high school in the second year."

Fu Jin was startled, "Where are you going back, to No. [-] Middle School?"

Cheng Yang: "Well, Teacher Huang helped me keep my student status."

Fu Jin: "..."

Fu Jin was surprised at first, he didn't expect Cheng Yang to go back at all, so Chi Yu made a mistake when he heard that he dropped out of school?

Then he felt a little ironic. Thinking of Chi Yu's state at that time, he shook his head, "It's a pity that the one he dared not go back at that time was No. [-] Middle School."

Otherwise, I wouldn't have spent nine years looking for someone, but if I pay more attention, I wouldn't have to go through that later.

People who thought they were far away in the sky were actually right in front of them. This is really... He couldn't think of any other words except to sigh that people are so lucky.

Probably the news was really hard to digest, Fu Jin laughed out after holding back for a while, "I guess he will go crazy if he finds out."

Cheng Yang took two steps forward without speaking.

"He is annoying you." Fu Jin followed up and gave him a look, "I always want to run to you, but I won't listen to you no matter how much I persuade you."

"It's okay." Cheng Yang thought for a while and gave a pertinent evaluation.

However, his two words were hard to hear, whether it was being polite or polite, or he felt that this level of annoyance was really good for him.

"You don't have to speak for him. I don't know what kind of person he is. He has become more and more rascal these past few years." Fu Jin seemed a little disgusted, but after a while he looked at him, and his tone softened again , "But he also really likes you. We have seen it all these years. You believe him in this, and he didn't lie to you."

Cheng Yang sat down under the eaves of a corridor.

"I know." He said after a moment of silence.

"He has been looking for you since you left. I believe that if he hadn't found you by chance this time, he would have kept looking for you, so Cheng Yang," Fu Jin looked at him with sincere and sincere eyes, "If You still can't let him go, so you might as well give him a chance."

After finishing speaking, Cheng Yang didn't react at all. His character was actually quite normal, but Fu Jin felt a little uncertain, so he sat down and said, "I didn't mean to force you to make a decision, but I just thought it was not easy for you all these years. , if it is still possible, let’s make it clear earlier, there is no point in wasting time for nothing, what is more important than two people who cherish each other can walk together.”

"But if you really don't feel for him anymore, don't be too burdened, that's his problem." Fu Jin changed the face of the deputy assistant in a blink of an eye, "He's pestering you now because he can't think about it. , When the day is really painful and uncomfortable, believe me he will let go, just treat him like a child, if you really can't move, you call me and Jiang Mingyang over, and we will find a way to deal with him."

When it came to the fact that the old things of adulthood probably came up together, Fu Jin frowned, with a bit of hatred in his expression unconsciously.

Cheng Yang turned his head and glanced at him, with a smile on his face for some reason.

After sitting for a while, he asked, "Are you with Ming Yang?"

Fu Jin: "..."

Fu Jin was shocked, "Don't tell me you saw it before."

Just kidding, Cheng Yang and them haven't seen each other for almost ten years. If even he can tell, it means that at least when he was in school, he had at least one side with Jiang Mingyang or Jiang Mingyang with him... and it was still in Cheng Yang's relationship with them. No one has much contact with the situation.

However, I don't know if he saw the struggle in his heart, Cheng Yang smiled slightly, "Chi Yu told me."

"Oh." Fu Jin suddenly felt a little embarrassed, he touched his nose habitually, "We are together, but it hasn't been long."

"Hey, I don't know what else to say to you. Jiang Mingyang said that he looked for you before, and he should have told you about Chiyu. It may not sound as good as I said, but the meaning must have been conveyed. He This person is like this, saying a few more words is like killing him..."

"Thank you." Cheng Yang looked at him suddenly and said.

Fu Jin was stunned, "Thank you, who hasn't met a scumbag among their friends in this lifetime."

As he said that, he rolled his eyes, "If it wasn't for his bad life and tormenting us, who would be willing to help him? I would be really happy to help you, so your thank you is even more unnecessary..."

Jiang Mingyang and the others booked a hotel nearby, planning to spend two days here, and Cheng Yang would accompany them there after dinner.

As soon as he got out of the car at the door, Fu Jin said that he couldn't hold back when he wanted to go to the toilet, and asked Jiang Mingyang to take him to the hall to find it.

Before Jiang Mingyang left, he threw the car keys to Chi Yu.

"I'll take you back." Chi Yu said.

"No, I'll just take a taxi." Cheng Yang was about to leave, but Chi Yu grabbed him, "Cheng Yang."

Cheng Yang subconsciously struggled, but this time Chi Yu not only didn't let go, but went down his arm and grabbed his hand.

Then he gently brought him in front of him, and carried him towards the shadow beside him.

"Let me hold you for a while, just for a minute." Chi Yu put his arms around his shoulders and whispered in his ear, with a bit of pleading in his voice.

Cheng Yang struggled a few more times, seeing that his hug was getting tighter, he simply stopped.

Chi Yu felt the person in his arms slowly quiet down, knowing that Cheng Yang might have started the countdown, and he didn't have time to rejoice for his success, so he quickly hugged the person tightly again until the body on the other side came through the material of the cloth. He breathed a sigh of relief when the temperature rose.

"You've been a little distracted recently. What are you thinking?" Chi Yu raised his hand, wanting to touch his hair, but he didn't dare to make too much movement. Although he hasn't had much physical contact with him until now, But the longing for this person never ceases.

It might be a wild beast that was a bit crazy before, but after enduring it for nearly ten years, the desire has already soaked into the bone marrow.

But he didn't dare, and he had no bargaining chips. Before Cheng Yang clearly agreed, all he could do was to ask him for a hug like this, and there was still a time limit.

"Did I tell you?" Chi Yu leaned on Cheng Yang's shoulder, "I am very happy now, really, I have never felt so satisfied."

He closed his eyes slightly, "So you don't have to embarrass yourself too much, you don't have to think about not forgiving me, just let me stay by your side, I can wait for as long as I want, as long as...don't let me Go back to the days when I couldn't find you."

"If you do it again, I might really not be able to stand it anymore." Chi Yu smiled, and gently brushed Cheng Yang's collar.

Even though there was still a little bit of coolness in the night, when it penetrated into the skin, it was scorching and stinging. Cheng Yang pushed him away, and it didn't arrive within a minute.

Chi Yu didn't insist, Cheng Yang felt a little bit of warm wetness slipping over his neck through the distance.