middle of the road

When Yao Jinyuan woke up in the morning, Cheng Yang next door had already gone to school. The second grade of senior high school did not have winter vacation to make up classes, and today was the last day.

He came back last night, the highway was closed due to heavy snowfall, there was no bus, and his family members couldn't come to pick him up. Seemingly helpless but natural, he called Cheng Yang.

Hearing that he hadn't eaten yet, Cheng Yangte ordered a bowl of egg noodles with tomato and waited for him at home.

When Yao Jinyuan arrived, he thought that Cheng Ying and Cheng Le would also be at home, but he didn't expect to hear from Cheng Yang that they would be released at the age of 28 this year.

And while chatting, I knew that they had a parent meeting tomorrow. Because Cheng Yang had to go to the city to grade papers and couldn’t leave, he temporarily asked for leave from his homeroom teacher. Yao Jinyuan immediately said that it would work. It will become more and more important every time, and it is related to the future of the two little guys. Cheng Yang is the brother, and he is also the brother, so he simply volunteered and said that he can do it for him.

The next morning, Cheng Yang got up very early, cooked four or five dishes and put them in the thermos, and asked Yao Jinyuan to take them over at noon. They come back every two weeks now, there is no holiday in between, and many parents will catch up on Saturdays and weeks. I go to deliver meals to the children every day, and some accommodations even deliver it every three to five times. Cheng Yang knows about these, but because he often has make-up classes or other things on weekends, he has never been there once.

Sometimes Cheng Yang felt that as a parent, the best he did was to put in a little effort to raise them up. Other than that, his care and responsibilities were not up to par due to his limited ability.

Yao Jinyuan was carrying big and small bags, and bought a lot of snacks and fruits along the way. He contacted Cheng Le and arranged for the three of them to meet in the cafeteria.

The meals Cheng Yang cooked were enough, so he should have counted his share, but he forgot that Yao Jinyuan had just returned from school, and he was also sick of being abused by the cafeteria aunt and the back door takeaway. Especially because it was made by Mr. Cheng himself, and his resistance was instantly negative. After a meal, he was the one who delivered the food, and he ate more than Cheng Ying and Cheng Le, and he felt a little embarrassed after eating it.

So in the afternoon, he dutifully went back and forth between the two classes, listening to the teachers of each subject analyze the comprehensive results first and then prepare for the mobilization before the exam. After hearing this, Yao Jinyuan felt that it didn't matter whether he came to the parents' meeting or not, because Cheng Yang has trained them to be sensible and good enough. Even the teacher in charge said that, except for asking the parents to worry more about filling out the volunteers later, they can handle everything else with their self-discipline.

Walking out of the school after the end, Yao Jinyuan suddenly felt a little uncomfortable. Cheng Yang didn't tell him, but he knew something about his family's situation. They didn't have parents, and they seemed to have no parents since they were very young. They have been there for so many years. Cheng Yang was leading them.

Yao Jinyuan didn’t know if he was an adult or not when he took it with him. The only thing he remembered was the first day he entered school. Still thin.

At that time, Cheng Yang was really too thin. When he turned his back to write his name and contact information on the blackboard, the shirt under the butterfly bone was empty, as if there was only a pair of bones left inside.

It has only improved in the last year or two.

How much he has paid for such a family may be unimaginable for a pampered young master like him, which makes Yao Jinyuan feel a little distressed.

He felt that his thinking and handling of some things might be too arbitrary and selfish.

Maybe...he should try to take a step closer to Cheng Yang.

He wants to take care of him.

Not because of sympathy for his experience, but purely because I like him, I have always liked him, so I want to take care of him, treat him well, make him happy, and make his life easier. At most, it is his experience that makes this kind of The desire to take care of her just became more urgent.

Yao Jinyuan sent a message to Cheng Yang, asking him when he would come back in the evening, he bought vegetables, if it was earlier, he would go back and cook now.

After waiting for a while, Cheng Yang didn't come back to him, so he rushed upstairs in two or three steps, deciding that no matter what, in such a cold day, he would just make a pot of stew, put more big bones, and boil some vegetables... Just thinking about it , the voice-activated light in the corridor turned on, and the moment his vision was clear, he had already rushed to the door of the room, but was startled by a figure standing against the wall there.

The man obviously saw him too, and he was caught off guard as well. He turned sideways and stood up straight, and quickly restrained his momentary astonishment. His eyes first stayed on his face for a moment, then looked at his hands, and his brows frowned tightly. "Why is it you again?"

Yao Jinyuan had met this person twice, so of course he would not forget him, knowing that he was Cheng Yang's high school classmate, but that day downstairs, the strange atmosphere between the two of them made him not sure how their relationship was. .

But, is it normal for someone to stop downstairs with a high school classmate for one night? Is this person still of the same sex?

So Yao Jinyuan had guessed before that the relationship between him and Cheng Yang was very unusual.

To what extent it is not normal, he dare not think.

But it was something that made him mind, the first time we got along formally was still so unfriendly, Yao Jinyuan was naturally very rude, just ignored him, walked around him to the door, but the man stood in front of him, "Where's Cheng Yang? Where did he go?"

Suddenly getting closer, he felt the hot air exhaled from the opposite side. It seemed that the heat was abnormal. At first, Yao Jin thought that his pale face was flushed because he drank too much wine, or he was frozen out after sitting in this cold corridor for a long time. Yes, but at this moment there is no smell of alcohol, the closer you get to the body, the more you can feel a heat that is warmer than him.

But he didn't intend to ask him what was going on, and he had something to hide, so he stretched out his hand and pushed him away, "I don't know, excuse me."

Chi Yu didn't get the answer he wanted, so it was impossible to let him go so easily, so he followed closely, "What is your relationship with him?"

"I should ask you that." No matter how good-tempered Yao Jinyuan was, he was inevitably a little angry when he was questioned repeatedly by a stranger. He stopped, turned around and looked at him, "The same thing I said I also wanted to say just now, why is it you again, what is your relationship with him?"

"Did he not tell you?" Chi Yu asked.

Yao Jinyuan laughed at this question, "What? Do you think he needs to explain you to me, or do you deserve him to explain to me?"

"What relationship do you have with him?" Chi Yu looked at him, as if talking to himself, "You are just one of his students."

"Indeed." Yao Jinyuan nodded, "I happened to be his student when I met him, but now..." He took the key in his hand and turned it around twice, "I have already graduated, and just based on this, I at least I can say with certainty that it will not be as simple as you think."

"So no matter who you are, please let me go. I'm going in to cook for him now."

Chi Yu knew that he was trying to anger him on purpose, but as a person who couldn't even get into Cheng Yang's house, seeing someone showing off his power with privileges in front of him was like trying harder than others in the class but never getting the teacher's approval Like a reward, he was filled with uncontrollable jealousy.

He tried to grab it, but was in vain. He could only stare closely, "He gave it to you? Why did he give it to you?"

Because it is different from someone like you who has to wait downstairs all night, Yao Jinyuan really wanted to choke back like this.

He didn't say it because Cheng Yang didn't give him more confidence.

Or maybe it was because he thought that the only difference between him and this person now is that.

Thinking of this, Yao Jinyuan didn't intend to entangle him any longer, so he pushed him back with a little force.

I thought that the man was about the same size as him, and with such a rude and rude attitude, at least he wouldn't be able to get him so easily, but I didn't expect that it was just such an insignificant slap, and he was pushed straight against the wall behind him , the strength was not counteracted, so that there was a loud friction and collision sound, either he was unprepared or his body was weak. Yao Jinyuan saw that his footsteps were obviously sloppy, and guessed that it was mostly because of the latter.

This made him frown, "How long have you been waiting here?"

"When will he come back?" Chi Yu leaned on the wall with his right hand, trying to stabilize his body.

"Can't you ask him yourself?" Now that communication is so developed, it's not easy to find someone.

"So I guess you don't have a good relationship with him." Yao Jinyuan looked at him for a while and said.

"He doesn't answer your messages or answer your calls, so you don't even know where he is, so you have to come here to wait."

Chi Yu was poked at the sore spot. He had a strong posture just now, and felt that the person opposite him was nothing more than that, but after a push, he leaned against the wall, his back bent and his head slightly lowered, and there was a circle of red around his eyes, "Then What about you, what are you thinking about?"

"He couldn't have chosen you," he said.

Yao Jinyuan's speculation in his heart was confirmed, and it turned out that Cheng Yang really was.

For him, the most substantial obstacle has been removed, so he should be happy, but there is a voice in his heart that cannot be controlled by him, and he wants to go against what the person in front of him said. It is impossible for Cheng Yang to choose him, even if he is , he knows his mind, and he will not choose him.

Doesn't his attitude all the time explain anything?

Then who will he choose, the pitiful looking person in front of him who can only stalk?

"Then it must be you?" Yao Jinyuan smiled, "Not necessarily."

When he came back this time, he felt that Cheng Yang seemed to be a little thinner again, so it was not an illusion.

Is it because of this person?

Like the time when he waited downstairs, Cheng Yang couldn't sleep all night, so he kept losing energy. Even Song Ye sent him a message, saying that Mr. Cheng had been distracted in class recently, and he was worried about something.

"Even if I can't get it, there is no reason to give it up. I will stick to it." Yao Jinyuan said, "But I stick to mine. Have you ever thought about what you can give him?"

"If your appearance brings him pain, do you think it is necessary for you to appear? Similarly, if you really care about him, shouldn't you respect his choice and let him decide what he wants to live? Life?"

"Teacher Cheng deserves to be taken care of and treated by someone better. Even if this person is not me, he will be someone else."

Only it won't be him.

Chi Yu barely stood up, took a step forward, his eyes were filled with misty anxiety, "What did he tell you?"

Is his appearance really only pain to Cheng Yang?

After venting to him for so long, has the hatred for him in his heart not diminished at all?

He hates him so much and can't let go of the past, so compared to others, with him, he will never get the life he wants?

Chi Yu stepped forward and grabbed Yao Jinyuan's hand, "Did he really tell you that?"

"Yes, so what." The words had come to this point, no matter how much entanglement made Yao Jinyuan extremely upset, he turned around and pushed him violently.

Chi Yu staggered, took two steps back and just stepped on the edge of the stairs, tried to grab the handrail but failed, fell back and fell.

Yao Jinyuan's face turned pale with fright, and he hurriedly dropped the things in his hand and chased after him. He fell in the middle of the stairs, rubbed his head against the wall and fell to the ground, motionless.

And when he was running down to check the situation, someone downstairs ran up quickly, and the voice-activated light flashed countless times during the movement just now, and Cheng Yang squatted beside Chi Yu to watch Yes, then bent down to pick him up, turned around and ran downstairs.

Yao Jinyuan was stunned for two seconds, and hurriedly chased after him, "He should have a car." He called to stop Cheng Yang who was running towards the gate of the community with someone in his arms.

When Cheng Yang stopped, Yao Jinyuan found the car keys in the pocket of Chi Yu's coat. The car was parked downstairs. He went to open the door, and Cheng Yang put him in the back seat and got in together.

Yao Jinyuan was driving, and Cheng Yang didn't make any sound other than saying "he has a fever". Yao Jinyuan looked at him from the rearview mirror, and Cheng Yang's whole body seemed to be shrouded in an invisible layer of exhaustion. , looking out of the window without moving, but the hand holding Chi Yu's clothes was blue and white.